Fiona Coyne stared out of the window of the shiny black car that her mother had arranged to drive her to her destination. The buildings all seemed to smear into a huge blur outside the window.
She couldn't believe she had let holly J talk her into this. Today would be her first hari back at Degrassi.
Just her alone. No twin brother beside her this time. It was her fault, she knew. She was jealous, and acted like a immature brat. That was the reason her mother thought she was ill, and the reason Declan no longer wanted to be around her. Somehow during the years of never staying in one place long enough to make any Friends that the Coynes had endured, Fiona learned it was in her best interest not to even bother allowing herself to become close with another. Except Declan, he was a constant. Always sejak her side, moving where she would. She could count on him like no other. She loved her brother, but somewhere in time she just became too attached.
When she had kissed him at the party she had shocked even herself. But Fiona hadn't known any better, she didn't know of the consequences. She felt she was losing the only constant in her life, a thought she couldn't stand.
Why couldn't anyone understand her side?
"Why should they?" She whispered to herself, not really caring if the driver would overhear. Everyone thought she was crazy anyhow.
The driver pulled up in front of Degrassi High, and informed Ms. Coyne that they had arrived.
Fiona grabbed her bag, and stepped out in front of the school. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and readied herself.
"Fiona!" A voice called, snapping her from her thoughts and not to mentioning stopping her hati, tengah-tengah for a few moments.
"Holly J, are anda trying to give me a hati, tengah-tengah attack?" She snapped.
"Lighten up, Fi. I was just excited to see anda is all." The tone in holly Js voice sounded concerned, and instantly Fiona felt deep regret.
"Sorry. I should've snapped at anda like that. Your my best friend...my only friend," Fiona felt a few tears spill as she berkata that, "You've been nothing but amazing, and I've just been being a bitch."
"Your going through a rough time, Fiona. Perfectly understandable." holly jay smiled, "I'll always be your friend."
"You don't think I'm ill? I made out with your boyfriend, my brother for crying out loud!" Fiona demanded a little too loudly, which caused a few odd stares from other students. "What the hell is wrong with you? What the hell is wrong with me?"
"Sure, its not your proudest moment, but I'm not mad at anda Fiona. We all mess up." holly sighed.
They both noticed the time and decided that it was best to head to first class atau they'd both be in big trouble. They were late as it was, and this wasn't how Fiona wanted to be welcomed back at Degrassi.
*~*
It was near the end of Fionas first hari back. She already couldn't wait to get out of there.
She found it too hard to concentrate when all her thoughts went back to one person...Declan.
She opened her locker, and grabbed a few items needed for her seterusnya class. Just as she was about to shut her locker, she spotted a half empty vodka bottle on her bahagian, atas shelf. Quickly glancing to each of her sides, she then grabbed the bottle and raised it to her lips.
"Fiona!" A voice made her jump and nearly drop the glass bottle in her hands.
It was him. What was he doing in degrassi? Maybe that voice was all in her head, she was crazy after all. She raised the bottle again.
"Fiona, are anda crazy? What is that? Vodka? Since when are anda a drinker?" The voice questioned.
She internally groaned. Of course he'd be the one to finally catch her.
"Hello to anda to brother dearest." She muttered sarcastically.
"Answer me, Fi. What were anda thinking?"
"I was thinking that I'm alone. I was thinking that drinking would help me feel better. I was thinking that no one would even notice. Guess what? I thought right." She was not in the mood for Declan to act like a good brother now. He was the one who berkata she needed help that he couldn't give her. This bottle helped her, now couldn't he just leave her alone?
"Getting drunk is not the way to solve your problems. Come on, we both know your smarter then that." He argued.
"What are anda even doing here?" She glared, ignoring the subject at hand.
"As soon as your plane left I felt horrible. Like I was the worse brother ever, and I got on the seterusnya flight to Degrassi. I needed to apologize, for everything Fi." She was surprised, he even sounded sincere.
"It seems we both have a lot to apologize for." She sighed, "I acted like a spoiled brat, but I did because your my brother, and I Cinta you."
He pulled her into a hug. She wrapped her arms around his neck, and smiled. She missed him so much.
They stayed that way for a while, until she felt a tap on her shoulder.She pulled away from her twin and turned around to see holly J.
Declan was the first to speak. "Holly."
"Declan," She breathed, "You're back."
"Yeah, I had some unresolved problems I needed to fix. I've been a jerk to the people I love, including you. I'm sorry."
"It's going to take a while to earn my trust back anda know." holly smirked, "But I forgive you."
Declan and holly J smiled at eachother. Suddenly Fiona felt as though those two were in their own little bubble. Instead of feeling lonliness atau Jealousy like Fiona normally would, she felt in awe watching the two. They looked so happy and so in love, it was adorable.
"Well, what are anda waiting for? Kiss" They wasted no time, and fiona squealed, clapping her hands.
"Have fun lovebirds. I've got my eyes on my own cutie." She walked to catchup with Adam who was walking out of the front doors of Degrassi with Eli and Clare.
"Fiona, hey." Adam smiled nervously. He truly liked her and he always was so nervous around her. She found it too cute.
"Hey Adam, who're your friends?" Fiona looked at the tall dark haired boy. He looked goth, and dressed in all black. And then there was the girl with short curly brown hair. They looked like complete opposites. The goth boy had his arm wrapped around the preppy girls waist, so they must be together. Well they do say opposites attract, Fiona thought, and they look like a cute couple.
"Oh, uh, Fiona this is Eli" He gestured to the goth boy who simply nodded and mumbled a small "hey", "And that's Clare." The preppy girl smiled widely and held out her hand.
"It's nice to meet you. Your Declans sister right?" Clare asked.
"Yeah thats me. It's nice to meet anda too."
"Well, Fiona, I have a feeling we'll be great friends. We'll be seeing a lot of each other afterall, since anda and adam are going to be hanging out a lot." She added a wink at adam.
Fiona and Adam both blushed looking down. It was so obvious they liked each other.
Fiona felt completely happy and at ease. Everything was finally falling right into place.
*~*
Wish anda were here,
wish anda well
If you'd only share this hell,
But anda leave and the stains are left on me
I wish you, I wish anda were here
*~*
Sorry if this was awful. It's been a while, I feel rusty :S
She couldn't believe she had let holly J talk her into this. Today would be her first hari back at Degrassi.
Just her alone. No twin brother beside her this time. It was her fault, she knew. She was jealous, and acted like a immature brat. That was the reason her mother thought she was ill, and the reason Declan no longer wanted to be around her. Somehow during the years of never staying in one place long enough to make any Friends that the Coynes had endured, Fiona learned it was in her best interest not to even bother allowing herself to become close with another. Except Declan, he was a constant. Always sejak her side, moving where she would. She could count on him like no other. She loved her brother, but somewhere in time she just became too attached.
When she had kissed him at the party she had shocked even herself. But Fiona hadn't known any better, she didn't know of the consequences. She felt she was losing the only constant in her life, a thought she couldn't stand.
Why couldn't anyone understand her side?
"Why should they?" She whispered to herself, not really caring if the driver would overhear. Everyone thought she was crazy anyhow.
The driver pulled up in front of Degrassi High, and informed Ms. Coyne that they had arrived.
Fiona grabbed her bag, and stepped out in front of the school. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and readied herself.
"Fiona!" A voice called, snapping her from her thoughts and not to mentioning stopping her hati, tengah-tengah for a few moments.
"Holly J, are anda trying to give me a hati, tengah-tengah attack?" She snapped.
"Lighten up, Fi. I was just excited to see anda is all." The tone in holly Js voice sounded concerned, and instantly Fiona felt deep regret.
"Sorry. I should've snapped at anda like that. Your my best friend...my only friend," Fiona felt a few tears spill as she berkata that, "You've been nothing but amazing, and I've just been being a bitch."
"Your going through a rough time, Fiona. Perfectly understandable." holly jay smiled, "I'll always be your friend."
"You don't think I'm ill? I made out with your boyfriend, my brother for crying out loud!" Fiona demanded a little too loudly, which caused a few odd stares from other students. "What the hell is wrong with you? What the hell is wrong with me?"
"Sure, its not your proudest moment, but I'm not mad at anda Fiona. We all mess up." holly sighed.
They both noticed the time and decided that it was best to head to first class atau they'd both be in big trouble. They were late as it was, and this wasn't how Fiona wanted to be welcomed back at Degrassi.
*~*
It was near the end of Fionas first hari back. She already couldn't wait to get out of there.
She found it too hard to concentrate when all her thoughts went back to one person...Declan.
She opened her locker, and grabbed a few items needed for her seterusnya class. Just as she was about to shut her locker, she spotted a half empty vodka bottle on her bahagian, atas shelf. Quickly glancing to each of her sides, she then grabbed the bottle and raised it to her lips.
"Fiona!" A voice made her jump and nearly drop the glass bottle in her hands.
It was him. What was he doing in degrassi? Maybe that voice was all in her head, she was crazy after all. She raised the bottle again.
"Fiona, are anda crazy? What is that? Vodka? Since when are anda a drinker?" The voice questioned.
She internally groaned. Of course he'd be the one to finally catch her.
"Hello to anda to brother dearest." She muttered sarcastically.
"Answer me, Fi. What were anda thinking?"
"I was thinking that I'm alone. I was thinking that drinking would help me feel better. I was thinking that no one would even notice. Guess what? I thought right." She was not in the mood for Declan to act like a good brother now. He was the one who berkata she needed help that he couldn't give her. This bottle helped her, now couldn't he just leave her alone?
"Getting drunk is not the way to solve your problems. Come on, we both know your smarter then that." He argued.
"What are anda even doing here?" She glared, ignoring the subject at hand.
"As soon as your plane left I felt horrible. Like I was the worse brother ever, and I got on the seterusnya flight to Degrassi. I needed to apologize, for everything Fi." She was surprised, he even sounded sincere.
"It seems we both have a lot to apologize for." She sighed, "I acted like a spoiled brat, but I did because your my brother, and I Cinta you."
He pulled her into a hug. She wrapped her arms around his neck, and smiled. She missed him so much.
They stayed that way for a while, until she felt a tap on her shoulder.She pulled away from her twin and turned around to see holly J.
Declan was the first to speak. "Holly."
"Declan," She breathed, "You're back."
"Yeah, I had some unresolved problems I needed to fix. I've been a jerk to the people I love, including you. I'm sorry."
"It's going to take a while to earn my trust back anda know." holly smirked, "But I forgive you."
Declan and holly J smiled at eachother. Suddenly Fiona felt as though those two were in their own little bubble. Instead of feeling lonliness atau Jealousy like Fiona normally would, she felt in awe watching the two. They looked so happy and so in love, it was adorable.
"Well, what are anda waiting for? Kiss" They wasted no time, and fiona squealed, clapping her hands.
"Have fun lovebirds. I've got my eyes on my own cutie." She walked to catchup with Adam who was walking out of the front doors of Degrassi with Eli and Clare.
"Fiona, hey." Adam smiled nervously. He truly liked her and he always was so nervous around her. She found it too cute.
"Hey Adam, who're your friends?" Fiona looked at the tall dark haired boy. He looked goth, and dressed in all black. And then there was the girl with short curly brown hair. They looked like complete opposites. The goth boy had his arm wrapped around the preppy girls waist, so they must be together. Well they do say opposites attract, Fiona thought, and they look like a cute couple.
"Oh, uh, Fiona this is Eli" He gestured to the goth boy who simply nodded and mumbled a small "hey", "And that's Clare." The preppy girl smiled widely and held out her hand.
"It's nice to meet you. Your Declans sister right?" Clare asked.
"Yeah thats me. It's nice to meet anda too."
"Well, Fiona, I have a feeling we'll be great friends. We'll be seeing a lot of each other afterall, since anda and adam are going to be hanging out a lot." She added a wink at adam.
Fiona and Adam both blushed looking down. It was so obvious they liked each other.
Fiona felt completely happy and at ease. Everything was finally falling right into place.
*~*
Wish anda were here,
wish anda well
If you'd only share this hell,
But anda leave and the stains are left on me
I wish you, I wish anda were here
*~*
Sorry if this was awful. It's been a while, I feel rusty :S