Darkness, Cold, Emptiness, and Fear
Things i live with in this pit of despair
A monster that hungers for lebih each day
A mother as cold as the ground where i sleep
No light to guide me as i wonder along
No warmth to surround me as i shiver in the cold

The beast within me pounds away
Pulling, poking, ripping, and tearing
My soul crumbles a little each day
Cold eyes stare at me with disgust and indifference

I reach for her to hold me
She turns and throws me away
I grab on to her to heal me
She hurts me even more
I plead with her to make the pain stop
She punishes me and sends me back to the dark

The sun blinds me and i seek the dark
The hati, tengah-tengah that once beat within me has withered away like dust
The cold doesn't make me shake, instead it rocks me to sleep
There is no joy atau warmth here, no selamat, peti deposit keselamatan place to hide
There is only death, pain, and madness
Here in this prison of mine

My mind is never clear
Thoughts of killing satisfy the beast
Thoughts turned to action, the blood against my cheek
This is where the warmth begins, as the room turns to red
The corpse lays there lying, lying forever dead
The floor that i make my bed, this thing now lays outstretched
The blood provides the warmth as i lay my weary head
The monster sleeps momentarily as i feel the tears begin to fall
Just as i feel sleep upon me, she pulls me out again

She never lets me rest, the monster never sleeps
My blood runs blacker than the room in which i sleep
No kind words to comfort me, no sympathy in my sorrow
Just the cold painful arms, of a woman without love
She pushes me on, when all i want is peace
My blood reminds me of my plight
And of how my body shakes and shivers with fright
Bruised, Battered, Deprived, Frightened and Alone
This is the way my utama is, the way i survive
My Blood is as black as the future i see before me