"My hati, tengah-tengah ... my mind ... are broken. I loved Michael with all my soul and I can't imagine life without him. We had so much in common and we had such loving fun together. I was packing up my clothes to go to London for his opening when I heard the news. I still can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. It can't be so. He will live in my hati, tengah-tengah forever but it's not enough. My life feels so empty. I don't think anyone knew how much we loved each other. The purest most giving Cinta I've ever known. Oh God! I'm going to miss him. I can't yet imagine life without him. But I guess with God's help ... I'll learn. I keep looking at the foto he gave me of himself, which says, 'To my true Cinta Elizabeth, I Cinta anda forever.' And, I will Cinta HIM forever," Dame Elizabeth tells ET.