The old and new you!!

I joined Fanpop last bulan so I'm not really sure if I can say the 'before' me and 'after' me on Fanpop :p

After:

Fast ke hadapan to now. I am lebih confident in my ideals. I have lebih friends. And I support them if I can. And I am not just a lurker as I could have been.

Before:

When I joined I didn't have many Friends and sejak joining Fanpop (joining the internet tbh) opened my world up)

I was just planning on being a lurker and not doing anything.

I also used to fight with everyone who disagreed with me which is something I don't do anymore. I try not to get into it with people.

I wouldn’t say I’ve changed much, other than growing up (mentally especially) and maturing. Due to life (thx life) I’m a lot ‘stronger’ I guess, but mostly better at hiding how much of a mess I am! :]

Me in 2011:
Hi guys I'm 8theGreat, I like to draw and I can't stop talking about Death the Kid. I am totally convinced he's gonna become real and we're gonna get married. It's gonna happen.
sertai my number cult.
Respect the Onions.




Me in 2018:
Hi guys I'm 8theGreat, I like to draw and I can't stop talking about Lolita fashion. I am totally convinced I'm gonna become a millionaire and I'm only gonna wear Lolita for the rest of forever. It's gonna happen.
sertai my itik cult.
Burger King Foot Lettuce.

Before: Pretty much in short an identity-less sociopath that didn't know she was depressed when she was. No real friends. No real attachments other than to maybe my oldest sister.

Now: Uh... I mean Im much much much less a sociopath but I do have a good bit of a sense of identity I suppose. Pretty happy with my life and I got some good Friends and some healthy strong connections.



But when I say sociopath, I honest to god probably was with my papar and how I behaved and shit. Some life experiences and wonderful people have done me great to change that A LOT.

Before: Well, when I first joined, I was much lebih of a mess than I am now lol. Wasn't interacting with anyone atau even participating in any other kind of Activity other than the tinjauan-tinjauan and some very few Answers. Certainly didn't expect to meet anyone and was just planning to be a lurker, occassionally visiting this Website for new kemaskini concerning my interests. That was the case for everywhere I went actually. Wasn''t really socializing at all back then.

Now: A lot happened and started making my presence lebih known. Conversing with a few Users and getting to know them helped with that and inspired me. I become lebih active sejak contributing in various Clubs, participating in lebih activities, meeting lebih fellow peminat-peminat and people who share similar traits, papar and experiences in general. At the same time I was opening up lebih irl as well so I suppose it got reflected in here too. Pretty much, it is hard to imagine myself without being here at this point. It's cozy, I guess? I have a much easier time expressing myself and being who I am in overall. Plus, there are people that I'm really glad I got the chance to meet and consider them Friends of mine. That's the gist of it !!!!

I think I might have become lebih depressed and less confident in myself over time actually

before: Total jerk, annoying, not chatting with anyone much. that is how 11 tahun old me was.

now: still annoying, chatting lebih with ppl, and lebih suicide thoughts. this is 14 tahun old me

There's just not as much of a difference between how I was before Fanpop, how I was during, and how I am now. If I bothered to actually type out the words, I'd probably just sound whiny and depressing so I wont bother.

Before: I was a happy-go-lucky 9-year-old who was absolutely obsessed with My Little Pony. I made Littlest Pet kedai video on YouTube. I had a bunch of Friends and I was generally just really happy with life. I had no care in the world and all that mattered to me was having fun. I was one of those kids who was always like "rainbows and unikorn and Rama-rama and sunshine and ponies!!! :D" I was super active on Fanpop and I actually talked to a lot of people on here.

Now: I'm a cynical depressed 16-year old who hates everything and is obsessed with World of Warcraft. I have like 1.5 Friends and I will take any excuse to not talk to people. I play the Piano and I sometimes watch anime. I'm hardly active on Fanpop anymore and I really don't talk to anyone on here. I've pretty much Lost any self-esteem I once had and I have no motivation to do anything anymore.
But I have become a lot nicer, despite my "I hate everything and everyone" attitude.

I think I used to be pretty annoying. I tried so hard to become good Friends with everybody in my peminat-peminat list. I constantly messaged everybody, starting the weirdest conversations. And I also was cringey af.
Now I don`t mind talking, but I`ll never message first unless I know the person well enough. And I would hope that I`m not even half as cringey as I used to be. :D
And the best thing is that I really can distinguish those before/after periods on here, because after my 'before' for like 2 years I checked in here only once every few months to check messages and pick some polls.