it hurts to live. life to me is a saat death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems lebih peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her hati, tengah-tengah Lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my hati, tengah-tengah over and over untill all the feelings of Cinta and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my hati, tengah-tengah where my thoughts were selamat, peti deposit keselamatan from causing me any lebih unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much lebih beautiful then me sejak now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life sejak being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. atau maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt Cinta me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but sejak one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my Chocolate brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and lebih tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the dinding and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the pantai in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him utama to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once lebih and broke my hati, tengah-tengah again.
I haven't read any of the buku yet, but i did watch all of the Filem released until now. I want to say that the story of the Twilight series is simply great! The intense love, the romantic atmosphere...everything in it is very involving! while watching both movies, my mouth was dripping and my body completely still. It was as if my mind was the only part of my body that was active. I was totally into it! I will watch both Filem again and i'll get totally inspired again. My feelings were totally mixed! I was engulfed sejak the magic of love!
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Summary: Edward reminisces about his 'lost' first love.
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I was just wondering what the official name for people who crave vamps and werewolfs etc.
i ve heard of twihards and fanpires but are there at least any original classifications. If Im going to be a mega peminat shouldnt i have a beter way of calling my self a super fan
I ve sort of came up with a few that i think have potential . .
1.twissessed(twilight, obssessed)
2.vampchaser
3.twiniacas(twilight,maniacs)
4.twifreak
5.vamphunter
6.twicrazed
7.twimazed(twilight,amazed)
8.Edlover(Edward lover)
9.wolfhugger
10.twipeople
Which classificaton do anda think makes at least the most sense?????!!!!!!
i ve heard of twihards and fanpires but are there at least any original classifications. If Im going to be a mega peminat shouldnt i have a beter way of calling my self a super fan
I ve sort of came up with a few that i think have potential . .
1.twissessed(twilight, obssessed)
2.vampchaser
3.twiniacas(twilight,maniacs)
4.twifreak
5.vamphunter
6.twicrazed
7.twimazed(twilight,amazed)
8.Edlover(Edward lover)
9.wolfhugger
10.twipeople
Which classificaton do anda think makes at least the most sense?????!!!!!!
sejak Twilight_News | 10 December 2009
Ashley Greene has previously been known for her support of the organization Donate Your Dress that gives gently used formal wear to girls who couldn’t otherwise afford prom and special occasion dresses. She’s now branching out to help with a group that aids the homeless.
“This holiday season I’m filming the DoSomething.org ‘Teens for Jeans’ campaign PSA to encourage teens to donate their gently worn jeans to homeless youth,” says Greene.
How does the campaign work?
The third annual Teens for Jeans drive encourages teens to drop off their gently worn jeans to any Aéropostale store anytime between Jan. 19th and Feb. 14th, 2010. DoSomething “will make sure they get donated to a local homeless shelter atau charity.
As an added bonus (beyond the good karma you’ll receive for giving back, of course), Aéropostale will give an additional 25% off on your seterusnya pair of jeans.”