I Wish I Was Blind
© Courtney Powell
Waiting, debating
Contemplating.
On whether atau not I
Should be saying.
He took one thing
I can never get back.
It just goes to show
The real man he lacks.
Trust was a thing
My mom gave to him,
Not knowing the monster he
hides within.
I lay down for sleep
As he tells me to.
Knowing the moment is coming,
When he finally breaks through.
I'm hurt and
I'm bleeding.
He’s laughing,
Ignoring my pleading.
Does he care?
Does it bother him?
Knowing there was lebih than one thing
He put inside me
Other than grim.
Three years have past
And I am still perturbed,
sejak the mess he left,
All things in my world are disturbed.
Just thinking he’s out there
With some other girl.
She’s probably so scared.
It makes me want to hurl.
I have no bruises,
I have no scars.
But taking my virginity,
Was like taking my heart.
Why would he do this?
What did I do?
I cant take my mind off of him.
I don’t know how to.
picture perfect memories,
are not the imej I see.
When I look back and think
Of a younger me.
I see his face
flash in my mind
Smiling his ugly smile,
I wish I was blind.
© Courtney Powell
Waiting, debating
Contemplating.
On whether atau not I
Should be saying.
He took one thing
I can never get back.
It just goes to show
The real man he lacks.
Trust was a thing
My mom gave to him,
Not knowing the monster he
hides within.
I lay down for sleep
As he tells me to.
Knowing the moment is coming,
When he finally breaks through.
I'm hurt and
I'm bleeding.
He’s laughing,
Ignoring my pleading.
Does he care?
Does it bother him?
Knowing there was lebih than one thing
He put inside me
Other than grim.
Three years have past
And I am still perturbed,
sejak the mess he left,
All things in my world are disturbed.
Just thinking he’s out there
With some other girl.
She’s probably so scared.
It makes me want to hurl.
I have no bruises,
I have no scars.
But taking my virginity,
Was like taking my heart.
Why would he do this?
What did I do?
I cant take my mind off of him.
I don’t know how to.
picture perfect memories,
are not the imej I see.
When I look back and think
Of a younger me.
I see his face
flash in my mind
Smiling his ugly smile,
I wish I was blind.
They call to me at night and fill my room with bright lights I cannot remember the last time I had seen anda but I remember anda were once here anda had thought anda could do no wrong that it would only be in a song but anda did know all along that we couldn't belong we had our last song our last moment before anda berkata goodbye that moment anda had the courage to say anda were wrong I can't stay long I don't think your feelings for me are true I can't believe I'm the one that turned out to be blue anda come to me as a blur a forgotten memory how will I live without anda here how could I live in fear of your return I shall run into the sun to make sure the pain would be done bright lights flicker into the sky no words to say my last goodbye I can't say I'm sorry it was anda that betrayed me can't anda see all anda did was drive me away no I'm not okay.
