Chapter 2
The seterusnya morning I woke up feeling tired and worst than usually. Swollen feet, aching back, I was up all night long treating people who thought they had the flu. I knew I had to get up and go to work, I lived alone for now and somebody has to pay the rent. And right now, it's me. Just as I was about to get up the phone rang. "Hello?", "ohh thank goodness I caught anda before anda left. Listen jasmine, I know anda really need this job to keep your rent up but you've been working yourself crazy down here at this clinic. You’re pregnant and I think anda should really take the hari off, stay utama and get some rest I’m working on finding anda a replacement for the hari right know"."Ms. Jones anda really don’t have to do that I’m sure I’ll be fine. I- "Jasmine, your baby is coming very soon. You’re due n 3 weeks. Now I may sound like your grandmother for a saat but your little tail needs to sit down and relax for a while. Your grandmother and I are both members of the juvenile church, we could easily help anda pay your rent until anda have this baby and you’re capable of coming back to work". Ms. Jones was right. I’ve been working so hard these past couple of months and I did need a break. "Yes ma'am" as I hung up the phone. well, since I’m going to be out of work I think I should go to the mall and look for some cloths and little baby shoes and toys for Jeremiah. Rubbing my belly, I thought about what my life would be like when I have Jeremiah. Who is going to watch him while I’m at work and school? That means um not going to be able to see him during the day. Off to the mall I go.
Walking to the bus stop something hit me; I was going to be a parent soon. Suddenly I started to feel kinds scared. I was going to the mall to find cloths for MY BABY. A BABY that was going to be my responsibility. A BABY that I needed to take care after and watch after until he gets old enough to watch himself. While I was hari dreaming I hadn’t realized that the bus had come. It was my mom’s old friend Ronnie. He was always so nice to me. "Hey jasmine, look at anda looking all pretty baby girl. anda going to work today?".”Nahh, my baby due soon so they gave me a couple of days off. I figured I would due a little shopping for myself before the baby pancuran, pancuran mandian tomorrow, so I’m headed to the mall." Of course he was going to let me on the bus free because I was pregnant. But also a friend of the family's. He started telling me all about his family and how they talk about me whenever they have a family get together. At that moment, I felt so special, lebih people care for me then I thought. I thought no-one cared about at all. But I guess I was wrong.
After leaving Ronnie, I felt like a new person. The first store I went into was baby gap. The cloths there were so tiny, and cute. There was this little hat and gloves set for 2 dollars. It was blue, white and yellow my kegemaran colors, of course had to buy it. I found him a baju some pants and a little jaket to go with it. I couldn’t wait to see him in his little outfit that his mommy brought for him went to foot locker and found him 3 pairs of Jordan’s and two pairs of air forces. “Mommy got to make sure her baby look good”. A few hours later, I was beat. I did so much shopping for my baby people were offering to hold my bags while I waited for the bus. A good friend of mine from the saat grade gave me a ride home. anda know it’s really funny when anda see people that anda haven’t seen in years in the weirdest places. Its been so long since I seen her, she didn’t even know I was pregnant. We got to my house and she carried all my bags up the stairs. She really got strong over the years. I remember in saat grade she was so skinny and weak, everyone used to make fun of her. I was her best friend so anda know I backed her up. She had to go to work so I told her to hayun, swing sejak the baby pancuran, pancuran mandian tomorrow when she gets a chance. I started to put the baby cloths away when someone knocked on my door. I thought it was Kennedy forgetting her car keys but it wasn’t. When I opened the door it was……MIKE!!
The seterusnya morning I woke up feeling tired and worst than usually. Swollen feet, aching back, I was up all night long treating people who thought they had the flu. I knew I had to get up and go to work, I lived alone for now and somebody has to pay the rent. And right now, it's me. Just as I was about to get up the phone rang. "Hello?", "ohh thank goodness I caught anda before anda left. Listen jasmine, I know anda really need this job to keep your rent up but you've been working yourself crazy down here at this clinic. You’re pregnant and I think anda should really take the hari off, stay utama and get some rest I’m working on finding anda a replacement for the hari right know"."Ms. Jones anda really don’t have to do that I’m sure I’ll be fine. I- "Jasmine, your baby is coming very soon. You’re due n 3 weeks. Now I may sound like your grandmother for a saat but your little tail needs to sit down and relax for a while. Your grandmother and I are both members of the juvenile church, we could easily help anda pay your rent until anda have this baby and you’re capable of coming back to work". Ms. Jones was right. I’ve been working so hard these past couple of months and I did need a break. "Yes ma'am" as I hung up the phone. well, since I’m going to be out of work I think I should go to the mall and look for some cloths and little baby shoes and toys for Jeremiah. Rubbing my belly, I thought about what my life would be like when I have Jeremiah. Who is going to watch him while I’m at work and school? That means um not going to be able to see him during the day. Off to the mall I go.
Walking to the bus stop something hit me; I was going to be a parent soon. Suddenly I started to feel kinds scared. I was going to the mall to find cloths for MY BABY. A BABY that was going to be my responsibility. A BABY that I needed to take care after and watch after until he gets old enough to watch himself. While I was hari dreaming I hadn’t realized that the bus had come. It was my mom’s old friend Ronnie. He was always so nice to me. "Hey jasmine, look at anda looking all pretty baby girl. anda going to work today?".”Nahh, my baby due soon so they gave me a couple of days off. I figured I would due a little shopping for myself before the baby pancuran, pancuran mandian tomorrow, so I’m headed to the mall." Of course he was going to let me on the bus free because I was pregnant. But also a friend of the family's. He started telling me all about his family and how they talk about me whenever they have a family get together. At that moment, I felt so special, lebih people care for me then I thought. I thought no-one cared about at all. But I guess I was wrong.
After leaving Ronnie, I felt like a new person. The first store I went into was baby gap. The cloths there were so tiny, and cute. There was this little hat and gloves set for 2 dollars. It was blue, white and yellow my kegemaran colors, of course had to buy it. I found him a baju some pants and a little jaket to go with it. I couldn’t wait to see him in his little outfit that his mommy brought for him went to foot locker and found him 3 pairs of Jordan’s and two pairs of air forces. “Mommy got to make sure her baby look good”. A few hours later, I was beat. I did so much shopping for my baby people were offering to hold my bags while I waited for the bus. A good friend of mine from the saat grade gave me a ride home. anda know it’s really funny when anda see people that anda haven’t seen in years in the weirdest places. Its been so long since I seen her, she didn’t even know I was pregnant. We got to my house and she carried all my bags up the stairs. She really got strong over the years. I remember in saat grade she was so skinny and weak, everyone used to make fun of her. I was her best friend so anda know I backed her up. She had to go to work so I told her to hayun, swing sejak the baby pancuran, pancuran mandian tomorrow when she gets a chance. I started to put the baby cloths away when someone knocked on my door. I thought it was Kennedy forgetting her car keys but it wasn’t. When I opened the door it was……MIKE!!
Shaun
I wonder, sometimes, if she ever thinks of me.
If she knows that I kept only one picture of her. Anything else was just too painful. In the picture, she doesn't know I am taking it until the camera flash goes off. She has been sitting at the meja in her old bedroom, and she is half-smiling.
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I walk up to her, not breaking eye contact. Nothing existed but her.
The little girl was perched on her hip.
I trailed my fingers down her jawline. She still didn't move.
"Why did anda leave?"
I wonder, sometimes, if she ever thinks of me.
If she knows that I kept only one picture of her. Anything else was just too painful. In the picture, she doesn't know I am taking it until the camera flash goes off. She has been sitting at the meja in her old bedroom, and she is half-smiling.
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I walk up to her, not breaking eye contact. Nothing existed but her.
The little girl was perched on her hip.
I trailed my fingers down her jawline. She still didn't move.
"Why did anda leave?"
Time is just a thing.
anda can't ever have to little.
anda can always have enough.
But when anda look at it,
our lives are just a piece.
A piece of what time has to give.
So why not live the fullest,
to what we can.
Why waste it wishing,
on something you'll never have.
Let time do its own thing,
so we can do ours.
anda see time is mysterious.
It controls our lives.
And in one quick second,
our time may be up.
So take what you're given,
and give nothing back.
With time nothing is ever what it seems.
anda can't ever have to little.
anda can always have enough.
But when anda look at it,
our lives are just a piece.
A piece of what time has to give.
So why not live the fullest,
to what we can.
Why waste it wishing,
on something you'll never have.
Let time do its own thing,
so we can do ours.
anda see time is mysterious.
It controls our lives.
And in one quick second,
our time may be up.
So take what you're given,
and give nothing back.
With time nothing is ever what it seems.
Photograph by Ansel Adams
I'm just drifting, drifting down this road.
The dust kicking up behind me,
Just a awan to hide my past.
My feet don't leave any footprints,
My name never graces those lips
That I'm watching from a distance,
A distance that grows greater
As I'm drifting, drifting down this road.
I'm not on the way to anything great,
I'm just hiding, hiding down in the dark.
The shadows closing in around me,
Just a blanket to smother my past.
My eyes can't see in the gloom,
My voice never breaks the silence
That I keep deep in my heart,
A hati, tengah-tengah that grows blacker
As I'm drifting, drifting in the dark.
