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Riku114 berkata …
Bird wound stress :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And done. 3 hours off to being a good mama bird XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Also, even though we lied and berkata the $100 we spent to get her helped was $30, my dad stil lsays it was a waste of money even though she would have likely died in the near future if we didnt hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Pretty much such lack of care for Haiwan is kinda what got my parakeet killed so *shrug* Not surprising hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
All's well that ends well for now !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Btw, meditation, stretches, and breathing gym / exercises (the ones we did when I was training with an open class DCI group) are good for loosening up body tension telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ #LefterisVerified !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
hei anda people that cheat on ikon Contests and/or have multiple accounts, can yall like just use your other accounts to peminat this club so I can reach a number which theyll let me add a background XD Thatd be cool fam

Jk jk. Id be lebih annoyed that the peminat count would be a poor representation of the people who are / were interested in this club telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I also dont even know when that number level is XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Honestly, the ability to make Multiple Accounts could be of good use. Putting cheating, trolling / spamming and deceiving others aside, certain aspects of this Website can benefit from such support !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im messing up my schedule and cant write cos Im in too pissy of a mood

I already missed an animal volunteer hari since I was busy yesterday

And Im already behind on exercising :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Fuuuck hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I need to get out of this pointlessly disgusted disappointed mood hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Some chance of pace would do anda good. Hope anda managed to relax !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
If anda are going to be a parent, please go through extensive planning before hand so anda can be responsible with it. Even if its an accident child, please plan while pregnant.

And please

Never

Use

Pregnancy

As

A

Trap

If someone wants to go, dont force them in with a child. anda are screwing over both your partner's life, and the kid that is being used.

If anda are a parent, take responsibility telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"THERE IS A SATISFACTORY AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN IN MY BRAIN RIGHT NOW CAN anda BELIEVE" ~Gyldenyovth telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
See Riku made a mistake asking me to watch Cinta Stage with her cuz now we get weird statements like "So Rape is ok so long as anda put them through hell?" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Personally, part of the reason the reason I am working mostly on my trauma and PTSD and recovering from it over all the other stuff I have is because Im like 90% sure pretty much every other issue of mine has strong roots in berkata trauma.

If I try to knock those out, theyll just come back sooner atau later if the thing they are rooted in isnt fixed first. Do such a thing is like trying to remove weeds sejak clipping them in half. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Akashi - KNB
Byakuya - Bleach
meriam - Umineko no Koro Ni
Daiki Aomine - KNB
Eggsy - Kingsman
Ferid Bathory - Owari no Seraph
Guren Ichinose - Owari no Seraph
Hibari Kyoya - KHR
Izumi Sena - Cinta Stage
James - Pokemon
Kano Shuuya - Kagerou Days
Lussuria - KHR
Misogi Kumagawa - Medaka Box / Muramasa - Bleach
Nagito Komaeda - Danganronpa
Ogami - Danganronpa
Peko Pekoyama - Danganronpa
Quill Peter - Marvel
Raikou - Nabari No Ou telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Saix - Kingdom Hearts Tsurara - Nurarihyon Ukyo - Amnesia Viral - Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagaan Wallace - Pokemon Xanxus - KHR Yuri - DDLC Zack Foster - Bidadari of Death hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm going through my YouTube "Watch Later" which is pretty much a senarai of video I saved cos I likeed them and felt Id like to see them again in the future, so if I post a lot of video on this club, thats why telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
Ya I do that a bit too much with other sites tbh. hampir setahun yang lalu
cool
GDragon612 berkata …
eyo guys I am back nowe tehehehe
so whats up in da house =D telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
hei sup XD Nothing much hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Welcome back, Kitkat. Nothing much for me either. Just trying to enjoy some of Summer's freedom. How about you? hampir setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 dikomen…
omo thank ya riku and leftie I am doing F***ing great hehe,kat is relaxed now and getting brown skin like a Chocolate *eats myself* =p hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Okay so rant time. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Part of the reason DCI is amazing - at least with the world class corps - are that they BLAST your face off while sounding great. Its one of the things that come with the name of Drum Corps and its loved. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
LAST year, a huge trend was a shit ton of amplification with microphones everywhere and shit and personally, it was quite annoying since it didnt sound nearly the same atau as good. Yeah, amplification for the soloist and shit is good and normal, but they went around pretty much amplifying the entire band and it was bleh. It actually became a sumber of Debat among people who like DCI hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Havent looked at any of the non-west coast shows yet tho. Saving that for Finals hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
There is no pair of games lebih addicting than Sonic Forces and Huniepop telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I am stubborn as hell, both for and against my own good XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
It's super annoyi-I mean charming XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
jk hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
mooooostly XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
d e p e r s o n a 1 i z a t i o n

i s

w e i r d

a s

f u c k telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Actually I only had it for like.... two minit but being slowly pushed out of your body and not being able to connect your face with your identity in the mirror for like.... that small period is weird as fuccccck hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I leave anda alone for three hours...Riku Riku Riku. Imma have to keep a closer eye on anda XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Shut up :vvv hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
UPDATE. I still kinda fear and anxiety around women that look feminine and social. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I have a really nice katil telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
anda are in Florida hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
So is my bed. Thus...I have a really nice katil that I get to lay on hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Why? What anda think I meant? hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I want to lay down on a reaaalllly nice katil telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ #Relatable !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku now officially thinks I know nothing about how rape works telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Naaah XD I was just playing with your game hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Rape isn't a game, Riku. Seriously tunjuk some restraint.... hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
They certainly wont XDDDD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
:v hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Seriously though. Its been a while since I spent 50% of the time Im awake being mildly depressed atau down / low mood for no reason and if anda remove the time Im distracted, its probably a good 80% of the time.

Sometimes it goes from mildly to kinda badly at night if Im not on my A game at countering it but... eh.

Also my scale of "mild to severe" depression might be skewed cos Im referencing it off past experiences and mannnn was a bad before.

It just really sucks keldai telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I'll be fine because its something I've had for a long while and compared to other things Ive lived through, this is literally like going back to the first dungeon in a RPG game after anda completed the game hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its not really concerning, but it just sucks ass. I should try to find some time to talk to some other people from my school and maybe hang out but thats a huuuuge step for me. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Yeee. I dunno if it is REALLY a good thing, but at the very least in the like... week atau so that Ive been on summer break, Ive probably a massed lebih hours of genuine good mood / happiness than I did all of last years summer :v yeesh last tahun summer was bad :v But Ill take that as a positive note XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Oh my goooood. That was such a friggin long hari at work.... telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
THIS ikon HELPS MY MOOD SOME HOW telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Seriously Cinta Stage has been great for keeping my mood up at night. Might watch it myself again after I finish it and might just keep rewatching it at night until summer is over. Either that atau swithc over to Romeo X juliet hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Cinta Stage is both WAY lebih gay than I remember and wayyyy cuter than I remember telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly my dad going back to actually laying a hand on my mom is really all it takes. Im like... pretty sure I might just call social services on my dad so I can perhaps go to UC Davis feeling like Im not leaving my mom alone to be beat telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Because apparently hes perfectly fine hitting my mom when my back is turned and not watching him with the constant unspoken threat that Ill kick his keldai when he tries to hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And I have been disowned sejak him for saying he deserves the deepest layer of hell, which honestly to that I say "Good riddance" hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^ hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Had to beat my dad for hitting my mom. Would have put him in a chokehold until he fainted if my mom let me. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Lefteris knows how much I want cannibalism in Danganronpa so if I don't get any from V3, I'm blaming him telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Gotta let it go, my Man XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ berkata …
Let’s watch Riku sleeping

https://imgur.com/a/DY4lSo8 telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
That kinda Creepy though... hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
Be quiet xD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I Cinta watching Riku sleep hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I'm so fucking angry....

The one time Riku actually wants to stay up and hang out and I fell asleep in my chair.

ugh....I'm just so pissed off right now.

and she's asleep so all I can do is vent in Rawak places. UGH telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
fuck my life hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
fuck my job for making me tired hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
Drink soda atau coffee xD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm honestly not used to the feeling of people liking me and wanting me just for being myself and doing nothing. Its not something my mind can bungkus, balut itself around properly. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Gotta get used to it because we wouldn't have it any differently XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Seriously tho, pretending your intrusive thoughts are some really annoying blabby outspoken person make it a lot easier XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Suggestions: 12-year old X-Box kid, annoying backseat driver, super uptight religious lady, Know it all Greg, Casper the Wanna-Be Horror Ghost hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Personally, I dont really like seeing little kids too often since it usually puts into perspective the shit I was going through.

I Cinta kids and all, but I always have that "Oh shit." moment when I realize how young I really was. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Hot diggity, I had to get new headphones cos my old ones were pretty shitty and I had to like... mess with it to hear Muzik right

And shit the ones I got my boyfriend a while back for a gift were AMAZING.

I got him better headphones than I currently had :v I mean I only buy heaphones once a tahun and usually go for whats cheap / on sale rather than anything else

But dang. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm honestly quite concerned my mom wont maintain the attention and training Ive done with Lucy and Avery over the tahun Ill be gone at UC Davis without an ability to have a pet :/ telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
Don't anda know anyone who can temporarily adopt your birds who is expert with training? hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Nah I wouldnt trust that honestly. And no not particularly cos Im the bird person in the like... entire school XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Best person I know is my older sister who is in Utah but getting them there is.... eh. hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Man I know I have to write her bio but T-T

Poor Koko....I feel bad for her having such a fucked up premise telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
:v I dont thinks shes half as bad as like 30% if not lebih of mine XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I kinda wanna play the School Days Visual Novel XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Same. I might not be a big peminat of the Series in general but it is certainly intriguing !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Fanfic: Anal bead telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
*Colorful anal bead hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
*Colorful singular anal bead hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Welp. Riku accidentally added $50 onto her Steam when she meant to wait for my response.

So I guess I don't have to be indecisive on the big commitment Danganronpa games with Riku is XD

Cuz I am now $48.58 cheaper. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
anda are welcome for me accidentally clicking "Purchase" while I was setting it up as a possibility. Now we both have Danganronpa V3 and didnt have any indecisiveness XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Welp. I literally accidentally added $50 onto my Steam when I meant to just consider, check my account, then buy it

So I guess I dont have to be indecisive about buying Danganronpa V3

Cos if I have $54 on my Steam, I might as well. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Hopefully my PC can handle it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
If not itll be put off till I proabbly get a new computer part way through atau before college XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
ACCIDENTS CAN BE SO WONDERFUL AT TIMES !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Apparently spending 3 hours cleaning bird shit makes anda smell really bad telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
atau it makes the birds smell nice hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: Im having stomach issues

Psychiatrist: Its probably the medicine - eat yogurt daily

Me: Kay *does it for a week and then stops*

*four months later*

Me: Yeah I kinda got used to stomach issues. They dont really stop so *shrug*

Mom: Its probably the medicine

Me: Yeah I was told to eat yogurt

Boyfriend: Then eat yogurt

Me: Ugh but thats so much work. Fineeeee

*literally hasnt had stomach issues since I started eating yogurt again* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Yes, I am the type that would be too lazy to ask for and eat yogurt daily even if it means Ill be having daily stomach and digestional issues everyday hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im honestly the type that takes a huge push to ask for what I need tho. Like I should probably ask for some kind of orthopedics cos my feet are getting flat af and it has been hurting lebih and lebih XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Yogurt can be really nice XD It has certainly done wonders for me !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It helps sejak lining the stomach XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Part of the reason and manner I managed to repair my mental health and stay mostly in a good mood is cause I got really good at deciphering which thoughts were necessary and which werent and avoided letting the unnecessary negative ones linger

But honestly when they last a whole day, morning to night, it gets kinda hard to keep the energy to constantly decipher which it is and sort it and mentally focus on not letting it get to you.

Yesterday was rough telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I could use some genuine affection though.

I will let that statement stay on the dinding since its true. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Never hesitate to seek it out. There are those who are genuinely willing to give it to anda !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I honeslty do not handle the social isolation (or rather demand for me to actually go and put effort into talking to people), lack of a set schedule and goal, weather, and amount of time at utama I get in summer

It just really makes summer really bad for my mental health and shit. Especially with college being added among all that for my brain to try to make me anxious atau depressive over.

It was starting yesterday and it put SO much effort to it today telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Man I just Cinta the game Sonic Forces so much. It gives me such a feeling of bliss. I even loved it so much, I wanted to invite Riku to watch.

She berkata no. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Look at her. I'm deeply saddened and she smiles. hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
A cruel mistress she is hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also I dunno if I sound like it, but I dont hate YandereDev atau anything. Its just a bit of a shattered image I had before. I still do appreciate his work towards things and his ability to chase his dream and all, plus I understand where he is coming from. I just disagree with his personality and his actions.

Personally, Im still going to follow its development, but yeah. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ugh. Its literally been two days into being out of school - a literal weekend worth

And my brain is already excited to start Summer Mental Hell-th telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Dissociation feels like that really disorientating feel when anda were REALLY deeply asleep atau engrossed into your dream and wake up completely confused as to where anda are, who everyone is, and whats going on for a good few seconds

Cept it isnt a few saat and anda werent asleep telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And Im saying this not cos of dissociation but cos I was napping in the car and kept going back to sleep when I woke up and I was and still am extremely disorientated to the point my balance is kinda off, my words are slurred and sentences make noooo sense. XD Super extremely disorientated and the length of this post-sleep disorientation is almost getting concerning hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"Why didnt anda just leave? Why didnt anda tell someone?"

I was kinda watching a Doki Doki Natsuki peminat game episode randomly and those soalan came up and honestly, when it comes to child abuse - atau abuse overall, there is a lot that goes into it. Especially if it has been long term. At that point, anda dont say anything and dont leave because its the normal and everyone anda live around seems to feed into that 'normal'. Sometimes they let anda know doing so would make things worse. etc. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Personally, even now I bite my tongue on it because personally, telling anyone who can actually do anything about it and maybe getting a bit of help to fix my family situation, is really not worth the side effects and probable disowning of everyone in my family except my oldest sister. Id rather keep those bridge open than loose financial support from my parents while Im at college for years and possibly loose my middle sister as family hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
There is A LOT that goes into it, and personally, my experience with people who do hear about the situation, they really have a hard time grasping how hard / bad of an idea actually telling people who can fix it atau leaving is, can be, atau can seem to the person being abused hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
"If someone were REALLY that bad, at that point anda would just leave?!" Honestly... no, not if that was the every day. There are a lot of people that are that bad atau worse than how Natsuki's dad was portrayed and they are never actually told about. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im trumpet sexual telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I dont even know what my brain was atau where I was in the past years.

Like... Seriously, especially in 9th grade, I was literally like... crazy. I really should have had a therapist then. But to be fair, 9th and 11th grade werent that far apart in how badly I should have had a therapist. XD Just I had one in 11th grade. Who knows how bad 11th grade could have been without one telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
My face is so badly burnt telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Gotta be careful in such a Climate. Do not stand in the Sun for long. Especially if there's isn't any sort of protection to be applied !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
Aw feel better 💐 hampir setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 dikomen…
^ hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
XD The graduation cooked our faces hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
God what the fuck is wrong with me....I don't want to worry anyone, but I had a completely 100% legit urge to mail my income tax money seterusnya tahun to Riku so she can buy a computer....

My grasp on how important it is to not waste money combined with my desire to give things to people is really scary sometimes. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^ hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I am officially graduated and officially on summer vacation!

BUT EVEN BETTER

STEAM SUMMER SALE WOO

PEOPLE GET AMNESIA WHILE ITS $3

sertai MY CULT telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS, RIKU !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly though, I dont really like eating with my whole family atau doing family events without my boyfriend simply because I just feel out of place, awkward, and like a sore thumb. It usually just feels like Im intruding atau just dont simply mesh with the people there and the conversations they talk about so I honestly kinda avoid eating with them.

Thus why I kinda DONT want a graduation dinner. Its just... eh. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
If I could have one with just one of my sisters, then one with the other, cool. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
But just everyone together its just... eh. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Tomorrow I graduate for real. Wooooo.

Finally done with high school XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly tho kinda feels weird to be joining the Fanpop College Kids Club cos Ive always been the like... little maknae of the people XD hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Also, I welcome anda to the Club XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So i have my sims on Free Will and try not to intervene much out of guiding them to fufill wishes and I ended up on a tarikh with one of my RP characters since he asked me out

>character is known for being mentally unstable and psychotic / psychopathic
>arrives to a completely empty lot
>empty lot is sejak menyeberang, cross roads
>tries to watch a movie but instead goes to tour the theatre
>dumpster dives with date
>gets nauseous and vomits
>chases deer
>apparently the tarikh ended at some point telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Meanwhile Wanta's tarikh with an RP character consisted of her complaining, them lookign at a painting, then splitting up hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku: "Dammit Wanta! I was expecting anda to say something serious!"

Wanta: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WCFbdOOmOY telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Once you've gotten to the point of hating yourself and wanting to die and trying stuff recommended for BFRB, nuri, burung nuri feather pulling, self mutilation, and drug addiction to stop plucking, anda gain a large resistance to the disheartening feels of a relapse since its hard to hold yourself accountable atau to have your hopes dropped when anda kinda never had them high in the first place telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It really wont go away until things are fully handled, and thats in the best situation. I am just kind of still trying a bit out of formality and stubbornness hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
But really, try to not do something most people dont do for like.... 9-10 years straight with little success despite massive effort, research, attempts, trials, methods, etc. At a certain point, it just becomes the usual annoying friend anda got paired up with hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Literally looked into a long scientific lab lapor on nuri, burung nuri feather plucking and trichotillomania in hopes itd bring up some interesting information. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly my parents are so disgustingly judgmental and in denial over it.

Like pretty much assuming my sister is aspirationless, goalless, and doesnt want to do anything / CANT do anything because she cant / wont answer their soalan right away.

I tried explaining my older sister's reasoning, backing, and shit cos they were trash talking her in front of me and my oldest sister is the one Ill defend to the death

And just right over their head and ignored telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Talking to them about anything that doesnt fit their initial view of hwo things are is like arguing with a three tahun old plugging their ears going "LALALALALALA I CANT HEAR YOU" cos they dont listen at all hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Rikus kegemaran character from G-Senjou no Maou would likely be Tokita Yuki atau just Maou. Blind's would prolly be Shiratori Mizuha. Lefteris I would say....eh....Haru atau Ei-chan.

Clearly for me Haru is the best. My kegemaran sejak a wide margin.

God I loved that game. I might play another 50 hours of it just cuz I Cinta the characters so much...or I might hold out for Riku to get the game and I might watch her read it XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Additional thought: Miwa Tsubaki's excessively positive attitude might also make her a kegemaran of Lefteris' hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ It seems that my affection for the Cheerful Types has been made apparent huh? XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Putting that aside, they look pretty interesting. I'm especially intrigued sejak Haru from I have seen so far. I can say the same though for the Girls anda mentioned for the others XD I'll have to play the Game and see !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also, anda dont realize how much tension plucking removes until anda start doing it atau a substitute for it (shaving) and feel the odd, subtle, but strong euphoria and whole body relaxation

Its honestly like a drug. Kind of why I have yet to be able to ever stop completely over the past nine atau so years.

Quite literally I've looked up ways to stop Trich and other BFRBs, self harm and cutting, and drug addiction and little of it has actually helped telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Oh and no worries XD Im not annoyed atau frustrated atau anything like that. I just was making a joke below and felt like rambling a bit less jokingly about it. Personally my approach to it is to keep a subtle attempt but until I get my main stressors fixed, I doubt Ill actually be able to lessen the plucking to the degree I want. Its too deeply entangled in PTSD, GAD, OCD, dissociation, and all to be able ot be removed first. If anything, its probably the last thing Ill be able to handle. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Just because any one of the others can easily bring it back in five saat atau less hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
No but the post below XD

I was going to take a shit before katil and I was like "Geesh my legs are hairy. anda know I could let off some tension sejak shaking small really hairy patches on my leg instead of pluckign which is 99.99% healthier"

Then look shaved a little too much

So then I just berkata fuck it and shaved a chunk to make it even

Then berkata fuck it and shaved the whole left anak lembu to make it look right

Then realized I had to do the same to my right anak lembu telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Quite honestly tho, this is the only reason my legs get shaved 75% of the time. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Help. I accidentally shaved my left leg telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I think Riku fits into a new category I'm dubbing "Utsudere" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
whats that XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Utsu means strike atau hit XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
O-oh... god...

I was bored and now Im finding major shit on YandereDev's character and personality..

...

I mean I still like his goals and his personality he can tunjuk on the channel but...

uh.... why do all the youtubers I have turn out to have majorly assholish genuine characters..?

I wonder how Markiplier is doing. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Thats sad. I used to like him but hes a bit.... of a... er... hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Ugh. XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Still gonna follow the progress but Imma just kinda ignore his whining hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Shh. Riku doesnt know I gave up on forcing myself to eat during my lunch breaks. If she finds out, she’ll hassle me telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
*Tells Riku* !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
:v hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I am REALLY good with anxious Haiwan apparently.

Theres this dog I was helping watch for a few hours for reason I cant elaborate for and apparently hes super scared of and barks / tries to bite 98% of strangers excluding my older sister and apparently me.

In fact, he kissed my face within like... 15 saat of knowing me cos I gave him like.... 5 saat to sniff my hand, 5 saat of head scratch, then like went right up to his face XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im really good with most Haiwan tbh. Cos I have never encountered a situation where someones like "Oh he usually doesnt like strangers" and NOT had the animal Cinta me atau at least like me immediately hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Haiwan have their way of sensing Kindness and Love. It is only natural !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I referred to it as “they could sense she was genuine” hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Was randomly humming when I realized I just somehow seamlessly transitioned from Bleach to Taylor pantas, swift and then into Pokemon bike Muzik telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I am taking applications for people to be my dad for Fathers Day. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
jk jk dark humor XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly Fathers hari is pretty meaningless to me. Never really meant anythign since my dad is much lebih likely to throw a tantrum, get upset, and start doing annoying shit if we were to mention it than anything else. Since he has this thing about celebrating holidays that pisses him off. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ Uhhh... Sure... *Brings the whip* When do anda want to get started, Wantaboy? hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
anda see, I know Im an extrovert - a highly selective one at that - because my definition of "me time" isnt Membaca a book, watching TV, atau doing something on my own

It usually refers to time being sejak the computer atau doing casual calm stuff like walks atau watching TV with people I find relaxing, simple, and can be comfortable around and just lounge doing nothing

RARELY do I ever think of actually spending "me time" alone telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
If only there was a way anda could combine watching TV AND being sejak the computer.... hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Google : How to get social things done at the same time as sleeping? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Oh shit thats high level dissociation hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I dont think I could let myself do that :v hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: Im so tired

Me: I should probably sleep

"Then anda should. anda sound tired"

Me: Nah. I havent been awake long enough. ... I mean had free time enough

"Is there anything anda are craving to do rn then?"

Me: Sleep.

Me: ... but I wont telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
#Relatable !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*curls up in a ball of tired*

tomorrow is possibly / probably lebih tiring and annoying telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
#Same !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also, after the band banquet, I am glad to leave behind a legacy in the band and school. I raised so many children and so many of them are major band leaders, people taking part in activities, and major people in the school.

It makes me glad. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly, no one wants me to leave :v hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I know the feeling. anda going to Davis sucks keldai cuz anda won't be online NEARLY as much. hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
It is only understandable after this long. A person like anda would certainly be missed !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly I just kind of want to talk about something. A lot of my band knows me as the Rookie Collector / Dad / Satan and all that stuff, and its very fitting and everything. I put A LOT of work into gaining those titles

But really, there was one person - Jacob Gordon - who literally probably put my character on the path to the nice place it is now lebih than most others. He was the person that took ME in as a rookie and honestly was the person that made me want to stay in band telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I used to be really angsty, really depressed, and really didn't want to involve myself with people and for the most part, felt like a bit worthless and excluded in the band and all. I pretty much kinda expected that to continue and really just kinda went passively through my trumpet playing and my socializing and he kinda just busted himself in my life because he noticed me and my friend at the time playing Pokemon, that to the point that, despite my poor playing ability, he berkata hed want me and my friend to be his left and right hand when he becomes section leader. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly, it took a while for it to fully set in, but it really changed my whole view of band and probably people as a whole. I actually felt welcome and like there was someone there who I could kinda look to for how to act in the band and everything. I was really excited to be his right hand even tho I didnt feel it was anywhere in view, but he ended up suddenly saying he wouldnt be attending the school seterusnya year. Never told me why. Just berkata he was switching to the neighbor school hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Well said. He certainly sounds like a great person !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku is a very oddly fellow. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
Riku is a very oddly tired fellow. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^ hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^^ !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Like if anda too have an irrational fear of spiders telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
YEP !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
SilentForce dikomen…
I don't hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
My fear is entirely rational hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
hari 834: Riku still doesnt understand the concept of being just straight atau just gay. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
34? hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Rule 34? hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I see your game hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I just beat Riku at math telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Come and get me UC Davis hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
What is your life indeed. I know it can hurt to always be saat best, but anda have to understand that some of us just have a natural talent for the precise sciences. hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
If anda work hard at it, anda could even be 3/8 the math wiz I am. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I've been asked this before, but my memory loss / memory failures pretty much stretch back... two atau three tops. Its after that point that my memory gets really foggy if really existent at all.

I have a really strong procedural and declarative memory which makes it so I can excel in school, but episodic / autobiographical memory is literal shit.

The furthest back I can clearly remember can be as short as like... a few days to a week. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
The furthest back I can decently remember is probably a couple weeks. And the furthest back I can honestly expect myself to reliably remember is a couple months atau so if anda arent asking for specifics hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Like IRL Friends like teasing me over back tracking Rawak yet notable details of the days and seeing me buffer XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Most of my memories kinda become a blur really quickly tho. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"You gotta have that amnesiac goldfish memory looked at" ~Wanta @ Riku 2018

:v :v :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Seriously, anda dont realize how bad my memory is until anda talk to me a lot for like... a tahun straight hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cos then anda get me being like "nope. No memory of that" to something huge XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
It is certainly quite the agreeable Quote XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I dunno, some how at some point, I came to really like Yuri's psychoness at least as an aesthetic and ended up solidifying her as a favorite?

I think this is the power of me actually giving titles to characters.

Once I give them a special title, its like adding a multiplier to how much I Cinta them for no other reason than the fact I decided to make it official and rank them special XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its quite interesting though. Psychoness tend to make me like them lebih keseluruhan atau as a relatable character, but oddly it adds to her waifuness. Which I know isnt odd overall, but for me I tend to not find much in insane girls as waifus. For the most part I like the firm and self confident atau the really cute and soft ones hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
This is why I don't write side stories. Like...friggin living up to the bar Riku set is so stressful... telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
If I could get personal angkasa that would be niceee.. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
atau silence / noise quiet enough I can block it out wtih Muzik hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I am definitely going to buy anda some noise cancelling earmuffs atau something. hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
*makes an image sunting of a character Riku used to be obsessed with*

Riku: "who dat?"

Me: *walks to corner of depression* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
hei I WAS PRETTY SURE BUT MAKING SURE hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
PLUS IM TIRED AS SHIT WITH A HEADACHE SO STFU XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
anda all saw hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
If Yuri is Libitina, shell probably be lebih of a kegemaran of mine XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I can see why XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I have a bad headache and am sore... telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
A Q U A

G O T

N O R T E D telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack_ berkata …
I’m just going to hide here 😅because my last post on Rawak supposed to be funny but now I’m just scared xD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So me and Wanta started playing Sims, him watching me and we are working on making the RP characters on there.

So far the two interactions between the three we made (two being as pets XD) is very accurate to how theyd probably be in the RP telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Sims could provide a good ground for the RP indeed XD hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I could make a reality tunjuk off the drama I had to deal with today telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Its so interesting change of events that Aqua is now dark and shit dude. She got Norted telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Seriously.... That was a hugeee bomb drop and the creators are like "lol anda guys reacted just as much to this as Frozen for real???" hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cos Aqua is so.... so much of the face of #TeamLight hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
No one really thought shed go dark hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"Imbeciles... anda would knowingly shackle your hati, tengah-tengah to a chain of memories born of lies? anda would be one who has a heart, yet cast aside your heart's freedom?! anda turn from the truth because your hati, tengah-tengah is weak.... anda will never defeat me!"

Literally have been listening to those 34 saat on repeat as my "music" for the past three days. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, there was a point when Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts felt like a really large extended metaphor for the extreme emptiness and apathy I had so there was actually a point when I mentally had the entire concept of Organization XIII on my relatable senarai XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
That being said, I was told sejak they who shall not be named that anda couldnt identify with an entire game XD Which I wasnt cos I never really got to that point, but it was really close to me back then and did help make sense of my mind at the time hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I have a much higher preference and care for characters seen in KH 358/2 days tbh. Mostly because it was my first game that made me fall in Cinta with Kingdom Hearts. So where as the Organization XIII might be something that popped in after KH2 and a bit in it, but to me SORA popped into the story after hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Organization XIII are the OGs for me and the characters I personally care the most about. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Dude so hyped for the seterusnya ikon round. Just made probably the most complex ikon that took the most time for me to make in a long while if over all. 11 layers on pixlr to make it and I personally think I captured what I meant to display pretty well. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Also Wanta will always be better at text than me hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
Isn't today just lovely tho? hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Also, you're welcome XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly though. My older-middle sister seems to have gone from spoiled to "princess" "Im entitled to ____".

Like Im not kidding, she claimed to have a right to have a reserved restaurant graduation celebration in Beverly Hills with all her Friends being paid for my my parents with none of the money coming from her own pocket atau her Friends pocket

Plus she was SUPER upset me and my oldest sister were pointing out how expensive that is telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Then proceeded to trash talk me and twist my words and lie to make me evil in the eyes of my mom who wasnt here and when I couldnt argue cause she can cry faster and louder hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Shes all like "Dad says its fine" but like... my dad will say anything is fine when it comes to money since he refuses to let us know anything on our financial situation and would never admit hes failing atau is limited at the only thing hes worth for in this family hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly I just needed to get that out of my system when I wasn't in a bad mental state hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Bidadari of Death the Anime starts July 6, 2018 apparently so #Hype for that too telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
But Riku doesnt watch Anime anymore hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I also should really cut back in how much I jokingly say "Imma stab someone" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
#Yangire !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Well apparently I tested on my Math Placement test with 7 points higher than the minimum for the hardest class I could take and 3 higher than the minimum Trig sub score XD

I mean Imma go for the saat hardest since Math 21M says "Should only be considered if anda got a 5 on the AP Calculus BC exam" and I got a 3 on that one XD So Imma be selamat, peti deposit keselamatan and not kill myself the first tahun telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
That's certainly good to know XD !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Messenger on Fanpop is the only website that lags for me. #MySacrifice telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
I meant Facebook hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
But now that I think of it, Fanpop's messenger thing is also super shitty and always lags my stuff out when I'm on it hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
So it still works hampir setahun yang lalu
wantadog dikomen…
But mostly its Facebooks messenger that fucks up my computer. hampir setahun yang lalu