okay, here is the seterusnya one. its short, im sorry ive got exams but i couldn't leave anda with nothing.
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I reached out to gently brush her pouting bottom lip.
“Bella, anda seem to be under a misapprehension.” I couldn’t believe she didn’t understand. I suppose she wouldn’t if she thought I didn’t want her. I closed my eyes, shaking my head back and forth, a slight smile on my lips. How to make her see?
“I thought I’d explained it clearly before. Bella,” just speaking her name brought me so much pleasure. “I can’t live in a world where anda don’t exist.”
The frown on her face became deeper. “I am...” she searched for a word. “confused.” She finished. How could she believe my lies and not the truth? Why couldn’t she see how much I loved her, needed her?
I stared lebih deeply into her eyes. “I’m a good liar, Bella, I have to be.”
As soon as I spoke the words her whole body froze, all her muscles tightly held in place and her breathing stopped. I ran back over my words and realised what she must have heard in them. I shook her shoulder, trying to loosen her rigid pose.
“Let me finish!” I spoke with a bit lebih volume. “I’m a good liar but still, for anda to believe me so quickly.” I winced, memories of that night coming back to me. “That was... excruciating.” I knew I had to explain in lebih detail, as hard as it was. I knew I did because Bella remained frozen, her breathing shallow. “When we were in the forest, when I was telling anda goodbye—” I tried not to remember, but the moment played back in my head like a colour movie, each agonizing saat played with perfect clarity. “You weren’t going to let go.” I whispered. “I could see that. I didn’t want to do it—it felt like it would kill me to do it—but I knew that if I couldn’t convince anda that I didn’t Cinta anda anymore, it would just take anda that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if anda thought I’d moved on, so would you.”
“A clean break.” She whispered through her stiff lips, her eyes filled with pain.
“Exactly. But I never imagined it would be so easy to do! I thought it would be seterusnya to impossible—that anda would be so sure of the truth that I would have to lie through my teeth for hours to plant the seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and I'm sorry—sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that I couldn’t protect anda from what I am. I lied to save you, and it didn’t work. I'm sorry.” I could never apologise enough.
“But how could anda believe me?” I went on, incredulous. “After all the thousand times I’ve told anda I Cinta you, how could anda let one word break your faith in me?” Bella looked up at me, her eyes wide and shocked. All the things I had thought through when she was sleeping came flowing out of my mouth and I was unable to stop them. It was almost as if I needed her to know what I was thinking.
“I could see it in your eyes, that anda honestly believed that I didn’t want anda anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!”
I expected Bella to say something, but her features will still locked in their Frozen state, incomprehension clear in her eyes. She still didn’t get it. Maybe she needed time?
I shook her again, gently, but her teeth still rattled together.
“Bella,” I sighed. How I loved to say her name. “Really, what were anda thinking!”
And then she started crying, tears running down her cheeks. What had I done now?
“I knew it.” She sobbed. “I knew I was dreaming.”
What? Was I really that unbelievable? How could she believe my imperfect lies so easily yet completely dismiss the truth?
“Your impossible,” I berkata then laughed without humour. I was too frustrated to feel humour at the moment. I needed to explain to her I loved her without loopholes, but how?
“How can I put this so that you’ll believe me? You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here and I Cinta you. I have always loved you, and I will always Cinta you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every saat that I was away. When I told anda I didn’t Cinta you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.” Did she understand yet?
I watched as she slowly shook her head, tears still falling from her eyes.
Abruptly, panic hit me. What if she never believed me? What could I possibly do?
“You don’t believe me do you?” I asked, seeking assurance through my rhetorical question. “How can anda believe the lie, but not the truth?”
“It never made sense for anda to Cinta me, I always knew that.” She whispered, her delicate, beautiful voice breaking twice.
There must be some way to make her see sense. To make her believe me.
A thought that had been at the back of my mind since Italy, burst to the front of my head.
“I’ll prove your awake.” I promised. I had the perfect way to do it.
I caught her face between my hands, reminding myself to be careful. I ignored her efforts to turn her head away and leaned in towards her face. Her scent was coming off her in waves and the heat of her skin warmed mine slightly. Oh, how I had missed her.
I leaned in closer, but when my lips were just half an inch from her's she spoke.
“Please don’t.” She whispered, heartbreak in her voice.
“Why not?” I couldn’t form a longer question. Her breath was caressing my face, stunning me.
“When I wake up” she began and I opened my mouth to protest. Hadn’t we already been through this?
“Okay, forget that one—” she cut in quickly. “When anda leave again, it’s going to be hard enough without this too.” I pulled my face back an inch to stare at her nonplussed. She thought I was leaving. Even thinking about leaving hurt, but what if she wanted me to leave?
i hope anda enjoyed it :)
just an extra, if anda like new moon from other POV's read Alice's new moon sejak just_bella. its fantastic so i thought i'd tell anda about it.
please comment!!
enjoy!
I reached out to gently brush her pouting bottom lip.
“Bella, anda seem to be under a misapprehension.” I couldn’t believe she didn’t understand. I suppose she wouldn’t if she thought I didn’t want her. I closed my eyes, shaking my head back and forth, a slight smile on my lips. How to make her see?
“I thought I’d explained it clearly before. Bella,” just speaking her name brought me so much pleasure. “I can’t live in a world where anda don’t exist.”
The frown on her face became deeper. “I am...” she searched for a word. “confused.” She finished. How could she believe my lies and not the truth? Why couldn’t she see how much I loved her, needed her?
I stared lebih deeply into her eyes. “I’m a good liar, Bella, I have to be.”
As soon as I spoke the words her whole body froze, all her muscles tightly held in place and her breathing stopped. I ran back over my words and realised what she must have heard in them. I shook her shoulder, trying to loosen her rigid pose.
“Let me finish!” I spoke with a bit lebih volume. “I’m a good liar but still, for anda to believe me so quickly.” I winced, memories of that night coming back to me. “That was... excruciating.” I knew I had to explain in lebih detail, as hard as it was. I knew I did because Bella remained frozen, her breathing shallow. “When we were in the forest, when I was telling anda goodbye—” I tried not to remember, but the moment played back in my head like a colour movie, each agonizing saat played with perfect clarity. “You weren’t going to let go.” I whispered. “I could see that. I didn’t want to do it—it felt like it would kill me to do it—but I knew that if I couldn’t convince anda that I didn’t Cinta anda anymore, it would just take anda that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if anda thought I’d moved on, so would you.”
“A clean break.” She whispered through her stiff lips, her eyes filled with pain.
“Exactly. But I never imagined it would be so easy to do! I thought it would be seterusnya to impossible—that anda would be so sure of the truth that I would have to lie through my teeth for hours to plant the seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and I'm sorry—sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that I couldn’t protect anda from what I am. I lied to save you, and it didn’t work. I'm sorry.” I could never apologise enough.
“But how could anda believe me?” I went on, incredulous. “After all the thousand times I’ve told anda I Cinta you, how could anda let one word break your faith in me?” Bella looked up at me, her eyes wide and shocked. All the things I had thought through when she was sleeping came flowing out of my mouth and I was unable to stop them. It was almost as if I needed her to know what I was thinking.
“I could see it in your eyes, that anda honestly believed that I didn’t want anda anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!”
I expected Bella to say something, but her features will still locked in their Frozen state, incomprehension clear in her eyes. She still didn’t get it. Maybe she needed time?
I shook her again, gently, but her teeth still rattled together.
“Bella,” I sighed. How I loved to say her name. “Really, what were anda thinking!”
And then she started crying, tears running down her cheeks. What had I done now?
“I knew it.” She sobbed. “I knew I was dreaming.”
What? Was I really that unbelievable? How could she believe my imperfect lies so easily yet completely dismiss the truth?
“Your impossible,” I berkata then laughed without humour. I was too frustrated to feel humour at the moment. I needed to explain to her I loved her without loopholes, but how?
“How can I put this so that you’ll believe me? You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here and I Cinta you. I have always loved you, and I will always Cinta you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every saat that I was away. When I told anda I didn’t Cinta you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.” Did she understand yet?
I watched as she slowly shook her head, tears still falling from her eyes.
Abruptly, panic hit me. What if she never believed me? What could I possibly do?
“You don’t believe me do you?” I asked, seeking assurance through my rhetorical question. “How can anda believe the lie, but not the truth?”
“It never made sense for anda to Cinta me, I always knew that.” She whispered, her delicate, beautiful voice breaking twice.
There must be some way to make her see sense. To make her believe me.
A thought that had been at the back of my mind since Italy, burst to the front of my head.
“I’ll prove your awake.” I promised. I had the perfect way to do it.
I caught her face between my hands, reminding myself to be careful. I ignored her efforts to turn her head away and leaned in towards her face. Her scent was coming off her in waves and the heat of her skin warmed mine slightly. Oh, how I had missed her.
I leaned in closer, but when my lips were just half an inch from her's she spoke.
“Please don’t.” She whispered, heartbreak in her voice.
“Why not?” I couldn’t form a longer question. Her breath was caressing my face, stunning me.
“When I wake up” she began and I opened my mouth to protest. Hadn’t we already been through this?
“Okay, forget that one—” she cut in quickly. “When anda leave again, it’s going to be hard enough without this too.” I pulled my face back an inch to stare at her nonplussed. She thought I was leaving. Even thinking about leaving hurt, but what if she wanted me to leave?
i hope anda enjoyed it :)
just an extra, if anda like new moon from other POV's read Alice's new moon sejak just_bella. its fantastic so i thought i'd tell anda about it.
please comment!!
"It shocked me.I was not sure if she meant to attack.That's the only interpretation of her behavior that my past had to offer.But she was smiling.And the emotions that were emanating from her were like nothing I'd ever felt before.
"'You've kept me waiting a long time,'she said."
I didn't realize Alice had come to stand behind me again.
"And anda ducked your head like a good Southern gentleman,and said,'I'm sorry ma'am.'"Alice laughed at the memory.
Jasper smiled down at her."You held out your hand,and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing.For the first time in almost a century,I felt hope."
Jasper took Alice's hand as he spoke.
Alice grinned."I was just relieved.I thought anda were never going to tunjuk up."
it is just MY opinion...
i think it was very well done thinking of it just as a movie anda know it wont ever be exactly like the book ... atau with such many detailz
things i loved:
*the humor they use (for example bella: if things end bad like i would become the meal) haha
*alice ! the character is very well portrayed
*the end ( victoria watching)
*the baseball game!
*men cast haha =P
*stephenie meyer appearing wooow!
things that dissapointed me:
* the clearing ! i dont liked the sparkling effect ...
*it was really fast everything
*alice's story was missing ...
things that were wrong: (i didnt noticed until the third time i saw it)
*billy was driving !
*when edward is playing th e Piano for bella he didnt sparkle
*victoria appears in the prom in the crowd (edward would read her thoughtz)
but i like it anyway ! it ir TWILIGHT !
i think it was very well done thinking of it just as a movie anda know it wont ever be exactly like the book ... atau with such many detailz
things i loved:
*the humor they use (for example bella: if things end bad like i would become the meal) haha
*alice ! the character is very well portrayed
*the end ( victoria watching)
*the baseball game!
*men cast haha =P
*stephenie meyer appearing wooow!
things that dissapointed me:
* the clearing ! i dont liked the sparkling effect ...
*it was really fast everything
*alice's story was missing ...
things that were wrong: (i didnt noticed until the third time i saw it)
*billy was driving !
*when edward is playing th e Piano for bella he didnt sparkle
*victoria appears in the prom in the crowd (edward would read her thoughtz)
but i like it anyway ! it ir TWILIGHT !
While visiting “The Ellen DeGeneres Show,” for an episode that airs this Friday — the same hari Pattinson’s vampiric portrayal of Edward Cullen springs to life on the big screen, he denied having romantic ties to anyone.
“Now, are anda single?” Ellen asked.
“Ah, yeah,” the British actor replied.
And it appears despite women throwing themselves at him regularly, Pattinson may be stuck in singleton mode permanently.
“No one else seems to get into a relationship with me. It’s really strange,” he told Ellen.
“People like screaming at me,” the heartthrob added. “Actually, they like screaming at me in relationships as well. No one wants to commit.”
okay, so, all these people are complaining about Bella's Lullaby. I heard, "Bella's Lullaby sucked in my opinion" atau "The strings and the orchestra weren't supposed to be in the song" atau "They need to cut out the orchestra cuz it sucked with that in it". Just stuff like that which is disrespectful to Summit, Carter Burwell, and all the people associated with the project. People don't need to say such rude komen-komen about it.
and in my opinion, this is the soundtrack. obviously they are gonna put the score they have that goes with the movie's music. It can't just be a Rawak piece that doesn't fit in with the rest of the score. that's just what pisses me off. when people judge something too quickly without laying down all the facts.
and in my opinion, this is the soundtrack. obviously they are gonna put the score they have that goes with the movie's music. It can't just be a Rawak piece that doesn't fit in with the rest of the score. that's just what pisses me off. when people judge something too quickly without laying down all the facts.
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there's a New Spot Made, it's The Leah and Jacob spot, so if anda like their friendship/relationsip couple wise, feel free to join!
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sertai TODAY!
where anda can discuss their partnership, with other fans, make/find Leah and Jacob peminat Art, and what anda think over all of Jacob and Leah.
and if anda have any concerns, atau request for the spot, don't be scared to ask, also if anda know anyone else who likes the Couple, please spread the Jeah Cinta This way :)
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