The Following-Mad Cinta

Ain't it sad
How I'm pushing people away
Refuse to let them in
All because of you
Ain't it sad
How I'm trying to alih on
But you're controlling my heart
Ever since I fell in Cinta with you

And even though I can only think about nothing but you
I still need to wake up and face the truth

'Cause anda are
Everything I'll never have
I wish I could go back
To where I Lost my head
So I could erase that moment
I'm everything you'll never know
If this is how the story's supposed to go
Then I'd take a piece of paper and my favourite pen
And I'd write it all over again

I won't cry
This pain's too deep
to be lightened with...

Daddy thinks I’m afraid
I’m afraid of never finding a Cinta that fits me
Well, he’s right in a way
Because everyday I fear lebih that we will never be

I’m zoning out on anda and I can’t breathe
You’re haunting my thoughts so I can’t sleep
And even though I know we could never be
I don’t wanna lose this fantasy

Can I just close my eyes
And imagine anda are seterusnya to me
Can I just pretend my life
to be so much lebih than it seems
Can I just ignore the pain
Can I please menyeberang, cross your way
It’s so hard to keep it inside
I just wanna Cinta you, can I

Mommy mocks the fact I once
I once loved anda but doesn’t...

Boy, I hate you
Why anda have to be the way that anda are
If only anda were different
It would make it much easier for me to alih on

I thought anda finally belonged to the past
But who am I kidding, you’re a Cinta that seems to last

My hati, tengah-tengah breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true
It’s getting lebih obvious everyday
I’m in Cinta with you, again

It’s getting harder
To alih on without anda every day
But anda don’t even know me
I should just get a life and go my own way

My hati, tengah-tengah breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true...

Here I stand
My hati, tengah-tengah beating out of my chest
Here I stand
Trying to leave it all to rest

I'm taking small steps forward
Big steps backwards
'Cause this is the last where I wanna be
I'm swallowing my fear
And I'm gathering my courage
'Cause you're the last person I wanna see

But if I wanna get over this I need to get through this
There can't be no healing without pain
And I can't conceal it
And I won't believe it
That all of it would've been in vain

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
You didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
You never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place anda will...