Chapter 23

In the morning I woke up and got ready and helt for school. I drove to la push. I held my arm close to me and got out of the car and everybody was looking at my car.i closed it and went to class. I went to history first and sat at the back of the class. My teacher was talking and I didn’t even pay attention. I put my head on the deest and was looking out the window.
“miss. Renesme?” my teacher asked.
“yes”
“are anda ok atau do anda need to visit the nurses office?”
“im ok” I told her. The teacher went back to teaching and then I went to art. Jacob and embry were sitting waiting for me. I looked at them and went to my seat.
“nessie, you’re making everyone go nuts” jake told me.
“not everyone” “ not my dad”
“ness, he’ll come around”
“he was supposed to come around a long time ago” I to,d jake and began drawing. This time I didn’t know what I was drawing. I was drawing Rawak things. Jake and embry were looking at me the whole time concerned. I didn’t pay attention in any of my classes, and I was building up with anger every minute. I hought that im going to blow up at the end o f school if something else happened. I walked over to my car but the Gilmore sisters stepped in front of me.
“what?!” I yelled.
“don’t shw me the attitude” the older one said.
“or what anda gonna do about it?!”
“oh you’ll see, just wait”
“im not waiting for anything anda got it?”
“no actually, and when I say anda wait, anda wait”
“oh no I don’t watch me leave” I told her and got in my car and drove off. I went to jakes house to get my stuff.
“jake! Jake?!” I yelled while looking for him.
“im over here nessie” he told me. He was in the garage.
“hey I came to pick my stuff up” I told him.
“come on ness, are anda serious?” he asked hm.
“every bit” I told him. I went into his house and into his room. My stuff was right where I left it.
“RENESME stop, you’re going over board, everyone wants the real anda not this, anda changed right when anda found out anda were a wizard” jake told me. I stopped what I was doing and looked at jake. He was absolutely right. I did change I became someone I don’t even know. All the problems I was having only because I was a wizard. If only I could because the old me the girl that was happy, and made people happy at the same time without getting myself hurt.
“you’re right I am going over board, anda were right the whole time, I was wrong my whole life, everything I was saying didn’t come from me, I don’t know who I was, jake I don’t want to be a wizard anymore, I need to visit my grandmother and make her take away my powers” I told him and sat down. Jake sat sejak me and took my hand in his.
“nessie anda can have the powers and still live your life, only if anda don’t use them” jake told me.
“jake……I cant not use them”
“just give it a try and stop doing insane things”
“easy for anda to say” I told him and he gave me a hug.
“so no lebih stupid things right?” he asked me and looked at m.
“ill try but I don’t promise, um I have to g otalk to Ivan” I told jake.
“I don’t thnk this is the right time to do this” he told mei had a worried face.
“why?”
“im joking!” he yelled happily.
“jake! anda always do tht, quit it” I yelled happily too. I got up and ran to ivan’s hosue and I saw something I wasn’t supposed too. He turned around. And saw me with a shocked face. I starred at him in shock and the Gilmore sister, the one who berkata she’ll give me revenge was standing right sejak him.i closed my eyes so they wont see the expression of my eyes. I turned around without doing anything stupid. Because I promised jake.
“nessie? What are anda doing here?” Ivan asked me in a sad low voice. I stopped.
“I just came to tell anda something” I told him with a really low voice. Then I kept on walking slowly, not rushing out the door what ggirls would usually do. I was out the door when ivan came behind me and came in front of me.
“its not what anda thing” he told me.
“what am I supposed to think?” I asked him calmly.
“ trust me nothing happened” he told mewith a confident voice. He knew that I would forgive him but now this time.
“im not trusting you,, because ei hear it from a guy that promised not to d this to me, anda promised you’re not going to be like my dad” I berkata with my voice going lower a little at the end.
“nessie anda don’t know anything” he told me in a harsh voice.
“ I know enough” I told him. and looked toward the trees, I thought I heard someone scream, but it my might be an animal. “ivan anda cheated on me, anda broke your promise and you’re becoming like my dad” I told him. and looked at him. “I miht forgive anda for that but I will remember and it will hurt me” I told him. I didn’t even know what I was saying.
“nessie…….im breaking up with you” he berkata quietly. I looked at him in shock.
“you what!?” I yelled.
“im breaking up with you” he told me, like it was just something he usually says.
“you can’t”
“im sorry”
“youre not sorry” I told him and and this time I ran to jakes house. Jake was in him room. I ran to him and started crying.
“what happened ness? Did he hurt you?” jake asked me conserned.
“he broke up wih me” I ttold him white trying to say all the words.
“its ok ness he was going to do that sooner atau later” jake told me. I looked at him.
“I mean he’s not good enough for you” he added. Then I started crying again..
“he knew he would do this to me and he didn’t care about it, just like my father” I told him. jake was always there to comfort me. To make me laugh, everytime I needed him he was there.
“nessie, life isn’t fair, things happen”
“I know that, its just that you’re always there when I need anda and he isn’t, I should have known something was up” I told him wiping my tears. . I sat up and looked at jake into his eyes. Here was a twinkle in his eyes. Ivan wasn’t the one, but maybe jake is the one. Then. But I still loved Ivan I couldn’t just throw away everything we had. I felt miserable.
“maybe anda should go and talk with your mother” jake told me. I nodded I couldn’t say anything. I got up got something else to dress. I wore a Rawak shirt, pair of pants, and red high heels. I got out of the hosue with jake. I was still crying because I couldn’t believe he broke up with me. I stopped crying when I was halfway to my grandfathers house. My eyes were red, s they would know I was crying for sure. My mom my grandfather, my uncle Emmett, aunt alice, were at home, s we walked in. I was sejak jake’s side.
“nessie did anda cry?” my mother asked me the first them my uncle and aunt looked at me right away.
“nessie who made anda cry?” grandfather asked me.
“ivan broke up with me” I berkata quietly.
“that’s impossible he loves anda to death” uncle Emmett told me.
“that’s what I thought” I told him and sat down on the couch. My mother and my aunt came to my side right away.my grandfather was in his office.
“you have to get him back” aunt alice said.
“no, my mom told me everything happened for a reason so this had to happen, then he’s not for me” I told them and my aunt looked at my mm.
“bella anda should have known something better to say” my aunt told her. She ignored her.
“ness, anda don’t have to listen to everyone” my mom told me.
“I know but I have to listen to u, I mean he was just another guy that likes to joke around, nd everything for him is a joke, and Im over him already” I lied. But I made them believe me.
“how can anda get over him so fast?” my aunt asked me. I put on a fake smile and answered her.
“I don’t know, I guess I never really loved him” I said, but it didn’t feel like I was lieing at all.weird. I still wore eric’s necklace.