Ana (Anorexia)
I hate anda because you're taking over me,
but I Cinta anda 'cause you're making me the girl I want to be.
Why do I Cinta anda when all anda do is put me down?
Making me starve 'till I fit into the smallest gown.
With the loss of each pound I'm closer to my goal,
with your help I will make this broken girl whole.
Filled with fear at every bite I take,
my plan will be ruined with just a bite of that cake.
Counting calories and fearing how much I weigh,
I am beginning to learn that anda are here to stay.
My reflection has become something I fear,
I dread the time when I will look into that mirror.
The pains in my stomach seem to never go away,
It grumbles with hunger while in katil I lay.
Every little bit of Makanan I take in,
Must come back up to make me thin.
If I disobey anything anda tell me to do,
If I really menelan the Makanan I chew.
I must stick my finger down my throat once again,
and all the Makanan must come up despite the pain.
anda have become my only true friend;
I fear the hari our relationship must end.
But I know that anda are here for a while,
so I hide our friendship behind a smile.
Oh Ana help me to become beautiful and strong,
I know that it is with anda that I belong.
I hate anda because you're taking over me,
but I Cinta anda 'cause you're making me the girl I want to be.
Why do I Cinta anda when all anda do is put me down?
Making me starve 'till I fit into the smallest gown.
With the loss of each pound I'm closer to my goal,
with your help I will make this broken girl whole.
Filled with fear at every bite I take,
my plan will be ruined with just a bite of that cake.
Counting calories and fearing how much I weigh,
I am beginning to learn that anda are here to stay.
My reflection has become something I fear,
I dread the time when I will look into that mirror.
The pains in my stomach seem to never go away,
It grumbles with hunger while in katil I lay.
Every little bit of Makanan I take in,
Must come back up to make me thin.
If I disobey anything anda tell me to do,
If I really menelan the Makanan I chew.
I must stick my finger down my throat once again,
and all the Makanan must come up despite the pain.
anda have become my only true friend;
I fear the hari our relationship must end.
But I know that anda are here for a while,
so I hide our friendship behind a smile.
Oh Ana help me to become beautiful and strong,
I know that it is with anda that I belong.
Within the furthest reaches of the hati, tengah-tengah lies those desires whose name one dares no speak. So seductive, so intoxicating, so indulgent, our most private passions burn at the molten core of our being, luring us to the very highest of ecstasy to the depths of despair. Through the ages, the words impassioned Kekasih have transformed a virginal sheet of paper into a sanctuary for a restless heart. Each of the pages in this journal awaits the expression of your own desires- Unedited, Undiluted, Uninhibited.... Abandon yourself....
~IF anda DARE~
~IF anda DARE~