Long time since I telah diposkan on here... feels like it anyway lol. Enjoy! ♥
Chapter Tweleve
I really didn’t want to fight Jake, but the way his whole body was convulsing, it looked like he would be fighting me anyway. I’d never seen him lose his normally steel like self-control. He took a half step towards me, and then rocked back on his heel, like he was undecided.
“I don’t know…” He mumbled. But the decision was made for him. We both heard the sound of light footsteps coming from the hallway, and the quiet thump-thump of a heart. Jake froze, his head tilted sideways, towards the door.
Sam stood there, a sly smile playing on her lips. She took a step forward, not bothered in the slightest sejak Jake’s fearsome expression; she hardly even looked at him. Her eyes were mine, combing every inch of me; checking out the old faded t-shirt I’d put on and she seemed partially interested in my hair.
“Hi Sam!” I reached my arms out. She grinned, walking briskly over to me. I was about to close my arms around her when Jake grabbed Sam, holding her in place at arms length, like a nasty piece of garbage. His hand closed around her neck, twisting her head so she had too look at him. The he smoothed his e expression ad let his hands drop deciding against what ever he was going to do.
“I’m sorry Samantha.” His voice was unemotional. “But please I know Jared’s secret. Think what this will do to everyone. Think about Embry!”
Sam snorted. “Don’t anda think Jared’s done enough to me already!”
Jake muttered something in Quileute, a little fast for me to hear clearly, but it sounded like “Typical girl!”
Jake turned to me then. “I won’t make anda choose Embry, but if Sam hears about this we’ll be for it. The whole ‘group’” he berkata tactfully, before sitting back down to finish his pasta. Sam eyes darted to Jake for an instant, before focusing on me again. A smile, slowly spread across her lips like a blooming flower. I smiled too trying to enjoy this private moment as a couple. Then she was sniggering, her left hand half covering her mouth, her right hand pointing at me. Jake’s eyes darted to Sam then followed her arm to where she was pointing. He chuckled too, his eyes clamped shut and his whole body rippling with laughter. I stared at them for a while, confused.
“Mirror!” Sam chocked, before sniggering again. I went out into the hall, and looked into the large mirror there. I examined myself. No embarrassing zits. Nothing printed on my forehead. My t-shirt was like a saat skin on me, which I didn’t like, but even though I wasn’t toned like Jake atau Quil I wasn’t fat either, and I hadn’t put on any weight, apart from a few stone, when I’d grown from 5’6’ to 6’1’, then lebih recently to 6’4’, and got some ok muscles, so that couldn’t have been why they’d been laughing. Then my eyes moved upwards to my hair. I gasped. It had been raining when I’d walked back home, and now my hair was sticking out at odd angles and had gone all fluffy. I chuckled at the sight of myself, and flattened my hair as quickly as I could.
When I came back, Jake and Sam were sat at the table, chatting like old friends. Sam was picking at the leftovers of my pasta, her expression only mildly interested as Jake told her about the Rabbit. I smiled, and then opened our last can of soup. Once it was done heating through, I took it up to Mom in her favourite mug.
Her room was cold, and dihidu, smelt awful. I put the sup on her bedside meja, jadual and forced my hand behind the headboard of her bed, until my fingers recoiled against something cold. I forced my fingers to bungkus, balut around it and pull it into the light. As I’d thought. Some cheap red wine, which resembled water with Makanan colouring in, as I poured it down the sink.
“What are anda DOING?’ my mom’s voice was sharp, like the crack of a whip. Then she recoiled. “Argh! My head feels like crap.” I turned to face her, she looked like a zombie, her eyes had giant dark circles under them and the whites of her eyes were now stained blood red. Her hair was worse than mine!
“Here Mom I got anda some soup.” I reached past her and grabbed the mug off the table, then held it out for her to take. She inhaled the steam and then cringed away, her expression on her face disgusted. She turned towards the sink and threw up. I looked away, blocking out the wet splattering sound. I felt empty and washed out. The only thing in my life that was going good was Sam; she was my reason for staying.
“You know I don’t like sup Embry!” My Mom scolded. I shrugged; sure that she’d liked it yesterday.
“Mom you’ve got to eat.” I put my arms round her. She felt like a wisp of air. “You’re too thin.”
She snorted “Have anda not noticed that most people in our family are thin. My Mom, my Dad, Aunt Tiffany, me and anda Embry. I’m an ideal weight.”
“No Mom. You’re not. anda don’t see my Bones jutting out do you?” I pushed her gently away.
She rolled her eyes, and went back to bed, wrapped in her white fluffy dressing gown. I stood for awhile in her en suite, breathing deeply and staring into her mirror.
Jake and Sam were still in the kitchen, when I came back downstairs but now they’d telah diberi up the conversation, and where sitting not looking at each other, in silence.
As soon as Sam saw me she got up from the meja, jadual and walked quickly over to where I was hovering in the doorway.
“Can I watch T.V.?” she said, combing her fingertips threw her spiky hair. I nodded and pointed to the living room. She smiled and walked quickly past me, her hand brushing against mine as she passed me.
Jake looked up, one dark eyebrow raised. “You’re right, Embry. She’s a very interesting person.” My hati, tengah-tengah jumped; maybe everything for once would turn out alright. Then he snorted, and my hope was shattered. “She just insulted the whole of La push!” He growled.
I sighed, letting myself fall into a chair. It was sejak now gone 10 pm, and I was tired. It seemed like just as today had got better, it had quickly got worse again.
“Can’t anda just leave it Jake! Leave us!” I put my head in my hands feeling weary of my life.
I heard Jake breathe out sharply, then he berkata quietly “Fine, Embry… if anda like her so much then I guess we’ll have to put up with it.”
“Thanks Jake” I mumbled, raising my head from my palms. He smiled back at me, then turned and too quickly left the house. As soon as the front clicked shut, I heard the T.V. being turned off, and soon Sam was sejak my side. I felt whole then, we were like one person and being apart from her drained me.
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Chapter Tweleve
I really didn’t want to fight Jake, but the way his whole body was convulsing, it looked like he would be fighting me anyway. I’d never seen him lose his normally steel like self-control. He took a half step towards me, and then rocked back on his heel, like he was undecided.
“I don’t know…” He mumbled. But the decision was made for him. We both heard the sound of light footsteps coming from the hallway, and the quiet thump-thump of a heart. Jake froze, his head tilted sideways, towards the door.
Sam stood there, a sly smile playing on her lips. She took a step forward, not bothered in the slightest sejak Jake’s fearsome expression; she hardly even looked at him. Her eyes were mine, combing every inch of me; checking out the old faded t-shirt I’d put on and she seemed partially interested in my hair.
“Hi Sam!” I reached my arms out. She grinned, walking briskly over to me. I was about to close my arms around her when Jake grabbed Sam, holding her in place at arms length, like a nasty piece of garbage. His hand closed around her neck, twisting her head so she had too look at him. The he smoothed his e expression ad let his hands drop deciding against what ever he was going to do.
“I’m sorry Samantha.” His voice was unemotional. “But please I know Jared’s secret. Think what this will do to everyone. Think about Embry!”
Sam snorted. “Don’t anda think Jared’s done enough to me already!”
Jake muttered something in Quileute, a little fast for me to hear clearly, but it sounded like “Typical girl!”
Jake turned to me then. “I won’t make anda choose Embry, but if Sam hears about this we’ll be for it. The whole ‘group’” he berkata tactfully, before sitting back down to finish his pasta. Sam eyes darted to Jake for an instant, before focusing on me again. A smile, slowly spread across her lips like a blooming flower. I smiled too trying to enjoy this private moment as a couple. Then she was sniggering, her left hand half covering her mouth, her right hand pointing at me. Jake’s eyes darted to Sam then followed her arm to where she was pointing. He chuckled too, his eyes clamped shut and his whole body rippling with laughter. I stared at them for a while, confused.
“Mirror!” Sam chocked, before sniggering again. I went out into the hall, and looked into the large mirror there. I examined myself. No embarrassing zits. Nothing printed on my forehead. My t-shirt was like a saat skin on me, which I didn’t like, but even though I wasn’t toned like Jake atau Quil I wasn’t fat either, and I hadn’t put on any weight, apart from a few stone, when I’d grown from 5’6’ to 6’1’, then lebih recently to 6’4’, and got some ok muscles, so that couldn’t have been why they’d been laughing. Then my eyes moved upwards to my hair. I gasped. It had been raining when I’d walked back home, and now my hair was sticking out at odd angles and had gone all fluffy. I chuckled at the sight of myself, and flattened my hair as quickly as I could.
When I came back, Jake and Sam were sat at the table, chatting like old friends. Sam was picking at the leftovers of my pasta, her expression only mildly interested as Jake told her about the Rabbit. I smiled, and then opened our last can of soup. Once it was done heating through, I took it up to Mom in her favourite mug.
Her room was cold, and dihidu, smelt awful. I put the sup on her bedside meja, jadual and forced my hand behind the headboard of her bed, until my fingers recoiled against something cold. I forced my fingers to bungkus, balut around it and pull it into the light. As I’d thought. Some cheap red wine, which resembled water with Makanan colouring in, as I poured it down the sink.
“What are anda DOING?’ my mom’s voice was sharp, like the crack of a whip. Then she recoiled. “Argh! My head feels like crap.” I turned to face her, she looked like a zombie, her eyes had giant dark circles under them and the whites of her eyes were now stained blood red. Her hair was worse than mine!
“Here Mom I got anda some soup.” I reached past her and grabbed the mug off the table, then held it out for her to take. She inhaled the steam and then cringed away, her expression on her face disgusted. She turned towards the sink and threw up. I looked away, blocking out the wet splattering sound. I felt empty and washed out. The only thing in my life that was going good was Sam; she was my reason for staying.
“You know I don’t like sup Embry!” My Mom scolded. I shrugged; sure that she’d liked it yesterday.
“Mom you’ve got to eat.” I put my arms round her. She felt like a wisp of air. “You’re too thin.”
She snorted “Have anda not noticed that most people in our family are thin. My Mom, my Dad, Aunt Tiffany, me and anda Embry. I’m an ideal weight.”
“No Mom. You’re not. anda don’t see my Bones jutting out do you?” I pushed her gently away.
She rolled her eyes, and went back to bed, wrapped in her white fluffy dressing gown. I stood for awhile in her en suite, breathing deeply and staring into her mirror.
Jake and Sam were still in the kitchen, when I came back downstairs but now they’d telah diberi up the conversation, and where sitting not looking at each other, in silence.
As soon as Sam saw me she got up from the meja, jadual and walked quickly over to where I was hovering in the doorway.
“Can I watch T.V.?” she said, combing her fingertips threw her spiky hair. I nodded and pointed to the living room. She smiled and walked quickly past me, her hand brushing against mine as she passed me.
Jake looked up, one dark eyebrow raised. “You’re right, Embry. She’s a very interesting person.” My hati, tengah-tengah jumped; maybe everything for once would turn out alright. Then he snorted, and my hope was shattered. “She just insulted the whole of La push!” He growled.
I sighed, letting myself fall into a chair. It was sejak now gone 10 pm, and I was tired. It seemed like just as today had got better, it had quickly got worse again.
“Can’t anda just leave it Jake! Leave us!” I put my head in my hands feeling weary of my life.
I heard Jake breathe out sharply, then he berkata quietly “Fine, Embry… if anda like her so much then I guess we’ll have to put up with it.”
“Thanks Jake” I mumbled, raising my head from my palms. He smiled back at me, then turned and too quickly left the house. As soon as the front clicked shut, I heard the T.V. being turned off, and soon Sam was sejak my side. I felt whole then, we were like one person and being apart from her drained me.
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hei twi-fans, after seeing New Moon in theaters we all want 2 see it again right? well now there is a release tarikh for the New Moon DVD: March 24, 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the prediction tarikh not an official one, it is positive that it will be released early 2010. it is berkata that it may be early cuz of the demand!!!!!!! right now some sites have New Moon available for pre-order!!!! so as of today-November 26, 2009-we have 119 days till New Moon is on DVD!!! oh and 217 days till Eclipse is in theaters!!!!
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the hati, tengah-tengah which will stop beating soon, the hati, tengah-tengah which was the reason for me to live, the hati, tengah-tengah which she had telah diberi to me to keep selamat, peti deposit keselamatan just like how I had telah diberi her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the hati, tengah-tengah which will stop beating soon, the hati, tengah-tengah which was the reason for me to live, the hati, tengah-tengah which she had telah diberi to me to keep selamat, peti deposit keselamatan just like how I had telah diberi her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what anda think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what anda think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when anda say one of the komen-komen -and you've probably berkata one of the komen-komen lebih then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure anda can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my Friends just don't understand lol). How many do anda think anda can fill, komen below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what anda think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure anda can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so popular if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my Friends just don't understand lol). How many do anda think anda can fill, komen below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what anda think please.