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mgkest92laceup said:
Machine gun kelly's music.. it hasn't just changed my life, its also changed my boyfriends. for me when i was younger my utama life wasnt. the best, i have mental issues no one understood and didnt understand why i acted the way i was, my family made me believe there was something wrong with me and it got worse when my parents got divorced, i think i was about 12. i was "abused" sejak a man very close to me that was suppose to protect me, after that, i wasnt social in the least, the world was against me, so i started cutting to numb the pain, cutting stopped working, so i started drinking, i was hardly ever sober, and ended up living on the streets and having to sleep around in order to live. but then then pain of the world became worse and worse, and i turned to drug, cocaine, heroin, anything i could get my hands on, i was very Violent to every one around me, constantly fighting and stealing, but then it went too far, i over dosed, i was in a coma for weeks. i couldnt take the world anymore. i just wanted it to end. to just quit and gave up. but god had another plan for me, and while i was in rehab i hurd mgks music, his lyrics seemed like they were speeking to me personally. every time i listened to his Muzik i would end up in tears. something had to change and i knew at some point things would be amazing. so i cleaned up. alot i still did somethings every now and then bt i could never leave it alone and then i would go back into the dirt and wanting to give up again, but i ended up giving birth to a beautiful baby girl and looking at her in my arms saved my life. but then it was just me and her against the world and i vowed that i would protect her with my life and try to understand every aspect of her. when my daughter was 9 months old i met this man. he was beautiful. but i could see this man was in the dirt, i could see the scars on his arms, the hallow in his eyes. the hate in his heart. then i found out this man spend 5 years in prison for a crime he didn't commit, he became broken form the struggles in his life. i when to see him everyday at the center, i showed him Cinta still existed, i showed him the lyrics in the Muzik that changed my life and effected him with a major impact, he closed his eyes and was in a trance, i dont know what he saw, but tears streamed down his face. later that day, he ran from he center he was at, cause his father and just gotten hit sejak a car and killed. at the funeral menunjukkan they took this man back to jail before he could even say good sejak to his dad. he went back to jail for another year, i stayed sejak his side, and wrote him letters everyday. we learned everything about each other. i stuck sejak him as he got clean and help him create his own business, now the both of us are on the right track in life because of the words in the song sang sejak a man that understands. my boyfriend proposed a few months ago, his business is a huge success, my daughter sees him as her father and always will, me im now in nursing school.
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