WARNING: Yaoi ( GUY x GUY )! DON‘T LIKE? DON'T READ!


I can't menanggung, bear it anymore
I want to touch you
To rip your clothes of
To push my body
Onto your body

To let my teeth sink
Into that delicious skin of yours
Until it bursts open
And fills me with the bittersweet taste of your blood

I want to have you
All of you
Your body, your heart, your soul

I want to see your perfect skin being filled with pearls of sweat
To see your beautiful green eyes look at me
With lust
And wanting

I want to fill anda up completely
To hear anda say my name
In a voice that shows me
How much anda want me

Only me
And no one else

I wish anda could be mine
But I can never have you
Cause I'm a monster
And anda despise what I am

It hurts so much
I hate it
I want to die

I want to be human
So I can have you
But I can't

I'm trapped in this body
That I hate
For all eternity

And I will never have you

I really Cinta you
I Cinta anda so much
lebih then anda will ever know

When anda came into my life
It just got so much better
lebih beautiful
lebih meaningful

anda were there for me
When the world crumbled around me
And I was hurt so much
That I wanted to die

Thank anda so much for that
No words can ever explain
What anda mean to me
How you've helped me

You're so beautiful
anda shine like a diamond
In a room
That's as dark as the night

Oh, how I Cinta you
My Cinta
My dear anime

anda know,
I tried
I really did

I held onto that rope
That single red line
That kept me from falling
Into nothingness

But anda broke it
My only thing
To hold onto
My selamat, peti deposit keselamatan heaven

How could you?

I'm so Lost without my red line
I don't know what to do anymore

anda know how it feels?
It feels like seeing something that anda always wanted
And being almost able to touch it
But then it falls apart
Right before your eyes

And anda can never get it back again
No matter how hard anda try

That's how I feel right now
Broken
Alone
Missing my direction

Are anda happy now?
That anda shattered my last hope?
That anda made my life meaningless?

Failing grades are not awful
anda know what's awful?
Letting someone believe that they'll pass
And then give them a failing mark

anda know what?
I'm afraid
Afraid of what I'll do
To myself

I'm afraid
Cause whenever I'm alone
The feeling of ending it all
Becomes stronger and stronger

I'm afraid that those feelings
Will someday cause me to lose myself
And that I'll do something
That can't be undone

I'm afraid of that side of me
Cause I feel like it's taking me over
Closing me of from the world

Slowly eating me
Until I'm no more
Than a few pieces of dust

Help me.....
I don't know what to do
What to feel
What to say

Please
Release me
From this pain
From these feelings

Set me free
Take of those chains
That are pulling me
Into the darkness

I want to be happy
I want to smile

So will anda please help me?

I'm not feeling well
I used to feel well
Why can't I go back?
To the time I did

Laughing happily
Without a care in the world
Not caring
What other people thought

Now I tremble
My muscles tense
I feel nauseous
I want to dissappear

I'm not smiling anymore
I just can't do it
My mouth is formed
Into a big, straight line

How did I laugh?
When did I feel ok?
I can't remember

A wall
So high that I can't see the sky
Is forming around me
Making it impossible to escape

I close my eyes
And fall into the darkness
Finally free
Of this painful life

anda know what?
I'm jealous of you
And I hate myself for it

The way anda seem to be liked sejak everyone
To get everything I ever wanted
But could never have

The way anda seem to have a talent for everything
While I can't do anything right

The world is cruel, isn't it?
I wish I was perfect too
Although no one is perfect
I know

But to me
It seems like anda are

I wish I could be happy for you
I really do
But I just can't

I'm sorry
I'm awful
I know

Why does everyone despise me?
I don't understand
It hurts
And it doesn't

It's hard to explain
How I feel
I wish I could just die
But I can't
Since I'm a coward

Life
Pain
Suffering
Where is love?
There isn't any

Cruel, isn't it?
But that's just the way it is
Deal with it

It was winter
The night was cold
A strong wind
was blowing

I looked out of the window
Hoping that the darkness
would somehow dissappear

How are anda doing?
Do anda still think about me?
As much as I think about you?

anda must have forgotten about me
I guess I wasn't that important to you
Was I?

Snowflakes
Falling on the ground
Like autumn leaves
Representing I Lost you

When I look out of the window
I hope that you
Will remember me somehow

Foolish thoughts
I shoud stop this
I wish I could

The night was cold
Wet snow drew lines on the window
The night was crying
Leaving her tears behind