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JetBlack__ berkata …
Psh.. riku is all high and mighty now xD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I AM BACK hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I havent been able to touch the internet much for a few days and probably wont for the seterusnya two XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So in Pre-Retreat we...

1) Dont know who owns a baggage cos no one claims it so we might have Lost some one

2) Played Spike the Section LEader with a Bag

3) Claimed a section dog

4) Claimed a section Ikea Shopping cart, troli found on the street

5) Tired XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Gosh Im tired as heck XD Lots of fun. I Cinta my new section to be honest and for the first time in years, I was the one adopted rather than the other way around. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Great you're having fun while at it. Keep it strong, Rikubun !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
try to sleep well Riku~bun<3 hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
:v tfw anda have to wake up at 4 am, its 11 pm, anda have a long long hari tomorroq and youve been trying to sleep for the past jam and cant :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I'm blank. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Literally just staring at the screen for minit at end hampir setahun yang lalu
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Never consciously dissociated this hard without breaking into a different mode / persona of sorts hampir setahun yang lalu
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Me: I wonder what a Rawak post from a tahun lalu says

Me, a tahun ago: "anxiety"

Me: ...

Me, a tahun ago: "anxiety anxiety anxiety"

Me: *gently pats my year-ago self's back* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Man Im pooped. Exhausted, tired, and pooped.

Not like actual poop but like...

Energy poop telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Man I get overwhelmed when multiple people are talking to me and asking me for information I dont know on the spot and dont have time to look up cos they are rushing for an answer.

On the other side, Ramune is an okay substitute for Dr. Pepper when it comes to chilling down from that. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
cool
GDragon612 berkata …
yooooo Riku and CO !!! Have an fantastic weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace and out kat meow xD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
XD My weekend will be chaotic to be completely honest with you. Heading off to college this weekend hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ Hang in there, Rikubun. You'll pull through that Chaos just fine !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
welcome in the chaos hehe =D anda are not alone riku =p hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
There are the times when anda have to put energy to hold yourself up when your mental health is trying to make anda curl up and shut down.

But just surviving isnt good enough. As difficult as it is, anda have to push yourself a little extra. Do something to make sure anda keep it up and remind yourself that anda are better than the whispers in your head are trying to convince anda that anda are. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
When an old nostalgic Green hari song is one of your options for Audition Muzik for your upcoming marching band

https://tinyurl.com/y9vjxx79 telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
The Nostalgia vibes are pretty strong indeed. Green hari is always the way. Awesome !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I will Cinta anyone who will massage my thighs rn XD

Jkjk that job and prize is already taken

But geesh my thighs are sore XD lebih so closer to my knees but specifics dont matter telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Ughh... Finding the perfect finger kolar for your significant other to claim them as your partner is hard. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Huh... I might have to figure out how to be emotionally vulnerable... atau just normal but like... emotionally vulnerable for my standards again.

Since I wont have my boyfriend around for three months and hes been the only place I can be entirely genuine with my emotions. Cause if I dont I think Ill kinda go back a good few steps and snap again and thats not good. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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When things get down to it, theres usually something to tend to neglect that can easily disrupt and cause problems both in your personal and interpersonal life. If anda can figure out what anda lack a balance of, anda can likely make lebih harmony in your life sejak balancing it out. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Happy 9/11 da-

Oh shit no. Thats not what anda say telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also I stopped playing Dragon Age. Something abotu it just cant keep me drawn in. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I should watch some Anime again... atau read Medaka Box again... choices... choices... telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I have been considering of rereading Medaka Box as well. It would be nice to have someone on the same pace to discuss while doing so !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
That sounds cool honestly. As the last two breathing fans, I like the idea hampir setahun yang lalu
SilentForce dikomen…
I've actually been planning to read the "Medaka Box" Manga for quite a while now hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"You took most of what I introduced to anda and showed anda and took it to the extreme Riku. My Friends that saw anda grow up say anda are like me, but level two - atau lebih meanly put - Scar 2.0" ~ My Oldest Sister 'ScarlettGriffin'

Im not going to say shes wrong, at least during my childhood XD Most of the notable things (good and bad) I had from her was cause I took her Nasihat atau introductions to things to an extreme telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Like... anime, Guardians of Gahoole, some lebih immoral tendencies I had, Trichotillomania, etc hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its mainly since even as a kid I was kind of an all atau nothing kind of person. I either have little interest and dont involve myself with it much at all, atau I get strongly invested into it. One atau the other hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And back when I was younger, my oldest sister was the closest thing I had to a parent figure so she kinda introduced me to a lot of things and a lot of concepts / papar to take a look at hampir setahun yang lalu
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*deep breath* As much as I Cinta change and Cinta growth and am excited for college, the massive change just gives me that natural halt and paralyze-anxiety moments in my head.

I have everything pretty planned out and back up plans to follow with it and everything. I set everything up so that transition should be both pretty good and considerably easy, but honestly, no matter how much I prepare and plan, I cant stay that the base fact that MAJOR things of my life are changing telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
ISNT at all a bit anxiety causing. I know itll be fine and I know Ill flourish, but honestly going from my rather regular life style Ive had for... at least six atau seven years and abruptly change both the environment, the frequency of which I am able to be around my boyfriend, and simple school is a tad bit intimidating hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im really driven and confident, but I still am a normal 17 (almost 18) tahun old with severe anxiety XD So as much as my drive and confidence lately has done GREAT to balance the scales, I'm still quite human in the way that such a strong shift with a distance long enough that I cant reliably say I have my family and boyfriend covering my back like they usually do (at least my family with driving and making sure I eat and get basic needs done) hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
A tahun atau two lalu Id be having a major panic attack atau anxiety attack over this to be honest. Now I just have a few saat of paralysis when I think about it too much and maybe a bit of avoidance in actually thinking about it too much. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Had a great first party of three (possibly four since it sounds like people want to celebrate a little on my actual birthday in Davis) XD Went swimming, spent an jam playing Rocket League and Fortnite while just being goofs, then just like... two atau three hours watching memes and other hilarious Youtube.

Pretty awesome tbh. Plus it was enough of a success they want me to organize a get together in the winter when everyone is back together. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly, all my non-trumpets canceled / didnt get back to me after saying they wanted to go, but I really dont mind. The trumpet section had this great bond and all with one another. It was amazing to spend the hari with them hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Great to know that anda had an awesome time !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So lets run a progress check on how much Ive improved over the past three years with my ability to think of myself as worthy and comfortable with being slightly vulnerable sejak asking for people to hang out with me for my birthday... telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
2016: Literally took three therapy sessions over three weeks of my therapist telling me how I NEED to have a birthday party and hwo he wants me to have one and my mom and sister bugging me to do it. I reluctantly invite THREE people to makan malam, majlis makan malam for my birthday. Spend the week before it very uncomfortable and lowkey panicking and begrudingly checking up on who can make it. hampir setahun yang lalu
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2017: Willingly, on my own accord, set up a birthday party. Very uncomfortable still. Not really wanting to do it, but knowing its good. Freaked out internally for like half a week. Enjoyed it, invited like ten people, about five appeared. hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack__ dikomen…
An inspiration. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Once I got through the Arguement Armament that was bugged on Hard, I got the full ending of V3 and it sucks less with the last bit but still annoyed me and pissed me off for the most of it. But thats just my opinion.

Im not on the side of "I hated the ending" but I lebih so on the "I disliked the ending". telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Actually it continued past what I thought and I like it better. Im neutral on the ending. Really executed poorly through most of the Chapter, but I suppose they ended it good enough hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I will not say that none of my gripes I was going on before dont exist though. Its not a great ending atau a good one, but its not THAT horrible since it cleared up one of my larger gripes hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
It is only fair. I am glad that anda went back at it and finished the whole thing yourself, having a somewhat better reception of it nonetheless. That is what the DR Experience is all about !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I might sleep early cos my headache is making me tired telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Yeah V3s Ending is an Ending I will pretend NEVER happened telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I closed out of the final Armament arguement cos I didnt feel like doing it and if I have to redo the ending, Ill research the characters and watch other people talk to them and whatever. If I have to do lebih than the armament, Im honestly not thinking its worth it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its a sad hari when I dont put a positive review for a Danganronpa game. As much as the first five chapters were pretty good (save how annoying Atua got), when combining the ending, the sheer lack of connection to the past story, the sheer lack of a conclusion to the sebelumnya stuff, and how buggy it was as a PC port, I just couldnt say Id recommend it unless it goes on a major sale hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^Nah, as I berkata in PM, I still Cinta the game. Its just the ending is baaad hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ugh. V3's ending so far is so predictable, underwhelming, and kinda annoying that I actually stopped mid-climax cause I was getting bored and tired of them jammering on about the thing I predicted from like the prologue. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Always finish what anda start. Things aren't always exactly what they seem, Rikubun !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Danganronpa Chapter 5 Ending

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma
Gonta Gokuhara / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Keebo
Korekiyo Shinguji / Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
There honestly isnt a ranking.
I just know that I dont
Care much for Tsumugi
atau Angie much currently
This weird spacing for this
Is for the aesthetic of a ranking telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I also realized while thinking about it to myself that the reason Im lebih ENTJ than ENTP is the line "Honestly, my plans and shit arent that limiting. I Cinta the ability to adapt and branch out into different options so I always ADD IT INTO MY PLANS"

I had to pause there and kinda realize I plan to not plan and thats probably why Im lebih of a J than P XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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If I was in Danganronpa Universe:

"I am The Ultimate High School Level Bird"

"Dont anda mean Bird Owner atau Bird Expert"

"No Bird" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Personally, as dumb as it sounds, the way anda walk, stand, and sit can really affect your confidence I believe. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Definately add dress into there too hampir setahun yang lalu
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TFW anda are listening to one of your kegemaran Project Diva Future Tone songs and anda feel anda fingers not tapping to the beat but rather to the rhythm it memorized to clear the game XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I honestly dont know why I like "This is the Happiness and Peace of Mind Commitee" so much hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im SO fucking blind and dumb XD Im not kidding anda XD How did I jsut realize this telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Four fucking years guys. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Possibly even lebih hampir setahun yang lalu
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STILL didnt realize it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Oh my fucking god I feel so fucking dumb XD XD

Im so retarded and blind XD XD

For all of anda that think I understand myself really well and my mental health, anda just hear me out right here XD

Ill change that for you. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cause I just realized that back when I used to have VERY aggressive responses to people menunjukkan me affection to the point of going to mental, emotional, and psychological torture and probably the most blood thirsty language and manipulation anda can think of and in two cases actually getting violent. For the ones that happened the worst, it was cause my boyfriend was being too affectionate to me and I kinda liked him back and it terrified the SHIT out of me hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
anda literally dont get much lebih textbook PTSD and flashbacks there hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Jesus Fucking Christ how did I JUST realize this hampir setahun yang lalu
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>Makes a Cute Playlist for Part of Boyfriend's Gift

>Sneaks in a Happy Feet 2 Song

>Boyfriend gets the playlist on 4th week

>Boyfriend doesnt komen / call me out

>:successkid:

....

I like Happy Feet (especially the saat movie) Muzik too much. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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That feeling when your boyfriend realizes anda are getting #LiterallyTriggered before anda even realize it and hugs anda tightly causing anda to snap out of it relatively quickly and very well calming anda and your body down with berkata hug telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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This is why I Cinta him tbh. How the fuck does he notice before I do when Im the one getting mentally tormented and completely blanking out from my surroundings. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Do anda ever get like that rhythm game depression?

Where anda like.... practice one hard part over and over again for like ten minit straight... think anda got it.... choke the first full run through, decide to give it a saat time, and just find absolutely none of the skill there so like... anda jsut shut down the game, turn off the console, turn off the TV and sit there wondering what the hell anda did with your life to get no where telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Rawak Fact: I have a secret lowkey Cinta for playing cards. I can never reject a pack of them and while the Cinta isnt pushing me to actively collect them, I do collect ones that are free atau easy to get telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I personally believe dystopia and utopia are one in the same. atau rather, for one to exist, the other almost always exists for another.

The two go hand in hand. For every light, there is a shadow, for every shadow, there is a light. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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.... god why do I Cinta the people who fuck with the trials the most? XD

Nagito? Kokichi? Togami? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
TFW when your kegemaran of two ikon-ikon has a colorscheme that when reduced to a small ikon looks like shit so anda gotta work with your saat kegemaran telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Well my boyfriend admitted to bragging about how smart I am whenever prompted to people XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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TFW anda HAVE TWO imej THAT COULD MAKE WONDERFUL ikon-ikon BUT PIXLR IS DOWN telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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ALL HAIL KOKOCHI OUMA! telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Really I cant imagine how some people do that whole "30 years old, neck beard, in parents basement, jobless"

I have had a longer summer than the majority of people and everyone going off to college and work just gets me feeling like a lazy worthless piece of shit XD

I mean I dont take it seriously cos I know Im only on a longer break than everyone else, but man do I feel like a deadbeat lazy piece of crap XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And I dont feel like that for lebih than like three saat in the morning XD Cos I was like "Wheres my mom - oh yeah she has work now too. ... hmm... i guess ill play some video games" hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
If anda ever get close enough to me to the point I ask anda directly for affection atau comfort rather than just ranting to anda atau having a breakdown in front of you, anda know anda really are someone I trust.

Cause ranting atau breaking down is often a sign I kept things to myself too much like I do 95% of the time. If I go and just say "I need a hug, can anda hug me" atau "Im feeling bad and could really use someone to be around" atau basically anything along the lines of telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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"Im [insert negative emotion] and vulnerable, but could anda please [insert help]" cause I rarely let people I dont trust around me when I feel I might be in a vulnerable state and even when I do trust someone, its unlikely I would both tell them Im vulnerable and feeling bad AND ask them to help. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its something I SHOULD do lebih often, but it goes against every instinct and habit I am used to. Its like asking a serigala, wolf to eat tofu. I mean Im sure they probably can to some degree, but its just so unnatural hampir setahun yang lalu
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Its kind of sad that I still have to be in very specific conditions and situations to be remotely comfortable with actually thinking about any stressors that arent necessarily easily fixable let alone talk about it atau express it atau anything.

I didn't really think about it much, but other people cant control it and/or are free and selamat, peti deposit keselamatan enough feeling that they are able to let themselves feel and express their feelings and emotions even in inconvenient times telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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As much as I have worked on it, I still am not really near the emotional availability and transparency level of a normal person. hampir setahun yang lalu
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Unless I am outside of my house, around someone Im comfortable with, having a therapy session within a week atau two, and am not under time pressure atau a critical period of time, can I genuinely feel comfortable touching upon all that stuff hampir setahun yang lalu
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ENTJS ARENT AUTOMATICALLY THE MAIN VILLAIN IN EVERY SERIES XD

Me and Zeppie are memeing about how in like 80% of the charts, ENTJs are the main villain of any series XD Like cut us some slack telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Sometimes its really interesting to see how differently two people could see and view the world. Depressed VS not depressed. Creative and in Cinta with imagination / Fantasi and someone whos been lebih interested in real and worldly activities.

Even taking away psychosis and colorblindness and all that, the sheer difference in the ways we interpret the world just based on our upbringing is just honestly fascinating. Even mental health and all aside, the possibilities are astounding telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Like as someone whose dissociated a lot since as far as I remember and probably my entire life from reports from my oldest sisters, I dont think Ill ever FULLY interpret the world and take it as seriously atau feel as connected to it as people who have never dissociated before. I can recover all I want, but hte predisposition will always be there. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
atau the contrast between me and my boyfriend. As anda all know, Im VERY into stories, and characters, and fantasy, and all that creative stuff that go far beyond anything realistic. On the other hand, a lot of his interests are lebih grounded in worldly things. History, space, documentaries, racing, sports, camping, things that are physically around and that anda can see for yourself and what not. Its not to say he doesnt have an imagination, but he finds such interest in things I would otherwise call rather boring. It honestly fascinates me and while it sounds like an issue that would cause problems, its honestly part of something that intrigues me the most about the relationship. Just trying to see the world that he sees it and understand it in the way he does. Its just quite baffling hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Then just speaking in the spectrum of my own life. The sheer difference between the world when I was extremely depressed and suicidal versus now where I dont really suffer from depression outside of maybe rare bursts that can last from an jam to a week, but even then its rare. But tangents aside, the sheer difference between now and then on how the world looks and feels and all is baffling. Take that one major thing away and it literally seems like the world is brighter and lebih enjoyable and free where as it appeared dark, empty, and threatening before. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Perception, interpretation, and understanding are just such interesting topics when anda see how differently one person could experience the EXACT same situation differently, and even how one person can experience the same event at different poitns in their life and perceive, interpret, and understand it differently. This is just one of those things I like to contemplate on and find just simply amazing hampir setahun yang lalu
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Really, one of the best things I can get when Im having an anxiety / panic / traumatic breakdown is for someone to get me to look at them and remind me that Im safe.

Cos most of the time I get that thousand yard stare cos Im pretty much stuck in my head and usually getting me to focus on something around me that I am comfortable around is a bit of a nice way to slow down my brain and kind of snap me out of it.

A lot of the time I dont realize it too which is kinda funny telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Pretty much if I sound distraught and Im staring off at nothing in particular and all, I sometimes just need someone to refocus me and ground me and that can help a lot hampir setahun yang lalu
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Usually my boyfriend is really good at noticing my 'negative' angkasa outs where Im silently panicking atau stressing out in my head cos I apparently have a specific look with my usual "staring off at nothing" and hes pretty good at snapping me out of it there before it becomes a problem and tends to be a lot better at it than one would expect when he somehow gets me to vocalize it, usually when its gotten pretty bad hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I... I dont relate with much of the Libra sign much anymore.

I used to relate to a decent amount of it but not so much lately. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I should make a new ikon at some point. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Fuck Atua XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Shhhh.... He is watching over us !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I think I might be getting a cold telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
Rip. I hope anda feel better. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I think it wasnt anything serious. I mostly seem better now hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Tht's certainly good to know. Stll, take care of yourself as much as anda can !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Techno Muzik makes great exercise music. Just sayin' telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So I was looking lebih into MBTI and all (actually was awhile lalu but I was specifically looking into mine today) and letters alone and descriptions alone, I am a pretty solid ENTX

The interesting thing is the two I feel are closest to me are ENTJ and ENTP which have NO shared cognitive functions.

I will say I am sure that ENTJ is my main "default" mode, but I do feel in certain situations and cases I can very much be an ENTP. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I personally like Danganronpa cos I like mysteries and debating and arguing and high stakes and death and tragedy and all my Kegemaran dying

Its the Danganronpa experience, killing all your Kegemaran off to make anda feel true despair. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Same goes for me. Plus, the determination that is required to go through true Despair. A world filled with it as well as Hope, both countering one another. Havng the courage to still look at the Future despite the circumstances. It always felt like a pretty unique message to me. Fictional atau not, I keep being inspired regardless !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I am honestly quite tired XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
welcome Riku~hun XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Relatable as always XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
It does still baffle me a bit how people can not so simply step back from their own issues and disconnect their emotions from it to get a good Membaca on what kind of action should be done.

On the other hand, I must say I do creep myself a bit on how I can do it. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ah man I was just hit with a wave of something and my balance was knocked off. Like if yesterday I was standing in the optimal "goldilocks" zone where I had the energy and drive and optimism to go forth at things

Its like today I've been teetering and going back to sliding and running back and forth to keep myself balanced. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im honestly fine Im sure. If I sleep and wake up theres a good chance Ill probably be reset and all. Hopefully at least XD Otherwise Id have to figure this manually myself. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Maybe a hari of not playing games 70-80% of the time Im awake will do me some good. I suppose it might be causing my escapist tendencies / accusations to come back XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
But nah Im all good, its just that its uncomfortable hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Chapter 2

kegemaran Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara
Gonta Gokuhara
Ryoma Hoshi
Korekiyo Shinguji / Keebo

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

kegemaran Female Ranking:
Kirumi Tojo
Maki Haruwaka
Kaede Akamatsu
Miu Iruma
Angie Yonaga / Himiko Yumeno / Tenko Chabashira
Tsumugi Shirogane telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Also Ouma's voice actor is absolutely great hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Personally I wanna get back to working on my mental health rather than kind of putting it in a backseat, but I think its kinda easier to not wake the dragon when I have so much other things going on and cos its not really a good idea to wake the 'Mental Health Dragon' when anda cant see a therapist for a while XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So lets see. Chapter 1 of Danganronpa V3 complete

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Gonta Gokuhara
Korekiyo Shinguji
Keebo
Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
Kaede Akamatsu
Kirumi Tojo
Miu Iruma / Maki Haruwaka
Tenko Chabashira
Angie Yonaga
Himiko Yumeno / Tsumugi Shirogane telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I will do these each chapter to mark my changes in Kegemaran XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
kegemaran keseluruhan would probably be either Ouma atau Kaito. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Very good game so far hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I Cinta GONTA HES SO ADORABLE. I doubt he will be my kegemaran but I Cinta him XD Imma probably make him my child and I barely started Chapter 1 telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
The Purity is strong. TOO strong !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Having a good "why" to what anda are doing helps a lot with getting yourself going and sticking to what anda plan to do. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yeah I dont have the right to call myself an introvert at all anymore XD Im like a straight extrovert. Still selective but straight full on extrovert.

I get offered a hari to have to myself and play the three video games Im playing all hari and watching YouTube and all after having active days, and it annoys me

So Im like "I guess Ill go out to exercise later" and then am like "I wonder if I could get in touch with any Friends today. ... nah most are already off..." telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I get bored in an ENTIRE hari to myself XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Pretty relatable !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I am so not used to how HD this new laptop is telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Wow Danganronpa in just the opening screen runs SO much better on this hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I still feel really bad about upgrading cos my old one still works well... I feel like itll be lonely and its a lot of wasted potential to not be used hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I wonder what Fortnite will look like hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, maybe Im the odd card out cos my middle sister didnt care, but like... all the money going out into getting me stuff for college... like yikes.

Its a lot and I dont like spending - even money that isnt mine - so it kinda hurts to see bills of at least $100 a hari coming up. Well not EVERY hari but like almost cos we are doing small shopping trips daily. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I dont get how people can spend their money so freely. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im spending it on things college and my parents say are necessities and just... wow. Its not even my money and I dislike it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Imma get carpal tunnel atau some shit playing Project Diva: Future Tone. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I wish Luvoratory was on it XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Shit Riku Says: "Imma groom them to like the abah-abah just like a pedophile grooms a young child to have sex with them. .... It actually a very very similar process if anda just change a few details." telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm honestly really sensitive to the thought, sight, and all of child abuse atau anything like it such as tough Cinta atau whatever. I was watching a "What would anda do" haivng something similar to it and my whole body just flares up and I start to get that narrow vision shit.

And I know its actors. And I know its on TV, but part of me gets really flared up seeing it. Its the only thing that gets me so drastically and emotionally responsive other than maybe animal abuse telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And that narrow vision usually isnt too good. My therpist says its something to do with panic attacks atau whatever but it usually follows with some form of a 'fight' instinct. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I would like to say I simply hate it and cant stand for it, but if there is roughness and anger towards a child it just shakes me hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Relatable. I understand that feeling very well, dudette !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So my bird abah-abah came in today and Ill likely begin testing it out and working with it later today

Rather than starting with agoraphobic Lucy tho Imma adjust "Accepts anything Riku does" Smokey telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Captain might be pretty badly injured cos he hit a dinding really roughly. His head feathers got torn out and I think thats whats causing the minor specks of blood on his head, but theres reason to suspect he MIGHT be blind atau have poor vision right now. Ill check him out to see if he really is when hes calmed down in his cage a bit. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Hope everythings works out !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So it came up in conversation so I took the Mensa Online Pretest and apparently "have an excellent chance of passing the real exam"

And, for those that dont know, Mensa is a group for 'geniuses' with an IQ higher than 132 that my therapist bugged me about.

I think Im somewhere around the 140s atau something like that if anda convert my Pretest score?? Im like scrub tier 'genius' atau high tier 'above average' telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I also finished 8 minit early XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
When my mom had her IQ tested yeaaars ago, she was like around 165. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
OH GREAT. I got the Chem teacher so notoriously hard he is a well known meme for crushing people's souls in the school XD

Sounds like a fun challenge I suppose telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Those Teachers are the kind of people that value hard work above all, most of the time. As I berkata to anda before, I doubt anda could leave a bad impression on him !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: Great Im busy all hari on my actual birthday. I guess we could find some time either around makan malam, majlis makan malam atau on Saturday to celebrate it?

Roommate: That sounds good but we probably have a football game to go to

Me: Ah yes. "Cant make it, got band." I should feel stressed atau disappointed atau annoyed, but its honestly kinda nostalgic and peaceful. I'm kind of glad that line still exists. Makes me feel at home.

Roommate: Same telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO BUT NONE OF THEM OCCUR FOR LIKE THE seterusnya WEEK DAMN IT telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Anxiety and excitement are pretty much identical brain processes and chemicals and activity in the brain and the only thing that differentiates the two is the narrative anda have around it.

Yeah thats probably explain why the level of excitement I have for college is getting to the place where my chest is crushing like anxiety and shit XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
1 TB is so much lebih than I, even as a digital hoarder, need telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm sad now...

I'm going to be leaving behind my Lenovo Thinkpad before its had a chance to do anything wrong for me... Im sorry baby. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Having someone who has faith in anda no matter how much anda dont have faith in yourself is honestly something that can do anda wonders.

Its hard to find people willing to invest that much into someone and finding someone like that might honestly be crazy since its unnatural, but it does wonders for the recovery process. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cause when anda start to have inevitable relapses atau fall backs on your recovery process, its easy to loose faith in yourself and give up for fall into despair. But for someoen to always be rooting there from the side lines doing whatever they can to help, it can really help hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
♫ God bless the hari I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you
Let it be me

[..]

Each time we meet love
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
What would life be?

So never leave me lonely
Just tell me anda Cinta me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me

And that you'll always
Let it be me

So never leave me lonely
Tell me anda Cinta me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me ♫ telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I sound like Im making a big deal out of it, but going to Davis with a fresh start and making new Friends and rebuilding my reputation away from my old angsty image others had set from my sebelumnya years and away from my toxic family, it honestly feels like Im being telah diberi the chance to be alive and live like a normal person away from my mental health atau hand I was dealt. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Like this post was originally come out as "I can't wait to live!" but that didnt make sense without context / explanation hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cause I've already been invited to a party over there and while I dont usually like parties, someone actually bothered to invite me to one, so I might as well check it out and give it a shot? Its a going away party for my roommates friend and will be the hari I arrive and apparently shes really wanted to meet me as well hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
That is simply wonderful to know and completely natural. Just as it should be. Make the most out of it !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I still remember that one time I had a really bad sleep paralysis experience and I felt like I was literally dying while napping to Amazing Grace done sejak Phantom Regiment on repeat

Afterwards, all I could think of was how ironic is was and how, for the rest of that hari despite being kinda pretty suicidal most of the time, I didnt want to die XD

Just for that hari atau two tho. Cos I was really bad then telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yikes. Tomorrow I have the massive task that is transfering my digital hoard off my computer telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Its really interesting. Ive been playign the demo of Future Tone a good bit and theres an interesting mental skip I have when processing what to click and when where my brain never (or registers for such a short period of time I dont notice it) registers the actual button Im supposed to click.

Its like I see something on the screen and my fingers interpret it telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im not saying Im fluent cos my muscle memory isnt perfect nor does it sync perfectly with my ears and eyes to get a perfect "COOL" all the time atau anything. But I find it interesting since it has that SAME exact feeling of a skip of translation I get when I play my trumpet hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I see a note and make the fingering, usually not actually thinking of what the letter note it is before playing it unless I check back and think it sounds wrong atau something hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm SO gay for Megurine Luka. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Today was a long hari that was 70% spent in the DMV telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
anda know Im no where even near the age atau contemplation point for me to even be thinking about it since I definately do not want kids until I am rather well stable financially and extremely extremely stable within my relationship and have had time to enjoy my marriage when I get around there

Then even then Im not sure if I really want kids even then. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
WITH THAT BEING SAID, I do have a voice in my head thats like "If I were to have kids, that would be a good thing to raise them with" hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It would be a TOTAL invasion of human rights and privacy so Im not ACTUALLY for it, but its really something when anda have to get a license to drive a car but literally anyone can have a child hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Putting the adoption thing aside, I share the same beliefs on that matter !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Okay after researching Impulsivity VS Compulsivity I can say I dont have less Impulse Control issues and lebih Compulsive Issues XD

Which makes sense because no matter how much I like to put the word "minor" in front of the diagnosis without them saying its minor, I do have OCD. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly though. I have to focus really hard for like five to twenty saat to make sure my hand DOESNT do something. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It sounds silly but with how used to it I've gotten, its almost reflex that when I get that overwhelming body tension that within saat I just do whatever its telling me to do hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
So better to nip it at the bud hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE LAST LIKE THREE minit OF DANGANRONPA 3 XD

WHERE THE FUCK DID MUNAKATA WALK OFF TO - BETTER YET HOWD HE WALK ANYWHERE WHEN THEY ARE ON AN ISLAND. HE MIGHT HAVE WALKED TO A bot BUT WHY AND WHAT

AND THE ENDING MADE SENSE WITH HOPES PEAK BUT WAS KINDA ODD AND ABRUPT WUT telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
ITS SUCH A SMALL THING hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
"YOU ARE A VALUABLE ASSET. CANT anda AT LEAST TELL US WHERE SO WE CAN KEEP anda IN CONTACT: hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Dudette, anda can exclude Kyoko, Nagito and most of the DR2 Cast from the Dead List, Seiko's wish in a way didn't go to waste, so many Children appeared, were selamat, peti deposit keselamatan and ended up happy, Hope's Peak Academy was rebuilt and you'll probably have a lot of material for Fanfics and various hypotheses concerning Munakata. The Future Foundation Member is still alive as well and kicking. DR3 is over. Let THAT sink in XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Oooooh roommates are nice XD I really cant wait to go to Davis. Plus the section leaders of the trumpet section contacted me and they seem sweet and kind. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: *visiting band Friends and their band camp*

One of my Children: STOP. PLAYING. DANGANRONPA.

Me: Imma do what I damn well want to :v :v

XD I havent even been playing Danganronpa. I opened it twice to see if it was a one time thing that it wasnt running hte best on my current laptop. XD It seems to run okay on my current one but I wont play it until I get my new one. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Mauserfan1910 dikomen…
Fucking weebs playing Anime games hampir setahun yang lalu
Mauserfan1910 dikomen…
Why don't anda weeks play quality games like Cinta nikki hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I suppose your fondness for it has been made quite apparent to them XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Ya it's a real break. Hoped for it to be a simple sprain but my arm droops 45 degrees without the brace. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Meant to post this on Random. hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
@Riku deleting rude komen-komen doesn't work on me. If you're that particular about it then fine, I'll leave this up for awhile "then padam it" if it means that much to anda hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Ah nevermind. Can't be bothered hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*plans a pool party*

*forgets the reason she hasnt gone to the pantai atau swimming pool for lebih than like 20 minit is cause she doesnt have a fitting baju renang cos her bust is too big and shopping for one is hard cos its almost non-existent* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I GOT MY ROOMMATE OFFICIALLY AS A ROOMMATE

YAY telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: *walks into the band room to visit old children*

Half the Band: SATANS BACK!!! SATANS BACK!!!

I wonder how confused the new members were. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I think I have a huge bias on animated Filem cos some of my Kegemaran and most memorable ones are all bird related XD XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"Im not good at ____" "I suck at ____" are not good excuses for not doing something anda really Cinta to / like to do. Skill is something that can easily be changed with a work, perseverance, and effort.

Its not like Im saying people who dont push sejak those are bad atau just making excuses, but I hear it a lot and its kinda sad how easily those can kill people's dreams and all. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ Amen to that !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im thinking of adding Jewel to Relatable Characters senarai cos from a few scenes I rewatched from Rio, I think she has a relatively similar personality to me XD

But Id have to rewatch the movie again. Maybe the saat but I think I only own the first rn telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
From what I have seen from the first Movie only, I guess she KINDA reminds me of anda !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu