We had sunk down across the two front seats of the car with me on top; every part of me blended with his. He had unlocked the handcuffs I guess sometime when we were Ciuman and now those wicked wretches were locked around his neck. His face tormented me with our close proximity and I could feel his hati, tengah-tengah pulsing underneath me.
I scurried to escape hiding my red ceri, cherry face from his view. From the corner of my eye I saw him sit up and began buttoning his shirt?
“Yup anda did that too” he berkata with that stupid smirk again.
It was like I had been taking drugs and knew atau remembered nothing from what I had done. I had let those tamed emotions out of their cage and like a hangover was the penalty for over drinking; my penalty was the embarrassment atau shame for them. Even now, my gaze was padlocked on his toned abs as he continues buttoning his shirt.
“Awe anda like?”
Even his conceitedness did nothing to attract from those feelings. Feelings, I say for I knew not what Cinta is atau felt like. I had no parents to tunjuk it to me atau had I let in any boy at school. Let most, my brother. Even if Taylor had loved me atau still does, I couldn’t put him in a different category than what he was in: a stranger.
Seriously to my concern, I needed to find out what had made me a slave to him.
“Why are anda so bipolar? One minit you’re threatening, the other anda behave arrogant and flirty. Which is the real you?” I said.
He stared at me pensively as if trying to understand the soalan before he snapped his head like a penyu away from me.
It was a simple soalan in my opinion but it had literally made him a mute. I suppose it gave way to a specific importance of something. I saw him twist the ring on his finger as if recalling a memory before he completely took it off and placed it in the compartment under the armrest.
Maybe the memory became separated from reality?
“Which is the real you? The innocent girl I saw Lost in a prison, left behind sejak her gang atau the badass that belongs there?” he replied in a needle sharp tone.
He had placed the beatings on me in just an instant and I could already feel my body begin to roll through the ruble it was barely standing on. I couldn’t think just stutter.
“As anda can see, some of us go through life hardly knowing ourselves atau losing them on the way. Some sejak relationships and mishaps, others sejak adoring and wanting to be like the other person. We hide behind this big lie but only those who are skeptical atau shrewd enough are able to penetrate the walls. What’s the ending? Only anda can create it, but others have permanently Lost their way and are bounded to a life of sorrow” he said, now running his hand along my right cheek.
“What anda did to me was just sejak fright and force; I believe and forgive anda for that. anda were taught the only way to escape and to get what anda want was sejak force that I don’t forgive you. For doing stuff anda knew was wrong just at the orders of someone else. What about being a three among a set of twos? anda should not be afraid to let go and find yourself”
To my surprise a tear slipped down my cheek which he quickly wiped with his thumb.
If only he knew I was the one that caused this on me. I wanted this. If only he knew that they were my family, we had mixed blood to tunjuk that and they were not that easy to let go of. Maybe because the attitude of my brother, he would always come after me and drag me away. Even Selena, he called her every day. She had to leave every bulan on the weekends from college to visit us at the warehouse where everyone lived to make sure she didn’t forget us atau who she was. Also she went on some night missions with us. I could not break free of that chain atau might end up like Alyson Stoner. An old member of the gang who was my brother’s lover but who he killed in cold blood because she had tried to go to the police for escape. I have no doubt because I was there, I saw him do it. Continuously hitting her while she begged for him to stop; and so he complied with her request, he took out the gun and shot her.
Whether sister atau not, Cody would do it.
A beautiful smile broke out on his face while my hati, tengah-tengah collapsed.