Dear enterway.                                     First I will start sejak telling anda about myself. I am a 18 tahun old boy ,yes a boy. The reason I am Penulisan is simply too long to explain, but perhaps I will get to that later...or further in the future.  I am a super with an infinity for spirit, heance part of the reason I am writing. It is the seventeenth of march, 1801.  I am here in my room, alone for now. The weather is chill, bulu kot and boats wheather, but I have none. Well class has just been cancelled do to the snow fall, so I suppose I have time enough to explain my reasoning.     Last bulan my sister, Julianna, was killed... sejak my father, Andrew Trud .By the way my name is Jamis, Jamis Trud.  My father was takin away to a jail far away and a bulan before my mother had died of illness. I have friends, ones that would understand but if I began unleashing my misery I would just...expliod. So the "diary", in my eyes, was nessisary.... Ronald is at my door now, till whenever I can.              .        Jamis.                                      Hello again, it's the ninteenth and I didn't write in anda yesterday because Ronald and Owen (my two best friends) convinced-forced- me to go out with them. There isn't much to do here in Orgean, Salem, well close to it anyway, here in the back end woods where not even wagons ride by. So are hari wasn't filled with much excitment seeing as we can't leave the grounds of the first academy in America, Saint Jonahs.  Now, now! Owen is at my dorm door!               Jamis.                                          The twentyth of march. Who knew two boys could be so incredably annoying!  The punches, the jokes( that are meant for good humar, but I find none funny) the insane talk of girls, their hair, legs, boobs, and backs! Don't get me wrong girls are...gods best ideas but when I look at a girl the imej of Juli comes back. And talking about the girls feel as though I'm talking about Juli. The snow has cancelled school the rest of the week. So Penulisan in anda should be quite easy. R.I.P. Julianna.               Jamis.                                            The twenty third of March was for once in this dreary place intresting. Don't get get wrong my life isn't a total bore, but along the lines of interesting news we only so often get today was worth going out with my friends. anda see, me ronnie and owen were walking around campus( Owen and Ron scooping for girls) when we stumbled into Leahanne and Hunter( vamps) and heard the news that on the upcoming Monday a new girl is coming. The " dish" is that she is coming from somewhere in Europe. It's sad that that is the most exciting news the school ever gets but it's true and worth, for now, my curiousity.            Jamis.                                            It's the twenthy sixth, and I must say... My world has changed dramaticly. First I'll start sejak telling anda the new girl has arrived, and sejak arrived I mean she sent the whole school in a spiral of confustion, lost, and complete chaos. So I geuss I'll tell anda that I was in first class with Owen telling me about his obsession over Jess when the girl walked in. And I must say even my mouth dropped, hit the floor is lebih like it. Her name is Amelea, Amelea Hoex. And to be completely honest with you, she is... The most beautiful girl I ( and everyone elsa) thinks ever walked the earth. I think no man can denie it, even the ones who have their own "girls" and their own "obsessions". So I geuss your curious what she looks like? But I highly doubt any words I write on paper would every come close to describe the pure beautiy that radiats from her. But I suppose I'll try. First, she is about 5'6, her hair pitch black- like midnight, it was very long, just past the middle of her back, it was wavy and shiny. Her skin was zaitun tan and anda would think her round perfectly fromed eyes would be brown, but they weren't they were...blue. Bright blue! So brilient and shimmering. Her face was flawless and welcoming. She smiled brightly and when her bottom full lip and thin bahagian, atas lip pulled away her white, perfectly start, teeth glimmered. Heance the drama began. Boys flocked around her like crows over a dead animal, but comparing her to a dead animal should be a crime is every place across the world. It is now passed time of dark and I must go. I can not wait to tell anda lebih about her and how I feel, because anda have no idea what I think, it most certainly is not what anda are thinging.                      Jamis.   The twenty seventh of march. Amelea is in my first, four, and fifth class. I can't help but stare at her all the time and it seems she doesn't even notice. Now the truth comes out, I do NOT adore Amelea the way the other boys do. Of course I find her to be encredibly attrative but she also scares me. Yes, yes! A women scares me. She scares me because from the saat I looked at her I knew every boy would Cinta her, for Petes sake! The teachers of the male life admire her! And I do not wish to be a servent to her. Never shall I give to her.           Jamis.            I'm such a fool! Today Amelea was gracfully walking sejak me when I bumpped her. I was a clutz and had Lost my balance when Ron had went to punch my arm. She simple smiled at me and left out a little giggle that sounded like music. I berkata I'm so sorry but I was so stunned sejak her that it lebih atau least came out " I'm slow slorry". God almighty! She smiled once lebih and continued on her way. Amelea, Amelea, Amelea, anda see what anda do to use boys? It's like anda are playing mind games on us, tring to see who will make lebih of a fool of himself then the other. But to be honest my stupidity was not nearly as bad as the rest. From Jasons " how is this lovely hari treating anda so far?" to Carsens pulling her chair out for her at lunch and buying it for her. I must say I am surpized Owen and Ronald hadn't tried to put a alih on her yet. They are most likely comin up with a game plan. Well I must go to dinner. The twentyeighth             Jamis.                                                 I'm bored out of my mind, laying here on my bed. Owen and Ronnie both have dates and all my other Friends have plans. The only one who offered to hang out with me was William. Nice kid just... Weird. He has a lisp but that's not what gets to me, it's the way he walks, like a slinky, up and down. It's the threetyth of March. The last time I looked at Amelea was when I run into her, after that I never so much as looked in her direction. The buzz hasn't calmed down yet and i'm affraid it never will. Though Owen and Ronnie are on dates with their girls they are most likely imagening that they are with Amelea.  Well I'm tired.    Jamis.                                                  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! ( the 31st of March) kill me!  I wish to die, to be locked away, stolen, never to be seen again, thrown into the abyss. Today Owen came to my dorm just to sit and hang. Then Ron came with Riely( his girl) and we all sat and talked. I was completely unaware that  Riely was smiling the whole time. When Owen asked what was up with her she goes I asked someone to come over. I figured it was Hope, her best friend and I didn't really mind. But when Ron opened the door who other then Amelea walked in! I was shocked and so was everyone  accept Riely. She asked if she could come in and we talked. Talked about the school and the students, how she likes it here. The whole time her voice was like a mealody, a small Italian accent. Then once she had left and so had Riely with her, us three boys were stunned. " she couldn't take her eyes off you" Owen had berkata to me. I shook that komen off with a no way and kicked them out. I was most embarrest because the whole time I never so much as looked at her and I felt like a jerk. Well I geuss for once the school has something to do so we might as well enjoy and embarse it.                       Jamis.          Apirl saat still 1801. My birthday is coming up on the 10th. So I well be 19, and no, I wasn't held back, just put in school late. I haven't had many incounters with Amelea after the dorm incoddent. I tend to have a habit of looking away when she looks in my direction, atau when Owen atau Ron try talking to her I either walk away atau look of into space. She told Owen yesterday that she really enjoyed talking with us and would Cinta to do it again sometime. I simply nodded and went on my way. I had no interest to hear what she berkata after so I dogded Owen the rest of the day. Nothing happened today besides the fact that every man and boy at this school has completely Lost their minds and are slaves to Amelea. Yes, yes, she is the most beautiful girl ever on this planet and no one can diene it.... Not even gay man( whitch highly are on my 'dont give a shit about' list) can't bet around the belukar, bush with the fact that when she simply talks man gather around to hear, atau when she smiles the world seems to brighten a little more. Every girl around her looks like nothing lebih then dirt. I use to think TracyMay was beautiful but seterusnya to Amelea...Ha! every girl is jealous, anda can see it in their eyes that they want in every way for Amelea to leave. And there is no exageration that they would most likely do anything to get rid of her. But that is no concern of mine, if she leaves I would like to think that was a good thing so everything could go back to normal.             Jamis.  The third of Apirl. I gotta say that Apirl is my kegemaran month. Not just because the weather changes atau because school is almost over, even that my birthday is in this month, it's because we get to go on a field trip to the Royal Court, over in North Carolina. We don't usally go till the end of the bulan but this tahun we are going on the 5th till the 11th. Sure I have to spend my birthday there but I think going to the Royal Court is really awesome. I always Cinta going because it's very warm there and the buildings are amazing. Oh! and my only family members left live there. I'm not Royal of course but my aunt and uncle and their two children have a spot there because my Uncle Danial is the best friend to King Jayikov the first. His wife is my mothers sister, Casy, and her two children are Lyroy who is 14 and Franny who is 7. I havnt seen them in some time so I hope they let me stay with them instead of going and rooming with Owen atau Ronald. Don't get me wrong I Cinta em but right now things are bumppy.             Jamis     Its the forth and I just finished packing all my things. I had ran over to Rons room to hang and talk but after about 10 minit Riley came over and I felt like a third wheel and left. I went to Owens then and I helped him finish packing and we talked about guy things. Like sports, girls( I was uncomfortable for a while with this but then melted in) and anything lebih anda can really think guys talk about. I really feel as though im a girl Penulisan in this notebook. Telling anda everything and honestly I KWON this is gay. I kind of hate Penulisan in anda an if any guy would find out I keep anda I would be the laughing stock, but I would accept it because I know I would laugh too. Heck, I'm laughing right now. But Penulisan in anda helps a lot, like I can actually talk to someone- something - without them judging me atau talking back.          Jamis.                          Its the 5th of Apirl.  We have just arrived at the court, I just unpacked and I'm rooming with my one friend, Tj. Ron got are other friend Timlon and Owen got Chris. I think they dodged putting any of the three of us together because before everything in my life happened and Rons gram had passed away we use to be the three guys around the school that messed around and played puns. Well I have to go to a makan malam, majlis makan malam with my class to meet King Jayikov.      Jamis.      It's still the same date. I must say the makan malam, majlis makan malam was the most fasinating events in my life. When we entered it looked like a mid-evil home. The room was huge and the walls were dark gray but the carpet was a bright red. A bunch of candles were lit and the meja, jadual was the full leanghth of the room. The Makanan was amazing. And anda won't believe who entered looking like an angelic form...Amelea, of co~~.                           It's the sixth of Apirl. And I'm sorry about not finishing what I was saying yeterday but... My hands are still shacking from what happened. Out of nowhere my rooms door swung open and at first I was expecting Tj, but it wasn't, it was... Amelea! My god! The way she looked in her black dress that flowed to the floor and was blown up at the hips like all the girls dresses. She was the only one who had wore black, and in the dress was a light pink. But thats not what shocked me... She was cring. Tears streaming down her flawless dark face, her eyes were merah jambu and fluffed up. I amedeantly threw anda under the meja, jadual and stood there- like a fool-until she finally said. "no, no, no, no" she berkata it in a weak voice that made me want to cry to. Then in a flash I ran to her and took her in a hug. I barly knew her but just feeling her in my arms felt right. I asked her what happened and all she berkata was " no...I just got you" that made her cry harder and she fell to the floor and I sank down with her telling her over and over I'm here your okay. It's still a mistrey what she could have meant atau how long I sat there with her. After an unkept time she broke from me and she had finished cring. She smiled and kissed my cheek and said" thank you" she left after that and I'm still confused what had happened. Now we are going for a tour and I am meeting my family for dinner.              Jamis.   The same day. The makan malam, majlis makan malam was great with my family. The Makanan wasn't like what we ate yesterday but they put effort into it. Lyroy is very funny, I havnt seen him in some time, but he had grown. Franny was...well she was sweet. Not to be incredably rude but the child is much over feed. It's starnge because her parents and brother are very thin. Anyway, when we were taking the tour Amelea knew everything about the place. She berkata to Riley, I overheard, that one hari she wished to live here. I feel bad because she isn't Royal and the chances of her getting a utama here is low in the slums. She turned around at one point and smiled at me. Instead of turning atau looking away I nodded very slightly. Oh god! She is breaking me. I'm losing my grip on reality. I promised myself I would block her away, build walls up just to keep her out. I'm going to need some help with that.            Jamis.       The seventh of Apirl. Amelea is the most perfect thing in the world. I know the last thing I told anda was I was going to block her out, but, wow. Today was a free day, wonder around the court yards atau visit the small shops. Me and Tj meet the other guys and we were going to eat at one of the two resteraunts here when Riley came crashing into Rons arms. She was out of breathe and almost instanly he was in a protective stance. I geuss I forgot to tell anda we are all training to be gaurdians. But then Riley busted out laughing, I'm geussing because she thought he was a fool. She berkata calm down we are just playing a game. We all kinda stared. Tag, she had explained. Then from the courtyard bushes came two girls. One of them was Hope,she was a boy ish girl and Riley( who is extremly girly, but fun) and her are best friends. So anda know, Riley has blond short hair that rests on her shoulders, and Jean had curly brown hair to her chest. And the other girl with them was, well, Amelea. She was gracsious. She looked simple though, not very flashy, a simple pair off jeans and a knit sweater jaket that was very airy looking. She was sweating from the run but lite up smiling when she saw us. We had makan malam, majlis makan malam with them and I sat on the same side of Amelea but far enough down the meja, jadual so I couldn't see her. We left and I made sure me and Owen walk far enough in front of her. I was the first to come back here to the dorms.                                 Jamis