When we reached the edge of the property when the fatigue began to get to me. I tried to explain to Aaron that I was just going to get help but he got terrified again. I couldn't leave him so I picked him back up and kept walking twards the house." I berkata looking into my fathers eyes.
"I walked as far as I could when my body gave out I think. The last thing I really remember was setting him down on the ground, yelling as loud as I could." I berkata wrapping up my story.
I looked around at the fear, anger, sadness, amusement, and other emotions that were playing on my families faces.
No one berkata anything, everyone was looking at our father waiting to see what direction he was going to take all of this.
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We sat there for what seemed like forever, all of us watching father trying to figure out what he was thinking. I think that he knew we were all watching him and therefor took longer before he spoke, keeing us all in anticipation.
"Well, I know that all of anda will stay out of the woods. Your mother is a wreck, she can't get Aaron to come around all the way because everytime he does he begins screaming about the menanggung, bear and screaming." Father berkata as he walked around inside the barn.
"The doctor should be here any minute, and hopefully he will be able to give him something so that he will sleep. I think his foot is broken at least, which means that he won't be able to help now for a while." He berkata looking at all of us.
"I would like a moment with Emmett alone now, so run along. Go back to the house all of anda and see what can be done to help your mother." Father berkata as he walked closer to the door.
Everyone filed slowly out of the barn. John and Ben were the last to leave both of them looking back over their shoulders, wondering why father would want to talk to just me.
"Can't we stay? We know everything that has happened, and if there is a strategy to be planned I would rather stay." John berkata as he paused sejak the door.
"NO, I want to speak to Emmett alone, anda boys go back to the house. No hanging around the bangsal trying to listen to our coversation. If I find anyone outside the barn, so help me. anda might want to pass that on to the others, no lurking around the barn." He berkata firmly looking into John and Ben's eyes.
They nodded and walked out the door looking back one lebih time before leaving.
When they were gone, dad walked over and shut the door and slowly began pacing back and forth sejak the door.
"Emmett, what anda did today was not just stupid, it was dangerous." He berkata quietly.
"I know, I regrett it all now. If I could go back and do things diffrently" I berkata when I was interrupted.
"You can't go back, your older brother is lying on the table. He is hurt pretty bad, what if he were killed. Would anda have carried his body back and yelled like anda did tonight?" He asked. The anger in his voice was beginning to grow.
I knew that no matter what my response would be it would be wrong. I sat there looking down at the dirt floor, trying to figure out the best answer.
"Well, answer me. What would anda have done if anda would have shown up and found your brother dead. OR, what would anda have done if anda would have come around that pokok and seen the menanggung, bear attacking him. anda are young still, anda OBVIOUSLY weren't thinking." He yelled.
He was close enough to me now that I could see that his hands were shaking. Father was a patient person, and in my 20 years I had never seen him this angry.
"I'm sorry father" Was all I could get out before he was grabbing my shoulders.
"Your sorry? YOUR SORRY!!?" He yelled/laughed.
"Sorry will not help anything now, anda and your brother are DAMN lucky to be alive. He may never be able to walk right again, he will forever have scars on his body from a animal, and your sorry?" He berkata as he shook my shoulders, his hands beginning to bruise my shoulders where he dug his fingers in.
"I made a mistake, we did it all wrong. We should have taken lebih of us out there." I said
"NO! anda SHOULDN'T HAVE GONE OUT THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE! I was very clear when I berkata that I didn't want any of anda going in the woods. anda and your brother had to be so arrogent that anda thought anda could find the bears and take care of them yourselves." He spat
I shook my head feeling myself getting defensive because I felt attacked. My mind wasn't clear, and on an inpulse I stood up and looked down at my father.
"Would it have made anda happier if I were the one that was hurt? I have appologized, I have explained everything that happened. What do I have to do dad?" I yelled back at him.
I was still looking down when I was slapped across the face.
"You will go in the house, anda will not say a word to anyone. anda are a FOOL Emmett! If anda think that taking your brothers place would help anything anda are wrong." He shouted.
We stood there for a minit staring at eachother, I was hurt, angry, scared, and frustrated.
Neither of us moved for a few seconds, both of us staring at eachother not saying a word.
I shook my head and walked to the door, stopping to say my final words.
"I'm sorry, I know this doesn't help anything. I know I can't take anything that happened back, but I wish that we would have gotten the animal and brought it back so anda would be proud of us." I berkata as I turned and walked out the door.
I got about half way back to the house when John and Ben came walking behind me. Obviously they were listening to the entire confrontation, because John came up and put his hand on my shoulder.
"He's just scared, he doesn't know how to express his fear, so he took it out on you. He didn't mean any of it, just give him a hari atau two and he'll calm down." John berkata slowing down so he could look down at me.
"I don't know John, things will never go back to the way they were before Aaron was hurt. I need to go back and check on him." I berkata as I moved out from under his hand and walked towards the house.
"I walked as far as I could when my body gave out I think. The last thing I really remember was setting him down on the ground, yelling as loud as I could." I berkata wrapping up my story.
I looked around at the fear, anger, sadness, amusement, and other emotions that were playing on my families faces.
No one berkata anything, everyone was looking at our father waiting to see what direction he was going to take all of this.
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We sat there for what seemed like forever, all of us watching father trying to figure out what he was thinking. I think that he knew we were all watching him and therefor took longer before he spoke, keeing us all in anticipation.
"Well, I know that all of anda will stay out of the woods. Your mother is a wreck, she can't get Aaron to come around all the way because everytime he does he begins screaming about the menanggung, bear and screaming." Father berkata as he walked around inside the barn.
"The doctor should be here any minute, and hopefully he will be able to give him something so that he will sleep. I think his foot is broken at least, which means that he won't be able to help now for a while." He berkata looking at all of us.
"I would like a moment with Emmett alone now, so run along. Go back to the house all of anda and see what can be done to help your mother." Father berkata as he walked closer to the door.
Everyone filed slowly out of the barn. John and Ben were the last to leave both of them looking back over their shoulders, wondering why father would want to talk to just me.
"Can't we stay? We know everything that has happened, and if there is a strategy to be planned I would rather stay." John berkata as he paused sejak the door.
"NO, I want to speak to Emmett alone, anda boys go back to the house. No hanging around the bangsal trying to listen to our coversation. If I find anyone outside the barn, so help me. anda might want to pass that on to the others, no lurking around the barn." He berkata firmly looking into John and Ben's eyes.
They nodded and walked out the door looking back one lebih time before leaving.
When they were gone, dad walked over and shut the door and slowly began pacing back and forth sejak the door.
"Emmett, what anda did today was not just stupid, it was dangerous." He berkata quietly.
"I know, I regrett it all now. If I could go back and do things diffrently" I berkata when I was interrupted.
"You can't go back, your older brother is lying on the table. He is hurt pretty bad, what if he were killed. Would anda have carried his body back and yelled like anda did tonight?" He asked. The anger in his voice was beginning to grow.
I knew that no matter what my response would be it would be wrong. I sat there looking down at the dirt floor, trying to figure out the best answer.
"Well, answer me. What would anda have done if anda would have shown up and found your brother dead. OR, what would anda have done if anda would have come around that pokok and seen the menanggung, bear attacking him. anda are young still, anda OBVIOUSLY weren't thinking." He yelled.
He was close enough to me now that I could see that his hands were shaking. Father was a patient person, and in my 20 years I had never seen him this angry.
"I'm sorry father" Was all I could get out before he was grabbing my shoulders.
"Your sorry? YOUR SORRY!!?" He yelled/laughed.
"Sorry will not help anything now, anda and your brother are DAMN lucky to be alive. He may never be able to walk right again, he will forever have scars on his body from a animal, and your sorry?" He berkata as he shook my shoulders, his hands beginning to bruise my shoulders where he dug his fingers in.
"I made a mistake, we did it all wrong. We should have taken lebih of us out there." I said
"NO! anda SHOULDN'T HAVE GONE OUT THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE! I was very clear when I berkata that I didn't want any of anda going in the woods. anda and your brother had to be so arrogent that anda thought anda could find the bears and take care of them yourselves." He spat
I shook my head feeling myself getting defensive because I felt attacked. My mind wasn't clear, and on an inpulse I stood up and looked down at my father.
"Would it have made anda happier if I were the one that was hurt? I have appologized, I have explained everything that happened. What do I have to do dad?" I yelled back at him.
I was still looking down when I was slapped across the face.
"You will go in the house, anda will not say a word to anyone. anda are a FOOL Emmett! If anda think that taking your brothers place would help anything anda are wrong." He shouted.
We stood there for a minit staring at eachother, I was hurt, angry, scared, and frustrated.
Neither of us moved for a few seconds, both of us staring at eachother not saying a word.
I shook my head and walked to the door, stopping to say my final words.
"I'm sorry, I know this doesn't help anything. I know I can't take anything that happened back, but I wish that we would have gotten the animal and brought it back so anda would be proud of us." I berkata as I turned and walked out the door.
I got about half way back to the house when John and Ben came walking behind me. Obviously they were listening to the entire confrontation, because John came up and put his hand on my shoulder.
"He's just scared, he doesn't know how to express his fear, so he took it out on you. He didn't mean any of it, just give him a hari atau two and he'll calm down." John berkata slowing down so he could look down at me.
"I don't know John, things will never go back to the way they were before Aaron was hurt. I need to go back and check on him." I berkata as I moved out from under his hand and walked towards the house.