This is my first attemt at a poam! plz tell me wat u think in a comment!
hari after hari I wonder,
I wonder why I am the way I am.
Depressed, suicidal, and unloved,
Guess its the sarrow in my soul.
For hours and hours every day,
I sit and think until my head hurts.
Think about my loved ones ive lost,
Wonder why them.
Why Why WHY,
Why not me.
All I have of them is now memorys and pictures,
I look through my foto-foto of me and my family.
Remembering when life was easier,
When I didnt have to worry about anything.
When I was care free, a happy child!
Damn this sarrow in my soul!
Everyday I look in the mirror at myself,
And I wonder how could anyone Cinta me.
And hope that one hari I am different,
Different but normal cuz right now I am a freak!
I soalan why I make everyone I Cinta miserable,
but I know the reason!
Im just all fake smiles and laughs,
I have been for years now.
But if u look into my troubled eyes ull find self-hatred to my self!
Damn this sarrow in my soul!!!
I lay in my katil and remember,
Remember my loved ones!
That I despritly need,
That I miss!
I burst out in tears and bury my face in my pillow,
And scream and cry out in pain at the memorys!
I wipe my face and walk over to my foto album,
And gasp and wince at the pain in my chest as I stare at the picture of my happy grandparents!
I feel my legs give out, and the impact of my falling to my knees,
I cry for hours and hours til I cant possably cry anymore!
Holding on to what little I have left of my grandparents,
Storys of my grandfather that I never got to meet!
And Memorys and amazing storys of my grandmother,
Who died before I became a teenager!
Wishing She was here to help me,
And tell me the words I long for!
Which are “smile girlie brighter days are coming baby girl! I Cinta u Jammi!”,
And for her to hole me close and say everything is alright!
Damn this sarrow in my soul,
I condtently wonder!
Wonder if when I have a daughter
if she will look like her!
I pray she will,
That she'll be just as beautiful as her!
I drop to the ground,
I feel so weak!
Without her,
I wonder what life would be with here here with me!
I wish the pain would go away,
I wish my hati, tengah-tengah would stop hurting!
I wish I could feel love,
I denie my future!
And I live in the past so I'll never forget,
But its time for me to let go of the past!
So I wont feel this sarrow in my soul,
So I can feel love!
So I can tunjuk love,
So I can put on a smile for my family, for my friends, and for my man!
I just hope she knows that I Cinta her and the I always will,
And that I miss her lebih and lebih everyday of my life!
That ill never ever forget her!
But I must let go of my sarrow!
Its time for me to live in the presant,
And let go of this sarrow in my soul!
hari after hari I wonder,
I wonder why I am the way I am.
Depressed, suicidal, and unloved,
Guess its the sarrow in my soul.
For hours and hours every day,
I sit and think until my head hurts.
Think about my loved ones ive lost,
Wonder why them.
Why Why WHY,
Why not me.
All I have of them is now memorys and pictures,
I look through my foto-foto of me and my family.
Remembering when life was easier,
When I didnt have to worry about anything.
When I was care free, a happy child!
Damn this sarrow in my soul!
Everyday I look in the mirror at myself,
And I wonder how could anyone Cinta me.
And hope that one hari I am different,
Different but normal cuz right now I am a freak!
I soalan why I make everyone I Cinta miserable,
but I know the reason!
Im just all fake smiles and laughs,
I have been for years now.
But if u look into my troubled eyes ull find self-hatred to my self!
Damn this sarrow in my soul!!!
I lay in my katil and remember,
Remember my loved ones!
That I despritly need,
That I miss!
I burst out in tears and bury my face in my pillow,
And scream and cry out in pain at the memorys!
I wipe my face and walk over to my foto album,
And gasp and wince at the pain in my chest as I stare at the picture of my happy grandparents!
I feel my legs give out, and the impact of my falling to my knees,
I cry for hours and hours til I cant possably cry anymore!
Holding on to what little I have left of my grandparents,
Storys of my grandfather that I never got to meet!
And Memorys and amazing storys of my grandmother,
Who died before I became a teenager!
Wishing She was here to help me,
And tell me the words I long for!
Which are “smile girlie brighter days are coming baby girl! I Cinta u Jammi!”,
And for her to hole me close and say everything is alright!
Damn this sarrow in my soul,
I condtently wonder!
Wonder if when I have a daughter
if she will look like her!
I pray she will,
That she'll be just as beautiful as her!
I drop to the ground,
I feel so weak!
Without her,
I wonder what life would be with here here with me!
I wish the pain would go away,
I wish my hati, tengah-tengah would stop hurting!
I wish I could feel love,
I denie my future!
And I live in the past so I'll never forget,
But its time for me to let go of the past!
So I wont feel this sarrow in my soul,
So I can feel love!
So I can tunjuk love,
So I can put on a smile for my family, for my friends, and for my man!
I just hope she knows that I Cinta her and the I always will,
And that I miss her lebih and lebih everyday of my life!
That ill never ever forget her!
But I must let go of my sarrow!
Its time for me to live in the presant,
And let go of this sarrow in my soul!
When these pillars get pulled down,
It will be anda who wears the crown,
And I’ll owe everything to you
How much pain has cracked your soul?
How much Cinta could make anda whole?
You’re my guiding lightning strike
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
I belong to you
Then she attacks me like a Leo,
When my hati, tengah-tengah is perpecahan, berpecah like Rio,
But, I assure anda my debts are real
I can’t find the words to say,
When I’m confused,
I can’t find the words to say,
anda are my mu-
(Ah! Reponds a ma tendresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Ahhh verse – moi l’I’vresse,
I belong,
I belong to anda alone)
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I can’t find the words to say,
I belong to anda
It will be anda who wears the crown,
And I’ll owe everything to you
How much pain has cracked your soul?
How much Cinta could make anda whole?
You’re my guiding lightning strike
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
I belong to you
Then she attacks me like a Leo,
When my hati, tengah-tengah is perpecahan, berpecah like Rio,
But, I assure anda my debts are real
I can’t find the words to say,
When I’m confused,
I can’t find the words to say,
anda are my mu-
(Ah! Reponds a ma tendresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Ahhh verse – moi l’I’vresse,
I belong,
I belong to anda alone)
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I can’t find the words to say,
I belong to anda