Dear Self

What if anda don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last hari on this earth?
What if that two minit conversation anda had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time anda ever spoke to her?
What if anda never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile atau talk to him ever again?
What if anda later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would anda be proud of the life anda have lived?
Will anda regret something that anda did atau did not say?
Would anda be proud of how people would remember you?
Would anda regret not taking lebih chances, atau not telling him what anda really feel for him?


I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My hati, tengah-tengah racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..