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We were out on a hunting trip when we discovered Charlie’s gift. At first, Edward and I had no idea why we couldn’t bring ourselves to attack the deers that seemed to be almost crowding the forest that day. A sudden, inexplicable rush of sympathy washed through my entire body. Edward, too, was unable to bring himself to harm the deer, which we normally refer to as “food.”
Edward and I were confused beyond explanation. Our throats were flaming, we hadn’t hunted in days, yet we couldn’t bring ourselves to harm the deer. I suddenly felt horrible for even considering it. Guilty. Edward and I stood still in one spot, looking in each others direction, frozen. Charlie watched us, confused sejak the fact that we weren’t tackling ourselves some dinner. He was just as confused as Edward and I were. Edward, however, could read Charlies thoughts. Charlie was thinking that he didn’t want to see me hunt. He didn’t want to see his little girl pounce on a deer and drain it’s blood. Understandable. This would been the first time Charlie went hunting with anyone other than Carlisle, who insisted on teaching Charlie the proper and discreet way to hunt, and make sure he didn’t catch the scent of humans and turn into a masochistic monster.
After a few minit of standing still with an almost inability to hunt, the feeling finally started to slowly fade. Edward and I were able to see the deer as food, like we’re supposed to. It finally clicked. Edward heard in Charlie’s thoughts that Charlie didn’t want to see me hunt. He was afraid to see me, his daughter, who has always been so weak and gentle, kill a deer with my bare hands. When he was standing there, waiting for me to attack my prey, he was able to control my emotions, making me feel completely sympathetic and guilty. He made it so Edward couldn’t seem to bring himself to wrestle the Makanan that stood within a few feet of him, either. When Charlie feels anxious, atau worried, he can cause those around him to feel sympathy and almost unbearable guilt. For instance, if we were in the middle of a vicious battle, and a vampire was about to attack me, Charlie would feel anxious and cause my rival to feel too loving and guilt ridden to want to attack me. His power is similar, somewhat, to Jasper’s ability to calm. The main difference is that Jasper calms you, taking away your anxiousness. Charlie makes anda feel like anda Cinta everything and everyone around anda and causes guilt to wash through you. Even if anda wanted to, anda couldn’t hurt a fly.
Charlie is learning to control his power now. He has already learned to turn it off when we’re hunting. It still comes on, from time to time. Mostly when Edward gets too close to me. It makes Charlie anxious to see Edward press his godlike lips onto mine. In the middle of a Ciuman we will both start to feel overwhelmingly guilty and excessively full of compassion. Great. Every fathers dream - to be able to make his daughter feel overwhelmed with guilt anytime he wants.
Rosalie seems to be getting over her hostility towards me, slightly. I overheard her talking to Emmett, telling him how completely blown away she is sejak Charlie’s choice to be turned, to save us. She doesn’t mind having Charlie around, either. They get along well, and she is in awe of the control Charlie possesses. I think, though, that Rosalie will forever be deeply confused sejak mine and Charlie’s choice to become what we are. She will never understand why we would leave behind our human lives, to become immortal. Rosalie will never understand my absolute need to be with Edward for as long as he’s alive. Forever. To me, Edward is worth any sacrifice. I gave up my life to be with him, and I don’t regret a thing. Rosalie and I have two completely different points of view, which to me is perfectly fine. I understand her point of view. I just wish that one day, she will learn to at least accept mine.
Right now, Jacob and Charlie are visiting. Jacob is trying to explain imprinting to Charlie. Edward is Membaca Charlie’s thoughts, and they aren’t good. He can’t bungkus, balut his head around it. I think it’s something anda need to witness before anda can understand it. At first, Edward and I had the same detestation over the fact that Jacob imprinted on Nessie. As Nessie has been growing, we see that Jacob is genuinely connected to her. He wants to protect her, make her happy and always be there for her. As her parents, Edward and I couldn’t be lebih enthralled sejak everything between them. She really lights up when Jacob is near. Soon, Charlie will see what we see. I think.
I’m going to go now. I need to go help Jacob try to explain this to Charlie. Edward just shot me my kegemaran crooked grin and I’m assuming it has something to do with the jargon that’s going on in Charlie’s confused mind.
Will Write Again Soon.
-Bella
