Flames & Keys
Dear Lucy,
When anda left yesterday, we were down to Bisca, Al, Meredy, Jellal, and the group that was on Tenroujima, minus Gramps and Gildarts. Right after anda left, we evacuated the kids. I can’t believe we didn’t do this sooner, but I guess things weren’t severe enough for us to let them go until now. The older kids, like Asuka and even Iris, seemed to understand, but the younger ones had a hard time. Nashi wouldn’t stop crying. I’d say anda can’t imagine how hard it was to say goodbye to our baby girl, but I know anda do. anda already did. She berkata her first word. “Mama.” I know it’s stupid, but I was in tears myself. She misses you. Just as much as I do. Please be okay. I know anda can change this. I believe in you. When anda succeed, because I know anda will, anda and Nashi can come home. I hope that happens soon. It’s unbelievably lonely without you. Then, we can really be a family, anda know, like Bisca and Al were with Asuka before all of this. I think we’ll both be happier then.
Love,
Natsu
Dear Lucy,
The casualties were pretty bad today. Yesterday, just after we evacuated the kids, we Lost Cana, Gray, Lisanna, and Al. Al took a shot for Bisca. She acted really different after that. She wouldn’t talk atau look at anyone, eat, atau sleep. Today, we Lost her, too, along with Mira, Elfman, and Erza. I guess Mira and Elfman are probably happy, because they’re with Lisanna, and Erza wasn’t doing so well after losing Al and Gray, but losing Bisca, I think that was it for her. When Erza died, she was crying over Bisca. She was caught off guard. They were best friends; I can’t imagine how that must have been. For Erza to see Bisca die right in front of her, I mean. She seemed so helpless. Not like the Erza I know at all. At least they’re together now. Maybe wherever they are is better than here, but I still can’t seem to grasp the fact that they’re gone. Jellal and Meredy are still clinging to each other, like they have been since losing Ultear, but Erza’s passing made Jellal worse. He acts like he’s fine, for Meredy, but he’s a bad liar. I’m not sure how much longer he’ll last without breaking down. I’m not sure how long anyone will last. But I can’t stop thinking about the kids. I never thought any of the guild would leave their children behind. It’s not sejak choice, but that’s exactly what we’re doing. All I can do is hope that you’ll be able to change this. Please, Lucy; everyone’s depending on you. I know they all believe in anda just as much as I do. Please come utama soon.
Love,
Natsu
Dear Lucy,
Today we Lost Evergreen and Juvia. It doesn’t sound like it’d be that bad, because that’s not many casualties, but it’s worse than anyone could have imagined. Meredy is worse now, and Jellal, the self-sacrificial idiot, keeps trying to seem like he’s okay. Since Ultear died, he’s stepped in and taken care of Meredy, but their entire foundation is falling apart. Freed has been in tears all day, Bixlow won’t even look up from the ground, and Laxus breaks everything he touches. I think Laxus berkata that Evergreen’s stepfather abused her mom and she was afraid he’d hurt her too, so when they were around eight atau nine, Freed and Bixlow found out and promised that they’d protect her from anything they could. But in the end, they couldn’t protect her from everything. I think both of them have survivor’s guilt. And on bahagian, atas of that, Freed and Laxus have already Lost their wives and had to say goodbye to their kids. Now they’ve Lost a sister, atau the closest thing they ever had to one. And three lebih of the guilds’ kids have been orphaned.
I don’t know how much longer I can live with this. Lucy, please be safe. For me. For the life we could’ve had.
Love,
Natsu
Dear Lucy,
The remainder of the Raijinshuu went today. They all went out together, and they went out with a bang. Literally. The three of them were caught in an explosion of some sort, so I hear. I wasn’t there. Jellal took a shot for Meredy. He died on the spot. Meredy was screaming for him to wake up. I didn’t hear all of it, but she berkata something like “bad sense of humor,” “not funny,” “joke’s over.” She didn’t want to believe he was gone. Over the last couple of years, I think he was almost like a father to her. She’s Lost everyone. I don’t think Meredy’s going to be around much longer. I’m not sure what to do about it.
I’m sure you’ll fix this, Luce. I know this’ll be over soon. Please prove me right.
Love,
Natsu
Lucy,
Meredy. Last night in her sleep. Not surprised, she was depressed. Only one other casualty today. I was slashed across the chest. I should’ve died right away, but I didn’t. Wendy says I shouldn’t be Penulisan this. She thinks I should rest. But it’s pointless. I’m fading fast. Could have anywhere from an jam to twenty saat left. But I had to write this, because it may be my last chance to say I Cinta you. I Cinta you, I Cinta you, I Cinta you. I wish anda were here right now, so I could see anda one last time. I’m sorry we never got to have the wedding anda wanted, atau raise Nashi, atau build a life together. I’m sorry I couldn’t’ give anda any of that. I think anda should know, I wanted that too.
Please, Lucy, save our future. For the guild. For Nashi and the other kids. For us. For the utama we could’ve had.
I’m getting close. I Cinta you, Lucy. Don’t ever forget that.
