8.Mistake

I woke up with a stir, the strangest dream ever. It wasn’t me Bella Cullen was there. I was at their house, lived in it and I had a little baby girl. She looked remarkably like Edward but she had my eyes, she was seven atau eight much older then Aly and she was laughing with Jacob. There were other People in the dream Yard aside from the family, there were three lebih girls and another man. One girl was talking to Edward she had curly strawberi blond hair and a dazzling smile. I watched all of this like it was a scary movie, I turned and watched how everything was two perfect. Seth and Leah were here in this alternate universe, they were laughing having a good time with Alice and Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett were wrestling, Emmett booming laugh echoing through forest. Esme and Carlisle were smiling, looking at there family laughing and having a good’o time.

This hurt it was an insult, how could I be so selfish to have all of this. I looked around and saw myself, yes it was defiantly Bella Cullen happy 18-year-old Bella. She had Golden eyes just like her husband, Edward crossed the angkasa between us and kissed her. I felt the kiss. I didn’t want to, I looked back in the mirror, the Ciuman of death I changed. Got older, got laugh lines and crows feet. I watch how behind me the playful wrestling turned in to actually fighting with Seth and Leah, Sam and his pack, Edward turned his back on me and there I was on the forest floor again repeating “He's gone” over and over to myself.

This is the doom I have created for myself. Creating imej in my head that could never happen. I sat up from the couch, dihidu, smelt eggs coming from the dapur I looked around saw Aly sleep then I looked at last night left over, a cup of coffee after dinner. I talked to Nicole about the Cullen’s. I yawned and stretched.

“Morning Bella. how did anda sleep?” Nicole called from the Kitchen. I got to my feet and went to the kitchen.

“Good I had a strange dream though.” I sat at the meja, jadual as Nicole brought me a plate of scrambled eggs and bacon

“No kidding I heard anda mumbling in anda sleep. Who is Renesmee.” She sat down with me and began eating.

“I have no idea.” I shook my head, thinking. Renesme is my daughter, don't get confused, I showed anda your life what would have been it was one small mistake shall I tell anda now, atau wait till your alone . Alone!

I ate my Makanan quickly and thanked Nicole and told her that I had to get utama a get cleaned up. Aly woke up just before I had a chance to leave so I sat down and let her eat something too.

“Bella can I asked anda just one lebih thing, anda left out last night.” She asked as she was giving Alison her plate.

“Sure,” I berkata looked out the window. Jacob was out there in the cold rain. I feel like a teen again. And that’s not a good thing in my eyes.

“Why did Edward leave?”

“It was my 18th birthday and Alice threw me a party long story short, I got a paper cut and Jasper nearly killed me. Edward felt bad I guess I really don't care but he decide it would be safer for me if I was alone.” I berkata curtly, “The last words he berkata to me was ‘take care of yourself’. Pathetic in my opinion. He lives for ever and I'm stuck with ‘take care of yourself’.” I snorted, she nodded, and turned back to her dapur she was cleaning the stove when Jacob and Leah came in.

“Hey Bella,” Leah sat on the sofa, kerusi panjang and waved at me, Jacob went straight to Nicole and waved at me. I walk to Leah and sat down beside her. “What’s up?” she berkata patting my leg.

“Long week” I shrugged and placed my attention on a mislooped fabric in the rug.

“I know what anda mean I was thinking we go out tonight to Port Angles, hit up a few Kelab anda know like we were in our early 20s again.” She laughed, I laughed along. That sounded ridicules I was 29 just barely I was at the 3 week mark .

“Leah I will go just never make me sound that old ever again.”

sejak the time I got utama it was already 11 and half the hari was gone. I meet Leah in La Push at seven and drop Aly with Charlie. And from that night on, I was under Leah’s control.

I turned on Talking Taylor for Aly and went into my room. I felt strange to be eager for a conversation in my head but I had to know what she meant buy one little mistake.

I'm glad anda are. This means anda want to know what Alice somewhat saw coming. anda had better sit down this is a conversation for the Ages. You’re going to bet your self up for this. I sat on the edge of my bed. I closed my eyes and thought of the last time I wanted anything to do with Vampires. Of course, I automatically thought of Victoria but before that. When she was at my house.

She wasn’t at your house. It was Alice. I know that. Well here is something anda don't know. Edward called anda that seterusnya morning. [i/]Ha, there is no way in hell I'm believing that one. [i]You should. Take a nap Bella I tunjuk you.

I shook my head this is Ridicules. But I want to know maybe close some gaps in my life. I stepped to my door and called to Aly “Baby mommy’s going to take a nap wake me up if anda need something.”

“Ok mommy .”

Ok then tunjuk me. I closed my eye. This is what should have happened. anda see when Jacob berkata vampire anda should have looked anda would have seen the black mustang and anda would have got out of the car. she showed me that night. Jacob getting out of the car running to tell the others. Me going in reverse to see Alice. Alice and I rejoiced. She promised to stay with me. all was well, I knew it would have ended soon but I had my hopes, then Jake came in he ruined it for us. but he also made it better. He answered the phone when Edward called and told him the wrong information. Alice then saw him killing himself in Italy.

anda don't know this and anda might not remember but in Italy, the all-powerful Volturi live in a palace they have every thing coming to them. She then showed me driving with Alice in this small sports car, every one wearing red and Alice pointed to the clock tower. The were no words in this dream just shapes figures. Edward was going to kill him self but I save him, for a near deadly price. I also met the Volturi that day. The told me if I was changed soon for knowing about the vampire would they would have to kill me. I saw the Volturi I remembered a painting of Carlisle and three men those men were the Volturi the seen change abruptly to me and Edward in my old room. This is were we apologized and forgave each other for being stupid. We fell back in Cinta and I talked to the family about me becoming a vampire. Only Rosalie didn’t want that to happen, and Edward, but he changed his mind. He told me he would change me himself if I married him. anda know how Renee fills about marriage.

This is a crude hari I was standing with Edward’s hands wrapped around my waist and I was stretched out toward Jacob. this was the hari I picked Edward over Jake one of many days. But that’s ok I kept in touch I would have Charlie pass letters to Billy like we were children. Then one hari he calls we meet at school and he talks to Edward conversation number 2. Don't worry to hear though. I saw him about 2 days later. I snuck out and went to see him. We talked hung out just like now. And that wasn’t the last time. I went to a bonfire. Had some fun learned a bit. Nothing too much. But anda would have learned lebih about Rosalie too and Jasper. In fact, I should tell you.

Her fiancée and his Friends rapped Rosalie. And Edward was supposed to be with Rose. But he hated her. Told her she wasn’t his type. He of course prefers brunettes. And she wants a baby. Her best friend had a baby why couldn’t she. That is why she picked Emmett he looked like the baby she wanted. And she kept him. All to her self.

This will sting a little but anda should know. The Vampires that Victoria made to fight your werewolf’s, were to fight my vampires. Jasper in fact knew all about it. He was one of them, in away, like Riley was to Victoria, he was to Maria. It was originally created in the south they are called newborns. They are strongest at there change. It last for a few years then they become weak and regular like the other. In my world, were anda still have Jacob, Jasper showed them how to fight a new born, she showed me the clearing wolfs and Vampires in the same spot that was ridicules and impossible. They hate each other in your world. Yes, they hate each other. But hear they had become allied, both Jacob and Edward wanted the best for you, and Victoria wanted anda to die, she allied us with them.

That fight was scared although we all new about it thanks to Alice it was nerve racking not knowing what was doing on. But no only that I had already gone through much before the fight even started Jacob gave me an ultimatum I couldn’t live with and made me Ciuman him. And Edward was just fine with it. Repulsive I know. Victoria found us and Seth killed Riley and Edward killed Victoria. All was well for a minor period. Jacob risked his life saving Leah, he broke the majority of his Bones on the right side. That wasn’t pain what I did was pain. I picked Edward over him and made the crazy assumption my best friend would want to see me as his enemy.

Edward and I got married in august I saw Jacob again he didn’t say much but when I though that was the end I moved along. And Edward and I had a great honeymoon but amazing as it sounds I got pregnant. It was awful I was pregnant for a bulan before the little nugger came out. But Jake was there every hari he watched me plum up. I have to say he was the best friend I ever had. He perpecahan, berpecah the pack up because of his Cinta for me. Seth and Leah followed him Seth, the little freak, like the Cullen’s a lot. Leah had to protect her brother. Charlie gets to know me as a vampire. He is cool with it and he loves my baby. She looks like Edwards but with your eyes and Charlie’s hair. This part is good and bad. Jacob imprints on my baby Renesmee Carlie Cullen. Hybrid vampire and human. And name one of a kind for a one of a kind child.

The thing about Renesmee was that she was a child vampire strictly band from vampire rule. The Volturi decide they would make a trip down to see my family and me. I have an ability Bella. I am a shield like how anda can't let anyone penetrate anda mind. I can stretch that and not allow any one to penetrate who ever is under my umbrella of power. But I can also pull it back. Allow Edward to hear my thoughts. It is amazing. Again we all allied with the wolfs and a few friends. Aro loves Renesmee. Every one does she is so smart and pretty. We didn’t half to fight. Nothing happened in fact She lives forever just like me.

My world is so perfect. anda made on tiny mistake. And now it’s gone. I hope you’re happy with yourself. Now anda will die alone, berkata and broken hearted. I would tell anda to alih on but there is no one for anda to love.

I woke up the door loceng rang; I quickly got up and met Leah in the doorway.
“Oh god I'm sorry how long was I sleep.” I looked at the clock it was only1: 21. I looked back at her confused.
I brought anda clothes. I know anda aren’t ready for tonight so her is something nice to wear you’ll need it.” She handed me a bag and smiled. Aly was watching Pinky Dinky Doo. I sat sejak her.. I though could that have been my live. Could I have really been a vampire with Edward, have a beautiful daughter that lives forever and still be best Friends with Jacob. It hurt to think about it. Think about Cinta that I wont ever have. There is now possible way it could happen.
I Cinta my life. And I don't want to be caught up in the Cullen’s life ever again I sighed heavily I don't even what to go out tonight.