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Riku114 berkata …
But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks anda into doing the first statement. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly I just found out Pokemon Sun and Moon completely changed Lusamine's character to only be 90-95% of a shitty mother that she was in the game and totally pretty much entirely lightened the theme of abusive / toxic families seen in the game so....

Yeah that annoys me.

Some children have had shitty parents and stuff. It would be nice if they werent written off as "not kid friendly" atau whatever telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Gladion is precious telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly I do have to thank this dinding and the people who read this. It gives me a place to process a lot of stuff and really makes me feel at peace and comfortable.

Its probably part of why I got as far as I have with my mental health telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im not really watching American Idol but my mom has been and all I gotta say is that Cade is a serious rock bintang already.

Like wtf is he doing here?

Why isnt he already out there? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
https://tinyurl.com/yao3batc

IRL foto of me and Wanta telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
LEFTERIS! WHY'D anda TAKE A PICTURE! hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ It had to be done XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
This ikon feel right XD

And it makes my posts on this dinding a little lebih mausing telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
For furture reference it is this icon: link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Birds make me so happy telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
The thing about Penulisan and working through your own issues through your characters and words is that while it can be kind of problmeatic and unproductive for someone who dissociates like me, it really gives anda a means to which anda can express emotions, issues, etc that anda cant really say outloud atau express since it would either hurt other atau cause problems, but in a peaceful and innocent and fun way. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It isnt necessarily the best way to become the main one, but from time to time, with specific kinds of issues, it can be nice hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Just like reflecting upon characters anda relate to and all hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
#WorkingThroughYourShitViaRPing telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I dont get how people can have fun making out with strangers they meet and find attractive atau whatever.

Cos apparently my middle sister likes that part of the club nightlife and all

And Im just like "y tho????" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Is that like my lack of sex drive speaking atau my introverted side speaking atau a combination? XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Like I said, you'll end up having a libido for/with your significant other but not in general circumstances. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Probably both. Also, what Wanta berkata !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I'm not the type to only use one name for a Pokemon. It's not like I will always name my Blastoises something specific atau like that..

But Snorlax?...only one name will be allowed.

#Snorgasm telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly though, the lebih I reflect upon Fushimi's character, the lebih I kind of really kind of see and personally feel the degree of which my family condition and my less... enjoyable experiences have warped my view of the world and relationships and behaviors and all that stuff.

Cos honestly... Fushimi and I have a lot of similar dynamics in past and a lot of similar dynamics in present. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Like Membaca analyses on his characters and one of the tumblr people I follow responding to "what if"s about him and explaining it, sometimes when his past and his family stuff get brought up a part of me kinda... like... gets that "this is too close to home" feeling which I kinda actually like since Im kinda trying to work though them hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
FINALLY SPRING BREAK telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I mean Im kinda busy still but sh hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Noice! Damn the fact that your Break starts right when mine is about to end though XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*has 482 Gladion imej to post on my club*

*already has 88 imej on my club*

*not sure if theres overlap*

*does she have time to post all those?*

*also has like 300+ Fushimi imej to post on her club*

*also has to make all the Gladion and Fushimi icons*

*might and likely still has yet to post some Danganronpa collections*

MY OBSESSIVENESS IS PACKED telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I wonder what my flow chart for posting on this dinding is...

Like what makes my brain go "We should post that on the wall" versus not even recommending / mentioning it. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I hate YouTube and how it triggers my loves.

I wanna play Pokemon, Danganronpa, and Hatoful Boyfriend right now and all three of them cant function together :v :v :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Doesnt help I also wanna write three side stories as well rn XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Seriously yall need to check out Chase Holfelder.

If I had a constant income, I would totally give a portion out to support him on Patreon

He has a wonderful voice and makes great music. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I be all like

"Yay! Today is my hari to relax. Lets RP, play video games, watch two episode s of anime, read three chapters of manga, listen to music, watch youtube, and hang out with a friend. I will allocate roughly an jam to each.

So lets get to relaxing starting with RP. Wanta hurry up and start so I dont waste time relaxing.

Okay good now onto-"

"You should chill and relax" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
"IM TOTALLY RELAXING. I WROTE IT DOWN IN MY MENTAL SCHEDULE THAT IM RELAXING. LOOK ITS RIGHT THERE. I DONT HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DO NOTHING. I DONT HAVE TIME TO RELAX WHILE I SHOULD BE RELAXING. GOSH" hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Is that a hint that I should reply? hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
It is something that I have noticed as well. One lebih apparent fact about anda XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I usually cant nap in the hari time since I am way too pressured sejak time and because Im just not comfortable sleeping during the time my brain allocates to doing things atau around my family...

But at times, I come to the logical conclusion that sejak not getting rest and choosing to remain tired, I am greatly wasting time so I force myself to sleep as to satisfy and alleviate the time pressure I have XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku is sleepy. Now is the time to post REALLY confusing things on here. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Tfw anda anak lembu randomly wants to make a few minit long super cramp at like .... five in the morning, leaving your leg to be super picky of how anda sleep without pain, then anda wake up later and it can barely hold any weight while walking telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
UGH LUSAMINE WHY DO I HATE AND Cinta anda SO MUCH

LIKE I WANT TO Cinta YOU

BUT LIKE

anda TORTURED MY GLADION, MY LILLIE, AND MY GUZMA

LIKE....

I HATE anda SO MUCH BUT Cinta anda SO MUCH AND I HATE HAVING CONFUSED FEELINGS OVER CHARACTERS telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
TFW anda arent sure if anda are just mentally stable and in a good mood atau if your brain returned to not trying to harass yourself with unpleasant situations and went back to deciding it was alright to let berkata things remain forgotten. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Either way Im in a good mood so Ill leave figuring THAT out to my therapist hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku: "Ask me anything!"

Wanta: *goes to Rikus blog*

Riku: "I DIDN'T MEAN IT STAHP!" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Most People: WHAT IF IT POOPS ON ME?!

Me: Awww whos a good boy Lucy- *notices my hand has poop on it* *sigh* Lucy really? Was that on your back atau did anda just let that one rip at some point? Go back to the cage. I have to go clean my hand. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
anda know a bird trusts anda and loves yo uwhen they let anda grab their head and neck, pull the mright up to your mouth and Ciuman their entire head

Lucy is just like ":3 Moms scratching me and gave me a Ciuman :3 Forget tht my most delicate part of my body is between her fingers and my head in her palm and up against her mouth" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I FINALLY GOT THE TAG PAGE TO WORK :v

IT ONLY TOOK ME LIKE TWENTY minit TO GET THE FILTER FUNCTION TO WORK AND ANOTHER TWENTY minit BEFORE IT TO REALIZE THE TAG THEME I WAS WORKING WITH JUST WOULDNT FIT WHAT I WANT

WOO

https://jaden-writes.tumblr.com/tags

LOOK anda CAN CLICK THE SIDE BAR TITLES AND ITLL ORGANIZE THE TAG BOXES :V telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
Congrats xD. Seriously when I first started fiddling with themes there were aspects that gave me hell as well. Like using custom fonts lol. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
XD I almost always fiddle with themes. I like to thing Im pretty good at them..? I mean for an amateur that doesnt make her own XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^Same XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
The lebih I think about it, the lebih I realize I am set in stone AGAINST ever using Mega Evolutions. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also for those that didnt know, I set up a new blog for Penulisan fanfics and Rawak stories. I might stick with it, I might not.

On there, for the sake of not sounding Kingdom Hearts focused and not using my real name, I decided Id go sejak the name Jaden XD

For now the Url is jaden-writes.tumblr.com if yall wanna check out a mostly blank but set up blog. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
I followed. Also I read your about and honestly I don't think riku is a cringey name. I can think of alot of names that are cringey. I think riku as a name is just chill really. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Oh yeah I know XD I just dont like having character names too much these days. Riku is fine to me cos like... Its pretty much almost as much of my name as my actual name (maybe even more, it used to be tbh). Its just that since Im starting off, I want to start fresh with a lebih normalish name XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Interesting. I followed as well. Looks nice. Can't help but wonder how that particular name came up XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
@Riku ^Fair enough. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
God its been so long since I wrote anything remotely steamy atau smutty.

Ive reverted from Penulisan it just as a naturally as anything else to going back to having to pause and figure it out. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Believe in the me that believes in your libido telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yall ever post something in a light hati, tengah-tengah and with the intention of specifically making a fun conversation atau for some jokes to be made about it but instead it turns out to do the exact opposite?

But instead anda of ":feelsbadman:" anda are just lebih like

https://tinyurl.com/ybxak93e telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Quite honestly tho XD This happens too much with me hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Especially since I have a horrible sense of dark humor a lot of the time. Especially irl with people hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Most of the time, the exact opposite of the opposite anda mentioned yourself happens to me !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Gosh making a blog theme look nice always takes hours... telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I can imagine hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
It does hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
It sure can be tricky !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I still sometimes wonder to what degree Im closer to being gay than straight.

Cos honestly, I think Im like 65-70% gay and 30-35% straight XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Enough pondering this strange topic tho XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Embrace the Gayness, dudette. sertai the Prez's Side !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I can also be a TOTAL flirt to girls if I want to be XD Literally spent a 10 jam Disneyland trip fake flirting with a lesbian cos my friend thought it was a good idea to invite a homophobe, a homosexual, and a bisexual together for her birthday. That of which when the homosexual and homophobe have poor waters with each other XD

10/10 would have kissed her just to make the homophobe uncomfortable if I wasnt a Ciuman virgin then. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I also dont really take Ciuman seriously atau anything. It can be casual for me XD I just respect the wishes of my partner so Im not allowed to XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also, I little strange 'fun' idea since I heard about it on a YouTube video is being a bisexual polygamous dom with like... beta females and all.

Like I liked the idea of it and thought it would be interesting and a nice dynamic to have with people.

But then I take like... a bit to realize.

Im not really all that sexual.

I really wouldnt take action into it and might not like it because of the sex-based atmosphere XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Also lowkey sad I never got to Ciuman a girl XD Literally small stuff like that sometimes makes a small part of me be upset my relationship hasnt died XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Personally, I never really understood how people see men and women seperately when it comes to crushes and all. That being said, I still dont get crushes, but I guess Ive been hardcore bi since before I knew it was a thing?

Cos it just doesnt make sense to me (I mean it makes logical sense, but when analyzing emotions it doesnt) for Cinta to be specifically segregated sejak gender XD

Women can make my hati, tengah-tengah tick - so can men. Gender rarely ever even remotely came into the picture telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
It's kinda simple. Sometimes anda just know what anda like. I know I cannot ever be pansexual atau bi. It's not me. But I can understand why someone would be like that regardless. hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
If I was bi/pan I think I'd find nearly everyone fuckable/attractive telah diberi how I am while straight. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
What Blind said, pretty much. anda just know it. It comes along naturally, I suppose !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: We should write. Its getting late and we planned to do that today

Me: We should also go do our homework cos thats actually due

Me: Hmmmm.

Me: Lets just listen to Muzik and shit post on our club. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*narrows eyes*

Some Rawak website gave me advertisements for a Sarumi poster and Bird Treats. >.> Someones tracking my interests quite well telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its a cute poster tho so Im not even mad hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I like helping people.

The world is too dark for everyone to be going through it alone.

Friendship and connections are what brings light to the darkness and lets the world be beautiful and shine wonderfully.

If I could help bright light to someone's world, its one of the best things I could ask for. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I feel some people get so Lost in their own world that they often forget there are still people drowning in a dark abyss. Sometimes anda are in there too, sometimes your world is a beautiful one full of light, but just being there for another person... regardless of if anda are drowning in darkness atau basking in the light, that spark could change someone's world hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And there is little lebih rewarding than realizing anda changed someone's world for the better hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
AMEN TO THAT POST! I share those feelings as well. Well said, Comrade !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I dunno if its a normal thing atau not.... but does anyone else ever get the feeling they enjoy being.... like... depressed and mentally tortured lebih than being normal atau happy at times..?

Like maybe its because being depressed, feeling like crap, and having poor mental stability has been with me so long that it almost developed as part of my identity, atau becuase, as my therapist words it, I grew up in a constant "crisis" state at home...

But sometimes I feel like I miss being unstable. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Sometimes having a peaceful happy life feels so... odd, foreign, and just wrong and my mind does mention that its dull and boring even though I dont feel that way hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its cause of this that sometimes Im tempted to let myself go just because for some reason going back to that mental state is oddly... beckoning. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ Indeed. It is something that has really stood out, Riku !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also people underestimate what it means to be on my good side and a team mate of mine. Cos like in Stats, I had to break up my group since we couldnt have groups of 5 and all, but back then I would bring Makanan and snacks and all for project days and share it with them and make sure they knew everything they were doing

But now that they are broken up, even though I stated that Im still going to treat them as if they were in my group, they dont bother coming sejak and asking for help? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Like I reject a lot of people help, especially when I find the topic too easy atau people keep asking me the same damn question, but I would like walk over to my old group and be like "So Luke, do anda need any help? anda do realize Ill always respond to anda right?" hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I can be very cold and sometimes self centered with how I help people, but when Ive chosen people I like and people to be group members / team members / pack members, I will make sure they succeed and grow strong no matter what. I have a busy schedule and anda need an jam of tutoring atau help? I gotchya. anda need lebih practice and involvement in band? I gotcha, Ill recommend anda for the side things from now on. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
But yeah, out side of being a pack / team member of mine, the only other ways to get help from me is A) Im bored B) anda are offering Makanan I like in exchange atau C) money. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly...

I bond with people very animalistically XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Same. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I so badly want all birds in the world to be happy and live happy lives.

I dont know why I feel so strongly about birds in specific, but just seeing like documentaries its like

UGH BIRDS. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I write to vent. I write to express and process emotions I otherwise would struggle with.

Personally Ive always struggled with it, but its really only through Penulisan that I could ever really truly make sense of what was going on

So its part of the reason I write as much as I do.

A lot of my 'articles' Ive written never got posted, either because they went to nonsensical places, atau because they were to real and too personal telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
"Low carb diets aren't healthy if done for long periods of time."

Me: *sighs and facepalms at the misinformation being spread* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: *took Smokey out and shes hanging out on me*

Elvis, her mate: *crying and calling for her to come back*

Me: *sticks tongue out* SHE WAS MINE FIRST. anda GET HER ALL hari AND SHE USUALLY DOESNT WANT TO STAY WITH ME. LET ME ENJOY THIS telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
*tries to do some Pokemon Showdown*

"NO! anda can't use this cuz Swagger clause."

"NO! anda can't use this cuz evasion clause."

"NO! anda can't have this alih when combined with this other alih the Pokemon can legitimately learn"

"NO!

"NO!"

"NO!"

And now I remember why I don't play competitive Pokemon. I'll stick with the lebih challenging PVE cuz tiers suck and "competitive" is kind of a joke telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^That and sticking with just us XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Semi-competitively hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Tru hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I hate Wanta. He entices the devil in me telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
IVE CHANGED MY WAYS DAMN IT. I DONT NEED TO TORTURE MY CHARACTERS ANY MORE. IVE GROWN PAST IT BUT HE TEMPTS IT hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Okay not so much anymore but still. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, there are so many people who have changed my life, I cant even thank them all.

Even the ones that gave me a 'negative' change in my life. I've learned so much from them too. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I personally owe a lot to Haiwan to be honest.

Especially Smokey. She was there when no one else was and shes a wonderful sweet and pure cockatiel. I often talk about her son a lot, but shes the best bird in the world.

I Cinta her so much. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I might go into Conservation teams instead of Veterinarian, atau be a Veterinarian for a zoo atau something. I think the idea of rescuing endangered species, especially birds, sounds super fulfilling. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Made this forum which I may atau may not use but wanted to advertise

link telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
But honestly, experiencing life is horrible XD

Stress is so much lebih extreme when your mind doesnt automatically numb it, depression is much lebih stinging and consuming when your mind doesnt block it out and choose to be happy after three saat of it, etc

I mean it is worth it in the long run and even just in some aspects outside of the long run, but really... life was easy dissociated. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its like "/testingcheatsenabled true" on sims where anda can keep the health bar up sejak dragging it up. anda can do wayyyy lebih than if anda didnt use the cheat. Getting through each hari is sooooo much easier for the most part. But the challenge of the game goes away and anda get bored of it when anda stop getting your sadistic pleasure from it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly sometimes it amazes me.

The amount other people have to go through before their brain says "This is too much for me, we are disconnecting" and reach the point of dissociation Ive spent most of my life and especially my teenage years in.

It really makes me wonder how horribly overwhelmed, scared, and affected my brain was from things I still dont remember really atau understand. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Mine is as bad as it is because it became an exercised coping mechanism throughout my childhood so Im much lebih prone to it, but even so. hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku: Wanta truly has an expertise in Pokemon and can be questioned for advice!

Wanta: *using a Special Attacking Moxie Pyroar* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
There is little lebih rewarding than helping someone out and watching them grow from it. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Heres an idea for self improvement. Think of one atau two things anda care a lot about atau an activity anda are interested and senarai as many things of that in which anda are lacking atau suck at.

Rank those things anda are lacking in priority to anda and focus on working on something at least every other hari and if anda are really up for it, every day.

Youll be shocked at how much progress and mastery anda can get sejak adding one atau two things to the senarai of things to work on daily telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
My main one is my mental health XD But I also do work towards Penulisan and creating lebih stable and sturdy relationships irl. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I think Ill soon get to adding stuff for the future as well like.... working on weights atau whatever since I might need that if I end up working at a zoo for a bit during my educational career after I get a bachelor degree - atau just keseluruhan to be healthy hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I believe some Exercise in general should be pretty good for anda indeed !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
“I created the OASIS because I never felt at utama in the real world. I didn't know how to connect with the people there. I was afraid, for all of my life, right up until I knew it was ending. That was when I realized, as terrifying and painful as reality can be, it's also the only place where anda can find true happiness. Because reality is real.” telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Sad I couldnt fit a Silvally into my profile.

Also

#HailLordLopunny telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
#HailLordLopunny'sChild hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku has internet: https://avatars.mds.yandex.net/get-pdb/163339/397b0d96-585d-412c-9c67-46434db655cf/orig telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I AM BACK.

I HAVE INTERNET telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
YAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSS! WELCOME BACK FLUFF !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
yeheah!!!!! wb riku hun🌹 hampir setahun yang lalu
SilentForce dikomen…
Glad to see that anda have come back from the dead hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Note: Consider changing the sentence in the eulogy to "but instead am glad to have gotten the opportunity to see her grow from a Derpy Lil Shit into an older, wiser, bustier, but not necessarily taller Derpy Lil Shit." telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
sad
wantadog berkata …
RIP Riku. May she pass on peacefully to the other side and immediately become way too busy. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yall bore me. I come on and no stupid shit has been going on in the hari atau two I was mostly absent? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
Tbh I’ve been getting sick easily these days🤨 hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
Welcome back 🌷 hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Hello bitches. Im at school and have internet here

Fuck yeah. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ps. Im not dead telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
HOOLYYYYYY SHIEEEEEET! RIKU IS ACTUALLY ALIVE !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
yeah !!!!!!!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Now the real question. Will we ever get back to K? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Someday, Riku. Someday... hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Soon enough XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I really do have some of the best people around me.

As someone who has been around multiple codependent Friends and my family the way it is, this is really nice.

Having a good group of Friends and a good community makes being depressed a quite harder. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
On a brighter note tho

On the field trip to the zoo yesterday, I impressed my classmates and my chaperones how skilled I was at identifying birds

Like I was better than the teachers XD

And apparently no one know what this "dinosaur looking bird with the weird beak"

link telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I always loved that Bird XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
To put how exhausting this week has been, I usually wake up at an average time of 6:30 am on school days, run a normal school day, maybe go to someones house, do some homework, play games, and go to sleep around 11:30 pm atau 12 am kind of tired.

I woke up at 10 am today, and its not even 9 pm yet and Im exhausted to the point it should be 2 atau 3 am if the time was dependent on my energy levels telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
An early sleep could do anda some good !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
OKAY I JUST REALLY HAD TO SAY THIS COS IT REALLY STOOD OUT TO ME

"Whats the point of having Pistol if anda cant aim
Whats the point of having bloods with no veins
Whats the point of having Cinta with no pain"

Like... I just have to point out how thats really well written. The first two statements are pretty factually real and true. If anda cant aim, no point in having guns. If anda dont have veins, your blood is pretty pointless.

So its indirectly saying Cinta is factually tied with pain. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Thats like... so nicely put through. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I mean I disagree. But.. XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Really though. NF has some really powerful and well written lyrics. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
heart
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, anda are all too wonderful people.

For how horrible this week has been treating me, I have so many supportive, caring, concerned and wonderful Friends trying to help me in the way they can and Ive really do appreciate it.

Its a really nice change from what Im used to.

I Cinta anda all. <3 telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ The feeling's mutual. anda can be sure of that !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Since Ive literally had a mental breakdown every hari of the week (well week thus far, the five days into it) thus far, I am saying "Fuck it" and even though I have a test tomorrow, Im just not going to school and going to give myself a "mental health break."

Ive never had one before, but I figure five mental breakdowns in five days qualifies me for a single hari free (except for packing) telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
That sounds like a good idea. anda certainly seem like anda need a break. lebih than one really, in my opinion !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
How to defeat the Generation 1 Elite Four using only 1 Pokemon and zero items.

Step 1: Capture a Diglett atau Dugtrio from Digletts Cave

Step 2: Put Earthquake on Dugtrio

Step 3: Go to Celadon City and purchase TM 15, Hyper Beam.

Step 4: Beat Elite Four. (Hyper Beam requires no recharge if anda KO the opposing Pokemon. Earthquake handles Agatha.) telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I have done the same. Only that I had a Charizard. I simply spammed my strongest attacks and got through !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: *is on my own profile* *wants to get to my club* *habitually clicks the first link* *gets Monika* ..... im hacked #JustMonika telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Past: hei Riku! Lets go back to shit we tried to forget!

Me: ... uh... no

Present: hei Riku! How about me? Lets look at how tired we are and our current and upcoming schedule this week and realize we are EXTREMELY overexerted!

Me: ... no thank... you

Future: hei Riku! Lets think about coll-

Me: Fuck off. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also Doki Doki Literature is probably not a good game for people like me as I discussed with Wanta

But at the same time, its people like me that probably like it the most telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Quick question. If in Pokemon Ultra Sun/Moon, Maxie and all have Groudon and Kyogre, why did they sertai Team pelangi, rainbow Rocket anyways...?

Like why didnt they just flood / drought the world right away like they planned to?

Thats the real soalan Im wondering from the game. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I demand life cut me some slack.

Like can I have one hari without it trying to raise the torture level? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Wall: Wow! Riku is so optimistic about her mental state and her breakdowns!

Me: :) Yep

Wanta / Others I ranted to: *shakes head slowly* anda havent seen behind the scenes telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Also, apologies if during one of those breakdowns I write some reaaaaaallllyyyy crazy shit. I can really get bad in them hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
No need to apologize. anda can rant all anda want as long as anda get it off your chest. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ THIS. It is only natural really so do not feel bad about it !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
Rant all anda want Rku. It's fine. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
OKAY SO HERES THE THING.

DISSOCIATVE BREAKDOWNS ARE PIECES OF CRAP. anda get existential crisis like never before, anda ruin relationships, anda feel lonelier than shit, #ExtremeNihilism, anda literally dont feel like anda exist, life becomes super boring, anda dont even know why anda are living cos anda feel nothing, and they can last anywhere from half an jam to two atau so months from my experiences.

BREAKDOWNS INVOLVING TRAUMA ARE WAAAAAYY BETTER. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
They are VERY intense, horrible, anda literally feel crazy, anda loose control for a bit, anda feel strangled, anda have to leave, and its horrible and hits out of nowhere and its painful, however its much lebih manageable because they are usually no longer than an jam (given mental state was decent before) and anda can return to being happy and feeling GREAT after hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Shitty keldai Dissociative Breakdowns ruin the rest of the hari even when anda get out of it, make your paranoid for the seterusnya week atau so, until anda ultimately fall into another one again hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Lets see how bad this trauma related stuff can get though. Apparently it only gets worse from here until my mind has fully processed everything so *cracks knuckles* Lets do this bois hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Once Upon A Time telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
In a medieval display in the center of the clothing section of a Walmart in San Francisco hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
And finally he met a lion named "HOLY FUCK A LION SOMEBODY HELP ME!" hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
and that was how Carl's story ended hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
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Riku114 berkata …
ŀŃŚŁŒ¾¤ĈĢġŌĩŏçąË¯þď ŅúĿĈĊìş¹ĈũģÈŕéśŅĵĿŊ ³ŌČŃëşĩ×Đó§¤ĬƬďîþÑ telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
ĻŤâůÝå¿ŕºÞ·íÐŏŪĜ¡¡¦ ÖŻģŮÄňķĪ£ÈĈč©È©ŻáóĒ Ċ¢®ĿŠŊěŤįïú¤ťË°ŇķĻ¬ telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
For YouTube to actually convince me Doki Doki Literature Club was worth going back for despite its slow pace, it REALLY had to spoil a good handful of things, but at the same time it did win me over so... XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
So I got spoiled on a lot of Sayori and Monika, Wanta got a lot of Yuri and Monika, and neither of us got much of anything if at all of merah jambu haired girl I forgot the name of XD Shes still a mystery hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Dammit Riku! Why the need for Spoilers??? Meh... Regardless, good to know that it won anda over even if it was expected !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
XD I know I just forgot Natsuki's name. TBH I want lebih Natsuki in later parts atau something. Cos like.... shes the only one I felt selamat, peti deposit keselamatan around excluding Sayori XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*sick* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
anda are sick? hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
linkFeel better;3 hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
get well soon riku ೋღღೋ hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Mood: Better and noice telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Decision, since I probably can, Imma take today as a "day off" and just relax and not worry about college, packing, atau mental health atau anything. Just dedicate today to #FeelGood and #EnjoyLife to balance out the days hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Hopefully I can XD My parents could screw up my plans atau me getting sick / lebih irritated in the throat due to dust might too. But #RP #Gaming #Music hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Best idea hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
This Mood is precious and needs to be treasured !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Mood: pahit and apathetic. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Mood: link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Mood: Why cant I write my relatable RP character's story? Why am I too tired to write it properly? Boo. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Mood: Will probably be better tomorrow morning and is just pahit and apathetic because shes super drained and exhausted hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
TFW anda are doing Pokemon Showdown and the opponent turns on the timer while anda take a moment to get acclimated to the gen 7 Pokemon and anda get so pissed, anda promptly wipe the floor with them without menunjukkan any mercy.

Riku can attest, I embarrassed the kid. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Relatable !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
To be honest, anyone who abuses their children in any form deserve hell.

Because honestly, the amount of life long crap anda put them in, screw them over mentally, and make them have to deal with is horrible. Honestly, I almost say it might be better to give them mercy and kill them instead of cursing them with such a state of being for the rest of their life - atau at least for the rest of their childhood they will never get back. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Plus people who kill children get much lebih severely punished than those that abuse them. For fucks sake, one of my friend's dad tried to rape her and hes still a roaming free man hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Like seriously why the fuck is he still roaming? I actually know a lot of people who have PTSD because of my old group therapy and I can say 90% of their abusers are running fucking free. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I mean trade my eternal soul and put it in eternal torture for all child abusers to be stuck in there for eternity? Im almost down. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im honestly not really sad atau anything, just really stressed out, overworked, and exhausted managing college stuff, school, my family, my mental health, and moving at once.

I could use a lap to sleep on. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
anda need a good ol Siberian Husky to cuddle up to hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
atau an Akita. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
That is only natural, Riku. Lots of stuff pulling anda from every direction. Organize your daily schedule well. Most of all, anda could really use some sleep indeed !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
That wonderful light feeling your head goes after anda intentionally null yourself out. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yall ever get that feeling where anda want time to go sejak faster so anda just kinda want to go to sleep even though anda arent tired? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
Yep And! I’m still awake 😐 hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Quite a few times !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I know its whining but ugh. Why do I have so many events booked this week AND still have school at the same time :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Can we trade? Can I have things to do all week while anda get to rest? I'd Cinta a week of nonstop job interviews hampir setahun yang lalu
Heartbeat- dikomen…
Super Riku hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
@Wanta For this week sure. :v hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Fun fact, I dont post my banners atau backgrounds that I have on my profil on my club since Im protective of the things I made personally for my use only XD However if I do make a profil banner atau background for other people, I do like to share them XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
<3 !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I havent had nachos, apa yang anda cari in a while... I should probably have some nachos. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu