>”Meredith , I think we need to talk.” was all he said, his voice cold and resentful, the look on his eyes indicated a mix of confusion, pain and anger.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could anda hide from me the fact that anda were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, anda never were so anda have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do anda think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If anda came here to fight, anda might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of anda and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know anda are a neurosurgeon and that anda fix peoples’ brains, in fact jay wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know anda leave here in Seattle and that anda Cinta fishing, another thing anda have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found anda in the nurses’ station menunjukkan the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching anda with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching anda revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. anda seemed happy, happier than anda were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he berkata the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she berkata with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told anda was real, I Cinta anda Meredith, I do, but anda won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt anda but all I am asking is a chance to tunjuk anda how much I Cinta you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where anda had been, no one would tell how anda were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without anda seterusnya to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but anda could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s katil was a bit messy, with lots of anak patung and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s katil was lebih neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His hati, tengah-tengah was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after Ciuman both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he berkata calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank anda for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He berkata hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if anda would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one lebih week, maybe anda could spend the hari with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d Cinta that !” he berkata with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just telah diberi a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would anda like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until anda reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are anda ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” anda can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… anda could, I mean we could…how can I say it… anda could sleep here on the katil with me. Jut sleep, on the katil I mean. It’s big and the sofa, kerusi panjang is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if anda want anda can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed anda and I still Cinta anda and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give anda the key to my hati, tengah-tengah again only to have it broken for once lebih because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith berkata with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their Ciuman which she deepened.
>”I Cinta you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I Cinta anda too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of menunjukkan it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the Cinta of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his sebelumnya ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far lebih mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No lebih back and forth … they only alih ke hadapan from now on.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could anda hide from me the fact that anda were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, anda never were so anda have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do anda think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If anda came here to fight, anda might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of anda and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know anda are a neurosurgeon and that anda fix peoples’ brains, in fact jay wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know anda leave here in Seattle and that anda Cinta fishing, another thing anda have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found anda in the nurses’ station menunjukkan the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching anda with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching anda revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. anda seemed happy, happier than anda were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he berkata the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she berkata with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told anda was real, I Cinta anda Meredith, I do, but anda won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt anda but all I am asking is a chance to tunjuk anda how much I Cinta you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where anda had been, no one would tell how anda were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without anda seterusnya to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but anda could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s katil was a bit messy, with lots of anak patung and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s katil was lebih neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His hati, tengah-tengah was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after Ciuman both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he berkata calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank anda for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He berkata hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if anda would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one lebih week, maybe anda could spend the hari with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d Cinta that !” he berkata with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just telah diberi a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would anda like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until anda reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are anda ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” anda can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… anda could, I mean we could…how can I say it… anda could sleep here on the katil with me. Jut sleep, on the katil I mean. It’s big and the sofa, kerusi panjang is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if anda want anda can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed anda and I still Cinta anda and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give anda the key to my hati, tengah-tengah again only to have it broken for once lebih because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith berkata with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their Ciuman which she deepened.
>”I Cinta you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I Cinta anda too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of menunjukkan it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the Cinta of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his sebelumnya ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far lebih mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No lebih back and forth … they only alih ke hadapan from now on.