"I ended up crying myself to sleep on Michael's side of the bed"
I sat on the sofa, kerusi panjang watching the newest movie I had made,"Queen of the Damned" and I played the sister of LeStat, Lillia. Michael had wanted to watch it but then left near the ending to get ready to pack for his flight. He had to leave the house sejak 5:30 and his flight leaves at 6:30 for his tour with his brothers. As I kept thinking about the fact Michael was leaving and I wasn't going to see him for three years, I started to cry but I tried to keep it in. It was hard for me to be without him before. Now since we're in Cinta and engaged, I don't think I can go through that again. I started to Debat whether I should help him atau not. Might as well cherish the last moments I'm going to have with him before I send him off at the airport. I headed my way up to our room and wiped the tears off my face.
I entered into our bedroom finding Michael sitting on his side of the bed, crying. I crawled across the katil and sat behind him with me legs spread apart so I could be against his back and I wrapped my arms around him. "Michael, what's the matter? What's wrong?" He grabbed my thigh from behind him and said,"I don't want to do this. I can't leave you. I don't want to leave." I started to get teary-eyed feel terrible for Michael. "I know, baby. I don't want anda to go either, but before anda know it we'll be back together. I'll come utama from my tour and we'll be together again." I started to Ciuman his shoulder and tried to comfort him in anyway I could.
He stood up and started to come ontop of me and Ciuman my lips hard and deep like never before. "But I don't *kiss* want to wait three *kiss* years to be able to *kiss* hold anda atau *kiss* hug anda atau *kiss* Ciuman anda atau touch anda atau *long kiss* make Cinta to you. I need you." Michael never gave me a chance to speak. All he did was trap me with his sweet mouth. He tried so hard to remove my baju while grinding and Ciuman me but I kept resisting. "Michael......ugh.....you have to *kiss* stop." Michael slowly slid his tongue into my mouth and kept putting it in there as he kissed me hard. He never kissed me like that. Hard and deep while French Ciuman me? He never rammed his tongue down my throat until now. I can tell he was upset and he wanted this just one last time before he was to say "Goodbye" until 1987.
I needed him to listen. Michael wasn't focusing on my words. I put my hands on his chest and started to rub up and down. I let out moans whenever my mouth was somewhat free. Michael was also doing that while still grinding me and making me bungkus, balut my legs around his waist. He let go of my lips and was about to rip my baju apart. He was now rougher than ever! I placed my hands on his, indicating I didn't want Michael to do it. "What?" he asked. "Michael, I know anda Cinta me and I know anda don't want to leave me but anda have no choice. And as much as I would like to make Cinta with anda one lebih time before we are separated, we can't. We don't have time. Good thing your bag is packed because we have to go now." I got off the katil and stood in front of Michael and grabbed his hand. He grabbed his last suitcase and we headed outside to the limo.
*At the airport*
Michael and his brothers all went to make sure everything was still ready for the jet. As they were all boarding the plane, Michael stayed off. He watched his brothers give their luggage and walk up the steps to the plane. Michael handed his own luggage and looked back at me. He berkata something to the pilot and started to walk back my way. I figured he wanted to say "Goodbye" one lebih time. I started walking towards him and cry. Michael came up to me and wrapped his arms across my back and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We hugged each other the same way we did then night we had our first kiss. I was trying to hold back the tears but they kept coming out. I rubbed the back of his head and held him tight to me. "I'm going to miss you, so much." I said. "I'll miss you, too. I'll call every single hari while I'm tour. I promise."
We finally let go of our grip and looked at each other. "I Cinta you." I berkata while beginning to really cry. Michael had tears coming out of his eyes but he wasn't crying. "I Cinta you." Michael grabbed the sides of my face and pulled me in to Ciuman him one lebih time. I pulled him into me as much as I could as he put his arms back around me. Our tears went down to our lips and mixed with the kiss. I held the back of Michael's head and, this time, started to, once more, French Ciuman him. I could feel his grip getting tighter on my back. Our fast pace finally started to slow down and we started to Ciuman lebih gently. We stop but our lips were still touching. I caressed the side of his face as we gave each other one lebih peck. Michael looked at me and cupped his hand on the side of my face. "Everything will be okay. I promise. I won't break my promise to marry you. I swear." he said.
Michael gave me one lebih quick peck on my mouth and slowly let go of my body and just held my left hand. As he slowly walked backwards, Michael let go of my hand. I saw him turn around to face the plane. I could feel my hati, tengah-tengah ache as I watched him leave. I wanted to do nothing but cry. I saw Michael turn back around to face me before he walked inside of the plane and wave to me. I waved back and watched him disappear. I was still crying even though I felt I was somewhat overreacting. I couldn't see any of the boys anymore. They all disappeared before my eyes. I heard the plane get ready to take off and saw Michael in one of the windows watching me. As the plane started to alih away, I waved to Michael as he did to me. seterusnya thing I knew, Michael was out of my sight and the plane was off the ground and in the air.
I walked back to the limo, holding my cell phone, waiting for it to ring and it be Michael. I honestly didn't feel as much pain as I thought I would. My stomach ached and I wanted to cry but I didn't feel like my hati, tengah-tengah was ripped out again. Maybe it's because I knew I would see Michael again. I wasn't being torn away from him, I was just not going to see him for a while. I still missed him terribly. I rode in the far back sejak myself and put in my earbuds to listen to music. I turned my mP3 Player up to 15 and drowned myself in extremely loud heavy metal music. I never listen to mine atau Michael's Muzik when I'm upset about us. I could feel my ear vibrating from the hard gitar and drums and the loud screaming the singer was making. Even though the person was screaming, I still understood what they were saying and the chorus fit how I felt perfectly.
The lyrics were,"I see hell in your eyes/Take it in sejak surprise/Touching anda makes me feel alive/Touching anda makes me die inside/". When I did look into Michael's eyes, they were bright like the fires from hell and I was always surprised sejak some of his "naughty" actions. When I do feel him and touch, I do feel alive and when I do touch him, my darker side dies. Everything that is berkata in the chorus is what I feel. And I feel......loved but alone. I closed my eyes and listened to the Muzik until I got to my big mansion "Never-Land".
After I came utama and went upstairs, I took a pancuran, pancuran mandian and cleaned myself up and put on one of my shirts finding one of Michael's button-down shirts on the floor. I lifted it up and held it close, taking in the sweet smell Michael left on it. I decided to wear his baju instead so I could feel like he was somewhat here. I looked at the clock and saw it was 9:00 pm. Michael still hasn't called but that probably because he is still on the plane flying to Italy.
I crawled into katil and layed there, thinking of all the memories Michael and I have created in this room. All the funny memories, sweet memories, "naughty" memories and passionate memories. I closed my eyes and remembered the first time I saw him again and remembered how I felt when I saw Michael again. I layed there with my eyes shut and never opened them again. I started to feel tears running down the side of my face. As I layed there, I ended up crying myself to sleep on Michael's side of the bed, praying I would feel his arms around me and his body against mine while hearing his sweet innocent voice saying,"I Cinta you". But the weird thing is I DID feel a body against me and arms around me and I DID hear his voice but he didn't say "I Cinta you" he berkata "I'm here for you". I slowly turned around to see. . . . .
To be continued............
"I lifted it up and held it close, taking in the sweet smell Michael left on it"
Michael Jackson peminat-peminat making extravagant plans for the anniversary of his death need a Plan B -- because Forest Lawn Cemetery and cops are putting the kibosh on most of the celebration.
A rep for Forest Lawn -- where MJ is buried -- tells TMZ peminat-peminat will be allowed into the park on June 25, but not into the mausoleum itself. And the news ain't so good for these special requests:
- Releasing doves (DENIED)
- Releasing balloons (DENIED)
- Performing Jackson songs and dance routines (DENIED)
Sgt. Tom Lorenz says the Glendale PD has its own no-no list: no camping out the night before, no parking around Forest Lawn 24 hours prior, and no jalan vendor sales of anything ... including MJ merchandise.
The Forest Lawn rep says peminat-peminat who behave will be allowed to pay their respects.
A rep for Forest Lawn -- where MJ is buried -- tells TMZ peminat-peminat will be allowed into the park on June 25, but not into the mausoleum itself. And the news ain't so good for these special requests:
- Releasing doves (DENIED)
- Releasing balloons (DENIED)
- Performing Jackson songs and dance routines (DENIED)
Sgt. Tom Lorenz says the Glendale PD has its own no-no list: no camping out the night before, no parking around Forest Lawn 24 hours prior, and no jalan vendor sales of anything ... including MJ merchandise.
The Forest Lawn rep says peminat-peminat who behave will be allowed to pay their respects.
MZ has learned Dr. Conrad Murray will go about his normal business -- seeing patients -- on the anniversary of Michael Jackson's death.
We're told Murray will not visit MJ's mausoleum Friday, because it will cause a scene. He will, we're told, pay his respects around that time, when no one is there.
Miranda Sevcik, the PR rep for Murray's lawyer, Ed Chernoff, tells TMZ, "Dr. Murray will be mourning privately. He doesn't want to distract people sejak reminding them of Michael's death. He'd rather people remember his friend, Michael Jackson, as he was in life
We're told Murray will not visit MJ's mausoleum Friday, because it will cause a scene. He will, we're told, pay his respects around that time, when no one is there.
Miranda Sevcik, the PR rep for Murray's lawyer, Ed Chernoff, tells TMZ, "Dr. Murray will be mourning privately. He doesn't want to distract people sejak reminding them of Michael's death. He'd rather people remember his friend, Michael Jackson, as he was in life
TMZ has learned Katherine Jackson and Michael Jackson's three kids will not be in L.A. to commemorate the one-year anniversary of MJ's death.
Sources connected with the family tell TMZ the gang will be at Michael's birthplace -- Gary, Indiana -- where they will observe the day.
We're told Katherine is set on Gary because she feels it is a "family point of connection" -- and it's just too crazy in L.A.
Our sources say Katherine, Prince, Paris, and Blanket will keep things private with relatives and Friends in Gary.
Sources connected with the family tell TMZ the gang will be at Michael's birthplace -- Gary, Indiana -- where they will observe the day.
We're told Katherine is set on Gary because she feels it is a "family point of connection" -- and it's just too crazy in L.A.
Our sources say Katherine, Prince, Paris, and Blanket will keep things private with relatives and Friends in Gary.
You'll probably never get this letter
Michael, I wrote anda a hundred times before
Knowing how I feel, I'll write a hundred more"
"Dear Michael, everytime your records on
Michael, I close my eyes and sing along
Dreaming you're Singing to me"
And then she wrote
"Michael, I Cinta you
I've held tears back long as I can
I'm sealing my feelings in this envelope
Cause I wanna be lebih than just your number one fan
I'm gonna answer your letter
I'll start beginning with the ABCs of loving you
Your letter really touched my heart
I've been dreaming of meeting the picture
That anda sent along, signed with all your love
(Michael, Michael)
(I want you)
(She wrote)
I'm gonna write anda back
Ooh, I promise anda that
Girl, I think I Cinta you
Hurry, hurry Mr Postman
Take my letter
Tell her her I Cinta her
Hurry, hurry Mr Postman
Take my letter
Tell her I Cinta her
Michael Jackson: Joe Jackson blames his wife for the death of the singer
He asked him to hospitalize him
Michael Jackson cannot rest in peace. The parents of the singer, Joe and Katherine Jackson are faced sejak the death of his son. According to Joe Jackson his wife is the culprit of the death of the ' King of the Pop '.
The father of Michael Jackson revealed to a British diary that asked for several times his wife who was hospitalizing his son in a clinic of rehabilitation in order that it overcomes his addictions. ' If anda had listened to me, Michael would be alive ', berkata Joe Jackson to the mother of the singer.
The portal TMZ informed that the attorneys of Katherine Jackson answered to the accusations and indicated that the whole world wise that she always was a good mother and grandmother.
He asked him to hospitalize him
Michael Jackson cannot rest in peace. The parents of the singer, Joe and Katherine Jackson are faced sejak the death of his son. According to Joe Jackson his wife is the culprit of the death of the ' King of the Pop '.
The father of Michael Jackson revealed to a British diary that asked for several times his wife who was hospitalizing his son in a clinic of rehabilitation in order that it overcomes his addictions. ' If anda had listened to me, Michael would be alive ', berkata Joe Jackson to the mother of the singer.
The portal TMZ informed that the attorneys of Katherine Jackson answered to the accusations and indicated that the whole world wise that she always was a good mother and grandmother.
Hi everyone!! A lot of anda who have participated in my MJ games have been so nice! Saying that anda like my games and want more. So I want to thank anda to every who has played who is playing and who will play in the future! I'm so, so, so happy that everyone is having fun playing them. I actually never thought that these games would last, lol. I just thought a couple poeple were gonna actually play them, but now there has to be at least 10 atau lebih players. So thank anda all so, so much! Hopefully I get lebih ideas for lebih games :D So again thank anda all for liking and playing the games, and if anda have and soalan atau problems having anything to do with the games, please message me so I can answer your soalan atau fix the problems. Cinta anda all!!!!!
Randy has been on Twitter attack, calling the auction at Planet Hollywood in Vegas "distasteful."
Darren Julien from Julien's Auctions claims it's pure coincidence the auction falls on June 25 -- "We have the same summer auction [of pop bintang memorabilia] at the same time every year."
Julien says the auction tarikh can't be moved. So there.
Certainly the will stipulates that the money, the children will get when they reach 30 years of age. sejak then, of course, the interest amount will exceed 300 million dollars!! Not bad ...
The mother of Michael Jackson gets 40% of its assets, while the remainder will go to charitable institutions.
Naturally, Jacko did not leave anything to his father, which had no good relationships, but none of the siblings.
Dr. Conrad Murray took a $16,000 hit today -- when officials rejected his request to relieve the massive child support debt he owes his baby mama.
Murray -- who practices medicine in Nevada -- had worked out a deal with Nevada State Board of Medical Examiners, in which they'd back off from revoking his license ... if he could convince a California court to forgive the $16,000 in back child support he owes in Cali.
But today, a judge in California turned down the request -- which means Murray's license is still very much in danger.
And check this out -- a hearing was scheduled to be in Nevada for June 25th ... exactly one tahun after Murray allegedly pumped Michael Jackson full of a deadly dose of Propofol.
Murray -- who practices medicine in Nevada -- had worked out a deal with Nevada State Board of Medical Examiners, in which they'd back off from revoking his license ... if he could convince a California court to forgive the $16,000 in back child support he owes in Cali.
But today, a judge in California turned down the request -- which means Murray's license is still very much in danger.
And check this out -- a hearing was scheduled to be in Nevada for June 25th ... exactly one tahun after Murray allegedly pumped Michael Jackson full of a deadly dose of Propofol.
Murray with a fan
Dr. Conrad Murray has peminat-peminat ... with whipped cream on top.
Murray -- who's due in court seterusnya bulan in the Michael Jackson manslaughter case -- was corralled sejak a peminat Wednesday at a Houston Starbucks.
She gave us the pic but asked us to blur her face.
It's all about taking precautions.
lebih Dr. Conrad Murray
Dr. Murray May Ask to Delay Preliminary Hearing
Joe Jackson: Don't Attack Conrad's Supporters
Conrad Murray Supporters Plan Demonstration
Conrad Murray -- I Will Never Cop a Plea
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My Love
without anda I feel like
I'm in a world with no love.
I wish I could go to sleep,
just to see anda in my dreams.
I just want to hold anda
in my arms.
Everybody says what we have
is lust, but its love.
People can say what they want,
but all I know is we were ment to be.
Not a hari goes sejak without me thinking
about you.
anda are my love,
no matter what.
Baby anda gotta know my Cinta for anda is
for all time.
So I have to say
baby be mine and I'll give you
all I have to give,
which will be till ther end of time.
I Cinta you
Michael Joseph Jackson.
sejak Gracie
To: Michael Jackson
Michael Jackson's most loyal peminat-peminat are taking to the skies in order to send a message to Doc Murray -- and the plan is set to take flight the seterusnya time Murray is set to appear in court.
A group of peminat-peminat have raised $1,250 to fly an airplane banner over the L.A. County Superior Courthouse between 1-2pm on April 5 ... when Dr. Murray is seterusnya scheduled to tunjuk his face.
The sign will read "We demand justice for Michael Jackson" -- and the group is so fired up about it, they've already sent out a press release with a Photoshopped image of what they think the scene will look like.
The same group of peminat-peminat has already raised enough cash to buy Paris Jackson a birthday surprise ... she turns 12 seterusnya week.
A group of peminat-peminat have raised $1,250 to fly an airplane banner over the L.A. County Superior Courthouse between 1-2pm on April 5 ... when Dr. Murray is seterusnya scheduled to tunjuk his face.
The sign will read "We demand justice for Michael Jackson" -- and the group is so fired up about it, they've already sent out a press release with a Photoshopped image of what they think the scene will look like.
The same group of peminat-peminat has already raised enough cash to buy Paris Jackson a birthday surprise ... she turns 12 seterusnya week.
