crying broken hati, tengah-tengah

Can't believe i loved you
a shallow, cold boy
you saying i Cinta anda too
but just using me as a toy

you only held my hand to keep me away
turned to me looked me straight in the eyes
said anda hated me always
shoved me to the ground

i get a text from the girl i hate
saying i'm nothing to him
drop the phone and run
cry into my pillow

a simple lie had broken me
why can't it break him
but seeing him in pain
wouldn't ease mine

time had past
when anda apologize
say anda Cinta me
and that anda always had

looking at anda on your knees
begging me please
with pity deep down in my gut
your brown eyes, flooding with tears

shake my head...

This is for the broken hearted. I know how anda feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. anda don't want to laugh, because anda know it's not going to help, but anda don't want to cry, because it will just make anda feel worse. anda feel like your hati, tengah-tengah is falling apart, but not only that, but anda know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. anda don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt anda so much, then why do anda still Cinta them. That's the confusing...