Ari & Rachel ♥ Article: ☾happy anniversary, my moon☽

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posted by fairfarren

what i felt when i first met you

'sup girl. i don't even know how to start this atau what to say but i'm a writer so imma wing it. there's like a galaxy worth of stuff i could say but then again it's like i can only grasp a constellation worth when i'm grasping. it's strange, sitting down and pouring out your hati, tengah-tengah and soul. it makes anda vulnerable and open to the world in a weird way, but anda know everything about me anyway so it's not like it matters. anyway. so. when we met. hmm. that nostalgia man. i've already told anda like a million times how i sat in my laundry room trying to get wifi to talk to you. it's a special memory for me, how there was always something in me that reached out to anda even though anda were no lebih than a stranger to me, no lebih than a passing wanderer in life. and yet, something drew me to you, something i still can't pinpoint even to this day. but as we talked, we got closer and i tried to treasure every second. there have been times where i have been a horrible person, a horrible friend and i have mistreated anda and taken advantage of you. and there have been some horrible falling outs between us, in which i do not look upon often, but when i do, it's with a sorrowful countenance (excuse your resident literature buff lmao). but the point is, anda have always accepted me. accepted all sides of me. without question. and i appreciate that lebih than anda know. that kind of loyalty and understanding cannot be earned atau gained atau bought. somehow i was lucky enough to meet you, to meet such a kind, honest person. and i have tried to accept each side of anda as well and i hope i have done a good job. if i achieve nothing else in life, i will have wanted to be a good friend. if, before anda die, i am that to anda then my life will have been worth living.
i Cinta you. i Cinta the angry rachel, the passionate rachel, the procrastinating rachel, the sweet rachel, the clingy rachel, the hilarious rachel, the deep rachel, the sad rachel. i Cinta them all. sejak now you're probably tired of Membaca your name haha sorry. but i just want anda to know that. i Cinta the sides i can't fathom, the sides i've forgotten, the sides i've not mentioned. i even Cinta the sides that irritate me, that annoy me. i even Cinta the sides i hate. don't ask me how atau why but i just do. and i always will. if anda ever need me for anything, i am sejak your side. anda are eternally stuck with me. thank anda for blessing me with your life, your presence, your soul. thank anda for giving me this connection i can never replace, return, atau trade.
we've been together four years. for years. that's crazy. years. touching someone's life so much they want to talk to anda everyday, they're interested in every aspect of your life, they are your best friend. it feels like a century. it feels like a moment. i wouldn't have believed someone if they told me i would be this close to you, that anda would mean this much to me. but now i can't imagine a world without you. fate atau god atau whatever, they were fucking smart to pull us together. we need each other. we build each other up when we're torn down. we wouldn't be here without each other. it's so weird to look upon. as an outsider, i don't think i could understand our friendship. it is a singular one. it is one in a hundred million. it's special. it's special to me, it's special in general. damn. how. i Cinta our crazy (THREE HOUR?!?!) conversations, how we can go from Disney princesses to the crevices of our soul, how we can tell each other everything, how we can talk about everything. not everyone can do that. not everyone can have that. i am so fucking lucky, i swear to god. thank you.
i Cinta you. those three words are so simple and yet hold so much. anda are everything to me. i Cinta you, my moon. and i will always be your sun.

"what do anda see, when anda look at me?
don't cover my scars, let them bleed
tell me, is this how it's supposed to be?
well then, i'm so, i'm so happy.
we don't need rehab."

lmao i got one emas for this aMaZiNg article? i do Cinta you, cangkul, hoe :p