Chuck finally turned around to face her. He hauled her up off her feet and brought her back against his chest. Never taking his eyes off of her face, he said, “I don’t care if he’s my best friend. I don’t want anda to go back to him because I want anda instead.”
She felt her mouth gape open as she stared back at him, thinking that this was his idea of some horrible joke. But after a few moments when he didn’t take it back and just continued to give her that penetrating glare, she knew that he was serious. Blair tried to focus her mind on Nate instead of Chuck, atau anything that didn’t remind her of the person that was standing in front of her. It was becoming frightening how much she just wanted to throw herself into his arms without any hesitation.
She let her eyes fall from him and she let her gaze wander over the floor. She couldn’t look at him while she berkata what she was about to. “Where is this coming from, Chuck? I don’t understand what you’re talking about.”
He placed a finger under her chin and gently lifted it up until she was staring back into the dark brown eyes that followed her everywhere and that belonged to the person that she hadn’t been able to get out of her mind for weeks now. “Blair, don’t be naïve. anda know exactly what I’m talking about and anda don’t want to have to deal with that, but I’m telling anda right now that this is a conversation we’re going to have now.”
“Fine,” she snapped. “What is it that anda want?”
A small grin tilted the corners of his lips until it turned into a facsimile of a smile. “Like I berkata before, what I want is you. I don’t want anda to go back to Nathaniel because he doesn’t deserve you.”
“And anda do?” she asked in something keen to stunned laughter. “You can’t be serious, Bass. anda know that we’ve hated each other ever since we first met and I began dating Nate. So what kind of ridiculous plot is this?”
The grin stayed firmly placed on his lips. “That’s all bullshit and anda know it. We may have hated each other one time, but it hasn’t been that way for a long time now. We’ve gotten to know each other and we both like what we see in the other. We’ve been there for each other while your precious Nathaniel has been playing house with Serena.” His eyes left her face and touched down her body. “And anda certainly can’t deny our sexual attraction, can you?”
“That’s all very well, but...”
“I wasn’t finished yet, Waldorf,” he interrupted her. “And you’ve been bored out of your mind with Nate for years now and don’t tell me anda haven’t because I will know you’re lying. At least there is never boredom between us. There’s only fire, sparks, and somewhat of a deep understanding, Blair. No one will ever get anda the way that I do. I accept anda for who anda are and don’t ask that anda conform to an image, and I will never do that. And anda do the same with me, even when we were pretending to hate each other for the most part, anda understood me and my actions better than anyone else ever could atau wanted too. anda know that we could be good together. Just think of the terror we could ignite in the freshman.”
A chuckle reverberated out of her chest before she had a chance to stop it. She dug her hands into her hair and mussed it while thinking of everything that he had just said. Chuck had no expression on his face, but she knew that he was being serious. “What do anda want me to do? Do anda want to just leave Nate when he’s just decided that he wants me finally?”
Chuck’s eyes briefly left hers before lighting on her again. “I want anda to do what anda want, Blair. anda have to be happy and I know that’s not with Nate, and I’m saying it could be with me, but how much longer are anda going to torture yourself with Nathaniel? You’ve got to stop that.”
She knew that what he berkata was the truth and in a way, she wanted nothing lebih than to say yes to whatever it was that he was proposing, but she couldn’t. How would they ever explain something like this to Nate? The answer was easy, they couldn’t. And no matter how much she was attracted to him, she cared lebih about her reputation that she ever would about Chuck. She had to do what she saw fit.
“Chuck,” she began, but that was a far as she got before his lips crashed down on hers. She tried to fight him off at first even though they had almost had sex in this closet a mere twenty minit ago. She pummeled her fists upon his chest, hoping that would give him enough sense to stop. Instead, he tightened his arms around her waist and Blair fought for a minute, but finally she gave up and wound her arms around his neck. Their mouths moved in sync together and everything was just about feeding the hunger that was coursing through their bodies. Chuck continued to slant his mouth over hers and he finally created enough suction to be granted access inside of her mouth. His tongue dipped into her mouth, mating with hers, clinging to every crevice and trying to reach more. Even though she would later deny it, Blair willingly participated in that kiss. Her tongue swirled with his and she thought that he tasted like cigarettes and scotch. It was a taste that was becoming familiar to her.
Her hand traveled down and nestled inside the open kolar of his shirt. She placed her hand lightly on his chest and moved it in a circular motion over the crinkly hairs of his chest.
“Blair,” he growled deep in his throat. He only broke the Ciuman to give her a piercing look. “This is what we could have, don’t deny it anymore.”
Just as she was about to retort, his mouth was back on hers and she found that she forgot what she had been about to say. It didn’t matter. His hand landed on her keldai and he drew her high and tight against his growing arousal. She felt it against her stomach and the sensation thrilled her. She could feel how much he wanted her, but Blair knew that he was going to keep coming back until he had her and she secretly wanted that. She threw her leg carelessly around his waist and pressed into him while their mouths continued to duel. Chuck moaned and when his hand moved under her skirt and to rest under the elastic band of her panties, her common sense finally returned. She pushed against his chest, but he didn’t budge. She pushed harder and continued to do so, until he toppled backwards a couple of steps.
“What the fuck?” he asked in rage.
“No,” the one word she used should have telah diberi him his answer, but he continued to press her.
A petulant look appeared on his face and he placed a hand on the dinding opposite himself and towered over her with his presence. “No, what? Say it to me, Blair. I’m not going to leave anda alone until anda tell me.”
Her gaze slowly made it’s way up his face and she could still see the same lust and haze in his eyes that she felt. “I can’t, Bass. I’m not going to break up with Nate for you, and even if I would, how would we ever explain it to him?”
He shrugged his shoulder. “I’m willing to chance it. I’m lebih than willing to give my best friend up for you, Waldorf. The least anda could do is meet me halfway!”
“Chuck,” she paused before continuing, “You know that Nate would never forgive us and what’s the point, anyways? How long would it be before this chemistry of ours would fade and we would be left hating each other again? Then what are we supposed to do? It’s just not worth it, and I don’t want anda to have to lose your best friend over this.”
“You don’t get to decide what’s best for me, Waldorf! I make my own decisions. What is this really all about?”
“What the hell are anda talking about now?
“Give me the real reason that anda don’t want to break up with Nate.”
She raised her eyebrows in confusion. “I just told you, Chuck.”
“No, there’s something more. Am I not good enough for you? Is the special Blair Waldorf above me?” The anger vibrated in his voice, but Blair was no slouch in that department. Her whole demeanor changed instantly.
“You know how much I want anda Chuck, but I’m not going to keep telling you. I’m staying with Nate and that’s final.” She tried to wrench open the door, but couldn’t because of her shaking hands. When she finally did succeed, she turned around to look at him one lebih time. “I’m sorry.”
“I’ll change your mind, anda can count on that.” His tone was confident and he believed what he was saying, and in a way so did she. She nodded once and berkata nothing else, she didn’t think it was wise. It was better to get as far away from Chuck bass as possible before she succumbed to his charm and changed her mind.

XOXO
The following days that passed were tense and strained for Blair. Nothing had changed with Nate. Absolutely nothing. They were back to exactly the same routine and she was beginning to think that the whole thing had been a mistake. A part of her had believed Nate when he berkata that things would be different this time around. He had berkata it with so much conviction, but he was just back to ignoring her as usual, but he wasn’t hanging around with Serena anymore either.
Blair continued to focus on the black chalkboard in her English class, but she couldn’t focus on what Mr. Williams was saying. Her gaze drifted to Nate’s who was a few rows ahead of her and she noted how miserable he looked. She made him miserable. She knew that Serena made her happy and she couldn’t understand why he had telah diberi that up again. They were going to have to talk again because this was never going to work. She was tired of being miserable and she should have just gone with her instincts and berkata yes to Chuck.
Blair hadn’t seen much of him in the last few days and she felt lonely without him. It was a big adjustment going from hating him to lebih than liking him, but it had felt good. She knew that Chuck was staying away from her on purpose, so that he could tunjuk her how much she would really miss him and it was working. She was now reconsidering everything that had happened in the last few days, but she still wasn’t going to give into him. He would never change and she didn’t want to just be another woman in his katil that meant nothing, although a part of her knew that wasn’t the case.
A big, warm, caressing hand suddenly covered her neck and began to soothe the tension out of her neck. She didn’t pay any attention to it for a few minit because it felt so good and she didn’t want to have to turn around and tell him to back the hell off. His thumb continued to peminat over her pulse point and when she felt the shivers that always accompanied her whenever he touched her, she knew that she was going to have to say something.
She slowly turned around in her seat, paying close attention to see if that their teacher wasn’t paying any mind to her. She crossed her legs and let her plaid skirt ride up her legs until her silky garters were exposed. His thumb paused in it’s movements and she saw his breath hitch. She couldn’t hold back her grin of satisfaction. “What do anda think you’re doing?”
Chuck continued to watch her as she uncrossed her legs and then crossed them again, every time there was lebih skin revealed and he could see her pantyhose incased legs. He removed his hand from her neck before saying, “What the hell do anda think you’re doing? You’re exposing yourself to everyone in our class.”
Blair noted his irritated tone and glanced over her shoulder. No one was looking at her. “We’re in the very back of the classroom Bass, no one is paying any attention to me. She looked into his face carefully and noted the tension there. “Why have anda been avoiding me the last few days?”
He didn’t answer for a moment, but finally said, “That’s what anda wanted, wasn’t it? I’m just trying to abide sejak your wishes.”
She faked a sugary and sweet smile. “Why so bitchy today, Chuck?”
He rewarded her with a menacing growl. “Why are anda always such a ball buster, Waldorf?”
She glared at him. “Asshole.”
“Prissy bitch.”
“Bastard.”
Chuck eyed her up and down. “You’re sexy as hell when you’re angry, Blair.”
She could tell he was serious and laughed before covering her mouth, so that no one would be able to hear her. “I’m glad we’re haven’t Lost this,” she was referring to their banter and he nodded his head. “And Chuck, I didn’t want anda to stay away from me, I just couldn’t do what anda were asking me to do. This is not even close to what I want, but anda can’t always have what anda want.”
The teasing glint left his eyes almost immediately and he placed a hand over hers. “You can have what anda want, Blair. anda just have to decide what’s lebih important to you.”
She continued to look at him, but berkata nothing. She couldn’t. She drank in the sight of him though because she knew from now on that she had to stay away from him. Blair allowed his hand to continue to rest on hers and the seterusnya thing she knew was there was the noise of shuffling chairs and students moving to the front door. In the back of her mind, she knew that the loceng must have rung, but she was still too wrapped up in him to even notice.
A large figure loomed over their desks and she threw Chuck’s hand off of her, as soon as she saw who exactly it was. “Nate.” Her voice sounded even guilty to her.
His expression turned from boredom, to annoyance, and then to irritation in a matter of seconds. “What’s this?” He pointed to the spot where they’re hands had been clasped only a moment before.
She shook her head hurriedly. “Nothing. We were just talking.”
Nate’s gaze turned to Chuck. “Well?”
“Well what, Nathaniel? We were having a conversation which is a hell of a lot lebih than anda ever do with Blair.”
Nate didn’t look happy about being spoke down to, but he asked, “I know what anda were doing Chuck, what I meant is why were anda talking? I thought that anda and Blair hated each other.”
Chuck sighed with a huff of annoyance, but she answered before he could say anything. “We don’t hate each other, Nate,” She looked around the empty classroom now expect for them and their teacher. She looked back at Nate. “I don’t think I ever hated Chuck, maybe I just misunderstood him.”
She shared a secret smile with Chuck, but then realized that Nate was watching her with suspicious eyes. “Are anda ready to go, sweetheart?”
She felt Chuck stiffen seterusnya to her, but paid him no lebih attention. Her focus had to be on Nate atau she would let everything slip.
Nate held up his hand which made her pause in the middle of getting up. “Do anda like Blair, Chuck?”
He rolled his eyes before saying, “Yes, I like Blair. I like her very much.”
She gasped in surprise and she was almost tempted to tell Nate that she wanted Chuck in the worst way, but she held herself in check. What the hell was the matter with her? He was a bad influence on her.
Nate’s face showed the confusion that he must have felt. “What does that mean?”
“Are anda fucking serious, Nathaniel?” he let out a roar of stunned laughter. “Do try and figure it out in the seterusnya few days.” He stood up quickly and straightened his pants before turning back to face her. “I’ll see anda later Waldorf.” He gave her one last piercing look and pushed his way through the door and into the school hallway.
“What’s going on between the two of you? Why are anda all the sudden buddy, buddy with my best friend?”
Blair looked at him in amusement. He was jealous, she could hear it in his voice. “Nothing is going on with us,” she berkata and it was the truth atau it was lebih likely going to be the truth. She had to stop spending time with him atau he would make her crack under the pressure. “We’ve just gotten to know each other a little better Nate and there’s nothing wrong with that. Don’t anda want your best friend and your girlfriend to get along?”
“Yes,” he admitted. “Chuck look pretty pissed at me though before he left. What do anda know about that?”
She felt like pulling her hair out at his denseness. “I’m sure it was nothing, anda know how Chuck is.” She stood up and went to the door. The seterusnya period was about to begin and students were starting to file into the class. “Are anda coming?”
He nodded and moved towards her. He went out through the door, but instead of holding it for her, he let it slam in her face. Being with Nate took a lot of restraint and patience, but this time she was determined to make it work, even if that’s not what she necessarily wanted.

XOXO
She latched onto his hand and turned him around. “Nate! We have to stop this.”
He turned around and began to pace the length of his foyer. “What are anda talking about now, Blair?” He continued to walk and she noticed how Lost in thought he was. They were both torturing themselves and she really couldn’t understand why they continued to do this to each other. They only made the other miserable and it get worse with each passing day.
Blair caught his hand as he walked past her again. “Stop for a minit and concentrate on me, Nate.” He did what she asked and she continued, “It can’t be that hard, can it? I know that I’m not Serena, but you’re the one who wanted to do this again.”
Nate snatched his hand away from hers and looked like he could easily kill her. She had never seen that expression on his face and it scared her in a way. “I’m not going to go through this shit again, Blair.”
She nodded once. “One question. Why did anda want to get back together with me, when we both know that you’re in Cinta with S?”
Blair watched as Nate collapsed on the stairs, but she felt no empathy for him. She thought back to all the times that he had hurt her with Serena. How he had always paid attention to Serena instead of her, how he had Lost his virginity to her at the Sheppard wedding, how he had slept with her again, but most of all how he gave no consideration to her feelings at all. She knew that she could be a jalang, perempuan jalang sometimes, but she didn’t deserve this. She tried to keep her feelings locked deep down where no one could get at them, but she was tired of doing that and wanted to change it.
Nate finally raised his hand and she stared back at him with hatred in her eyes because at this moment she did hate him. She hated what he had done to her, and she hated that she was so unhappy with him, but most of all she hated that he wasn’t Chuck. And she hated herself a little for that. “I’m sorry, Blair. I really thought that we could make it work this time.”
“How could we make it work Nate, when we’ve never really been in Cinta in the first place?” His eyes locked with hers at her statement, but it was finally time to be honest with him. “When I found out that anda and Serena had slept together again, I was willing to give anda another chance, but I don’t even know why. I would like to think that we were in Cinta at one time, but I’m not sure we were. We haven’t been for years and it’s stupid to keep pretending that we are.” She paused before asking, “Answer the damn question. Why did anda want to try again when anda had a clear opening of being rid of me and finally being with Serena?”
Nate hung his head on his knees and mumbled mostly to himself. “You looked different that hari and something clicked for me. anda were softer somehow, open, less reserved, and anda looked sexy. I know those don’t sound like good atau even qualified reasons, but anda were the only thing that I could focus on that day. I only wanted you, Blair.”
She started to laugh with derision. She didn’t stop for a while, but she finally found the strength to face him. “That’s why anda wanted me? Because I looked good? You’ve got to be kidding, but I know you’re not, Nate. That’s the thing with you. anda are always so damn predictable, maybe I finally want some wildness and recklessness in my life right now.”
He immediately bounded up from the stairs and raced over to her. He took both of her hands in his and asked, “Are anda breaking up with me? Are anda saying that it’s over?”
Blair pulled tried to pull her hands from his, but his grasp was firm. She looked pointedly into his eyes and berkata very clearly, “Maybe. I think that is what I’m saying.”
Nate dropped her hands. She left. She had to go see Chuck before she changed her mind.

XOXO
She made it to his suite in record time. Just as she was about to knock on the door, she paused. She just had to keep reminding herself that she was doing the right thing, that was all there was to it. She raised her hand again and knocked steadily three times.
A moment later, the door was pulled open and she was pulled inside of his room. Blair glanced at him and that’s when her mouth fell open. He was naked. Gloriously naked. She tried to avert her glance, but she really didn’t want to, so that didn’t work. She heard the noise of a peminat and guessing for the steam that was coming out of his bathroom, he had just gotten out of the shower. She tried to regain her composure. “Do anda always answer the door naked, Bass?”
He threw a towel around his neck, but did nothing to cover his nakedness. “No, only when I know it’s you, Waldorf.” At her confused expression, he explained, “I heard someone knocking on the door and I looked through the peephole and saw that it was you. I figured I might as well open in it because in the time it took me to throw on a robe, anda would probably have left.” She knew that he was right on that count, so she didn’t argue. “And you’re eventually going to see it all anyway, Waldorf. I can tell that anda like what anda see.”
Blair noted his cocky stance and aimed to take him down a little bit, but then her gaze got stuck on his cock. He was beautiful in every way. He had somewhat of a hard-on and it looked good to her. She found herself wanting to do things to him that she had never even attempted to try with Nate.
Her eyes finally made to his face and she expected to see a cocky grin there, considering that he had caught her staring at him. Instead there was only a grin. A grin that looked like he was happy to see her.
He crooked his finger at her. “Come here.”
Even though it was against her better judgment, she went. As soon as she was close enough to touch, he pushed her backwards until she toppled on the katil and he covered her with his warm body.
Her mouth opened on a gust of shock. “Why you!” Blair pretended to be mad, but only for a few saat before she busted out giggling. She was actually giggling with none other than Chuck Bass. What was the world coming to?
Her breath hitched when she saw the intense look that he was giving her. She knew what he wanted and that was the part that scared her lebih than anything, no matter how much it thrilled her also. “We’ve got to stop doing this,” she managed to whisper. He pushed his body lebih firmly into hers and placed his mouth on the pulse point of her neck. He began to pepper rama-rama, taman rama-rama kisses all over her neck while his hand creeped down to her breast and he cupped it in his hand. “Chuck, no.” she tried to protest even though she didn’t want to.
He lifted his mouth for a fraction of a second. “No? Your mind may be telling anda no Blair, but your body is saying something entirely different.”
He continued to trace her nipple through her blouse, but she moved his hand away and looked up into his eyes. A piece of stray hair fell into his eyes and she gently pushed it back. “I’m not good at this part, Bass.”
“What are anda talking about?”
Blair shrugged her shoulders and started to become embarrassed. “This. I’m not good at being intimate with another person. This is always the part that I failed at with Nate, it was just never something that I enjoyed and what should make this any different?”
“Blair,” he admonished. “Not being as sexual as anda should have been with Nate was not your fault. It was all his. He didn’t realize what potential anda had, but that was probably because he was always hung up on Serena. anda can feel that it’s going to be different with me, can’t you? Look at how much chemistry we have and how anda make me feel.” He brought her hand down to his throbbing arousal and she covered him with his hand. He groaned. “Tell me anda know that it’s going to be different.”
She nodded her head once. She was willing to try for him. “I know that it’s going to be different with you, Bass.” Her hand continued to alih over his erection and he was hard enough to break steel. She ran her hand over the plump velvet tip and thrilled to the liquid that gushed into her hand.
“I want anda so much, Blair. Tell me anda want me, too.”
He began to thrust in and out of her hand and she very softly said, “I want anda lebih than I ever wanted anything Chuck, but I don’t want us to get all mushy on the other here.” She added with a laugh.
Chuck was too far gone to laugh, but he smiled tightly. Her hand was driving him crazy. He picked up her leg and nestled himself in between her legs. He ran a hand up her thighs and found those silky garters that had almost destroyed him a couple of days ago. His hand felt like liquid heat on her skin and he branded her with his touch. They went slow and were determined to take their time with each other, and just as he was getting ready to remove certain banners, a knock sounded on the door.
They broke apart, and he grinned at her. “You’re going to like this, Blair. It’s a bit of a surprise that I arranged for you.” He moved his body off of her and quickly went into the bathroom to retrieve his robe, he was back in a few seconds.
“What are anda talking about?” she asked, as she fluidly got off the bed.
“You’ll see.”
He answered the door and Blair peered over his shoulder to see who was there. A wave of dread passed through her. She should have figured something like this would of happened, but stupidly she had telah diberi Chuck the benefit of the doubt which is something she should have never done. Standing on his doorstep was a platinum blonde woman, dressed in a bustier and an keldai revealing skirt with a merah jambu feather boa wrapped around her neck. In another word, she was obviously a whore.
She stepped away from the door. “This is what anda arranged for me, Chuck?” she asked in disbelief. Everything that she knew about him and thought was true, but she had disregarded it and now she was going to be the one that paid for it.
Blair eyed him with disdain and she noted that the whore looked confused. Yes, it must have been rather confusing to her why she still had her clothes on and why she wasn’t fucking anyone yet. She ignored her and turned her anger on him. “I can’t believe anda would do this to me.”
She stormed to the door, but Chuck intercepted her just before she was able to leave. “Blair, no anda don’t understand. It’s nothing like that. anda have to let me explain.” She saw noticed the wild look in his eyes, but opened the door anyways. “Have fun with your whore, Bass. I was going to break up with Nate for you. That’s what I came here to tell you. Stupid on my part, huh?”
Before he could say another word, she ran down the hallway and out of his room. Tears blinded her vision, but she didn’t stop. She had to get out of here as soon as possible. She heard Chuck’s footsteps behind her and him wildly calling her name with a note of desperation, but she ignored him and ran all the way back to her penthouse in her four inch Louboutins and she didn’t even notice the pain in her feet. All she could concentrate on was the pain in her heart.

XOXO
Serena entered her penthouse and let out a sigh of relief. “Thank anda for agreeing to see me, Blair. I know that things haven’t been good between us lately, but I really need my best friend right now.” Serena took in Blair’s face and saw how tired, miserable, and unhappy she looked. “What’s wrong?”
Blair shook her head once. “Nothing is. I just want anda to get to the point and tell me what anda want. I haven’t forgiven you, Serena.”
Serena sat down seterusnya to her. “I know anda haven’t. I’m just going to spit it out because I’m sure that you’re going to hate me once I tell anda this.”
“What?” she spat. “I can’t hate anda anymore than I dislike anda right now.”
“Fine, Blair. I’m pregnant.” She watched as all the color drained from Blair’s face. There are three possibilities to who the father is.”
Blair’s mouth dropped open in shock. She didn’t know what she had been expecting, but it certainly wasn’t that. “Who is the third one? I know that Nate and Dan are possibilities. Obviously.” She added with a sneer.
Serena hung her head. “Thank anda for not judging me.”
“Oh, I’m judging you, I’m just not saying anything out loud.”
Serena sighed. “I know for a fact that it’s not Nate atau Dan. It’s the third guy.”
“And who is that?”
“Carter Baizen.”

A/N: Yes, Carter will be an addition to this story. I’ve seen the baru-baru ini foto-foto of Serena and Carter on set and I’ve become inspired sejak it. Is it wrong that I’m shipping them at the moment? Ha. Oh, and don’t be mad at Chuck. He’s not a total dip-shit like it seems. There is an explanation for his actions. What did anda think?