I’m sorry I cant tell anda really what going on.
It wasn’t meant to hurt.
For either of us.
I guess it did.
I panicked. Shit, I did.
I was happy but I was scared. How can happiness and fear exist at the same time, every time?
I wanted it bad. Wanted anda badly.
For a long time.
When I got to know about what anda felt, what anda told, I was happy. Maybe after a long time.
After a really, really, long time.
You always did make me feel something I’ve rarely felt.
You ever always, sincerely, the rose among the thorns.
But I was scared.
One bitten twice shy couldn’t even cover it. I knew this was different. anda liked me back right? I’ve know anda for so long.
But convincing myself that maybe, just maybe, this time it would be different was hard.
I was so confused. Torn between anda and the right thing. God, what a choice.
I don’t know why I made this worse. I knew what I wanted. I wanted you, I wanted what anda offered and I wanted to be happy. So why did I throw it away because I was thinking about the right thing?
When was the right thing ever right? Wasn’t the wrong turn the best turn?
Is it?
I panicked. I thought ‘why should I risk getting hurt again? Its not worth it’.
So I put out all the reasons I’ve thought to convince myself that I don’t need a guy. Even if they liked me.
I wanted to be single, I’m not ready for a relationship, my parents wont like it.
Its not really valid, however true, is it?
I’m such a coward.
I’ve always berkata to myself that I was the type of girl who would never let the “clichéd” get in the way of what I wanted the most.
I guess I did.
Its late, so late, but I have to say.
I am sorry.
I panicked - no excuse - but always my bad.
You’ve never probably see this, but I just wanted to get it out.
It wasn’t meant to hurt. But it did. For me.
Because I just let go of a man who meant a lot lebih to me than rock music, because apparently, my normal medicine rock, couldn’t even heal the pain I felt.
Here’s to You: An Apology too late.
It wasn’t meant to hurt.
For either of us.
I guess it did.
I panicked. Shit, I did.
I was happy but I was scared. How can happiness and fear exist at the same time, every time?
I wanted it bad. Wanted anda badly.
For a long time.
When I got to know about what anda felt, what anda told, I was happy. Maybe after a long time.
After a really, really, long time.
You always did make me feel something I’ve rarely felt.
You ever always, sincerely, the rose among the thorns.
But I was scared.
One bitten twice shy couldn’t even cover it. I knew this was different. anda liked me back right? I’ve know anda for so long.
But convincing myself that maybe, just maybe, this time it would be different was hard.
I was so confused. Torn between anda and the right thing. God, what a choice.
I don’t know why I made this worse. I knew what I wanted. I wanted you, I wanted what anda offered and I wanted to be happy. So why did I throw it away because I was thinking about the right thing?
When was the right thing ever right? Wasn’t the wrong turn the best turn?
Is it?
I panicked. I thought ‘why should I risk getting hurt again? Its not worth it’.
So I put out all the reasons I’ve thought to convince myself that I don’t need a guy. Even if they liked me.
I wanted to be single, I’m not ready for a relationship, my parents wont like it.
Its not really valid, however true, is it?
I’m such a coward.
I’ve always berkata to myself that I was the type of girl who would never let the “clichéd” get in the way of what I wanted the most.
I guess I did.
Its late, so late, but I have to say.
I am sorry.
I panicked - no excuse - but always my bad.
You’ve never probably see this, but I just wanted to get it out.
It wasn’t meant to hurt. But it did. For me.
Because I just let go of a man who meant a lot lebih to me than rock music, because apparently, my normal medicine rock, couldn’t even heal the pain I felt.
Here’s to You: An Apology too late.
Me and Those
Ever noticed that in this life
Everyone wants anda to do something,
atau be something
That sometimes anda don’t want to be?
They are those!
anda know them!
anda probably have those in your house.
They are those who expect anda to take a path,
Even though,
Sometimes,
anda don’t want to take.
They are those who expect anda to be great,
Even though,
Sometimes,
anda prefer to be small and humble.
But do anda think,
For the slightest second,
That they care about that?
They don’t!
They are your parents,
Your grandparents,
Your Uncles and aunts,
That since anda were born,
Came up with a path for anda in life.
But know this,
And say it to yourself:
They are those, they matter,
But me is I,
And I’m the main character.
Sitting right where anda are
anda have no claim on me
I know my own path
I am my own guide
anda are nothing to me
No matter how anda try
What do anda care?
If I'm not doing it right
I'm not following you
I know my own path
I am my own guide
anda don't know me
No matter how anda try
Why are anda here?
anda know I don't want you
I told anda to leave me
I am my own path
I know my own guide
anda can't mold me
No matter how anda try
Why do I feel compelled to write angsty poetry? I swear I'm not even that angsty. LOL Oh well, I hope someone out there enjoys it.
A whisper in the cavern that goes unheard,
and a glimmer in the sky that stays unnoticed,
like the start of a brand new life, at the peak
of a mountain never scaled, lies in wait.
It can't be moved sejak any cosmic mover,
so no passing wind atau fog will douse it.
Only your eyes can scratch out the image
atau accept it, the light at the edge of your eyes.
Will anda take hold of the key you're offered?
Stop Singing of freedom; seek it instead?
To become a companion of the new
takes an ever expanding, soaring gaze.
But even sejak taking one step forward,
sejak placing one hand onto the mountain,
as the wind tugs gently at your back,
anda will realize the cage has already been broken.
and a glimmer in the sky that stays unnoticed,
like the start of a brand new life, at the peak
of a mountain never scaled, lies in wait.
It can't be moved sejak any cosmic mover,
so no passing wind atau fog will douse it.
Only your eyes can scratch out the image
atau accept it, the light at the edge of your eyes.
Will anda take hold of the key you're offered?
Stop Singing of freedom; seek it instead?
To become a companion of the new
takes an ever expanding, soaring gaze.
But even sejak taking one step forward,
sejak placing one hand onto the mountain,
as the wind tugs gently at your back,
anda will realize the cage has already been broken.
Once i was having a hari dream about this story. And it brang me to this. A story about AshleyxDamon.
Chapter 1: Sunset
Sitting in an oak tree,a young 13 tahun old was Penulisan a letter to her father in Tokyo. He was doing research. Then her twin Austin came. "What are anda doing here?," she asked. "I Cinta the sunset", Austin said. "That's why i'm here," Ashley said. They watched the beautiful sunset and went in they're vintage home. "Ashley who is the letter for,"Austin asked. " Dad," she answered. "Dinner anda guys," there mother said. And they went inside.
Credit to breebree446