hei Guys, It's me , Ellen.
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with anda guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my Friends say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell anda guys. I need to tell anda guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank anda all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank anda for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank anda for shedding a tear for me. Thank anda for being my sister atau brother when I needed it most. Thank anda for being my guardian Angel regardless of what i have done. Thank anda for staying sejak my side. Thank anda for making me laugh, for making me cry. Thank anda for letting me be me and thank anda for welcoming me. Thank anda for taking me in when it was raining outside. Thank anda for pulling me out of black hole of worries, sadness and depression. Thank anda for standing up for me like an older sibling. But most of all. THANK anda FOR BEING MY DREAM FAMILY. I Cinta you. And Thank you...
Especially Alli, Sydney, Mallory, Annie, SG, and Daniel. I Cinta anda guys and I don't know what i would do without anda in my life.
Sincerly,
A heartfelt Writer. Ellen Love~
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with anda guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my Friends say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell anda guys. I need to tell anda guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank anda all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank anda for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank anda for shedding a tear for me. Thank anda for being my sister atau brother when I needed it most. Thank anda for being my guardian Angel regardless of what i have done. Thank anda for staying sejak my side. Thank anda for making me laugh, for making me cry. Thank anda for letting me be me and thank anda for welcoming me. Thank anda for taking me in when it was raining outside. Thank anda for pulling me out of black hole of worries, sadness and depression. Thank anda for standing up for me like an older sibling. But most of all. THANK anda FOR BEING MY DREAM FAMILY. I Cinta you. And Thank you...
Especially Alli, Sydney, Mallory, Annie, SG, and Daniel. I Cinta anda guys and I don't know what i would do without anda in my life.
Sincerly,
A heartfelt Writer. Ellen Love~
The song of the sparrow -chapter 2 (part 1)
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Ashia grabbed her bags as she headed to Alfea on Nokia's back. Nokia, as her dragon,was apart of her. If he shed a tear then she sheds a tear. Ashia held on tight.Nokia took flight and landed at Alfea safely. Ashia grabbed her bags and walked to Miss.Faragonda.She talks to Miss.Faragonda and goes to her room 43.
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Part1
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Ashia grabbed her bags as she headed to Alfea on Nokia's back. Nokia, as her dragon,was apart of her. If he shed a tear then she sheds a tear. Ashia held on tight.Nokia took flight and landed at Alfea safely. Ashia grabbed her bags and walked to Miss.Faragonda.She talks to Miss.Faragonda and goes to her room 43.
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Part1
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I smile, after being beaten senslessly sejak people I once loved.
I smile, when I'm locked outside in the rain for hours
I smile, when my boyfriend lies to me
I smile, as people laugh at me for being different
I smile, when my parents fight
I smile, when I'm called broken
I smile, when I cry
I smile, as people call me names even satan wouldn't dare to say
I smile, as my world crashes down on me
I smile, to hide the sharp pain biting my soul
I smile, for YOU.
Do anda know what this means?
Do anda know how it fells?
Who are anda to to say these things?
For anda don't know there story atau life,
anda know nothing.
anda know no pain,
For anda are pain.
anda know no hurt.
For anda are hurt.
And who are anda to say I am no one?
Because I am.
I am me
And nothing can change that...
Fierce & Love
Poem Girl
I smile, when I'm locked outside in the rain for hours
I smile, when my boyfriend lies to me
I smile, as people laugh at me for being different
I smile, when my parents fight
I smile, when I'm called broken
I smile, when I cry
I smile, as people call me names even satan wouldn't dare to say
I smile, as my world crashes down on me
I smile, to hide the sharp pain biting my soul
I smile, for YOU.
Do anda know what this means?
Do anda know how it fells?
Who are anda to to say these things?
For anda don't know there story atau life,
anda know nothing.
anda know no pain,
For anda are pain.
anda know no hurt.
For anda are hurt.
And who are anda to say I am no one?
Because I am.
I am me
And nothing can change that...
Fierce & Love
Poem Girl
Within the furthest reaches of the hati, tengah-tengah lies those desires whose name one dares no speak. So seductive, so intoxicating, so indulgent, our most private passions burn at the molten core of our being, luring us to the very highest of ecstasy to the depths of despair. Through the ages, the words impassioned Kekasih have transformed a virginal sheet of paper into a sanctuary for a restless heart. Each of the pages in this journal awaits the expression of your own desires- Unedited, Undiluted, Uninhibited.... Abandon yourself....
~IF anda DARE~
~IF anda DARE~