You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, anda start school today. None of your Friends know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that anda are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall berkata he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. anda still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know anda don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, anda stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. anda nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes anda wanna cry. anda sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” anda explain hoping she would tunjuk some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make anda feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make anda feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him atau her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” anda ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but lebih like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school anda don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, anda think that she got the idea that anda were annoyed with her. anda walk in the room and the first person anda see is you’re best friend, Annie, who anda haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. anda walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging anda immediately, anda hug her back.
“Hey! How have anda been,” anda ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making anda wanna cry….
“What are anda doing back here? I thought anda were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to alih back here,” anda say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” anda say summing up the best anda can so anda don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once anda got back to South Dakota so they put anda him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense anda moved and anda haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to anda atau something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. anda nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend atau something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” anda say sadly.
“Aww, did anda really like him?” she asks, anda nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. anda smile and nod, anda pull out a picture of anda and him, hes hugging anda from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a pokok sejak your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” anda say looking at the picture, anda flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. anda put the foto back into your folder and sit down seterusnya to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past bulan you’ve been thinking about Lily and anda have also tried Penulisan some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, anda cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first tahun of ninth grade. anda miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all anda have is pictures, anda keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And anda tell yourself everyday that someday anda are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Friends keeping asking anda why you’re back. anda kept telling them that anda would let them know during lunch time so anda wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch meja, jadual with one of your Friends Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, anda sit down seterusnya to Mary and Chelsea. “So are anda gonna tell us why anda moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 minit of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like anda guys are disappointed that I came back,” anda say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. anda sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” anda say. They all stare at anda like your kidding. “Im serious!” anda sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking sejak stops and stares at anda guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. anda sigh.
“Nice one,” anda say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and anda giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” anda yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” anda yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do anda like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. anda laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. anda shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” anda say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” anda say.
“Hey, Annie told me anda had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she berkata anda showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. anda stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at anda seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. anda reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, anda pull out the picture anda showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” anda scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of anda and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” anda say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. anda glare at her. “Not that I would wanna tarikh him atau anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to anda after about a second.
After school anda walk utama with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. anda stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” anda ask.
“Well did anda see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” anda say.
“Do anda like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” anda say. “ I really liked Marshall,” anda say. anda place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do anda have something anda have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” anda say lebih as a soalan rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, anda have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do anda can hate me forever and anda don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, anda know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that anda have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. anda stop on the side walk sejak a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if anda should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby atau not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. anda nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes anda wanna cry. anda sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” anda explain hoping she would tunjuk some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make anda feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make anda feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him atau her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” anda ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but lebih like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school anda don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, anda think that she got the idea that anda were annoyed with her. anda walk in the room and the first person anda see is you’re best friend, Annie, who anda haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. anda walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging anda immediately, anda hug her back.
“Hey! How have anda been,” anda ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making anda wanna cry….
“What are anda doing back here? I thought anda were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to alih back here,” anda say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” anda say summing up the best anda can so anda don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once anda got back to South Dakota so they put anda him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense anda moved and anda haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to anda atau something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. anda nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend atau something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” anda say sadly.
“Aww, did anda really like him?” she asks, anda nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. anda smile and nod, anda pull out a picture of anda and him, hes hugging anda from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a pokok sejak your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” anda say looking at the picture, anda flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. anda put the foto back into your folder and sit down seterusnya to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past bulan you’ve been thinking about Lily and anda have also tried Penulisan some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, anda cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first tahun of ninth grade. anda miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all anda have is pictures, anda keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And anda tell yourself everyday that someday anda are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Friends keeping asking anda why you’re back. anda kept telling them that anda would let them know during lunch time so anda wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch meja, jadual with one of your Friends Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, anda sit down seterusnya to Mary and Chelsea. “So are anda gonna tell us why anda moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 minit of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like anda guys are disappointed that I came back,” anda say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. anda sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” anda say. They all stare at anda like your kidding. “Im serious!” anda sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking sejak stops and stares at anda guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. anda sigh.
“Nice one,” anda say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and anda giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” anda yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” anda yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do anda like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. anda laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. anda shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” anda say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” anda say.
“Hey, Annie told me anda had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she berkata anda showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. anda stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at anda seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. anda reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, anda pull out the picture anda showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” anda scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of anda and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” anda say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. anda glare at her. “Not that I would wanna tarikh him atau anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to anda after about a second.
After school anda walk utama with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. anda stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” anda ask.
“Well did anda see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” anda say.
“Do anda like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” anda say. “ I really liked Marshall,” anda say. anda place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do anda have something anda have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” anda say lebih as a soalan rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, anda have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do anda can hate me forever and anda don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, anda know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that anda have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. anda stop on the side walk sejak a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if anda should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby atau not tell her…
