My opinion of myself when mad~ not so good. I am usually fairly soft-spoken, calm, cool, but when I am VERY angry the air around me bristles with this intensity and anyone around me can see atau feel that intense vibe. I cannot totally hide my feelings because of that. I do not want to react in the first ways that come to mind atau tell EXACTLY what I think about them atau the situation because that can be very strong- VERY strong. I am a passionate person with deep beliefs. It still does not give me an excuse atau a right to lash out. I'd rather not speak in anger. I DO try to speak rationally &/or resolve the situation in some postive way. I can still end up Berlakon like an idiot atau feeling like one. It is not often I get that ruffled, but when I do I do try to talk it out, and if that does not work I may come back another time. I do not have to be right. I can admit my mistakes, but it can suck when I end up adding to a problem and having to go back and make amends, especially if I owed no apology to begin with! It happens. I do not believe in holding onto anger, staying angry, forming a grudge atau resentment. That only hurts me, just like stuffing feelings. I have seen too often the grievious affects of holding stress in. I have my art, I can pray, and I can also do the negative things like have my really negative thoughts, atau sleep -if I can.
Sexual things are an outlet, lol.
If something still continues to bother me, I end up feeling like I need to let it out and let it go and I may talk to a friend atau someone. I try to forgive, just like I would want. I really don't want regrets, and sometimes it happens. Sometimes it is just a process.
Honestly, I don't react in a way people see. When I'm angry, even thoroughly angry and at the breaking point.. I keep it all in my head. I'm really passive and mellow so.. I never really had to punch something atau yell. It's rare when people can see how I really feel.
I don't know, I usually watch my kegemaran Anime atau spend time with my family but I'm SOOOOO pissed off right now because the world has 11 years before a major change in the climate happens if we continue what we're doing and NOBODY seems to give a damn; THIS is what Idle no lebih is about and almost EVERYONE online seems to ignore me when I try to talk about it; I'm trying to save the earth, Damn-it! scientists think it might be too late, but David Suzuki says we can save the earth if we really tried.
I'm so very, royally pissed off. ESPECIALLY at Stephen Harper; that DOUCHEBAG that made things 10x worse sejak allowing oil companies to exploit Freshwater and giving Haiwan diseases from the pipelines he's building. (BTW, one broke TWO DAYS AGO.)
Normally, I would just let it all out sejak either writing, playing some instruments, cussing up a storm, playing bola tampar atau continuously punching a punching bag without nobody but my closest Friends noticing.
When anda piss me off to the highest level (which only happened once though), I probably would beat that person up.