Pain That Comes Thereafter!
© Jamie-Lisa Mclean
It feels like my whole world is falling apart
maybe I'm trying to hard
trying to push the feelings away
but it just wants to stay
all I want to do is die
drown in all the tears I cry
I sleep to take the pain away
even though I know it will never heal the emotions that I feel
smiles and laughter cover up the pain that comes thereafter
Cinta and kisses make new wishes
wishes that will never come true all because of you.
Source: My Cousin Raped Me, Rape Poems link
© Jamie-Lisa Mclean
It feels like my whole world is falling apart
maybe I'm trying to hard
trying to push the feelings away
but it just wants to stay
all I want to do is die
drown in all the tears I cry
I sleep to take the pain away
even though I know it will never heal the emotions that I feel
smiles and laughter cover up the pain that comes thereafter
Cinta and kisses make new wishes
wishes that will never come true all because of you.
Source: My Cousin Raped Me, Rape Poems link
On my way to school.I heared my bf Adam saying he was going to breakup with me.I ran utama crying.I felt like screaming.My hati, tengah-tengah was broken.I cryed my hati, tengah-tengah out.I felt like killin meself.I felt like there was no other boy like Adam in the world.I thought Adam was the only guy for me.The seterusnya hari of school i talked to Adam .He berkata sorry Addie we are not bf and gf anymore.I ran back utama to talk to my mom.She berkata are anda nice to him.I berkata yes i am nice to him.She berkata anda may need another boyfriend.Addie berkata maybe i need a new boyfriend he is getting old.Addie showed up with her new friend Chad .When Adam seen Chad he was mad at Addie.Addie berkata she was so sorry.He berkata it was ok but they were not Friends anymore.Addie's hati, tengah-tengah was still broken.But she was still mad at him she was going to kill him.
As the light shines
As the blood drips
And how the bird's fly
How it hurts when anda bleed
How it's sad when anda die
When she scream's anda sob
And how the baby cries
The pain is bad
Terrible for you
anda cut yourself
She stabbed the truth
She pray's for truth
anda try it yourself
anda pray for lies
It wouldn't be felt with delt
The moon is white
The sun is unknown
Your blood is red
Soon to be found
The longer it gets
The badder it is
The blacker the red
It will get the rest
anda get on your knees
It doesn't make sense
She should be the one
The defenision of death
To Cinta is difficult
To hate it possible
To anda it's everything
To her it's probable
As her tear's fall
As the light shines
As the blood drips
How she would cry
Now the never the better
Now the Cinta it ends
As she never would do it
And anda would have never of listened
They laugh and they joke when they push anda around,
They think It's funny when anda fall to the ground,
They're stupid... And strong,
But they run this prison called school,
The smart and the weak are just put in a box,
Only taken to suffer the mocking and beating of those around you,
To survive anda must take it... Let no one see the pain,
This makes nothing better!
To hold your emotions?!
To push them down deep?
This is not a solution!
This is a bomb,
Soon to be set... For when anda have nowhere to push something down anda burst out in sorrow and let them all out,
anda drown those around you,
anda tunjuk them this pain... But they laugh and they joke and it only gets worse,
And all of these problems... All start in the very... First... Line...
They think It's funny when anda fall to the ground,
They're stupid... And strong,
But they run this prison called school,
The smart and the weak are just put in a box,
Only taken to suffer the mocking and beating of those around you,
To survive anda must take it... Let no one see the pain,
This makes nothing better!
To hold your emotions?!
To push them down deep?
This is not a solution!
This is a bomb,
Soon to be set... For when anda have nowhere to push something down anda burst out in sorrow and let them all out,
anda drown those around you,
anda tunjuk them this pain... But they laugh and they joke and it only gets worse,
And all of these problems... All start in the very... First... Line...
When darkness enshrouds and there is nowhere to run... The Devil's laugh taunts me,
As it rings in my ear... It gets louder... Until it sounds like a roar,
I can hear no one speaking... My Friends are not there... All I can see are the Demons that have tormented me,
I want to fight back... I want to break free,
But those Demons surround me... They know I am maimed... They know i am wounded... They laugh at my pain... They know that I suffer... That I hurt way down deep,
They think It's amusing,
They think It's a joke,
When they toy with your emotions... They could never know,
How badly it hurts me... How much I have been through,
They just see the outside... They never look in... To see my ambitions... My dreams... <3
As it rings in my ear... It gets louder... Until it sounds like a roar,
I can hear no one speaking... My Friends are not there... All I can see are the Demons that have tormented me,
I want to fight back... I want to break free,
But those Demons surround me... They know I am maimed... They know i am wounded... They laugh at my pain... They know that I suffer... That I hurt way down deep,
They think It's amusing,
They think It's a joke,
When they toy with your emotions... They could never know,
How badly it hurts me... How much I have been through,
They just see the outside... They never look in... To see my ambitions... My dreams... <3