As I weave through dark allies, trying to make my way home, everything feels wrong. It's hari time and there is crickets chirping. The moon is shining along with bright stars while the brilliant sun sleeps. Annabella was not there. This time, it wasn't Annabella and I running away from one of our idiotic but awesome stunts. I was running for a different reason. I needed to get utama so I could cry. I needed to sit there in my crying corner and let the tears flow. I did not make it utama in time. I collapse onto the harsh cement and burst into tears, right there in an alley.
Hours pass. I lose track of time, but I know the sun has set. The cement is harsh on my knees but is beginning to cool and my face is buried in my jacket. Annabella touched this jaket and I am a dog picking up her scent. I don't know if having memories of her is good atau bad. I wished that my skull would crack on the thick cement and I would forget everything right there. Starting new couldn't be any worse, I thought.
I doze off in the alley because I have no where to be. If I don't come home, Papa won't care. If I don't come home, Cleetus will be happy to get my teddy menanggung, bear I have had since the hari I born. If I don't come home, I don't think Annabella would even know.
I wake up and unfortunately remember everything that happened in my waking moments. The sun sits low in the sky, a picture perfect beauty outside the window. -Window? I fell asleep in an alley! I look around and I do not know where I am. Someone is looking down at me and admiring my features. Someone sees my eyes open and leans down to Ciuman me. I instinctively push their lips away. Until I'm awake enough to see clearly, I try to comprehend what is happening.
I open my mouth, but no words come out. Someone puts their mouth against mine. Maybe it was something like CPR. When they finish, I can see clearly. This is a familar face.
"Ethan..?" I wonder. Why would Ethan try to Ciuman me? Ethan and I are not alike.. atau are we?
Ethan responds; "Hey Carlz.. Um, just wondering, but what the heck were anda doing sleeping in an alley? I saw anda on the way utama from school.."
I cut him off. "Oh um I fell and didn't know if I was going to be able to get up.." I lied.
"Oh, um, are anda okay?" He stares at my leg and sees a bruise. I had fallen up the stairs the other day, but play along and tell him that I got those when I tripped. He asked if I needed an ice pack but I decline it. I'm tough. I'm okay. Im am not Carmen now, I am the Brave 'Carlz'. Yeah, me, the nerd.
Hours pass. I lose track of time, but I know the sun has set. The cement is harsh on my knees but is beginning to cool and my face is buried in my jacket. Annabella touched this jaket and I am a dog picking up her scent. I don't know if having memories of her is good atau bad. I wished that my skull would crack on the thick cement and I would forget everything right there. Starting new couldn't be any worse, I thought.
I doze off in the alley because I have no where to be. If I don't come home, Papa won't care. If I don't come home, Cleetus will be happy to get my teddy menanggung, bear I have had since the hari I born. If I don't come home, I don't think Annabella would even know.
I wake up and unfortunately remember everything that happened in my waking moments. The sun sits low in the sky, a picture perfect beauty outside the window. -Window? I fell asleep in an alley! I look around and I do not know where I am. Someone is looking down at me and admiring my features. Someone sees my eyes open and leans down to Ciuman me. I instinctively push their lips away. Until I'm awake enough to see clearly, I try to comprehend what is happening.
I open my mouth, but no words come out. Someone puts their mouth against mine. Maybe it was something like CPR. When they finish, I can see clearly. This is a familar face.
"Ethan..?" I wonder. Why would Ethan try to Ciuman me? Ethan and I are not alike.. atau are we?
Ethan responds; "Hey Carlz.. Um, just wondering, but what the heck were anda doing sleeping in an alley? I saw anda on the way utama from school.."
I cut him off. "Oh um I fell and didn't know if I was going to be able to get up.." I lied.
"Oh, um, are anda okay?" He stares at my leg and sees a bruise. I had fallen up the stairs the other day, but play along and tell him that I got those when I tripped. He asked if I needed an ice pack but I decline it. I'm tough. I'm okay. Im am not Carmen now, I am the Brave 'Carlz'. Yeah, me, the nerd.
I wrote this is five minutes. Not that good, I know.
It's in the point of view of a fire.
It's in a fireplace in a living room.
Hope anda enjoy.
Read to the rhythym anda would
'The Night Before Christmas'
I flickered and jumped
and sat on the logs
and watched as the human
kicked off his clogs.
The dog soon followed
and sat sejak his side
and they soon were asleep
and my flame soon died.
But a flicker did linger
and I wondered a bit.
When would be the seterusnya time
that I would be lit?
-starwarsfangirl
5/4/10
It's in the point of view of a fire.
It's in a fireplace in a living room.
Hope anda enjoy.
Read to the rhythym anda would
'The Night Before Christmas'
I flickered and jumped
and sat on the logs
and watched as the human
kicked off his clogs.
The dog soon followed
and sat sejak his side
and they soon were asleep
and my flame soon died.
But a flicker did linger
and I wondered a bit.
When would be the seterusnya time
that I would be lit?
-starwarsfangirl
5/4/10
anda hurt me,
Both externally,
And internally,
anda twist a pin into my heart,
And gather my flowing blood onto a cart.
anda think anda can hurt me,
Just because anda gave me money,
anda think anda can make my life like hell,
Just because I am the one who made anda fell.
I wish anda have never telah diberi birth to me,
I wish I can expose what anda are for all to see.
I hate you,
And I hate anda to the heart's core,
I want anda to hear my vengeful call.
I respect anda because I must,
Yet anda blame me for not giving anda my trust.
How can I love, atau trust, a person like you?
Who makes me feel I'm feebler than cotton wool?
I am forever imprisoned to anda sejak blood,
For as long as I live,
The relation between us cannot be cut,
But soon I will take my leave,
Hoping that forever anda will grieve
Both externally,
And internally,
anda twist a pin into my heart,
And gather my flowing blood onto a cart.
anda think anda can hurt me,
Just because anda gave me money,
anda think anda can make my life like hell,
Just because I am the one who made anda fell.
I wish anda have never telah diberi birth to me,
I wish I can expose what anda are for all to see.
I hate you,
And I hate anda to the heart's core,
I want anda to hear my vengeful call.
I respect anda because I must,
Yet anda blame me for not giving anda my trust.
How can I love, atau trust, a person like you?
Who makes me feel I'm feebler than cotton wool?
I am forever imprisoned to anda sejak blood,
For as long as I live,
The relation between us cannot be cut,
But soon I will take my leave,
Hoping that forever anda will grieve