It always starts with darkness. Just like the rumors that Vampires were made to sign Satan's book with blood as the registration, it was thought that a vampire's soul was consumed sejak darkness. For the first couple months, that's what it really feels like; darkness, always there like the anjing, anak anjing anda always wished for to follow anda around. Sadly, I never had a puppy, so this was all awkwardly new to me.
"That's how it's going to be for a while." Adrian told me one hari while I woke up from a deep sleep, facing the sunlight. I had forgotten that we were now affected sejak that sunlight lebih than humans. I crawled under the covers and sighed before another wave of sleep passed over me. I felt Adrian make a light tap on my back, and I knew that was a sort of sympathy for me. I appreaciated it.
Along with that there was times where my body temperature grew amazingly hot, bringing me up to temperatures near 120 degrees Fahrenheit.
"That's to regualte your temperature until anda get the craving for blood." Adrian explained, making a wise face while stroking the invisible beard. I would have normally told him that he was losing his charm that way, but since I was having a hard time moving my lips since my mouth was burning as if someone stuck a match there, I just rolled my eyes.
Then there was the shivers, when my body would grow cold. My insides would feel numb, and no matter whether I had ten blankets on atau a heater seterusnya to me, I'd still be freezing my vampire keldai off.
"There is a positive reaction to the negative." Adrian stated, sitting as far away from me as possible as if frost was radiating off of me and repelling him away from my convulsing body. "Think of the raging temperatures above 100 as being the positive, and what you're going through now as the negative. There will be a balance somewhere."
"Yeah? Like when?" I chattered back icily, and instead of answering he just left me, which i accepted grateully.
If that wasn't enough, I had to get regular training with Marcus and have historic lessons with Dimitri. The only times they excused me was when I had my sleeping spells, which went from hours to days. I feared that my condition was going to get worse.
"It's got to get worse before---"
"Stop being so damn intellectual!" I shouted at Adrian, and he gave me a pouty look before leaving me alone for a number of days.
Most of these symptoms I had started to accept in stride, but after a while all I heard was "this will all fade once anda get your dose of blood." Yet no one was telling me when I was going to get my dose yet, atau when the thought of blood was going to appeal to me. Thinking about it now, it was just as neutral as any other unimportant word out there---no signifigance except when I got bloody bruised when Marcus gave a pantas, swift side-kick to the face yesterday.
"Oh, Zelos, is that all you've got?" He questioned tauntingly, curling his finger at me. He was crouched predatorily, flashing white teeth that glistened with the familiar clear liquid.
I stumbled to my feet, rubbing my cheek in anger. He knew I just became a vampire, so why in the world was he treating me like some 400-year old Coven leader? "Maybe if anda eased up on me I could make a hit sometime."
"That won't make anda stronger, that will just make anda think that every enemy anda go against will let anda get the hits first." Marcus stated before racing in a blur around my body before twisting a long arm around my waist and hurtling me to the nearest pokok in the forest. The impact sent a flock of birds to flee. I looked over at him gloomily, then staggered to my feet again, panting.
"Good, Zelos, anda have gotten increased stamina. That will be beneficial later." He ran over and helped me back to the cabin, inspecting the print left on my ribs. "Sorry about that, brother. But pain is the reward to gain, and gaining is a step closer to greatness."
It was the first time I heard him call me brother. I smiled. "It's okay, Marcus. Thank you."
After that, I cherished the pain I recieved and thought of me greater. It didn't take long before I had Marcus pinned to a tree, his neck inches away from a spear made of wood. The pain vibrated underneath my fingertips, but Marcus looked ten times frigthened sejak it than I was, his eyes glued to the angkasa between the pokok protion and his neck. He made a shaky smile and peeled me off like tape, pushing me back cautiously. Even though he was shook, he was pleased. "Well done, Zelos. It takes a lot to bring me down. I think the others can tell anda that." He nodded behind me, and I turned to see Dimitri and Adrian come from behind the looming trees, broad grins on their faces.
"Well done, little bro!" Adrian slapped me hard on the back, making me cough, but I smiled eagerly at him. Dimitri clapped his hand on my shoulder and nodded, and I was shocked at the emotion that he gave. Respectfully, I nodded back.
Marcus drew my attention back to him. "Zelos, I think it's time that tomorrow, we will---"
"Am I going to drink?" I asked a little to happily.
Adrian laughed, but Marcus shook his head sadly. "No, we are going to take anda to the outskirts of town. I want to see how close anda can get to the humans without getting reacted. Only your true instincts can tell us whether anda are ready enough to feed, and that will be the hardest for all of us, especially you." He led us back to the cabin.
I shivered this time, and I knew it wasn't because of my cold temperature.
"That's how it's going to be for a while." Adrian told me one hari while I woke up from a deep sleep, facing the sunlight. I had forgotten that we were now affected sejak that sunlight lebih than humans. I crawled under the covers and sighed before another wave of sleep passed over me. I felt Adrian make a light tap on my back, and I knew that was a sort of sympathy for me. I appreaciated it.
Along with that there was times where my body temperature grew amazingly hot, bringing me up to temperatures near 120 degrees Fahrenheit.
"That's to regualte your temperature until anda get the craving for blood." Adrian explained, making a wise face while stroking the invisible beard. I would have normally told him that he was losing his charm that way, but since I was having a hard time moving my lips since my mouth was burning as if someone stuck a match there, I just rolled my eyes.
Then there was the shivers, when my body would grow cold. My insides would feel numb, and no matter whether I had ten blankets on atau a heater seterusnya to me, I'd still be freezing my vampire keldai off.
"There is a positive reaction to the negative." Adrian stated, sitting as far away from me as possible as if frost was radiating off of me and repelling him away from my convulsing body. "Think of the raging temperatures above 100 as being the positive, and what you're going through now as the negative. There will be a balance somewhere."
"Yeah? Like when?" I chattered back icily, and instead of answering he just left me, which i accepted grateully.
If that wasn't enough, I had to get regular training with Marcus and have historic lessons with Dimitri. The only times they excused me was when I had my sleeping spells, which went from hours to days. I feared that my condition was going to get worse.
"It's got to get worse before---"
"Stop being so damn intellectual!" I shouted at Adrian, and he gave me a pouty look before leaving me alone for a number of days.
Most of these symptoms I had started to accept in stride, but after a while all I heard was "this will all fade once anda get your dose of blood." Yet no one was telling me when I was going to get my dose yet, atau when the thought of blood was going to appeal to me. Thinking about it now, it was just as neutral as any other unimportant word out there---no signifigance except when I got bloody bruised when Marcus gave a pantas, swift side-kick to the face yesterday.
"Oh, Zelos, is that all you've got?" He questioned tauntingly, curling his finger at me. He was crouched predatorily, flashing white teeth that glistened with the familiar clear liquid.
I stumbled to my feet, rubbing my cheek in anger. He knew I just became a vampire, so why in the world was he treating me like some 400-year old Coven leader? "Maybe if anda eased up on me I could make a hit sometime."
"That won't make anda stronger, that will just make anda think that every enemy anda go against will let anda get the hits first." Marcus stated before racing in a blur around my body before twisting a long arm around my waist and hurtling me to the nearest pokok in the forest. The impact sent a flock of birds to flee. I looked over at him gloomily, then staggered to my feet again, panting.
"Good, Zelos, anda have gotten increased stamina. That will be beneficial later." He ran over and helped me back to the cabin, inspecting the print left on my ribs. "Sorry about that, brother. But pain is the reward to gain, and gaining is a step closer to greatness."
It was the first time I heard him call me brother. I smiled. "It's okay, Marcus. Thank you."
After that, I cherished the pain I recieved and thought of me greater. It didn't take long before I had Marcus pinned to a tree, his neck inches away from a spear made of wood. The pain vibrated underneath my fingertips, but Marcus looked ten times frigthened sejak it than I was, his eyes glued to the angkasa between the pokok protion and his neck. He made a shaky smile and peeled me off like tape, pushing me back cautiously. Even though he was shook, he was pleased. "Well done, Zelos. It takes a lot to bring me down. I think the others can tell anda that." He nodded behind me, and I turned to see Dimitri and Adrian come from behind the looming trees, broad grins on their faces.
"Well done, little bro!" Adrian slapped me hard on the back, making me cough, but I smiled eagerly at him. Dimitri clapped his hand on my shoulder and nodded, and I was shocked at the emotion that he gave. Respectfully, I nodded back.
Marcus drew my attention back to him. "Zelos, I think it's time that tomorrow, we will---"
"Am I going to drink?" I asked a little to happily.
Adrian laughed, but Marcus shook his head sadly. "No, we are going to take anda to the outskirts of town. I want to see how close anda can get to the humans without getting reacted. Only your true instincts can tell us whether anda are ready enough to feed, and that will be the hardest for all of us, especially you." He led us back to the cabin.
I shivered this time, and I knew it wasn't because of my cold temperature.
I deny the truth,
But really,
That is nothing.
I do that just to protect myself.
I cannot let the truth overcome me
All at once,
I must let it come at me
Pieces sejak pieces.
The truth is always shocking,
At many times sad.
But I must accept the truth
Even after a while.
Because denying the truth
Is like lying to myself
Denying the truth hurts my soul
But it also protects my soul at the same time.
I don't know what to believe.
It's all too shocking for me.
I deny the truth.
I protect my soul.
I protect myself.
But I also hurt myself.
But really,
That is nothing.
I do that just to protect myself.
I cannot let the truth overcome me
All at once,
I must let it come at me
Pieces sejak pieces.
The truth is always shocking,
At many times sad.
But I must accept the truth
Even after a while.
Because denying the truth
Is like lying to myself
Denying the truth hurts my soul
But it also protects my soul at the same time.
I don't know what to believe.
It's all too shocking for me.
I deny the truth.
I protect my soul.
I protect myself.
But I also hurt myself.
I know what happened,
I know that your parents are divorced,
because I was the first
anda told.
I want to help you,
but I don't know
what all that
pressure
and sorrow feels like.
Like you're drowning
in a pool of tears
and your friends
are just watching and
laughing,
like it's a joke.
But it's not a joke,
it's your life.
They aren't even
your friends,
they are just people
who say they earned
that title.
I don't understand.
My parents aren't
divorced,
they don't fight
every time when
they see each
others face.
I can't help.
But you're
my friend.
My best
friend.
And I will
try to help.
I will stand sejak
your side even when
we are miles away.
Because even though
it might not feel like it,
anda are never
alone.
I know that your parents are divorced,
because I was the first
anda told.
I want to help you,
but I don't know
what all that
pressure
and sorrow feels like.
Like you're drowning
in a pool of tears
and your friends
are just watching and
laughing,
like it's a joke.
But it's not a joke,
it's your life.
They aren't even
your friends,
they are just people
who say they earned
that title.
I don't understand.
My parents aren't
divorced,
they don't fight
every time when
they see each
others face.
I can't help.
But you're
my friend.
My best
friend.
And I will
try to help.
I will stand sejak
your side even when
we are miles away.
Because even though
it might not feel like it,
anda are never
alone.
"Now who's gonna take care of Mike!" Jane screamed at the bahagian, atas of her voice. "Now how am I suppose to marry Dave! Now how am I suppose to become an archaeologist!" "Mike, marriage, archaeology?!" I said, confused. "Oh, I can't explain now! I just wish I listened to David." She sighed. "Don't beat yourself up. David has the gift, anda can still talk to him." She forced a smile. "Gift?" Dave whispered as he entered the room. "More like a curse." "David, i'm so sorry I didn't listen! But I just never thought-" "Save it." He butted in. "Everyone I've ever loved ends up dead. I should have seen it coming." "But anda did! anda tried to save my life and I was to stupid and selfish to care." "Janet." He sighed. "I don't think I can talk to anda anymore. Never again." She stared at him, her face appalled. "What are anda saying?!" "I'm saying seeing you, like this, it just, it just breaks my heart."