I have been in the dark, i have been lost. That was the image i had of my life, cause actually there had been nothing like that. My human memory was gone, but different to the others.- i never had one. So it wasnt really a suprise that i wondered sometimes if i even had a life before, or if i got born a Vampire. Of course that was nonsense, Carlisle told me that time and time again. He came to the decision that my life probably was very painful, and that with my change, my mind blocked it constantly.
I had tried to find things out, but at the end of the day it didnt matter. I had found everything i always wanted, a family and that someone i could releigh on. It was an open secret that Jasper and myself shared a connection that the others couldnt fully understand. I found him before he searched for me, or knew that he would. It was his wildness and my kind mind that fitted together perfectly. Without words we would have a conversation. Just like Edward and myself.
Yeah. Edward Cullen. Probably the most stubborn person i knew, right after his human love Bella Swan. I loved him, and he was without a doubt my favourite brother. Not that i didnt love Emmett but that was different. Latley we had arguments, and they were always going into the same direction: Bella. I knew his fears and i knew his mind perfectly well, but the fact was.- the vision hadnt changed. I still saw her like one of us, and things would have been so much easier. He wouldnt have to take care all the time, and a bit of myself wanted it to happen so badly.- cause of Jasper. He was in pain, whenever she was around. That had to change.
It was still early in the morning, and he probably had just returned from Bella. His clothes were the same, so i did the maths. He looked at me, again lost in thoughts.
Edward Cullen: ''Dont start it, Alice.''
Alice Cullen: ''I saw it again. Its not like something i can put off, you know that.''
Edward Cullen: ''I havent decided.''
Alice Cullen: ''Maybe your mind hasnt, but deep inside you have. Otherwise i wouldnt see it happening.''
Edward Cullen: ''You have been wrong before... .''
The only reason why we had that conversation loud, was the fact that no one else was around. I didnt plan it like that, but i didnt fight the others going for their hunt. Being alone with Edward probably would make things easier.
Alice Cullen: ''But i love her. And its unfair that i cant have more time with her. All would be easier... .''
Edward Cullen: ''Really? Just like the fact that she would have to leave her family... .''
Okay he was definatley angry now, his voice had changed and for a moment i heard him growl. But i wasnt scared, we had been there before. Of course it was true, Charlie and Renee would be upset.- but if he wanted a future with the girl, it had to happen. I didnt say today, but it had to. For him, for her and for the family.
To be Continued by EDWARD CULLEN ONLY