Chapter 1
Genevieve’s Wish
(Child’s POV)
My name is Genevieve de Changy. I am five years old, and I want to be a doctor when I grow up. Papa is off on his naval ship, again, and Mama is at the Opera rehearsing. My Governess gave me this diary to help me with my penmanship. After this we sewed, (which is important for doing surgery,) then we took my sketchbook to the park, parc de l'île Saint-Germain, it is so pretty there when the sun is out! If only that rabbit would sit still for me! My Governess taps me on the shoulder,
“Time to go in.”
It is so hard to get up with my corset squeezing me, hard to get up without getting my dress dirty, it simply will not do! I take my Governess’ hand, and she helps me up, together we walk back across the jalan meeting Mama on the way utama for tea. We play Mad teh Party to help me remember my manners. Papa says he doesn't know how that helps, but when he’s utama he is glad to be the Mad Hatter!
‘I sewed a straight line of stitches today.” I proclaimed!
“I’m very proud of anda sweetie” affirms Mama
“When Is Papa coming home?” I ask.
“Your Papa comes utama today,” she smiled.
“He loved getting a letter from you,” My Governess reminded me. My penmanship was illegible!
“I hope he stays,” I pout.
“I know anda Cinta him… Presents cannot make up for Lost time... “ Mama sighed.
I didn't mean to make her sad!
“I- I’m sorry Mama”
Just then there’s a clattering outside. Papa’s home!
I ran to the door, “Papa!” I squeal.
“I missed you..” Papa hugs me without looking at me, he stands up and kisses Mama.
The manservants carry his steamer batang they grunt and groan making me believe it’s too heavy!
“There must be a kuda, kuda kecil in here!” they jest.
“Let Me see what I have here” Papa opens the batang rummaging as if he can't find what he’s looking for… I hold my breath
“Here it is,” he announces, handing me the book of Grimms Fairy Tales“Want to hear about my battle with the Cracken?” He picks me up and I giggle.
“Oh My…” my Governess rolls her eyes.
He showed me during the story his heroics, swinging his sword wildly, “Can I try?” I asked.
“The sword is too heavy,” Papa worried, “I Cinta anda I can’t let anything happen to you” He looked me in the eye and tore me up, I hugged him... He holds me tight. I wonder why I make him sad.
“I wish I never had to sleep!”
“Why?” Papa asks with concern.
“Because Ihate the dark!” my lip quivers.
“It’s OK, you're safe… I’ll sleep in the chair” Papa always did… when he was home.
Mama tells me one of her Daddy’s stories, it makes her smile, She sings an old Swedish Lullaby, her voice is the most beautiful in the world.
“Misour, anda need your rest, let me stay with her,” offers my Governess.
“I have slept in less comfortable places than a rocking chair as of late” He replied crispily.
My Governess and Mama go to bed.
Papa reads me The Sleeping Beauty, and afterward, I stare at the picture of the Prince fighting the dragon intensely!
***
(Papa’s POV)
“She just stared at the prince until her eyes closed,” I told my wife.
“Maybe she thinks he’s handsome” Christine didn’t see how the stare was!
“I don’t think that’s right it’s only a drawing…?”
“Maybe if I took her to the Opera, women play boys there.” What on earth did that have to do with this?
“It is too dangerous!” I barked, “I agreed to let anda perform so anda didn’t have to ask for money when I didn’t have the time to give anda some, but Genevieve is a child!”
I worried after Erik… After Philippe… I knew my daughter was strange.
“What if I tell her about La Sorelli before I take her? “She looks lebih like Philippe to me”
“You think I don’t know that? I mean It’s getting to where it makes me sad to look at her!” I exclaimed.
Genevieve had heard every word, for when I turned around, she looked half-asleep.
“I don’t belong to you?” bursting into tears she ran from the room.
(Child’s POV)
Where was my real Papa? And my Mama was another Woman? Why did she not want me? I had cried all I could. I went to the Muzik room.
“Who are you? If anda are not my Mama?
“I’m your Aunt,” berkata the only Mama I knew. “Genevieve, I Cinta you” She flung her arms around me.
“My Papa?’ I asked.
“He drowned before anda were born. Your Uncle Raoul felt devastated… He has something to tunjuk anda “ I strolled to my Papa’s study, at least that is who I thought he was…
I knocked.
“Come in Geneieve”
I walked in. He was looking me in the eye!
“What should I call you?” I asked.
“I Cinta being your Papa… Now anda know the truth… Would anda like to see a picture of him”?
I nodded.
He showed me a photograph “He has straight hair like me” I noticed.
“And anda have his smile and his laugh… Your imagination must have come from your mother.”
“And Aunt Christine” I sighed.
“What is it?” Papa asked.
“I want to call anda my Papa” I flung myself on his lap.
“That’s okay… the important thing is we are a family”
I sighed this time with relief.
“Do anda know why I call anda Miricle?”
“Why?” I smile
“Because when I Lost Phileppe I was devastated when we found out about you, it was like God had telah diberi me the chance to make things right because he died trying to save me..”
“I Cinta anda Papa” I hug him tight.
“Why do anda want to be a doctor?” Papa asks.
“Because I want to,” I say.
When my birthday arrived three months later, I rushed down our spiral staircase, my tights made that lebih manageable, even if my high heels did not. I’m wearing a hoop skirt like Cinderella in the book of Fairy Tales Papa reads me. That is why my legs are hurting. I don’t care. It’s my Birthday!
“Happy Birthday Angel!” Papa picks me up and trails me around.
“Happy Birthday Darling” Mama kissed my cheek.
“May I please open my presents now?” I asked.
Mama and Papa laughed, “Of Course!”
My new sketchbook was covered in red leather and engraved “To My Little Miricle, Cinta Papa” I read it all sejak myself! We had a six-layer badam, almond cake with vanilla butter-cream frosting, I was not tall enough to blow out the candles without Papa lifting me! When the doorbell rang, the maid went with Mama to the door…. And my real Mama came in!
I wanted to run over and hug her and shout “I Cinta you!” but I waved instead.
“Geneive gets her shyness from Raoul” My Aunt patted my real Mama on the shoulder.
“She gets a lot from Raoul,” My real Mama said, cooly.
“That’s why we invited anda here, anda can give Geneive something we can’t,” assured my Aunt.
“Sor-Sorelli how nice to see you,” I could tell from how my Papa blushed that he did not invite her.
“Hello, Genevieve” my real Mama whispered, her cheeks turning red. She berkata the name she had telah diberi me, before handing me over to the sisters at Hospice des Orphelins my most secret longing had been fulfilled.
“Hello” I could not help smiling, she was so beautiful! Her long blonde hair was straight like mine, her eyes were zamrud, emerald green, then I noticed the small box tied with a ribbon she was trying to hand me.
“For me?” I berkata trying to be polite.
“Go ahead open it,” smiled Papa.
After pulling at the knot holding the emas bow together and finally getting it loose, I pulled off the bahagian, atas of the flat burgundy box… Inside was a pair of ballet slippers!
“Go ahead honey try them on” coaxed Mama.
I slipped the slippers onto my tiny feet and my new Mama tied the ribbons.
I twirl and leap gracefully around the room.
“She’s a natural,” says my other Mama.
“You are performing in angsa, swan Lake, aren't you? Little Jammes is performing the role of Price Siegfried, I hear she is wonderful,” berkata Mama, looking expectedly at Papa
“Christine I forbid anda to take her! Is to Dangours!,” Papa exclaimed.
As Mama puts me to bed, she whispers” I bought tickets. The seterusnya time Papa goes away with the navy we’re going!”
Can a girl be a Prince? My most secret birthday wish had come true!
Chapter 2
The Magic of Box Five
As the maid dresses me in my best mauve, lacy silk gown, I can hardly stand still! Mama comes in, polishing her opera glasses. Papa is on another Navy mission.
“You will be sitting right above the stage, Genevieve so anda have to remember to be very quiet.”
The carriage seemed to fly us to the Opera. A black-cloaked man met us at the door.
“Hello my name is Erik, do anda like chocolate?” He hands me a box. It takes me a minit to notice Pari-pari like the ones I catch with Papa glowing where his eyes should be.
“Are anda a fairy?” I ask breathlessly.
He bows “I am King of the Fairies.” he proclaims.
Mama laughs “If Raoul knew what anda just said…”
“So he can play with her and I can’t?” Erik pouted. “I arranged this for anda Geniveve, Benno, Prince Siegfried’s servant is traditionally the Travesty role, but since anda Cinta princes so much…. I hope anda enjoy your birthday present from me!”
“You really are a fairy!” I say.
All too soon it was time for the ballet. Mama’s friend led us into his box, the plush red seats made the ache from my corset disappear!
My soul seemed to float on the music, I could feel myself spinning with every pirate, and leaping with every grande jatte! Seeing Prince Siegfried gave me a lightness, a burst of energy, and most of all happiness! “I never knew I could be a boy until I saw you! I want to be like you!” I squealed the moment I saw Little James.
“You are old enough to be trained as a dancer en travesty, your mama says anda have a gift” She smiled at my first Mama.
“I will talk it over with my husband” smiled Mama.
I didn’t like that Siegfried and Odette died at the end though! When I got home, I told Paapa how sad it was!
“When anda Cinta somebody anda do everything anda can to be with them. Heaven is a lovely place to be. Let me get my telescope and I’ll tunjuk you,” berkata Papa.
We walked outside, to the park, where Papa berkata we could see the stars. He held the heavy telescope while I looked inside.
“Which one do anda think is your Papa?”
I looked swaying the telescope back and forth.
“That one! It is twinkling as if to say I Cinta you.”
My Papa smiled “That’s the one I picked too, he looks so happy to see us.” Papa’s smile was gentle but bright.
***
(Mama’s POV)
“I would like Genevieve to come to rehearsals with me today,” I declared.
“But why?” asked my husband.
“The Ballet Master would like to meet her, He says dancing is in her blood.”
“But- she’s shy like me” Raoul objected.
“You should have seen her at the Opera last night talking to Little Jammes, about getting to be a boy… I know anda Cinta her, she needs this.”
Raoul thought and he sighed.
“Only if I’m her patron,” He declared.
“I wouldn’t have it any other way” I assured him.
Chapter 3
A Very Talented Travesty
(Child’s POV)
As we walked into the rehearsal room, Mama was mobbed sejak a bunch of little girls. She handed each of them a piece of Kandi and then gave one to me!
“Everyone, this is my daughter, Genevieve,” I waved slightly.
A tall man walked up. “I am Missour Bernard, anda will call me Missour is that understood?”
“Yes Missour,” I said, gulping.
“Now lets see how well anda dance!”
After doing portabras and pleas a million times I am tired and hungry. My first Mama, La Sorelli, walks me to the cafeteria. She tells Mama, “She knows not to tunjuk she’s tired”
“I think that’s because she’s excited,” observed Mama.
I eat the steak and potatoes as quickly as I can. Mama talks about her day.
“La Carlotta no longer seems jealous of me, she berkata she wouldn’t want to be burdened with a child; I told her Genevieve is the joy of my life!”
I grinned.
“This season the seterusnya ballet to be performed will be Geselle,” announced Missour Bernard. “And they want a few children for the first act, the elder girls will audition first.”
I watched the older girls, quietly moving my feet along with theirs. When it was finally my turn I let the Muzik take me away from the staring eyes. After the Muzik stops, Missour Bernard can’t hide his shock!
“Your Aunt and Mama told me anda are lebih comfortable as a boy. May I call anda Georges?” I nodded gratefully. “You learn fast,” he continued. “You can dance onstage in the back”
I wanted my Papa to be able to see me, but just not everyone so I was happy! When we got utama I told Papa “The Muzik makes me feel wonderful, and I get to be a village boy!”
“That’s wonderful-” his voice quivered.. He gave Mama a ‘we need to talk look.
“I better go practice,” I excused myself
***
(Mama’s Perspective)
“Christine, what did Erik do?”
“Nothing out of the ordinary… He thinks she wouldn’t have to rely on the foyer de la danse if she starts making money early.”
“She relies on me!” my husband seemed jealous.
“Think of Erik as an extra pair of eyes watching over her.”
“Yes, your Angel of Muzik is good at spying…. We wouldn’t have gotten custody if he hadn’t admitted to killing Philippe at my trial. But what was his intention?”
“Same as you, to protect her” I answered.
***
(Child’s Perspective)
As I practiced my scampering, jumping mischievous little boy role, I got distracted looking at my first Mama. Missour Bernard snaps “Clumsy!” I stood up, I tripped only a little. “Focus on yourself boy!” he berkata lebih gently, but crisply. I focus. I must not disappoint him! I glissade and ciseaux, and feel the joy of movement outside my corset, in my tan shirt, brown trousers, and vest, with a topi, cap to accent, for the first time I am free to be myself!
On the night of the performance, I was in the dressing room of my first Mama, (the Prima Ballerina had her own!) and I asked her about my Papa.
“What was he like?”
“He was tall, handsome, very gentle with me, he loved me… I tried to teach him ballet once, but he was too stiff!” she laughed with tears in her eyes.
“Would he have wanted me?”
“Absolutely!” she swooped me into a hug.
I take my position at the back of the stage when the curtain goes up I look for Papa… he’s in Box Five, phew! Then the Muzik takes over and I dance! I’m the only child on stage.
When I return to my Mama’s dressing room Papa is there waiting.
“Did anda see me, Papa? I was perfect!”
“You were so easy to find because anda are so tiny!” he said, hugging me.“No matter where anda go I will always find you!”
As Erik walks Mama and me utama that night he asks her in a sincere tone “How do anda know Raoul hasn’t cheated on you? He is a count after all”
“Erik anda shouldn’t say such things in front of Genevieve!”
I look into his laughing eyes. “Mama he’s just teasing,” I say laughing.
***
(Erik’s POV)
I want to help Georges like I helped his Mama, I have to remember that the Managers don’t know a thing about music.
(Firmin Richard’s POV)
I Missour Firmin Richard found a blasted letter on my desk, from that annoying ghost;
Gentlemen,
Young Geniveve’s seventh birthday comes in March, and her Papa likes to give her dolls, it would be advised that the children perform the performance of Coppélia for her parents as a gift for the little girl. She will be cast as Franz, I do believe that was the tradition, and some traditions should never die. Franz is a damsel in distress! A pretty feminine role for a little girl don’t anda think? No need to worry about where to get Animatronic dolls, Gentlemen, I am a ghost of many talents.
Your Obedient Servant,
O.G
(Child’s POV)
“We are putting on Coppélia for it will soon be Georges's birthday, and as a present to anda all, it is little girls only!” announced Misspur Bernard. The girls cheered. “Now who would like to audition for Swanhilda?” Everyone raises her hand, but me. “Then Georges will be Franz and I will be Dr Coppélius since I’m old!” We all laugh.
This is my first time dancing with a partner, an extremely talented and beautiful 10-year-old girl named Priscilla, I hope to be just like her, as a boy! We battement and pas de cheval and triple pirouette; I can barely keep up! Priscila is kind and slows down. When I finally get it, we alih on to act two. Missour Bernard and I relevé and tendu sneaking up on eachother. Then he makes me fall asleep like Snow White, except with a fake drink. Priscilla comes to my rescue and I am in her debt forever! I can’t understand how to stage Ciuman so we Ciuman for real in the wedding scene, which I like a lot!
Papa says “Did anda Ciuman Priscilla?” She’s so beautiful and talented I don’t know why he’s surprised! We make our way to the foyer de la danse.
In the foyer de la danse I meet Papa’s friend the daroga.
“So you’re the little mutarajjila I’ve heard so much about,” he smiles.
“What did anda just call her?” Papa looked startled.
“Mutarajjula means a girl who is like a boy”
“That's because she’s still in costume,” Papa explained.
What difference did a costume make? The daroga did not seem to think it made any difference I felt.
“Let us go to dinner,” berkata Papa hurrying Mama and me out of the foyer.
I’m in my blue dress and tights and corset again, this time I’m aching and sad!
“I Cinta Daroga! He didn't call me a girl!” I say enthusiastically!
“Sweetheart anda know the ballet is just pretending don’t you?” asks Papa
I nod and quietly eat my herb-encrusted lamb.
***
(Mama’s POV)
“You know? mutarajjila does fit Genevieve.” I berkata thoughtfully to Raoul after my niece went to bed.
“It’s too long to fit her,” he joked.
“The ballet master called her Georges. I asked him why, and he explained she should stay in character.”
Child’s POV ***
“Plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras…” My legs feel like jelly, jeli I’m glad to sit down. It had been two years since my role in Gisselle. I longed to be on stage, out of this scratchy tutu, and in pants again! Missour Bernard announces “This season the ballet will perform Sleeping Beauty and I will be playing The evil fairy!” The other girls started laughing!
“Shut up!” I exclaimed, “If I can be a boy why can’t he be a lady?” The girls were stunned and quiet.
“Thank you, Georges, very insightful” smiled Missou Barrand. (Georges is what Missour Bernard calls me en travesty) “Would anda like to play the prince since anda are such a polite boy?”
“I’m playing the princess, won’t that be scandalous?” My first Mama, La Sorelli pointed out.
“Random boy at the Princess's birthday then.” Missour Barnard declared.“As for the rest of anda anda can practice through lunch for laughing at me!” the girls moaned. I grinned.
I Pas de Chat across the stage on opening night with a basket of violets for the baby Princess hanging over my arm, (which unlike thousands of times in rehearsal the basket doesn’t fall off), and then I watch the other dancers do their entertainment for the baby princess. Then, Missour Barnard as the Evil Fairy bursts in causing all sorts of havoc before cursing the baby! I don’t think I’ve ever seen him happier! After the end of the performance, I asked him why he wanted to be the Evil Fairy.
“Because she’s the one with the power, who causes the whole plot to happen,” he answered.
***
(Mama’s POV)
“Why would the management allow Missour Barnard to play a woman?’ asked my husband.
“Because the man who choreographed it in Russia did,” I answered.
“But why would he want to do it?” asked Raoul, petulant.
“Why don’t anda ask Missour Bernard?” I suggest.
“Never mind!” My husband crinkled his newspaper in a frustrated manner.
Chapter Four
My magnum Opus
(Child’s POV)
Two years later, Missour Bernard announces We are doing a new Children’s Ballet called The Nutcracker and they want us! All the girls cheer! I will have to compete with everyone it seemed, but they all wanted Marie, not the Nutcracker, I got the role then!
I burst into Papa’s study excitedly, “can anda teach me to sword fight, Papa? I need to fight the tikus King!”
“I guess you’re going on eleven… Yes of course darling!” He pulls a sword and a dagger off the wall.
Lunging, swishing, blocking, swords clanking as we play, it’s exhilarating! We finally fall, exhausted and laughing!
“You’re very strong!” My cheeks glow with his praise.
***
In rehearsals, however, things don’t go so well. “Georges stop being so rough! This isn’t a battlefield! These are your friends!” Missour Bernard scolded.
I stop, looking down at my feet.
“It’s all right Georges, we do stage fighting differently your Papa doesn’t know that.”
He pulls me out into the hall and shows me prime, seconde, tierce, quarte, quinte, and sixte.
“Prime, sixte, quarte, tierce, and quinte” Missour Bernard directs us. This is the best hari of my life!
Missour Bernard plays Herr Drosselmier Pirsilla plays Marie. It’s nice to dance with her again! We spend most of the performance just sitting there holding hands, and watching other dancers, but I don’t mind, I feel lebih like a boy than ever in my soldier's uniform!
Mama and Papa are there for our December 23rd performance. On Krismas Eve I go to church in my blue velvet fur-lined dress. On Krismas day, we take Buah and vegetable preserves to the Hospice des Orphelins where I was left as a baby and have our Krismas feast of ham, rolls, potatoes, and asparagus for supper. We have hot cacao and Buah cake for dessert, the hot koko is my favorite. The seterusnya hari Papa reads a review of my performance in Le Matin.
“The young Nutcracker appears to be a sexless little sprite named Genevieve, who performs as if she were a boy.”
Papa looks at me. “Do anda understand what Lerox is saying?”
I just smile.
Papa’s POV ***
“Her position in the Bourgeoisie has been brought into question!” I try to keep my voice down.
“What do anda mean dear?” asks Christine.
“How is she going to get married?” I ask
“She’s ten I don’t think we should even worry about that yet” My wife is oblivious!
“Gaston Leroux called her “sexless” like she isn’t even human!” I exclaim.
“Genevieve didn’t mind. She loved that!” Christine was calm.
“You and Erik encouraged it- this- thing- I don’t know what-”
“Behavir” my wife finished for me.
“Erik still has a hold on anda doesn't he?”
“No this was my Idea! I was the one who invited La Sorrelli, and she told me about Little James being Prince Siegfried in angsa, swan Lake!” Christine was asserting herself!
“It was fine when it was understood she was a “She!” She can’t be a ballerina anymore!” I asserted back.
“I’ll be the one to tell her.” My poor wife looked defeated.
Child’s POV ***
Mama comes into my room with the breakfast tray. “Darling… Papa wants anda to quit the Ballet.”
“Why?” I ask
“He wants his little girl back. What that review described confused him… He just doesn’t come from the world I do.”
“What is so confusing? I’m not a girl” I say.
“The Opera Is just pretend dear,” explains Mama.
“What-Why?” now I’m confused.
I don’t know” Mama Puts her arm around my shoulder.
I have to be a boy for real! If Travesty is only pretending to Papa…But how?
Chapter 5
My Assimilation
My Governess smiles at me from across the table. “Remember what anda wanted to be when anda grew up?”
“A Doctor!” I’m enthusiastic now.
“Your Papa agrees women can have careers because he met your mother during hers.” she paused, “Madeleine Alexandrine Brès was the first woman to be a doctor in France, she could take care of women better because she is a woman because women are different from men.”
“If a girl can be a boy at the Opera, then men and women aren’t different!” I retort, my anger coming out like lava erupting like a volcano! My voice rose louder than I meant it to.
“Would anda rather be a wife? My Governess threatens.
definitely not, because “Wife” is not what anda would call a boy! I keep this thought to myself, however.
My Governess teaches me Biology, Chemistry, and Math. Biology is gross! Blood, broken bones, where Bayi come from…. Chemistry is fun, particularly the Bunson burner big flames make me feel excited! Math equations go in patterns and when anda memorize the pattern, anda can get it right every time!
As I try to fall asleep that night, my rag doll, Victoria, says “How are anda doing Georges?”
I answered “I don’t want to be a doctor! I want to be a boy!”
“Well, many boys are doctors, but your being a girl would be important. Have anda thought about maybe a doctor could turn girls into boys?”
“You mean perform magic?” I ask
“Science and magic aren’t that different stick with it and you’ll see..”
I must be dreaming! So I close my eyes…
(Papa’s POV)
My Sister bought her tattered copy of Little Women over as a gift for Geneive.
“When anda told me about her wanting to be a boy I thought of Jo… Hopefully, this wil help”
“Doesn't the father die in that book?? I don’t need her asking lebih questions!”
“It's the sister Beth who dies,” she answered
“Would anda like to see Genevieve?” I asked.
“I’m sorry I don’t have time to visit,” she just left!
I knew the fact that Philippe and Sorelli were not married was a disgrace… If either of my sisters took the time to get to know Geneive…
(Child’s POV)
Papa had a new story for me. It was the biggest book I had ever seen! He read ‘
Krismas won’t be Krismas without any presents,” grumbled Jo lying on the rug...
We had to stop when Meg and Jo got utama from the New Year’s party.
“Do anda know why Jo felt uncomfortable at the party?” Papa asked.
“Well corsets hurt and her hair pens hurt…but Laurie was nice and no one had to see her dress” I answered
“Laurie did,” Papa pointed out.
“But Laurie talked to her like she was a boy,” I clarified. “Papa… Girls being boys in plays is normal!”
“Yes, I suppose so. Let’s see how the rest of the story goes.”
When we finish, Jo is Married! This is what the word “Woman” means. “If anda Cinta someone it’s not a burden,” says Mama.
“I Cinta Priscilla!” I declare.
“Women don’t marry each other.” Papa tries to explain.
“Why?” I of course ask.
“Because only a man and a woman can have babies, so it’s not practical.”
“Yuck!” I declare.
Now I know I don’t need to be a boy, but I just want to be a boy!
The seterusnya night Mama tells me of Bradamate the woman who was a knight.
“I Cinta that she rescued Ruggreio, just like a boy would,” I berkata enthusiastically!
“She’s like me I had to rescue Daroga and your Papa from Erik’s torture chamber because he wanted to marry me.”
“I thought Erik was your friend,” I berkata dismayed.
“I knew him a long time before that happened, he pretended to be the Angel of Music, my father had berkata he would send me, but he didn’t understand that he was a saat father to me. The Angel was meant to look after me when my father could not. Once he understood I loved him, because I kissed him he let me marry Papa.!
“I Cinta both Erik and Papa too,” I say “Mama if a girl can be a knight, Why can’t a girl be a boy?”
“If magic existed there wouldn’t be a reason,” Mama answered. “We just need something that doesn't require magic”
Like Science!
Chapter Six
The Trunk’s Key
(Child’s POV)
As is tradition, Mama, Papa, and I have a picnic in the attic on the anniversary of Daddy Daaé’s death so that we can tell his stories. My kegemaran is the Angel of Music. After our picnic, I explore the relics of the attic. At last, I come across Papa’s old trunk, and in it his old suits, I find a dark blue one that’s about my size, I change into it and go to the park After climbing trees, I go for a walk and run into Police Commissioner Mifriod.
“Excuse me, miss, do anda have a permit to be dressed like a boy!” Drat my long hair!
“No, why?”
“It’s the law,” says Mifriod, “What’s your name?”
“Geniveve de Changy,” I say because I’m not at the Opera anymore! It hurts to lie to him.
“That explains this,” He rolls his eyes “I’m going to take anda home, this time.” he takes my hand and walks me home. Of course, Papa opens the door
“Genieve I was so worried where- I’m so sorry she is… imaginative. This won’t happen again”
“I knew anda are eccentric de Changy, but this… Mifriod walks away shaking his head.
sejak that time Mama has come to see what’s going on. “Geniveve why would anda leave without telling anyone?”
“I’m sorry Mama... Missour Mifriod impliedI could get a permit, How?”
“From a doctor, I asked our family Lawyer, Missouri Ozanne, because I feared this would happen,” sighed Papa. “I’ll go get the Doctor” Papa left
When the doctor came he asked, “Do anda still find corsets uncomfortable?”
“Yes, it hurts my sides,” I answer.
“How about the tutus at the Opera?’ the doctor asks.
“They’re too scratchy,” I say
“Can anda wear high-heeled shoes?” the Doctor asks.
“They pinch my toes, which hurts,” I explain.
“How about feather boas?
“They itch,” I explained.
“Well there does appear to be a medical reason, she's sensitive.” proclaims the Doctor Papa sighed, this time with relief.
***
(Papa’s POV)
I go to the police station with the Authorization Letter for Police Commissioner Mifriod.
“Why didn’t anda just tell her it was illegal? anda didn't have to allude to there being a permit!”
“I saw the review in Le Matin, since anda are eccentric, being that stunt anda and your friend pilled at your trial, I figured your niece was as well.”
“So you're saying this is my fault?” I rebuked.
“Yes,” snapped Mifriod, “Now here’s her permit, get out of my office!”
I gladly did so.
***
(Child’s POV)
“Your Mama insisted I take anda to the tailor’s since I’ve worn a suit before,” explained Papa. as we sat in the carriage.
I fidget in my kerusi, tempat duduk in anticipation. When we get to the tailor shop, I run in. A pelangi, rainbow of muted Warna hits my eyes. The Tailor smiled at me, “Welcome, my little friend, Your Papa told me all about you”
He measured me carefully, measuring my chest, my waist, and the length of my leg. “Pick the Warna anda like,” says the Tailor.
I pick dark blues and greens, and browns, and then dark reds and white for the baju that goes under the jacket. As it will take time to sew the Suits we, unfortunately, have to leave the shop.
“When will my Suits be ready?” I ask Paoa.
“They will all be ready in a few months,” jawapan Papa.
“I approved of anda wearing pants,” says My Governess, “Women should be allowed to wear what they want.”
“Like Missour Bernard wanted ti to wear a dress as the Evil Fairy in Sleeping Beauty” I analogized.
The look of shock on my Governess’s face says it all.
(Papa’s POV)
“Mifriod still thinks I made the crimes Erik committed up,” I tell Christine.
“Erik wore his mask in court,” reminded my wife. “He couldn’t tell who he was and wrongfully assumed he was a friend of ours”
“He thinks I made Genevieve act that way that’s why he let her go,” I voiced my contempt.
“I don’t think that makes sense,” comforted Christine, “I think God gave us a miracle”
“He certainly did,” I agreed.
***
(Child’s POV)
One day, the boxes from the Tailor kedai arrive! The servants carry the boxes up and put them to the side of the full-length mirror in my room. I pull the pants on first on the right leg then the left leg, pulling them up until the cuffs are just above my feet. Then after my maid takes off my dress and corset, I turn the baju so I can see the inside, reaching my left arm to the hole that looks like it is on the right sling, anduh my arm back, turning my arm in a circle, to get the sleeve over my shoulder, and push my arm through the sleeve, doing the same thing with my right. I bring the buttons to the hole and push each one through the hole starting from the top. I put the jaket on doing the same thing with my arms as I did with the shirt. I don’t know what to do with the tie and ask Papa for help.
“Make the color of your baju stand up, then put the tie around it unevenly. Make an X then bungkus, balut the thick end of the tie around the thin end, then push through the loop around your neck to form a knot, then push the thick end of the tie down through the knot.”
I look in the mirror and feel light, bouncy, and free!
“Do anda know anda are my Miricle, Dressed like that anda look almost like…”
“My first Papa, Does that make anda sad?” noticing the tears in his eyes.
“No, I feel complete again” Papa smiles “Are anda comfortable?”
I would like short hair “A lot lebih comfortable than I felt in a long time,” I say truthfully.
Chapter Seven
Deus Ex Machina
Over the seterusnya five years, my breasts have grown, and I try not to look in mirrors anymore. So of course, my Governess decides to tell me all about them.
“They produce susu to feed your baby, the danger is they can get cancer and have to be cut off”
“How do anda get cancer?” I ask intrigued.
“I don’t know,” She shows me a letter from Frances Burney written in 1811 explaining the removal of a breast. When Daroga comes to makan malam, majlis makan malam he asks “Genevieve were anda only pretending to be a boy at the Opera?”
“Missiur Barnard let me be a boy!” I replied
“Did anda like that?” he asked.
“Yes, because I am a boy”
“Isam says al-khilqī, atau pretending to be another gender is wrong, but anda say anda weren’t?”
“I was not pretending!” I exclaim.
“You were in costume Genevieve! That’s pretending!” exclaims Papa horrified.
“That was the only way I could be a boy! I want to be one for real!”
“It would bring anda peace then?” asked Daroga
“Yes,” I piped
“Then anda must let him,” Daroga told Papa.
“Is that even possible?...” Papa drops off.
I give Frances Burney’s letter to Daroga. He knows who to give it to.
“Geniveve get back in bed!” My Governess demands that night.
“I’m going to be a boy, I am going back to the Opera and anda can’t stop me!” I scream at my Governess.
“At least let me take you,” berkata Erik, who was standing on my balcony.
He propels us down the side of the mansion We walk through the streets to the Opera, we go through Mama’s dressing room mirror then down to the lake, rowing across it.
When we get to the house on the lake Erik says “I know anda don’t want people to notice anda have breasts… anda gave a letter from Frances Burney explaining how to remove them, I can do that if I follow her instructions-”
“You can do that?” I interrupt excitedly.
Papa bursts through the door Mama, and La Sorelli my first Mama, behind him, “You give her back to me!” My Governess must have told them.
"Please, don't drown her!" screams my first Mama.
“He is not here against his will, he ran away, but I’m glad anda are here, I was just going to start the surgery.”
“WHAT SURGERY! Why?”Papa seemed scared.
“Because some girls who are like boys, but then there are girls who are boys” explained Daroga, who had brought Erik the letter.
“I don’t want my breasts!” I exclaim!
“How will anda take care of your children?” Papa asked as if that was at all important at the moment!
“I will figure it out,” I say
“Erik’s not a doctor! Papa says.
“He's a Genius it’s the same thing!” I argue back.
“He doesn't have a medical degree, is what Papa means,“ says Mama “Erik are anda sure anda can do this?”
“Yes, it’s not too different from what I used to do as the Royal Executioner of Persia. Except he’ll be alive at the end!’
” HOW DO I KNOW THAT? THEY ARE ABOVE HER hati, tengah-tengah AND LUNGS! And all you’ve done is kill people!” Papa was panicking. “And she’s A beautiful young woman!”
“I’m a man Papa!” Didn’t anda know that from the way I stared at the picture of the Prince when I was little?
Papa looked at me “Why didn’t I think of that?”
“Because you’re not me,” I expressed my frustration.
“I knew,” sighed Mama “I’ve known for a long time.”
“I knew from the way Christine described him,” Daroga displayed his open-mindedness.
"I knew he was a masterful Dancer En Tavesty I never knew why though," my first mama, La Sorelli, admitted.
“I think God made anda this way If an actual doctor does this I’ll let anda but first I will cut your hair,” Papa smiled in relief.
Mama takes. her sewing scissors out of her pocket, and Papa carefully cut my hair.
Long story short Erik did the surgery because no doctor would.
Genevieve’s Wish
(Child’s POV)
My name is Genevieve de Changy. I am five years old, and I want to be a doctor when I grow up. Papa is off on his naval ship, again, and Mama is at the Opera rehearsing. My Governess gave me this diary to help me with my penmanship. After this we sewed, (which is important for doing surgery,) then we took my sketchbook to the park, parc de l'île Saint-Germain, it is so pretty there when the sun is out! If only that rabbit would sit still for me! My Governess taps me on the shoulder,
“Time to go in.”
It is so hard to get up with my corset squeezing me, hard to get up without getting my dress dirty, it simply will not do! I take my Governess’ hand, and she helps me up, together we walk back across the jalan meeting Mama on the way utama for tea. We play Mad teh Party to help me remember my manners. Papa says he doesn't know how that helps, but when he’s utama he is glad to be the Mad Hatter!
‘I sewed a straight line of stitches today.” I proclaimed!
“I’m very proud of anda sweetie” affirms Mama
“When Is Papa coming home?” I ask.
“Your Papa comes utama today,” she smiled.
“He loved getting a letter from you,” My Governess reminded me. My penmanship was illegible!
“I hope he stays,” I pout.
“I know anda Cinta him… Presents cannot make up for Lost time... “ Mama sighed.
I didn't mean to make her sad!
“I- I’m sorry Mama”
Just then there’s a clattering outside. Papa’s home!
I ran to the door, “Papa!” I squeal.
“I missed you..” Papa hugs me without looking at me, he stands up and kisses Mama.
The manservants carry his steamer batang they grunt and groan making me believe it’s too heavy!
“There must be a kuda, kuda kecil in here!” they jest.
“Let Me see what I have here” Papa opens the batang rummaging as if he can't find what he’s looking for… I hold my breath
“Here it is,” he announces, handing me the book of Grimms Fairy Tales“Want to hear about my battle with the Cracken?” He picks me up and I giggle.
“Oh My…” my Governess rolls her eyes.
He showed me during the story his heroics, swinging his sword wildly, “Can I try?” I asked.
“The sword is too heavy,” Papa worried, “I Cinta anda I can’t let anything happen to you” He looked me in the eye and tore me up, I hugged him... He holds me tight. I wonder why I make him sad.
“I wish I never had to sleep!”
“Why?” Papa asks with concern.
“Because Ihate the dark!” my lip quivers.
“It’s OK, you're safe… I’ll sleep in the chair” Papa always did… when he was home.
Mama tells me one of her Daddy’s stories, it makes her smile, She sings an old Swedish Lullaby, her voice is the most beautiful in the world.
“Misour, anda need your rest, let me stay with her,” offers my Governess.
“I have slept in less comfortable places than a rocking chair as of late” He replied crispily.
My Governess and Mama go to bed.
Papa reads me The Sleeping Beauty, and afterward, I stare at the picture of the Prince fighting the dragon intensely!
***
(Papa’s POV)
“She just stared at the prince until her eyes closed,” I told my wife.
“Maybe she thinks he’s handsome” Christine didn’t see how the stare was!
“I don’t think that’s right it’s only a drawing…?”
“Maybe if I took her to the Opera, women play boys there.” What on earth did that have to do with this?
“It is too dangerous!” I barked, “I agreed to let anda perform so anda didn’t have to ask for money when I didn’t have the time to give anda some, but Genevieve is a child!”
I worried after Erik… After Philippe… I knew my daughter was strange.
“What if I tell her about La Sorelli before I take her? “She looks lebih like Philippe to me”
“You think I don’t know that? I mean It’s getting to where it makes me sad to look at her!” I exclaimed.
Genevieve had heard every word, for when I turned around, she looked half-asleep.
“I don’t belong to you?” bursting into tears she ran from the room.
(Child’s POV)
Where was my real Papa? And my Mama was another Woman? Why did she not want me? I had cried all I could. I went to the Muzik room.
“Who are you? If anda are not my Mama?
“I’m your Aunt,” berkata the only Mama I knew. “Genevieve, I Cinta you” She flung her arms around me.
“My Papa?’ I asked.
“He drowned before anda were born. Your Uncle Raoul felt devastated… He has something to tunjuk anda “ I strolled to my Papa’s study, at least that is who I thought he was…
I knocked.
“Come in Geneieve”
I walked in. He was looking me in the eye!
“What should I call you?” I asked.
“I Cinta being your Papa… Now anda know the truth… Would anda like to see a picture of him”?
I nodded.
He showed me a photograph “He has straight hair like me” I noticed.
“And anda have his smile and his laugh… Your imagination must have come from your mother.”
“And Aunt Christine” I sighed.
“What is it?” Papa asked.
“I want to call anda my Papa” I flung myself on his lap.
“That’s okay… the important thing is we are a family”
I sighed this time with relief.
“Do anda know why I call anda Miricle?”
“Why?” I smile
“Because when I Lost Phileppe I was devastated when we found out about you, it was like God had telah diberi me the chance to make things right because he died trying to save me..”
“I Cinta anda Papa” I hug him tight.
“Why do anda want to be a doctor?” Papa asks.
“Because I want to,” I say.
When my birthday arrived three months later, I rushed down our spiral staircase, my tights made that lebih manageable, even if my high heels did not. I’m wearing a hoop skirt like Cinderella in the book of Fairy Tales Papa reads me. That is why my legs are hurting. I don’t care. It’s my Birthday!
“Happy Birthday Angel!” Papa picks me up and trails me around.
“Happy Birthday Darling” Mama kissed my cheek.
“May I please open my presents now?” I asked.
Mama and Papa laughed, “Of Course!”
My new sketchbook was covered in red leather and engraved “To My Little Miricle, Cinta Papa” I read it all sejak myself! We had a six-layer badam, almond cake with vanilla butter-cream frosting, I was not tall enough to blow out the candles without Papa lifting me! When the doorbell rang, the maid went with Mama to the door…. And my real Mama came in!
I wanted to run over and hug her and shout “I Cinta you!” but I waved instead.
“Geneive gets her shyness from Raoul” My Aunt patted my real Mama on the shoulder.
“She gets a lot from Raoul,” My real Mama said, cooly.
“That’s why we invited anda here, anda can give Geneive something we can’t,” assured my Aunt.
“Sor-Sorelli how nice to see you,” I could tell from how my Papa blushed that he did not invite her.
“Hello, Genevieve” my real Mama whispered, her cheeks turning red. She berkata the name she had telah diberi me, before handing me over to the sisters at Hospice des Orphelins my most secret longing had been fulfilled.
“Hello” I could not help smiling, she was so beautiful! Her long blonde hair was straight like mine, her eyes were zamrud, emerald green, then I noticed the small box tied with a ribbon she was trying to hand me.
“For me?” I berkata trying to be polite.
“Go ahead open it,” smiled Papa.
After pulling at the knot holding the emas bow together and finally getting it loose, I pulled off the bahagian, atas of the flat burgundy box… Inside was a pair of ballet slippers!
“Go ahead honey try them on” coaxed Mama.
I slipped the slippers onto my tiny feet and my new Mama tied the ribbons.
I twirl and leap gracefully around the room.
“She’s a natural,” says my other Mama.
“You are performing in angsa, swan Lake, aren't you? Little Jammes is performing the role of Price Siegfried, I hear she is wonderful,” berkata Mama, looking expectedly at Papa
“Christine I forbid anda to take her! Is to Dangours!,” Papa exclaimed.
As Mama puts me to bed, she whispers” I bought tickets. The seterusnya time Papa goes away with the navy we’re going!”
Can a girl be a Prince? My most secret birthday wish had come true!
Chapter 2
The Magic of Box Five
As the maid dresses me in my best mauve, lacy silk gown, I can hardly stand still! Mama comes in, polishing her opera glasses. Papa is on another Navy mission.
“You will be sitting right above the stage, Genevieve so anda have to remember to be very quiet.”
The carriage seemed to fly us to the Opera. A black-cloaked man met us at the door.
“Hello my name is Erik, do anda like chocolate?” He hands me a box. It takes me a minit to notice Pari-pari like the ones I catch with Papa glowing where his eyes should be.
“Are anda a fairy?” I ask breathlessly.
He bows “I am King of the Fairies.” he proclaims.
Mama laughs “If Raoul knew what anda just said…”
“So he can play with her and I can’t?” Erik pouted. “I arranged this for anda Geniveve, Benno, Prince Siegfried’s servant is traditionally the Travesty role, but since anda Cinta princes so much…. I hope anda enjoy your birthday present from me!”
“You really are a fairy!” I say.
All too soon it was time for the ballet. Mama’s friend led us into his box, the plush red seats made the ache from my corset disappear!
My soul seemed to float on the music, I could feel myself spinning with every pirate, and leaping with every grande jatte! Seeing Prince Siegfried gave me a lightness, a burst of energy, and most of all happiness! “I never knew I could be a boy until I saw you! I want to be like you!” I squealed the moment I saw Little James.
“You are old enough to be trained as a dancer en travesty, your mama says anda have a gift” She smiled at my first Mama.
“I will talk it over with my husband” smiled Mama.
I didn’t like that Siegfried and Odette died at the end though! When I got home, I told Paapa how sad it was!
“When anda Cinta somebody anda do everything anda can to be with them. Heaven is a lovely place to be. Let me get my telescope and I’ll tunjuk you,” berkata Papa.
We walked outside, to the park, where Papa berkata we could see the stars. He held the heavy telescope while I looked inside.
“Which one do anda think is your Papa?”
I looked swaying the telescope back and forth.
“That one! It is twinkling as if to say I Cinta you.”
My Papa smiled “That’s the one I picked too, he looks so happy to see us.” Papa’s smile was gentle but bright.
***
(Mama’s POV)
“I would like Genevieve to come to rehearsals with me today,” I declared.
“But why?” asked my husband.
“The Ballet Master would like to meet her, He says dancing is in her blood.”
“But- she’s shy like me” Raoul objected.
“You should have seen her at the Opera last night talking to Little Jammes, about getting to be a boy… I know anda Cinta her, she needs this.”
Raoul thought and he sighed.
“Only if I’m her patron,” He declared.
“I wouldn’t have it any other way” I assured him.
Chapter 3
A Very Talented Travesty
(Child’s POV)
As we walked into the rehearsal room, Mama was mobbed sejak a bunch of little girls. She handed each of them a piece of Kandi and then gave one to me!
“Everyone, this is my daughter, Genevieve,” I waved slightly.
A tall man walked up. “I am Missour Bernard, anda will call me Missour is that understood?”
“Yes Missour,” I said, gulping.
“Now lets see how well anda dance!”
After doing portabras and pleas a million times I am tired and hungry. My first Mama, La Sorelli, walks me to the cafeteria. She tells Mama, “She knows not to tunjuk she’s tired”
“I think that’s because she’s excited,” observed Mama.
I eat the steak and potatoes as quickly as I can. Mama talks about her day.
“La Carlotta no longer seems jealous of me, she berkata she wouldn’t want to be burdened with a child; I told her Genevieve is the joy of my life!”
I grinned.
“This season the seterusnya ballet to be performed will be Geselle,” announced Missour Bernard. “And they want a few children for the first act, the elder girls will audition first.”
I watched the older girls, quietly moving my feet along with theirs. When it was finally my turn I let the Muzik take me away from the staring eyes. After the Muzik stops, Missour Bernard can’t hide his shock!
“Your Aunt and Mama told me anda are lebih comfortable as a boy. May I call anda Georges?” I nodded gratefully. “You learn fast,” he continued. “You can dance onstage in the back”
I wanted my Papa to be able to see me, but just not everyone so I was happy! When we got utama I told Papa “The Muzik makes me feel wonderful, and I get to be a village boy!”
“That’s wonderful-” his voice quivered.. He gave Mama a ‘we need to talk look.
“I better go practice,” I excused myself
***
(Mama’s Perspective)
“Christine, what did Erik do?”
“Nothing out of the ordinary… He thinks she wouldn’t have to rely on the foyer de la danse if she starts making money early.”
“She relies on me!” my husband seemed jealous.
“Think of Erik as an extra pair of eyes watching over her.”
“Yes, your Angel of Muzik is good at spying…. We wouldn’t have gotten custody if he hadn’t admitted to killing Philippe at my trial. But what was his intention?”
“Same as you, to protect her” I answered.
***
(Child’s Perspective)
As I practiced my scampering, jumping mischievous little boy role, I got distracted looking at my first Mama. Missour Bernard snaps “Clumsy!” I stood up, I tripped only a little. “Focus on yourself boy!” he berkata lebih gently, but crisply. I focus. I must not disappoint him! I glissade and ciseaux, and feel the joy of movement outside my corset, in my tan shirt, brown trousers, and vest, with a topi, cap to accent, for the first time I am free to be myself!
On the night of the performance, I was in the dressing room of my first Mama, (the Prima Ballerina had her own!) and I asked her about my Papa.
“What was he like?”
“He was tall, handsome, very gentle with me, he loved me… I tried to teach him ballet once, but he was too stiff!” she laughed with tears in her eyes.
“Would he have wanted me?”
“Absolutely!” she swooped me into a hug.
I take my position at the back of the stage when the curtain goes up I look for Papa… he’s in Box Five, phew! Then the Muzik takes over and I dance! I’m the only child on stage.
When I return to my Mama’s dressing room Papa is there waiting.
“Did anda see me, Papa? I was perfect!”
“You were so easy to find because anda are so tiny!” he said, hugging me.“No matter where anda go I will always find you!”
As Erik walks Mama and me utama that night he asks her in a sincere tone “How do anda know Raoul hasn’t cheated on you? He is a count after all”
“Erik anda shouldn’t say such things in front of Genevieve!”
I look into his laughing eyes. “Mama he’s just teasing,” I say laughing.
***
(Erik’s POV)
I want to help Georges like I helped his Mama, I have to remember that the Managers don’t know a thing about music.
(Firmin Richard’s POV)
I Missour Firmin Richard found a blasted letter on my desk, from that annoying ghost;
Gentlemen,
Young Geniveve’s seventh birthday comes in March, and her Papa likes to give her dolls, it would be advised that the children perform the performance of Coppélia for her parents as a gift for the little girl. She will be cast as Franz, I do believe that was the tradition, and some traditions should never die. Franz is a damsel in distress! A pretty feminine role for a little girl don’t anda think? No need to worry about where to get Animatronic dolls, Gentlemen, I am a ghost of many talents.
Your Obedient Servant,
O.G
(Child’s POV)
“We are putting on Coppélia for it will soon be Georges's birthday, and as a present to anda all, it is little girls only!” announced Misspur Bernard. The girls cheered. “Now who would like to audition for Swanhilda?” Everyone raises her hand, but me. “Then Georges will be Franz and I will be Dr Coppélius since I’m old!” We all laugh.
This is my first time dancing with a partner, an extremely talented and beautiful 10-year-old girl named Priscilla, I hope to be just like her, as a boy! We battement and pas de cheval and triple pirouette; I can barely keep up! Priscila is kind and slows down. When I finally get it, we alih on to act two. Missour Bernard and I relevé and tendu sneaking up on eachother. Then he makes me fall asleep like Snow White, except with a fake drink. Priscilla comes to my rescue and I am in her debt forever! I can’t understand how to stage Ciuman so we Ciuman for real in the wedding scene, which I like a lot!
Papa says “Did anda Ciuman Priscilla?” She’s so beautiful and talented I don’t know why he’s surprised! We make our way to the foyer de la danse.
In the foyer de la danse I meet Papa’s friend the daroga.
“So you’re the little mutarajjila I’ve heard so much about,” he smiles.
“What did anda just call her?” Papa looked startled.
“Mutarajjula means a girl who is like a boy”
“That's because she’s still in costume,” Papa explained.
What difference did a costume make? The daroga did not seem to think it made any difference I felt.
“Let us go to dinner,” berkata Papa hurrying Mama and me out of the foyer.
I’m in my blue dress and tights and corset again, this time I’m aching and sad!
“I Cinta Daroga! He didn't call me a girl!” I say enthusiastically!
“Sweetheart anda know the ballet is just pretending don’t you?” asks Papa
I nod and quietly eat my herb-encrusted lamb.
***
(Mama’s POV)
“You know? mutarajjila does fit Genevieve.” I berkata thoughtfully to Raoul after my niece went to bed.
“It’s too long to fit her,” he joked.
“The ballet master called her Georges. I asked him why, and he explained she should stay in character.”
Child’s POV ***
“Plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras, plié, port de bras…” My legs feel like jelly, jeli I’m glad to sit down. It had been two years since my role in Gisselle. I longed to be on stage, out of this scratchy tutu, and in pants again! Missour Bernard announces “This season the ballet will perform Sleeping Beauty and I will be playing The evil fairy!” The other girls started laughing!
“Shut up!” I exclaimed, “If I can be a boy why can’t he be a lady?” The girls were stunned and quiet.
“Thank you, Georges, very insightful” smiled Missou Barrand. (Georges is what Missour Bernard calls me en travesty) “Would anda like to play the prince since anda are such a polite boy?”
“I’m playing the princess, won’t that be scandalous?” My first Mama, La Sorelli pointed out.
“Random boy at the Princess's birthday then.” Missour Barnard declared.“As for the rest of anda anda can practice through lunch for laughing at me!” the girls moaned. I grinned.
I Pas de Chat across the stage on opening night with a basket of violets for the baby Princess hanging over my arm, (which unlike thousands of times in rehearsal the basket doesn’t fall off), and then I watch the other dancers do their entertainment for the baby princess. Then, Missour Barnard as the Evil Fairy bursts in causing all sorts of havoc before cursing the baby! I don’t think I’ve ever seen him happier! After the end of the performance, I asked him why he wanted to be the Evil Fairy.
“Because she’s the one with the power, who causes the whole plot to happen,” he answered.
***
(Mama’s POV)
“Why would the management allow Missour Barnard to play a woman?’ asked my husband.
“Because the man who choreographed it in Russia did,” I answered.
“But why would he want to do it?” asked Raoul, petulant.
“Why don’t anda ask Missour Bernard?” I suggest.
“Never mind!” My husband crinkled his newspaper in a frustrated manner.
Chapter Four
My magnum Opus
(Child’s POV)
Two years later, Missour Bernard announces We are doing a new Children’s Ballet called The Nutcracker and they want us! All the girls cheer! I will have to compete with everyone it seemed, but they all wanted Marie, not the Nutcracker, I got the role then!
I burst into Papa’s study excitedly, “can anda teach me to sword fight, Papa? I need to fight the tikus King!”
“I guess you’re going on eleven… Yes of course darling!” He pulls a sword and a dagger off the wall.
Lunging, swishing, blocking, swords clanking as we play, it’s exhilarating! We finally fall, exhausted and laughing!
“You’re very strong!” My cheeks glow with his praise.
***
In rehearsals, however, things don’t go so well. “Georges stop being so rough! This isn’t a battlefield! These are your friends!” Missour Bernard scolded.
I stop, looking down at my feet.
“It’s all right Georges, we do stage fighting differently your Papa doesn’t know that.”
He pulls me out into the hall and shows me prime, seconde, tierce, quarte, quinte, and sixte.
“Prime, sixte, quarte, tierce, and quinte” Missour Bernard directs us. This is the best hari of my life!
Missour Bernard plays Herr Drosselmier Pirsilla plays Marie. It’s nice to dance with her again! We spend most of the performance just sitting there holding hands, and watching other dancers, but I don’t mind, I feel lebih like a boy than ever in my soldier's uniform!
Mama and Papa are there for our December 23rd performance. On Krismas Eve I go to church in my blue velvet fur-lined dress. On Krismas day, we take Buah and vegetable preserves to the Hospice des Orphelins where I was left as a baby and have our Krismas feast of ham, rolls, potatoes, and asparagus for supper. We have hot cacao and Buah cake for dessert, the hot koko is my favorite. The seterusnya hari Papa reads a review of my performance in Le Matin.
“The young Nutcracker appears to be a sexless little sprite named Genevieve, who performs as if she were a boy.”
Papa looks at me. “Do anda understand what Lerox is saying?”
I just smile.
Papa’s POV ***
“Her position in the Bourgeoisie has been brought into question!” I try to keep my voice down.
“What do anda mean dear?” asks Christine.
“How is she going to get married?” I ask
“She’s ten I don’t think we should even worry about that yet” My wife is oblivious!
“Gaston Leroux called her “sexless” like she isn’t even human!” I exclaim.
“Genevieve didn’t mind. She loved that!” Christine was calm.
“You and Erik encouraged it- this- thing- I don’t know what-”
“Behavir” my wife finished for me.
“Erik still has a hold on anda doesn't he?”
“No this was my Idea! I was the one who invited La Sorrelli, and she told me about Little James being Prince Siegfried in angsa, swan Lake!” Christine was asserting herself!
“It was fine when it was understood she was a “She!” She can’t be a ballerina anymore!” I asserted back.
“I’ll be the one to tell her.” My poor wife looked defeated.
Child’s POV ***
Mama comes into my room with the breakfast tray. “Darling… Papa wants anda to quit the Ballet.”
“Why?” I ask
“He wants his little girl back. What that review described confused him… He just doesn’t come from the world I do.”
“What is so confusing? I’m not a girl” I say.
“The Opera Is just pretend dear,” explains Mama.
“What-Why?” now I’m confused.
I don’t know” Mama Puts her arm around my shoulder.
I have to be a boy for real! If Travesty is only pretending to Papa…But how?
Chapter 5
My Assimilation
My Governess smiles at me from across the table. “Remember what anda wanted to be when anda grew up?”
“A Doctor!” I’m enthusiastic now.
“Your Papa agrees women can have careers because he met your mother during hers.” she paused, “Madeleine Alexandrine Brès was the first woman to be a doctor in France, she could take care of women better because she is a woman because women are different from men.”
“If a girl can be a boy at the Opera, then men and women aren’t different!” I retort, my anger coming out like lava erupting like a volcano! My voice rose louder than I meant it to.
“Would anda rather be a wife? My Governess threatens.
definitely not, because “Wife” is not what anda would call a boy! I keep this thought to myself, however.
My Governess teaches me Biology, Chemistry, and Math. Biology is gross! Blood, broken bones, where Bayi come from…. Chemistry is fun, particularly the Bunson burner big flames make me feel excited! Math equations go in patterns and when anda memorize the pattern, anda can get it right every time!
As I try to fall asleep that night, my rag doll, Victoria, says “How are anda doing Georges?”
I answered “I don’t want to be a doctor! I want to be a boy!”
“Well, many boys are doctors, but your being a girl would be important. Have anda thought about maybe a doctor could turn girls into boys?”
“You mean perform magic?” I ask
“Science and magic aren’t that different stick with it and you’ll see..”
I must be dreaming! So I close my eyes…
(Papa’s POV)
My Sister bought her tattered copy of Little Women over as a gift for Geneive.
“When anda told me about her wanting to be a boy I thought of Jo… Hopefully, this wil help”
“Doesn't the father die in that book?? I don’t need her asking lebih questions!”
“It's the sister Beth who dies,” she answered
“Would anda like to see Genevieve?” I asked.
“I’m sorry I don’t have time to visit,” she just left!
I knew the fact that Philippe and Sorelli were not married was a disgrace… If either of my sisters took the time to get to know Geneive…
(Child’s POV)
Papa had a new story for me. It was the biggest book I had ever seen! He read ‘
Krismas won’t be Krismas without any presents,” grumbled Jo lying on the rug...
We had to stop when Meg and Jo got utama from the New Year’s party.
“Do anda know why Jo felt uncomfortable at the party?” Papa asked.
“Well corsets hurt and her hair pens hurt…but Laurie was nice and no one had to see her dress” I answered
“Laurie did,” Papa pointed out.
“But Laurie talked to her like she was a boy,” I clarified. “Papa… Girls being boys in plays is normal!”
“Yes, I suppose so. Let’s see how the rest of the story goes.”
When we finish, Jo is Married! This is what the word “Woman” means. “If anda Cinta someone it’s not a burden,” says Mama.
“I Cinta Priscilla!” I declare.
“Women don’t marry each other.” Papa tries to explain.
“Why?” I of course ask.
“Because only a man and a woman can have babies, so it’s not practical.”
“Yuck!” I declare.
Now I know I don’t need to be a boy, but I just want to be a boy!
The seterusnya night Mama tells me of Bradamate the woman who was a knight.
“I Cinta that she rescued Ruggreio, just like a boy would,” I berkata enthusiastically!
“She’s like me I had to rescue Daroga and your Papa from Erik’s torture chamber because he wanted to marry me.”
“I thought Erik was your friend,” I berkata dismayed.
“I knew him a long time before that happened, he pretended to be the Angel of Music, my father had berkata he would send me, but he didn’t understand that he was a saat father to me. The Angel was meant to look after me when my father could not. Once he understood I loved him, because I kissed him he let me marry Papa.!
“I Cinta both Erik and Papa too,” I say “Mama if a girl can be a knight, Why can’t a girl be a boy?”
“If magic existed there wouldn’t be a reason,” Mama answered. “We just need something that doesn't require magic”
Like Science!
Chapter Six
The Trunk’s Key
(Child’s POV)
As is tradition, Mama, Papa, and I have a picnic in the attic on the anniversary of Daddy Daaé’s death so that we can tell his stories. My kegemaran is the Angel of Music. After our picnic, I explore the relics of the attic. At last, I come across Papa’s old trunk, and in it his old suits, I find a dark blue one that’s about my size, I change into it and go to the park After climbing trees, I go for a walk and run into Police Commissioner Mifriod.
“Excuse me, miss, do anda have a permit to be dressed like a boy!” Drat my long hair!
“No, why?”
“It’s the law,” says Mifriod, “What’s your name?”
“Geniveve de Changy,” I say because I’m not at the Opera anymore! It hurts to lie to him.
“That explains this,” He rolls his eyes “I’m going to take anda home, this time.” he takes my hand and walks me home. Of course, Papa opens the door
“Genieve I was so worried where- I’m so sorry she is… imaginative. This won’t happen again”
“I knew anda are eccentric de Changy, but this… Mifriod walks away shaking his head.
sejak that time Mama has come to see what’s going on. “Geniveve why would anda leave without telling anyone?”
“I’m sorry Mama... Missour Mifriod impliedI could get a permit, How?”
“From a doctor, I asked our family Lawyer, Missouri Ozanne, because I feared this would happen,” sighed Papa. “I’ll go get the Doctor” Papa left
When the doctor came he asked, “Do anda still find corsets uncomfortable?”
“Yes, it hurts my sides,” I answer.
“How about the tutus at the Opera?’ the doctor asks.
“They’re too scratchy,” I say
“Can anda wear high-heeled shoes?” the Doctor asks.
“They pinch my toes, which hurts,” I explain.
“How about feather boas?
“They itch,” I explained.
“Well there does appear to be a medical reason, she's sensitive.” proclaims the Doctor Papa sighed, this time with relief.
***
(Papa’s POV)
I go to the police station with the Authorization Letter for Police Commissioner Mifriod.
“Why didn’t anda just tell her it was illegal? anda didn't have to allude to there being a permit!”
“I saw the review in Le Matin, since anda are eccentric, being that stunt anda and your friend pilled at your trial, I figured your niece was as well.”
“So you're saying this is my fault?” I rebuked.
“Yes,” snapped Mifriod, “Now here’s her permit, get out of my office!”
I gladly did so.
***
(Child’s POV)
“Your Mama insisted I take anda to the tailor’s since I’ve worn a suit before,” explained Papa. as we sat in the carriage.
I fidget in my kerusi, tempat duduk in anticipation. When we get to the tailor shop, I run in. A pelangi, rainbow of muted Warna hits my eyes. The Tailor smiled at me, “Welcome, my little friend, Your Papa told me all about you”
He measured me carefully, measuring my chest, my waist, and the length of my leg. “Pick the Warna anda like,” says the Tailor.
I pick dark blues and greens, and browns, and then dark reds and white for the baju that goes under the jacket. As it will take time to sew the Suits we, unfortunately, have to leave the shop.
“When will my Suits be ready?” I ask Paoa.
“They will all be ready in a few months,” jawapan Papa.
“I approved of anda wearing pants,” says My Governess, “Women should be allowed to wear what they want.”
“Like Missour Bernard wanted ti to wear a dress as the Evil Fairy in Sleeping Beauty” I analogized.
The look of shock on my Governess’s face says it all.
(Papa’s POV)
“Mifriod still thinks I made the crimes Erik committed up,” I tell Christine.
“Erik wore his mask in court,” reminded my wife. “He couldn’t tell who he was and wrongfully assumed he was a friend of ours”
“He thinks I made Genevieve act that way that’s why he let her go,” I voiced my contempt.
“I don’t think that makes sense,” comforted Christine, “I think God gave us a miracle”
“He certainly did,” I agreed.
***
(Child’s POV)
One day, the boxes from the Tailor kedai arrive! The servants carry the boxes up and put them to the side of the full-length mirror in my room. I pull the pants on first on the right leg then the left leg, pulling them up until the cuffs are just above my feet. Then after my maid takes off my dress and corset, I turn the baju so I can see the inside, reaching my left arm to the hole that looks like it is on the right sling, anduh my arm back, turning my arm in a circle, to get the sleeve over my shoulder, and push my arm through the sleeve, doing the same thing with my right. I bring the buttons to the hole and push each one through the hole starting from the top. I put the jaket on doing the same thing with my arms as I did with the shirt. I don’t know what to do with the tie and ask Papa for help.
“Make the color of your baju stand up, then put the tie around it unevenly. Make an X then bungkus, balut the thick end of the tie around the thin end, then push through the loop around your neck to form a knot, then push the thick end of the tie down through the knot.”
I look in the mirror and feel light, bouncy, and free!
“Do anda know anda are my Miricle, Dressed like that anda look almost like…”
“My first Papa, Does that make anda sad?” noticing the tears in his eyes.
“No, I feel complete again” Papa smiles “Are anda comfortable?”
I would like short hair “A lot lebih comfortable than I felt in a long time,” I say truthfully.
Chapter Seven
Deus Ex Machina
Over the seterusnya five years, my breasts have grown, and I try not to look in mirrors anymore. So of course, my Governess decides to tell me all about them.
“They produce susu to feed your baby, the danger is they can get cancer and have to be cut off”
“How do anda get cancer?” I ask intrigued.
“I don’t know,” She shows me a letter from Frances Burney written in 1811 explaining the removal of a breast. When Daroga comes to makan malam, majlis makan malam he asks “Genevieve were anda only pretending to be a boy at the Opera?”
“Missiur Barnard let me be a boy!” I replied
“Did anda like that?” he asked.
“Yes, because I am a boy”
“Isam says al-khilqī, atau pretending to be another gender is wrong, but anda say anda weren’t?”
“I was not pretending!” I exclaim.
“You were in costume Genevieve! That’s pretending!” exclaims Papa horrified.
“That was the only way I could be a boy! I want to be one for real!”
“It would bring anda peace then?” asked Daroga
“Yes,” I piped
“Then anda must let him,” Daroga told Papa.
“Is that even possible?...” Papa drops off.
I give Frances Burney’s letter to Daroga. He knows who to give it to.
“Geniveve get back in bed!” My Governess demands that night.
“I’m going to be a boy, I am going back to the Opera and anda can’t stop me!” I scream at my Governess.
“At least let me take you,” berkata Erik, who was standing on my balcony.
He propels us down the side of the mansion We walk through the streets to the Opera, we go through Mama’s dressing room mirror then down to the lake, rowing across it.
When we get to the house on the lake Erik says “I know anda don’t want people to notice anda have breasts… anda gave a letter from Frances Burney explaining how to remove them, I can do that if I follow her instructions-”
“You can do that?” I interrupt excitedly.
Papa bursts through the door Mama, and La Sorelli my first Mama, behind him, “You give her back to me!” My Governess must have told them.
"Please, don't drown her!" screams my first Mama.
“He is not here against his will, he ran away, but I’m glad anda are here, I was just going to start the surgery.”
“WHAT SURGERY! Why?”Papa seemed scared.
“Because some girls who are like boys, but then there are girls who are boys” explained Daroga, who had brought Erik the letter.
“I don’t want my breasts!” I exclaim!
“How will anda take care of your children?” Papa asked as if that was at all important at the moment!
“I will figure it out,” I say
“Erik’s not a doctor! Papa says.
“He's a Genius it’s the same thing!” I argue back.
“He doesn't have a medical degree, is what Papa means,“ says Mama “Erik are anda sure anda can do this?”
“Yes, it’s not too different from what I used to do as the Royal Executioner of Persia. Except he’ll be alive at the end!’
” HOW DO I KNOW THAT? THEY ARE ABOVE HER hati, tengah-tengah AND LUNGS! And all you’ve done is kill people!” Papa was panicking. “And she’s A beautiful young woman!”
“I’m a man Papa!” Didn’t anda know that from the way I stared at the picture of the Prince when I was little?
Papa looked at me “Why didn’t I think of that?”
“Because you’re not me,” I expressed my frustration.
“I knew,” sighed Mama “I’ve known for a long time.”
“I knew from the way Christine described him,” Daroga displayed his open-mindedness.
"I knew he was a masterful Dancer En Tavesty I never knew why though," my first mama, La Sorelli, admitted.
“I think God made anda this way If an actual doctor does this I’ll let anda but first I will cut your hair,” Papa smiled in relief.
Mama takes. her sewing scissors out of her pocket, and Papa carefully cut my hair.
Long story short Erik did the surgery because no doctor would.
