Everything brightened up.. all she knew was she was on her bike in a knee-length white and pale blue summer-dress. She peddled through the town and kept going until she hit an orchird. She hopped off her bike and just stared at the evergoing rows of epal, apple trees, the Bunga merah jambu and fluffy. She smiled and just walked through the rows, her eyes were light blue. Nothing seemed wrong. She came to a halt and watched a bunny pass her, suddenly there was a loud snap. She glanced over and her eyes filled with horror. They bunny was in a trap.. bleeding. She was hard, cold, and emotionless but she hated seeing helpless Haiwan in pain. She walked over and try to pry open the sharp teeth of the trap, her hands began bleeding from the jagged point penetraiting her tough skin. The bunny was released and hopped off, limply, she glanced up and instead of the soft, gentle, world that was there before.. a dark black sky and jagged trees filled their place.. she was calm though.. even though her hands hurt and she was in fear, she was calm. A flower, red and thorny, was sejak her foot.. she lightly picked it and suddenly everything burst into flames. She ran, her feet burning from the heat, she wasn't paying attention but something dark caught her eye. She looked over, with the flames around her, and people were chained to the trees.. bleeding filled with agony, moaning for help, crying from hearbreak, and dying from betrayal. A little girl crying looked at her with dark eyes and screamed
"BLADE! anda did this anda caused all this.."
She looked over a a body that looked like her sister's. The little girl kept yelling, "YOU! anda caused Kelesy's death and Mom's!"
It was her, the little girl was her.. she reached down but she pulled back.. She wished she could take it all back.. go back to the hari her sister died and try and save her.. try to stop her dad. She sat down and just cried.. echos lingered around her.
"Your don't know what its like!"
"You act tough but you're so stuck up!"
"No one has ever loved you!"
She opened her eyes and reached down into a small pouch and pulled out a razor.. oh the pain this caused her.. the bittersweet pain it caused her just to know she was human.. to know she was alive. She began digging into her scarred wrists.. the blood dripping around her.. she didnt care about the api, kebakaran around her, atau the bodies.. she hated her life. She caused so much pain to so many people, so what did causing pain to herself do.. no one cared anyway.. everyone had their past and hers was so "easy" compared to theirs.. so why should anyone care? She just let the flames close in on her and let her self just fall into darkness.. let her own memories surround her, crush her. She just let it happen and did nothing like she always did..
Suddenly she looked up and bonde hair flickered in the distance between all the serenged bodies. She walked ke hadapan and squinted and reconginzed his face instantly.. so soft and tough all at once. He glanced up at her with hurt and pain in his eyes.. trying to mutter something.. trying to mutter help. Panic filled her eyes and she ran for him but the hands grabbed at her dress and legs pulling her into the arms of a monster.. a monster she once loved, the monster that hated her.. he grinned and his long finger nails dug into her skin peircing it. Blood flowed through his hands turning her white, pale, blue dress dark crimsion. Again she looked over and the boy just sat there.. but he seemed happy.. happy she was feeling pain, the pain she caused him... Tears filled her eyes as she screamed "I'm sorry!" But all he did was smile..
She awoke.. it was a nightmare.. the same nightmare she'd been dreaming since he dissapeared.. she was cold and the bleeding stopped but she wished she'd been dead so she couldn't cause anyone anymore pain. She raised her head and Gage was standing there with that same horrible smirk he always wears.. all he berkata was,"Oh Blade, anda just can't stop breaking people's heart.. anda worthless.. peice of.. trash.." He kicked her again and she just closed her eyes... as the words circulated through her head.. It was her fault.. all her fault.. his voice echoed "Now.. why didn't anda tell them Blade?"
She started.. "Because..."
dun dun DUNNNN! OOC: Sorry for any typos and sorry for the lack of OC's they will be in. There!