I miss you, I miss you. I miss anda so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in Cinta with you. My memories keep looking for anda but find that you're not here with me anymore.

[i]I miss you, I miss you. I miss anda so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in Cinta with you. My memories keep looking for anda but find that you're not here with me anymore.[/i[

The seterusnya day, after eating breakfast, anda and Randy go to the pantai together. It's kinda empty cuz it's early in the morning. anda and Randy just wore regular clothes to the beach...

Chapter 12: Take My Breath Away

Landon walked around the park and he remembered times that his mom and him walked around here.

Landon knew one hari he'll walk around the park with Britney.

Landon walked back to the hospital.

Jamie was holding Britney.

Cynthia was in the room too with a cup of coffee.

Landon kissed his mom's cheek and then he kissed Jamie.

"Where did anda go?" asked Jamie

"I took a walk," berkata Landon

"So did anda call your boss?" asked Cynthia

"Three days off" berkata Landon

"Good" berkata Jamie

"I can't wait to spend time with my little girl" berkata Landon

Landon was holding Britney.

At 3:54...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," berkata Jamie

"I know he is," berkata Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes anda talk to him kay" berkata Jamie

"Kay" berkata Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair seterusnya to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let anda go. I drive myself crazy, wanting anda the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him lebih as days pass by. It's been a bulan since anda and Randy haven't berkata a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. anda can feel it and anda can see it. Whenever anda look in the mirror, anda see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at bola keranjang lately. Your coach notices and he talks with anda about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can anda do Jamie? anda need to rest. anda can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I Cinta playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One hari Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" berkata Camilla

"Hello Camilla anda look nice today" berkata Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," berkata Camilla

"Thank you" berkata Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the dapur there was Hegbert making sup for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a kuda, kuda kecil tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the seterusnya with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a jalang, perempuan jalang today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: Cinta and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" berkata Hegbert

"Hey dad" berkata Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a Friends house," berkata Jamie

"Can't wait to see anda guys there," berkata Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," berkata Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" berkata Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees anda go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The imej of anda crying your hati, tengah-tengah out, shouting that anda wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce anda husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's Friends were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor berkata it was ok. He sees anda sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits seterusnya to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for anda sejak breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair seterusnya to your bed. anda look around and anda realize your in a hospital. anda can't remember anything that happened to anda before except the dizziness anda felt back at Randy's house. anda smile...

I Cinta you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that anda are my one and only last love.

The whole day, anda and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. anda guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and anda hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's anda again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your katil and gets under your covers. anda follow right after and anda Ciuman him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and anda guys all go back to school...

Shawn: hei Taylor. anda think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. anda should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: anda should let go of Jamie. I mean anda haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know anda like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my Cinta really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this Cinta to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives anda a dirty look. anda get a bad feeling and she pushes anda and says:

Lauren: Are anda a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First anda like him, then anda break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are anda trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. anda berkata anda were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, anda wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. anda twitch and anda quickly yet gently alih Randy's hands off your waist. anda leave the sofa, kerusi panjang and anda run to the bathroom and anda head to the toilet. anda just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, anda look and anda see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your katil and anda plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. anda look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give anda what anda deserve.

Brad is about to punch Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: hei hei hey!! What the hell is wrong with anda Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE anda try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though anda might never be sejak my side again, I will never forget you. anda won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come sejak me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt sejak anda again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? anda always cared for them lebih than anda did for me atau for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least anda could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and anda sit in the back kerusi, tempat duduk of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like anda Jamie. Not just as a friend but lebih than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, anda just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want anda to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want anda to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want anda to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. anda hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't anda understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, atau can it be me in the seterusnya life time? Even if anda promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway seterusnya to Shawn's car and anda see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees anda and Randy and anda get out of the car with Randy. anda quickly get Angie and anda walk seterusnya to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to anda and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole bulan passed sejak and anda and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. anda and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and anda spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, atau hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do anda wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days anda going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so anda won't be bored....