“I’ve loved anda from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. anda know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic jalang, perempuan jalang to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because anda were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed anda away. I made anda think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite anda for having that hold on me. And I’m a total fucking coward because… (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldn’t stand…I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can anda understand?
anda were trying to punish me back and it’s hard. It’s so horrible. Because. Really. I’d die for you. I Cinta you. I Cinta anda so much it’s killing me”