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Riku114 berkata …
"Yeah, youre probably right. [...] Were probably all insane.. broken. But whose fault is that!? The adults are the ones who broke us! anda want to hear the truth? .. We're scared" ~Nagisa Shingetsu (DRAE) telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Was gonna make my profil "Just Riku" entirely cause I felt like it but nah. I felt like mixing it up since I didnt have a Danganronpa-specific background.

... quite shockingly actually. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
^ I'm shocked myself !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
... I just realized now after Membaca 'scientific literature' for an Animal Science Assignment a few weeks lalu that I find Membaca "scientific literature" for psychiatry and psychology as just like... a hobby XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Just a reminder of the stream on Saturday 2 PM telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
On another note, getting a double major in Animal Science (Avian and Behavior specialization) and Psychology in 4 years seems a lot easier than Pre-Vet in 3.5 years XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I THINK I FINALLY FIGURED OUT EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO DO FOR FUCKS SAKE FINALLY THE AMBIGUOUS PIECES OF ANIMAL SCIENCE MATCHED. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Okay so like I am going to complete my major in Animal Science, Avian Science Specialization and BEHAVIOR Disciplinary Focus. All of that is necessary for the Animal Science degree btw. A specialization and a Disciplinary Focus. But listen here - Im either going to minor atau double major in psychology just like I used to plan to for the majority of my middle / highschool career and carry on to get a Doctorate in Animal Behavior and / atau Psychology and then go into research for the both of them and essentially try to bridge the soalan marks between animal and human psychology and see how the two could better develop, grow, and understand when looked at each other in a parallel manner. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
This solves a lot of my issues and pretty much combines my main two interests, obsessions, overwhelming passions, and ties in my otherwise 'random' goals into a larger circle. Like one of the issues with being a Veterinarian was that I felt I would get bored being specialized in that and just working commercially and I wouldnt be learning at the rate I like to. My brain would get bored and Id start to feel like life is dull. As for genetics and convservation, it just seems fun but half baked. I wasnt passionate atau THAT curious about it. BUT WHEN anda GO INTO ANIMAL BEHAVIOR AND PSYCHOLOGY, THEY ARE BOTH HUGE PASSIONS OF MINE AND THEY ARE BOTH RATHER UNEXPLORED TERRITORIES SO THERE IS A LOT OF soalan AND THINGS TO FIGURE OUT hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Okay enough of me being a nerd. I just felt some of youd be curious XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
But yeah for those of anda that dont fully understand how problematic dissociative amnesia is when getting mental help

Therapy: So how was your week?

Me: ??????? I can check my notes if anda like????????

Psychiatry: Okay lets track your progress. In the past two weeks have anda felt this?

Me: ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Me: WHAT IS TWO WEEKS. HOW COULD I REMEMBER THE PAST TWO WEEKS. MAYBE IVE BEEN GOOD MAYBE I HAVENT WHO KNOWS telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I can probably maybe answer for "The past two days" confidently at best XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
On a saat note, we have a "stale" (someone who joined the band post-Summer Retreat) and my motherly "adoptive" instincts kicked in and I think he thought I was an "upper" / "returner" for a bit until I was like "Oh yeah Im new too so I know how anda feel" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlueDopamine berkata …
97th. Was waiting to be the 100th, but knowing the growing community fanpop's active members number , this might take forever. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Understandable XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly Ive Lost a member atau two so its kinda been staying around 95-97 for the past long while hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: *rambling about sebelumnya mental states to boyfriend* Ah... 10th grade was like the most peaceful tahun even though I dont remember any of it.

Me: ....

Me: .... maybe it wasn't peaceful after all and I only say it was because of all the years, I dont remember any of 10th grade. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
My boyfriend is too cute to be depressed atau mopey when talking to on video chat telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
BlueDopamine dikomen…
I'm so jelly, jeli hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
The depressing thing is when anda pause for a moment and realize anda wont remember your own proposal. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"therapist: so how was your week

me: susan i just told anda last time that i have dissociative amnesia i don't know how anda are expecting me to answer that question"

That is such a mood telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I legit take notes hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I will take a note of this and legit not really remember it and in my session go "OH YEAH THAT lol. That was funny." hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I honest to god do not know how most of the world does it. I am trying my damn hardest here to see if I can get myself to ACTUALLY remember a significant childhood memory with genuine episodic memory and all Im getting is a factual, third person, emotionally barren, summary of what it is using the same words that I use to describe it everytime cause its how my mind registers it

How do anda people remember stuff XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
How do anda people do this XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Fun stream XD Hope anda guys enjoyed it. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
I certainly did. Looking ke hadapan to seterusnya time as well !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im honeslty SUPER hyped to play DRAE for those that can make it XD

I mean Im hyped for the stream but I personally Cinta DRAE a lot and it seems like such a fitting game to play through since there are people I know who planned to go through the story and all and I just appreciate a lot abotu the game

Plus anda might get to hear me growl at [her] telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I might try to alih the weekly time an jam atau two earlier to see if I can make the time work for lebih people seterusnya week. Currently trying to figure out a good time for everyone XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
A relatable feeling. Still having mixed feelings about anyone who hasn't gone through the first two Games. Regardless, having just the general idea about the first entry at least will still make the experience enjoyable enough !!!!. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I decided Imma gather a Live National Dex on PokeBank cause someone on my floor did it and I helped them evolve the last few they needed and it sounded fun XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
TFW anda find a song that tears anda between your Cinta of Krismas and anda Cinta of nicely edgy songs XD

Why so edgy about Krismas XD Its so nicely edgy that its kinda enjoyable but like :v I like it but :v Why hurt Krismas like this :v telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Guys telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I might Cinta my man lebih than birds hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Idk its genuinely hard to say, but I just homestly might. Maybe notably lebih idk. I shouldnt claim such things when fluffy hampir setahun yang lalu
Zeppie dikomen…
Fluff is the realist yo v: hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I NEED TO STOP GETTING ALL FLUFFY OVER MY MAN BEFORE BED. I NEED TO SLEEP DAMN IT telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*collects steam cards while working on really long and tedious Animal Science artikel reading* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I dont think anyone on here really understands how much I Cinta mt boyfriend and how blessed I am to have him in my life.

Lowkey may atau may not now be kept up thinking about it telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I cant wait to make him my waifu officially hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Riku: *complains how tired she is*

Riku: *stays up playing Showdown with Lefteris* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I can not stop listening to meriam in D XD Its too peaceful telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
.... why do I have a better emotional memory for my RP characters than I do for my own life?

XD Like Ive always loved Pachbell's meriam in D, but there was a really sweet scene over a wedding in one of my RPs where it was played and the sheer joy, happiness, and warm peace amongst chaos and terror for the groom was just so great and it boosted how much I loved meriam in D telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Maybe I RPed so much it was bad for me and encouraged dissociation, maybe the reason I could get THAT far into feeling the emotions of my characters came at a huge cost, but I wont say I dont have some good memories and emotions through them. Especially during a time when everything else in the world was distant, numb, and empty. Sure it probably caused some harm, but in the moment it was the savior to my world and I did get some good memories - albiet not mine - out of it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I used to be a severe maladaptive daydreamer hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
For those that haven't kept up with the polls, if anyone wants to sertai in and watch me play through some games, I will probably be playing games on Saturdays Pacific Coast Time.

I think this week I might start Danganronpa Another Episode again for anda all XD Time is still to be determined

It depends if I am kept in the football game atau not. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
link hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I think Lefteris caught a lot of the first playthrough I did XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
And Imma go through [her] again for yall to share the game with anda XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im so honestly sleep deprived. How am I awake rn? XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm a Queen. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Nah not really though XD Im so weak to flirtatious begging though. ((Also may have been a bit of a residue from calming down from a snap to which I was five saat from making my dad grovel)) hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly, for those that know, Lacie from Pandora Hearts looks almost scarily like Aderis so Im usually really careful about using her icon, but I kind of feel like its a good fit for my mood and honestly I Cinta Lacie XD hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
#Himedere !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ah yes, it wouldnt be me coming utama if my dad doesnt throw something.

RIP the cute japanese animal cup telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Actually I dont think the cup broke cause its probably like some really good plastic atau something but now theres wine all over the floor which IS NOT my problem. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Honestly tho. Great boyfriend helped a lot XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
APPARENTLY WE GOT A NEW BIRD TO THE FLOCK telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Awwwww Avery and Lucy were preening each other in an awkward manner XD Seems like they MIGHT be dating XD

Well lebih like Lucy was preening Avery buuuuut XD Its cute. Theyre growing up. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
.... HMMM

>goes utama and back to college for three weeks before coming back for Christmas
>has a paper due on the 30th
>has a week of marching practice for the last game on the 1st
>has finals on the third week
>dying? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Also behind as hell in Chem XD But yeah. Ill figure it out XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also the thing about my therapist is that he calls me out on somethings. Such as "You use your memory as an excuse a lot but anda can remember. anda just dont want to. And even if anda dont know how, it doesnt mean anda cant."

Im not going to lie. I kinda try to hide it from myself but there are some occasions that I know that if I push I CAN remember something but there is a lot of natural resistance to it and just an extreme distaste to thinking about it even just on the surface level so telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I often allow myself to go "Welp, it took lebih than five saat and a tiny tiny bit of effort to remember. Guess I cant remember it". Its not always an excuse that I try to keep from admitting to myself that its an excuse, because a lot of the time I really cant atau I can only barely remember atau I just flat out dont know how to find the memories atau how to connect with the emotions of the time hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
But I do know I compulsively let myself throw the "Cant remember it. Guess we cant think about it" really quickly and often prematurely. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Im in a constant journey of going to things I find normal and being ".... is that normal atau is that part of my messed up mental health" hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Its weird. Being utama literally feels like I was moved to an entirely different world but in a like... good way I think?

Was I really that shit keldai dissociated to hell and back at college? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It honestly makes college just seem like some odd dream I had atau something like that. Its really odd. I mean its not THAT odd for me since cognitive distortions and attachment to the world / my memory has always been odd hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
MY ANKLE HURTS LIKE SHIT FOR SOME REASON XD

I mean it is my hurt one but like :v Its been recovering and suddenly it started hurting again ;-; telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
SilentForce dikomen…
Did anda overwork it? hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Probably tbh XD hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Kill me XD Jkjk hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly Im kinda glad I have gotten better at keeping myself from freaking out / getting depressed over things I can't control and things I know Ill manage / survive through. Not to say I do it all the time as well as Id like, but it saves me a lot of breakdowns that quickly build upon one another

Probably a good part of it is actually being on medication, but it is also a good part also just handling myself better I imagine. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cause when anda let your opportunity to relax atau have fun because something makes anda upset, anda get even lebih upset cause of that and it just builds up like a mountain that just doesnt work hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
So yeah. Kinda figured out that for the seterusnya two years I might be stuck between working and being uncomfortable and relatively isolated to being extremely drained and a bit easily overwhelmed until I can get my boyfriend up north and thus have my environment lebih stable hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cause uncontrolled unplanned breakdowns are bad, but like... controlled, timed ones are really helpful and useful when anda dissociate a lot and can get comfortable enough. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
.... Ive been away from utama for two months and it legit feels like I was only gone for maybe a week at most save for the first few minit of "Holy shit human touch".

Like Im not saying "Everythings just as it was left" cos there actually isnt much. It just legit feels like that whole time vanished :v I know I was at college for two months and it was long and tiring :v Weeeiiiirrrddd telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I swear to fucking god XD My brain better not throw away those two months already. Theres some interesting shit there :v hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Dude so excited to go utama tomorrow XD I get to see my birds again as well as my boyfriend and even some of my old band kids probably \(-- 3 -)/ telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
That is great to know. Have a good time. Make the most of it !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Bad Memory?

Cons: A lot of things mainly obvious

Pro: I can still be surprised at the end of an Anime Ive already watched twice over telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
.... to be entirely honest I dunno how braced Ill be for Smokey's inevitable death in like.... 5-15 years from now :v

Like Im alright not taking her with me since shes considerably old and well integrated into the current flock cause the alih up north could be dangerous for her and cos my mom can take care of them well, but I dunno. She was a major part of the good things of my childhood that I dunno. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
For all of anda that dont really understand how old parrotss live, even cockatiels, one of the shortest living parrots, Smokey, potentially one of the oldest that I got in the summer of 3rd-4th grade ((was probably a little under a tahun old))

I got her when I was about 8. Shes currently about 10 years old, maybe a bit older. She will live anywhere from until Im.... 23 up to 38.

Lucy, who hatched July 2017, is a little over one tahun and will live until Im 42 if cared for right. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Maybe even longer for both of them. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I am ever thankful for it, but the whole "wounded, cold person who can be helped and fixed to be soft" is a huge trap and like.... 90% of the time it doesnt really go out to the end. A small but notable amount of the population are like "Id Cinta a traumatized partner" atau "Oh Id Cinta a yandere" atau what not, but its honestly not a good idea

My boyfriend was honest to god crazy for taking the chance with me after half the things I did and staying after I did other things. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Quite honestly if I wasnt stubborn on getting better, it could have easily turned into a long term abusive relationship faster than I could have held myself back. Yeah I have an amazing relationship with him now that we worked through all of that, but seriously... not something anda should put your bets on. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Its honestly kinda gross how romanticized the "cold and cruel traumatized" character is. hampir setahun yang lalu
Rihanna312 dikomen…
This is so true! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Okay so its likely that I actually do have genuine multiple personalities and in this session, for the first time in years and possibly to my memory, I actually roughly experienced a general vague memory that had almost all of the emotion behind it

And while that sounds horrible, its legit what Ive been kind of wanting because its the only thing I have been unable to work on in my mental health cause I resist so naturally against it myself that even in this session telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I had to very forcefully make sure I didnt dissociate atau let myself escape it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
It took him not letting me dodge it and escape it and a very forceful but balanced amount of me forcing myself without letting myself get distracted and escape sejak focusing too much on forcing myself hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
Very interesting. I see now what anda mean sejak him doing a good work !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Man its been so long since I so quickly and suddenly cut off emotion. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
2ntyOnePilots dikomen…
Relatable. Good luck ‘big sis- Riku’. Hope that gets fixed up for anda soon. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Well Imma get fucked in the keldai sejak a 60% weighted final. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Which wouldnt be a huge deal if either A) I didnt get a C+ on the last midterm because of one stupid calculation error (cause I would have otherwise gotten an A) and B ) If I wasnt learning from fucking textbook because my professor has an accent anda cant fucking understand hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
What a fucking hari ruiner. hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
^ hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
IM SAD

I CANT sertai THE "Mental HEalth in Award Winning Movies" FIRST tahun SEMINAR BECAUSE IM TOO AHEAD IN UNITS AND CAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY CLASSES

I JUST WANT TO DISCUSS AND TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH AND WATCH Filem REVOLVING IT :VVVV telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
NOTE TO SELF CALL COUNSELING AND FIGURE OUT HOW LATE I CAN batal IN CASE MY MIDTERM GETS PUSHED BACK AGAIN.

ALSO FIGURE OUT PASSING PERIOD.

Thank you, this as been a reminder from Riku who wants to go back to sleeping after her classes got canceled at 7 AM and couldnt go back to sleep out of both joy and her brain not letting her since there were things to do because of it. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly Yandere Dev is miserable and I stopped being a supporter cause I kinda gave up on the fact his project would be completed but honestly I might go back to supporting him more. atau at least giving his thing a saat chance. I kinda felt bad before but at least hes aware and working on things. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ugh. When anda are here trying to keep a decent sleep schedule and your roommate wont get off the phone on a school night at 1:30 AM after anda asked nicely at 1:00 AM and just passive aggressively asked again. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack__ dikomen…
Why not use ear plugs? hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Cos I couldnt sleep with earplugs hampir setahun yang lalu
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I could honestly live with only birds and my boyfriend and I would be happpppy. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
I want my flock back ;-; hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
ALSO THE LIKE BURNT / CHAFED / DAMAGED SKIN FROM USING CRUTCHES WITH A TANK bahagian, atas BURNS SO BAD WHEN I PUT LOTION ON Jesus CHRIST I FEEL LIKE ITS ON api, kebakaran telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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*heavy conversation and analysis about the cooperate religion of BTS*

*sends a Rawak bird video three saat after* telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
That actually happened and is the best summary of me hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I swear to god my mom gave me a hati, tengah-tengah attack XD

She abruptly started calling me which isnt TOO odd and I was like "Im busy, what is it?" and she just berkata "Lucy" XD

So I quickly dropped everythign and answered it and it was just Lucy hanging out with her and being a really good bird XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I honestly dont understand how people can just sit and piss their life away online.

Id be lebih producitve if my piss keldai brain would function and actually get motivated but the lack of physical movement is making me honest to god unmotivated mentally and thus cant focus atau really enjoy anything >.> telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly kinda hate my leg right now. I have a three hari weekend Im spending being a hermit in my house cause I cant go out anywhere and socialize atau so anything. Im literally just sitting on my keldai watching anime, watching youtube, and occasionally doing some homework atau whatever. No real video games to play since Im still doing Hakuoki and not interested in any others. No real socialization cause Im a cripple. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
Without class atau band atau anything I just lowkey kinda realize how shit as boring life is. I need something to be passionate over atau something to learn from atau something / someone interesting but Im just fukcing sitting here doing the same thign over and over again. Like wtf hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
If Im just gonna sit and waste these seterusnya few days can I at least not be involved in it and just fastfoward? I get a bit weird when I realize how monotonous life is and I dont particularly like it hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Krul might make my waifu senarai XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
IM SO SHOOK. WHY ARE MY FIRST BATCH OF ROOKIES DOING SENIOR SPEECHES?! ARENT THEY STILL LIKE FRESHMEN

WHY DID THEY GROW UP ALREADY?!?! telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I request a bird video in my club's video section if anyone has any. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
Riku114 dikomen…
"a bird videos" hampir setahun yang lalu
JetBlack__ dikomen…
Sure hampir setahun yang lalu
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So Im trying to analyze BPD, OSDD-1B, and DID to see if what I do and experience is lebih fitting to one of the three atau just seeing them in the context of eachother and its honestly really interesting. I dunno if Ill post it on "Just Shut Up" atau as an artikel but wow.

I could honest to god write a thesis paper on this with how interestingly similar the three - especially BPD and OSDD - are on an outward level. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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#TripleHealRainDishPelipper telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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#SpamProtectAndHealUntilThereIsn'tAnyMorePP !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
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>Sugar Daddy Riku telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Lets play the game of "Is this the dissociated part of is that the dissociated part" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I honestly need my flock back. hampir setahun yang lalu
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Apologies about the Satou Matsuzaka gif spam XD The wiki feature wasnt working telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 dikomen…
No need to apologize over adorable Waifu Gif spams. anda did well !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
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FUCK IM SO DISAPPOINTED. HAPPY SUGAR LIFE WAS SO CLOSE TO THE CLASSICAL SHAKESPEAREAN TRAGEDY ENDING WITH THE WHOLE CAST COMING TOGETHER AT THE END AND DYING ALL TOGETHER IN ONE PLACE BUT THEN THEY YEETED OUT OF THE PLAN AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFUL telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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EEEE. ITS ALMOST THURSDAY. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I Cinta therapy so much when I have bad weeks on mental health XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Ive kinda been pulling myself through the way I usually do and kind of using band and the trumpet as a crutch a bit. Cause honestly they give off such a nice healthy environment and air. Its soft and I feel so much lebih relaxed around them. Like when the topic of mental health comes up its always sympathetic, empathetic, and just "Oh its good to care for yourself" and all and the world just needs so much lebih of that. hampir setahun yang lalu
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Im very grateful. hampir setahun yang lalu
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Im still honestly kinda pahit I was disarmed going to college. I like to have at least one pisau on me at all times for just general use atau for emergency use atau just as a bit of a "dont fuck with me" if Im alone at night. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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GOD. Happy Sugar Life thus far is GREAT. Like the stylistic choices to display emotion and mental snaps are really great and as someone who has had very... lets say vindictive / aggressive mental snaps, I feel it is really good representation XD

Also I really like Sato as a Yandere. Better than Yuno I believe. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Holy shit is it amazing. All the characters are mentally fucked and the Anime goes about its own ways of addesssing it hampir setahun yang lalu
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And displaying it and I fucking Cinta it but like hampir setahun yang lalu
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I need to go to sleep XD But Im fucking hooked god help me hampir setahun yang lalu
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Debating between adding lebih to characters atau watching Happy Sugar Life. I decided that one since it interested me the most even though I am slightly concerned of certain things not workign well with me but... Ya know #Yolo telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Pretty much had a one-on-one sectional practice with one of my section leaders cos no one else showed up and it was actually pretty awesome. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Also I realized one of the best types of people to have around anda in the case anda get into an accident atau bad situation is someone with like.... anxiety atau PTSD cos we are always either mentally braced atau physically braced to deal with it.

Cos dude I have pretty much a first aid kit with me whenever I do anything remotely dangerous XD

Like I heard the bike breaks behind me screech like there was an accident turned around and was like "ARE anda GUYS OKAY I GOT BANDAGES AND SUPPLIES" telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I am so doing a meme of this xD hampir setahun yang lalu
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^ 👌 !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
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XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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I was most definately not almost late for class despite being there 20 minit early because I got too into checking out the birds and psychology buku in the bookstore across the jalan from my class telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Me @ My Brain: Make serotonin and dopamine anda lazy fucker telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Honestly it feels like I missed three consecutive days of anxiety medicine and while my ability to remember to take medicine the past week has been bad, I do not think I missed three days.

Cause apparently if I miss three days in a row it resets atau something and thus I never missed three days in a row since I started taking it like... a tahun and a half lalu telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Its honestly been a while since Ive been in a point of instability and my mind messing with itself that I have so strongly marked a hari to 'survive' with it to. hampir setahun yang lalu
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Like this is all minor compared to before and its pretty bad so like.... serious pujian to younger me hampir setahun yang lalu
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She was a beast to deal with all this hampir setahun yang lalu
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When anda own a Cockatoo someday name it Riku xD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Why XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Im honestly not cut out for living with people other than like.... birds and maybe my boyfriend. I could probably also manage living with my PTSD best friend, but unless Im really bonded and/or really really trust them and are comfortable around them, it takes a huge toll on me in the long run

And things get really hard to manage when Im not fully stable because the small things trigger things to start again that I just have to keep to myself and it greatly slows down recovering. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Cause unless its someone I trust and am comfortable with, I get easily set off when Im not fully stable and I know its usually ridiculous and overresponsive due to being unstable and just end up having to keep it to myself hampir setahun yang lalu
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But honestly I cant wait to get my own studio. I can handle things so much easier that way. hampir setahun yang lalu
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I Cinta my roommates and they are great people but I dont think its that good for me and all hampir setahun yang lalu
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WHY THE FUCK ARE ALL THE UNREQUITED Cinta ROUTES WORSE THAN THE BAD ROUTES

UNREQUITED Cinta SOUNDS LIKE THE MEDIUM ONE BUT IN EDO BLOSSOMS ITS THE WORST telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Okay so Okita and Hijikata are pretty neck in neck relatable hampir setahun yang lalu
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I decided that after I finish Okitas route Imma take a break and watch Happy Sugar Love. Ive been wanting to watch it for a while and just remembered it now that its finished XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Maybe not actualyl Ill see XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Id probably think Im some Tumblr self diagnoser with all the diagnoses I have but I really dont bring up most of them :v Im actually really shy about askign about them cause I dont wanna be a self diagnoser to the point my first therapist knew I had PTSD for a while but it technically wasnt official for over a tahun XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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And Im pretty casual with them cause its just a label, something to look into and understand and reflect on, and somethign to aid in planning further recovery progress hampir setahun yang lalu
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Ooof. Apparently the new trumpet section leader this tahun in my old highschool band is hospitalized with a collapsed lung and he has a solo for the fieldshow that no one can replace telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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.... tfw your kegemaran college professor has a lot of negative "Rate My Professor" ratings despite him being literally one of the best public speakers and most engaging teachers???

And its not only me. Like everyone who sits around me also agrees??? telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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How the fuck XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Imma give him five stars when I finish the class cos tbh sometimes I just go to his class for the energy and engagement in the class. Hes a wonderful lecturer and its a good escape from life for a bit XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Honestly glad I have chickens this morning for lab cause my brain is being fucking retarded cause yesterday was long and a bit problematic plus I got half the amount of sleep I usually do >.> telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Starting therapy again after 3 months off and shit is messing with my mind a bit :v hampir setahun yang lalu
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She was such a precious hen hampir setahun yang lalu
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Also Okita is too relatable too XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Me: I shoudl actually get a referral for psychiatry before I come close to running out of medication and risk having to go over three days without it. Imma go get that appointment

Me: *goes to the health website*

Website: We have these appointments tomorrow. If they dont work, contact this number for assistance

Me: O-O HOLY SHIT anda DONT HAVE TO WAIT A WEEK PLUS FOR A DOCTOR APPOINTMENT? IS THIS WHAT NOT SUPER SHITTY MEDICAL SERVICE IS?! telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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#DowntownDavisDay telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I miss my better half XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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My mentally-healthy lifestyle is harder to manage without him XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Cause honestly Im actually like.... 5x lebih efficient with my time and lebih productive and lebih active. I actually study a bit, Im ahead on my homework, and I work well on my projects of interests because I dont spend time just laying down doing nothing atau napping atau taking pointless walks atau other things that are otherwise considered inefficient usage of time hampir setahun yang lalu
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Personally I just dont have much of anything better to do XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Bro I need to chill XD

I mean I know I did most of my homework today that I had to do tomorrow so I can make Thursday an almost free day

But like... When I suggest we play something casual and shit like Sims again

Dont go off and be like "Nah we could work on developing characters more" and almost start doing it when anda have a damn headache XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Me: *explaining to my innocent roommate about THAT corner of tumblr*

Her: Doesnt it trigger anda ever?

Me: It actually has in the past but yeah

Conversation: *turns to topic of she who should not be mention*

Me: ha..hahah....ha. No brain lets not get like this telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Cntrl Alt padam that. I do not need to think about it XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Roommate: Do anda ever write down your feelings atau anything?

Me: Do anda want to see what it looked like when I did?

Roommate: .... with how anda berkata that, Im honestly scared and will decide to pass on that. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Boi between TwinkleStar mentioning it and Okita's route, Im really remembering how bloodthirsty I used to get when I was really emotionally and mentally unstable. telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Honestly as much of a shitty developer that YandereDev is, he hired a good person to create a good theme for the Delinquents and I really honestly Cinta the theme for its composition and shit telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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:vvv That feeling when anda go to sleep and 20 minit later your trumpet chat has one of those great night time Rawak bullshit discussions and now anda wish anda didnt sleep :v XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Also my new therapist feels OCPD is a lebih fitting diagnosis than OCD (excluding the fact Trichotillomania is a subtype of OCD) telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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To be honest might look lebih into it and discuss it lebih with him at some point but I lowkey dont want to accept it XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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If I do have it (cause we barely talked about it in the run through of who I am on the first meeting) but I dont want to add one lebih general branch of disorders to my senarai XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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Imma be sad is I become an even larger ball of mental health XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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:3 I served as a pivot point for moving my roommate's hari from depressive as fuck to good again :3

It did cost my Hakuoki time I had scheduled but its nice to see I could help.

Shes now talking to her aunt about stuff and ke hadapan planning and thats good :3 telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Me: Well shit having trouble sleeping

Me: I guess Ill just do the entire week's worth of Econ homework ahead telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Homework shouldnt be as calming as it is XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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My brain was keeping awake festering on dumb anxieties so I just fed it something else to think about and be busy with XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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BTW GAD is short for Generalized Anxiety Disorder hampir setahun yang lalu
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I relate to Okita's Tuberculosis rn with how bad my lungs got fucked up sejak my cold XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Personally I feel that the older anda get, the larger the responsibility it should be for anda to provide for the younger generations. Not necessarily so strictly as said, but its part of what makes humans special. We are so capable at passing down information for years to come.

Its the responsibility of older members of society to provide as much learning experience to their youngers so progress can keep moving and everyone's life in net can be easier telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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In that way, its an older person's responsibility to guide and help the younger people as much as they can because as someone who is older, anda have a higher ability to be stable and have learned how to manage your own life. On the other hand, kids to young adults are shakey on it and just a little aid in that struggle can leave a large impact hampir setahun yang lalu
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Its a bit why Im always a mother that adopts younger people a lot to be honest. I may only be a tahun atau two older often, but everyone could use a "big sister" "big brother" atau "parent" and such a relationship dynamic can help a lot. hampir setahun yang lalu
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And Im not saying responsibility like I usually do where its something I know is probably toxic and I feel I have to. I think its just a good rule of thumb. We ourselves might not have our lives together, but lebih often than not, I feel they are lebih Lost in life. Some might not have faced the major things like money, work, and all, but if anda think about it, a little kid loosing his kegemaran toy is super distressing and that in itself is something weve learned to handle and thus its our responsibility to help them and guide them in their way hampir setahun yang lalu
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Amen to that !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
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I think I succeeded in taking a break today telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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Mainly because my dormmates were out pretty much all hari and thus I was able to finally have a hari to just relax and all so its KINDA cheating, but fuck I did it XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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So I didnt really overcome my mental health obstacles and stuff like I wanted and what would normally be the situation, but I did at the very least complete the task of giving my brain a break and taking a hari to just relax XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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A cookie has been earned !!!! hampir setahun yang lalu
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YEp Souji shows potential for beign relatable too as I expected XD Im starting his route now telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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I honestly Cinta my boyfriend and how much he accepts my weirdness and bullshit XD He literally just openly accepted and went along with me calling him "my uke" XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu
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He is quite honestly just everything I could ever want in a partner and stuff I didnt think were necessarily even possible to actually find XD hampir setahun yang lalu
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BFRBs + Athletes foot REALLY isnt a good combo XD telah diposkan hampir setahun yang lalu